To the Staff and Some Insiders:

Not pulling weeds today. Got a different oddjob today and will be leaving by noon PST (off the computer and into the shower after sending this though.)

I have a request. Whenever possible, I'd like you all to consider allowing me a Minus World Emojiguru account that is limited to only posting in the Meta Board (for continuing my Emojiguru promise) and the Arts & Crafts board (for posting OC.) Intentional or not, I have inadvertently caused a lot of drama on Minus World, but because I enjoy contributing OC and interacting with users when collaborating projects, I would like to continue being a Member. Additionally, I would like my Discord account to be instated with an Emojiguru role with no specific Discord powers but limited to where only the rules and development channels are visible to me. I understand if the Minus World staff is unwilling to go through the trouble of setting such severe limitations on the Emojiguru group.

It's my sincere opinion (and I'd like to retract all previous opinions that contradict this) that nobody on Minus World (at least not provably without me digging through oftc://#mfggirc logs, Discord logs, and Minus World Forum posts; and even then I'm 99% sure it was me who was being irrational) has ever had any intentional malicious. Whether anyone believes me or not, besides brief flashes of inexcusable, irrational, stupid, fear-induced anger, it has never been my intention to be hurtful or upsetting to anyone in the community. I am 100% sure that things unfolded the way they did due to my fear, anger, irrationality, stupidity, and various misunderstandings. Whether the misunderstandings were entirely my fault or if other users were important factors to the recent string of understandings is not relevant.

Proof that this has NOTHING to do with my medical condition:
I understand this situation has arsed due to my own idiocy and lack of self control, however, my health problems have been 100% stable since February of 2016, and no length of ban is going to cause me to think about what I've allegedly done or get me to change what some may see as bad behavior on my part, as I see nothing wrong with my personality other than my stupid tendency to act rude toward people and make up malicious lies when I'm angry. On Tuesday I was assured this is not a health problem and after describing some of this (I'll omit what the therapist said) the med doctor concluded that this is not schizophrenia or Huntington's disease, my medication is working since I've been stable for 14 months with zero hospitalizations (besides a brief trip to the emergency room earlier this year after a roommate pissed me off and I accidentally allowed myself to go into a panic attack.) Please do not mistake my tendency to insult myself as low self esteem or pity baiting; self depreciating humor is one way I cope with life.

In short, I'm a spineless person and the idea of facing this self-induced humiliation for any longer is unbearable, from the standpoint of a human, not a mentally ill man. I do not want pity, but I'd like for you to think of how you would feel if you were in my shoes. I wish I could undo the past.

BTW,, if there is any doubt that my sister (Zankrauf/Quickie-la/Alisha) is a different person from me (Puddin/ML2K4/Mason) some evidence I have is:

Mason:
https://www.facebook.com/SedonaVentura
http://wiki.userpedia.net/Puddin
https://wiki.mfgg.net/index.php?title=Puddin
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCE1awfn...rR5BvfsL6g

Alisha:
https://www.facebook.com/zankrauf
http://wiki.userpedia.net/Quickie-la
https://wiki.mfgg.net/index.php?title=Quickie-la
https://www.youtube.com/zandroidproductions

I have a feeling I'm going to regret doxing us but I see no other way to attempt to prove I'm being honest. Just please keep this private and ESPECIALLY out of the hands of Drei and Teddy. I'm also willing to ask Alisha to take a picture from her house where she lives (3 hours away) and I'll do the same, if needed. I feel very humiliated. I do not feel I've been treated unfairly but I'd like to limit access to certain forum features so I can focus on generating OC and avoid drama. It's hard for me to ignore nasty remarks forever, even if I ~deserve~ it, which is admittedly debatable in my book. I don't think any of the staff are bias (and I retract any previous claims of this) but I do think sometimes the staff tend to forget that two wrongs don't make a right. I'll avoid going into a tangent defending myself but think about this: I don't get banned on MFGG, VGF, or Mario Wiki Boards. I know how to behave myself when people aren't haranguing me, and I don't have faith in Minus World's report button. This however may be due to my own stupidity.

Again, I'd like to ask for you all to take some time to consider axing my old Minus World account and reinstating a new Emojiguri account that can only access the Meta Forum, the Arts & Crafts board, and Smiley and Reaction sections of the Admin CP. I'd also like to repeat my request from earlier in this message to create a new Discord role for me that can only access the development channel & the rules channel.

Despite the fact that I'm too stupid to get along with a couple members of Minus World, there are MORE members that I DO get along with and I'd like to contribute OC and participate in competitions while avoiding drama in other forums. Before immediately saying "no," please consider this. Notice how Hello posts? I can post like that too, though I think I have a bit more self-awareness and personality. I just want arrange emojis, share OC and comment on OC that other users post.

I beg for you to at least consider allowing me a new account with access cut off from the other boards, or at least revoking that access from my current account. Even though all this humiliation is self induced, it's so unbearable that I'm finding myself disgruntled that complain to Linode would not work. Good choice picking hosting in Sweden. Besides, threats won't solve anything; I'm asking for mercy. And if you need any character references I'd like to point you in the direction of Dragonfreak and even Uniju. Uniju might be more critical of me but I've never seen him lie.

All I want to do is leave my past behind me without having to interact with the community portion or be excluded from participating in forum events. I really hope that isn't too much to ask. A few months of drama (which apparently was caused be me) shoudln't logically negate years of good times. I'm desperate. Please think on this. I disagree with Kabuto that I should leave MW just because I don't get along with a couple people; I enjoy enganging in community activities far too much.

This message has been copied to all users in the Tech Admin, Site Staff, and Cabal roles. I also included rtsmarty due to coding stuff that may be required if the staff have the mercy to do this for me, I included Dragonfreak and Uniju for reasons stated earlier, I added Gato and RYB because they know who I am as a person, Fun With Despair because though he may be harsh I'm hoping he'll be fair, and Miles and VinnyVideo because I think they'd be able to look at this more objectively than certain staff. Speaking of staff, I understand Yoshin has been feeling ill for a while but she's a staff member and I know her and have gotten along with her for a very long time. She knows me better than I know myself and I'd like her input if she isn't too ill today. Part of me wanted to include Zelma, Pedigree, Glam, Drei, Roo, and BlasterMaster, and Kabuto, but I don't trust them. I tried to mix up who I included but feel free to add them or send them this if you feel the need to consult them. I may be incorrect but I'm fully (possibly irrationally) convinced they want me banned from MW. It's hard for me to trust people who don't seem to ever say anything nice to me. I also don't trust Drei with me and Quickie-la's dox, whether he was joking or not when he made the Teddy comment a while back.

After copying this to as many from this list as I can to the Discord, I'm off to the shower. Gotta make more money today or I'm screwed.