Kurt Cobain's Suicide Letter

"I haven't felt excitment in listening to as well as creating music.... for
too many years now.  I fell guilty beyond wordsa for these things.   "The fact
is, I can't fool you, any of you.  It simply isn't fair to you or me.  The
worst crime I can think of would be to put people off by faking it and
pretending as if I was having 100-per-cent fun.    "Sometimes I feel as if I
should have a punch in time clock before I walk out on stage.  I've tried
everything within my power to appreciate it, and I do.  God, beleive me, I do.
But its not enough.  I appreciate the fact that I--we--have affected and
entertained a lot of people.    "I must be one of those narcissists who only
enjoy things when they're alone.  I'm too sensitive.  Oh, I need to be
slightly numb in order to  regain the enthusiasm I once had as a child.    On
our last three tours, I had a lot much better appreciation of all the people
I've known personally and of fans of our music.  But I still can't get out the
frustration, the guilt and the empathy I have for everybody.
    "There is good in all of us, and I simply love people too much.  So much
that it makes me feel too....sad.     "And I had it good, very good.  I'm
grateful.  But since the age of seven, I've become hateful toward all humans
in general...only because I love and feel for people too much, I guess.  I
thank all of
you from the pit of my burning, nauceous stomach for your letters and concern
during the last years.  I'm too much of an erratic moody person that I don't
have the passion anymore.  So remember, it's better to burn out than fade
away.
   "Peace, love and empathy."
                                           Kurt Cobain