I had fun playing the video game today.

Recently I've gotten really sick of grinding out PBs. I wasn't having fun because every time I made any mistake I'd get frustrated with myself and reset and grind all over again. I didn't even care about the time, I just wanted a run I was "happy with".

Today I decided fuck it, the time really doesn't matter anyway. So I completely hid the splits and just did runs. And it was fun. Dishonored is a pretty fun game to go fast in. I wasn't getting great times, but who cares honestly.

When you're bad at the game, the time doesn't matter since you'll PB by minutes each run. When you're good time still doesn't matter since you care more about how well you did and what mistakes you made. We trick ourselves thinking about elusive time goals but always come back with the "well, I wasn't happy with x, so..." And the cycle continues again.

So who cares about splits, just do runs. If you do well, you'll know it. If you don't, you can just have fun going fast. No point stressing over numbers while doing so. Splits are just interesting data you can look at after the fact, they shouldn't be the focus of the run.

I'm probably gunna hide my splits whenever I do Dishonored now. I liked having fun.



happy bday arc