the snek is potentially also not okay

"Parade"

Swaying back and forth, the sky sinks
Where have the pure white clouds gone?
Floating along, overcoming my past
I wonder how far I can go

With sparkling eyes, I was staring
At my dream world, that I could reach if I stretched
Where the flexibility to not be hurt by lies
Was sought of me

Not being strong enough to say "no"
Means losing something important
I may have obtained wonders,
But the self I imagined
Is nowhere to be found

Ah, if I'd been able to smile well
I wouldn't be like this now
I wonder if I'm just humming
Lip service that doesn't fit my stature
Ah....

This prickly, thorny path
Started opening my wounds at some point
Around and around, a howling echoes
I can't erase it even if I sing

I don't want to be weak or gloomy
Every time I hit a wall
Even though I forget the things I want to remember,
The things I want to forget remain

Unerasable

Ah, I may not be enough
To say pretty words and things like that
But in order to overcome the loneliness
Of tonight,
I can't let them go
Ah....

A merry-go-round of answer-seeking
I wonder if only people who don't seem to look can move forward
Accompanied by these unbalanced words, the parade goes on

Ah, if I'd been able to smile well
I wouldn't be like this now
I just keep repeating
Lip service that doesn't fit my stature

Ah, if it was for someone else's sake
I wonder if I'd be able to move past this
Right now, I can only save myself
While humming a pretty tune
Ah.....