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(2:20:36 PM) thebillith: eyy
(2:20:50 PM) Tanhony: hullo
(2:21:44 PM) thebillith: can i take minute to rant about nj cops? Because I have had a hell of a day
(2:21:59 PM) WindyCat: lay down the salt my man
(2:22:06 PM) thebillith: alright
(2:22:08 PM) thebillith: so
(2:22:23 PM) thebillith: i have history of epileptic /dissociative episodes
(2:22:30 PM) thebillith: temporal lobe epilepsy
(2:22:30 PM) Salems left the room (quit: Quit: ).
(2:22:56 PM) thebillith: i'll black out but be ambulatory
(2:23:27 PM) BusyVolt is now known as NineVolt
(2:23:34 PM) thebillith: and am on campus
(2:23:56 PM) thebillith: and i'm having a bad day already
(2:24:29 PM) thebillith: i'm stressing out, bought myself taco bell because it was a taco bell kind of pity
(2:24:47 PM) thebillith: wondered to the student lounge to eat tacos
(2:25:02 PM) thebillith: i got a pack of 3
(2:25:10 PM) thebillith: i ate one
(2:25:17 PM) thebillith: and its all going good
(2:25:35 PM) thebillith: i kind of fall asleep
(2:25:48 PM) thebillith: i wake up
(2:26:07 PM) thebillith: i have no idea who i am
(2:26:14 PM) thebillith: where i am
(2:26:49 PM) thebillith: its actually starting to be kind of okay because
(2:27:00 PM) thebillith: i wake up and realize i feel great
(2:27:31 PM) thebillith: i've somehow died and gone to an afterlife
(2:27:52 PM) thebillith: this afterlife has everything you wouldn't believe
(2:28:03 PM) thebillith: its swamky
(2:28:06 PM) thebillith: swanky
(2:28:21 PM) thebillith: it looks like my campus lounge
(2:28:41 PM) thebillith: but everyone is super happy cause we are all in the afterlife
(2:28:48 PM) WindyCat: omg
(2:28:50 PM) thebillith: so i get up
(2:29:02 PM) thebillith: leave my shit in the lounge
(2:29:17 PM) thebillith: walk outside and its a bright and shiny day
(2:29:26 PM) thebillith: everyone is so happy
(2:29:43 PM) thebillith: i can't wait to try flying cause people can fly
(2:29:53 PM) thebillith: this is part of The Good Place
(2:29:58 PM) thebillith: if you've seen it
(2:30:24 PM) thebillith: so its all really absurd but i'm happy
(2:30:37 PM) thebillith: because why not
(2:31:04 PM) thebillith: i wander outside to take on the new day
(2:31:07 PM) thebillith: its endless
(2:31:15 PM) thebillith: i can go anywhere'
(2:31:41 PM) thebillith: I walk about and kind of just like
(2:31:54 PM) thebillith: go to people and be like isn't it so nice?
(2:32:13 PM) thebillith: we're all dead but its a frickin good place
(2:32:20 PM) thebillith: anyway
(2:32:48 PM) thebillith: I kind of was wandering to the outskirts of the city
(2:32:55 PM) thebillith: hum de dum
(2:33:29 PM) thebillith: when i realize i can't walk properly, or like the world is too big
(2:33:34 PM) thebillith: and i am very small
(2:33:58 PM) thebillith: each step i take is like a mile long but im not going anywhere
(2:34:15 PM) WindyCat: holy hell
(2:34:17 PM) thebillith: so finally some people see me and think huh
(2:34:25 PM) thebillith: this guy is fucking weird
(2:34:57 PM) thebillith: i'm doing the men who walk funny thing from monty python
(2:35:18 PM) WindyCat: the ministery of silly walks
(2:35:24 PM) thebillith: thats it
(2:35:42 PM) thebillith: and some cops come up to me like wtf
(2:36:02 PM) thebillith: I realize I can't talk right anymore either
(2:36:07 PM) WindyCat: oh boy
(2:36:19 PM) thebillith: somehow concepts are objects are switched and
(2:36:31 PM) thebillith: time is really slow
(2:36:45 PM) thebillith: so they load me into an ambulance
(2:37:16 PM) thebillith: and truck me on over to a random clinic somewhere
(2:37:21 PM) thebillith: literally i have no clue
(2:37:27 PM) thebillith: sit me in a chair
(2:37:33 PM) WindyCat: with your stuff still at the campus?
