<Anthy> also,
<Anthy> I have a blunt-but-loving honesty tidbit I could share
<Anthy> but im not sure if you're in the mood for it rn
<AtmaWeapon> Just better to get it done
<Anthy> true
<Anthy> anyway
<Anthy> I was hesitating to say this bc you've kinda acknowledged it yourself, but at least a small part of Opinions not endearing you is
<Anthy> well
<Anthy> you aren't always the best at sharing them in a not-having-blatant-chip-on-shoulder way
<AtmaWeapon> I don't know how anyone can live nowadays or how I've been without being up front because being a exceptionally passive seems to lead to way more problems than just saying it
<Anthy> true
<Anthy> but that's not what im talking about
<AtmaWeapon> I also legitimately don't understand subtlety a lot
<Anthy> yes
<AtmaWeapon> Like I can't detect it in others
<Anthy> I was already thinking there's reasons for it, esp given Circumstances
<AtmaWeapon> You also realize I'm bipolar, not an excuse but I can only function in two modes really
<Anthy> yes
<AtmaWeapon> It's frustrating to deal with
<Anthy> if I may add my own interpretation, as someone who did and does look from the outside in
<AtmaWeapon> Also unlearning it will be a process
<Anthy> yes
<AtmaWeapon> Might be until I'm 40 or so and I'm really mad
<Anthy> it always kinda seems like you already expect to have everyone gunning for you anyway so you go all out and get (needlessly) abrasive because you've already resigned yourself to the idea everyone's going to be against you
<Anthy> ...which just turns into a self-fufilling prophecy bc that sort of thing just ends up grating against people even when they were just gonna leave you alone
<Anthy> am I off base?
<AtmaWeapon> When has it not been on some level
<AtmaWeapon> Nope
<AtmaWeapon> You're pretty far off
<Anthy> how so
<AtmaWeapon> This is a pretty gross interpretation of how abuse warped that into just trying to survive, I'm not trying to premake drama or enemies or abuse
<AtmaWeapon> Why would I
<AtmaWeapon> Why
<Anthy> thats not what I meant
<AtmaWeapon> Why would I want more
<AtmaWeapon> And I'm too fucking stupid to think that far ahead in any conversation
<AtmaWeapon> You realize I admit I said that in the same sentence as pf&e upsrt me and made me feel like I can't fivkin just stay snywhe and get help or be safe
<Anthy> yes