(2:37:36 PM) thebillith: yep
(2:37:41 PM) WindyCat: yike
(2:37:57 PM) thebillith: "someone will be with you shortly"
(2:38:06 PM) thebillith: I'm disoriented still
(2:38:32 PM) thebillith: no one comes on and this place has white walls with Supernatural Reruns on the TV
(2:38:47 PM) thebillith: I'm like ok
(2:38:55 PM) thebillith: I'm not staying here
(2:39:06 PM) WindyCat: ohhhh boyyyy
(2:39:14 PM) thebillith: So I get up and leave
(2:39:19 PM) thebillith: and no one stops me
(2:39:30 PM) thebillith: I just nod and smile
(2:39:38 PM) thebillith: becuase i look fine but i'm fucking weird
(2:40:06 PM) thebillith: I get outside and it is not a nice day anymore
(2:40:11 PM) thebillith: it is cold and rainy
(2:40:19 PM) WindyCat: oh no
(2:40:34 PM) thebillith: I realize i have to different shoes on
(2:40:45 PM) thebillith: they are similar
(2:40:57 PM) thebillith: but i can tell
(2:41:13 PM) thebillith: I just start walking
(2:41:34 PM) thebillith: and i walk for an hour in some random corner of nowhere
(2:42:00 PM) thebillith: No one wants to help me look for directions
(2:42:16 PM) thebillith: I gather that I am in Jersey City
(2:42:22 PM) thebillith: but fuck all that it helps
(2:42:27 PM) thebillith: it has 11 zip codes
(2:42:54 PM) thebillith: FInally I find someone
(2:43:10 PM) thebillith: I ask if they know where transit is
(2:43:16 PM) MaliceAF left the room (quit: Quit: ).
(2:43:51 PM) thebillith: and they say something like "are you the guy the cops are looking for?"
(2:44:01 PM) WindyCat: oh my god
(2:44:04 PM) thebillith: but not sure
(2:44:21 PM) thebillith: Finally find my way to the light rail
(2:44:34 PM) thebillith: hop a car cause i have no money no id cell phone dead
(2:45:16 PM) thebillith: end up back on fucking campus cause i guess that's engrained
(2:45:24 PM) thebillith: my head is starting to cleae
(2:45:27 PM) thebillith: clear
(2:45:40 PM) thebillith: I remember bits and pieces of things
(2:45:50 PM) thebillith: starts to come together
(2:46:08 PM) thebillith: Wander to the student lounge
(2:46:15 PM) thebillith: my stuff is still there
(2:46:17 PM) thebillith: ok
(2:46:38 PM) WindyCat: thank god
(2:46:45 PM) thebillith: spilled one of my tacos but no one is around that i recognize
(2:46:50 PM) thebillith: i clean it up
(2:46:59 PM) thebillith: pack it all up
(2:47:23 PM) thebillith: get on the wrong train coming home because i'm still disoriented
(2:47:40 PM) thebillith: it all works out in the end
(2:47:53 PM) thebillith: i'm drinking soda
(2:47:58 PM) WindyCat: damn
(2:48:10 PM) thebillith: one for the ageas
(2:48:14 PM) thebillith: ages
(2:48:53 PM) WindyCat: honestly i was almost expecting guns to be pulled because i've heard way too many horror stories of american cops
(2:49:00 PM) WindyCat: but i'm glad it didn't come to that
(2:49:00 PM) thebillith: i have more neurology appts in the future
(2:49:04 PM) thebillith: yeah
(2:49:06 PM) thebillith: well
(2:49:10 PM) WindyCat: i'm glad you're okay too
(2:49:41 PM) thebillith: i'm upset that they just dumped me somewhere and the were kind of dickish to me
(2:49:51 PM) thebillith: the definitely thought i was on drugs
(2:49:57 PM) Varaxous: Yeah that's not alright
(2:50:02 PM) WindyCat: yeaah D:
(2:50:30 PM) thebillith: i vagueley remember them saying "we've got another one"
(2:50:36 PM) thebillith: i felt like cattle
(2:50:50 PM) thebillith: anyuway
(2:50:55 PM) Varaxous: Kind of shitty that the place you were dumped at didn't explain or anything
(2:51:09 PM) thebillith: all is fine and i'm writing a skip or something
(2:51:31 PM) thebillith: Yeah it was odd that they didn't stop me
(2:51:53 PM) thebillith: they have a lot of people to deal with, i get it
(2:52:47 PM) thebillith: but i was obviously having trouble and denied that i was on anything and that i have epileptic episodes
(2:52:58 PM) thebillith: they aren't just cut and dry
(2:53:19 PM) thebillith: really strange shit happens
(2:53:28 PM) thebillith: it fuels most of my writing tbh
(2:53:50 PM) thebillith: because its is an unfmailiar world i am plopped down into
(2:54:17 PM) thebillith: and everything is strange and i pick it up as i go until i reintegrate
(2:54:36 PM) thebillith: the epilepsy meds do not make things easier
(2:54:54 PM) thebillith: i can't tell if they are actually helping or not ;/
(2:55:09 PM) thebillith: its been a long few years
(2:55:21 PM) thebillith: but i'm getting through it
(2:56:02 PM) Varaxous: Best of luck friend
(2:56:21 PM) thebillith: thanks for letting me vent