23/03/18

hi, so yesterday i heard from my gf that you guys had this long convo about me and she told me what you said, so i'm writing this to clear a few things up

firstly, let's start from the top:

quote by you: "he would be pissed off over little irrelevant things, and like he has a short temper"
not gonna lie, that's true but that's just who i am and you accepted me as your friend in the first place (not saying that's a bad thing)

"he is very picky about his friends, like he doesnt like to make friends"
you know, before i met you, i used to play highlander tons of seasons ago. that's where all my highlander experience came from. needless to say, all my friends i had at that time have since left tf2. and i can actually give you names.

"suddenly we were very close, then suddenly he didnt want me to be in his life like that"
i actually honestly doubt you can even explain this statement because you and i both know this isn't true. i took a break from tf2 for about 2 semesters and i only play during hols. during the semester, (let's talk about you for a sec) - you improved greatly in tf2 and also met new people and became div 1 and shit. you also got your first plat badge, in which a long time ago you said you would quit tf2 after your first plat season (which you didn't, but that's nothing anyways).

"if i play with him, then i cannot play with my other friends"
same as above, you and i both know this isnt true

"i wanted to play comp and all, then he dont want to join, then me and him like had different goals"
later in the convo, you mentioned that you invited me to join banter only. during that time rmb i had the drama with btkay? well actually till this day idk if he actually still hates me or ever did at all, i never talked to him since that day. if i joined that team and he didnt like me wouldnt that make the team spirit down? also during that season (s19) i was in hem's team (edelweiss hl) that's why i didn't join your team.

"ya cos he dont like some ppl damn drama ah tbh" but who? lmao

"i mean sometimes i try to talk to him as a friend about this ah" really? you sure bo?

"everyone was close to him at one point, idk la why he want to block ppl" - i've never blocked people at all.

"he likes to see the things he dont have" - you don't know it but i do - if anything, i was pushed aside because i didn't commit to tf2 due to my studies. most of the friends i had that played tf2 have since left the game - except you guys who i thought were my friends. but during 2 semesters you guys met a whole lot of new people without me, so i was left alone with really no friends at all. that's the truth.

"everyone was close to him at 1 point" - but then again, school commitments.

after this comes the point when you try and talk about my rs with my gf - i'm not gonna talk about this here other than saying that she and I are happy together and i'd appreciate if you stayed out of our rs matter.

she asks: "you mentioned she didnt like some people - who were those people?"
you answer: "alot tbh"
tbh you couldn't even give a name how could you assume i hated so many people? your impression of me at this point is just plain wrong, and even you know that. you also assumed i hated you when i have no reason to, so what made you come to that conclusion? please explain.

just to clear things up - i don't hate anyone at all, and i'm the type of guy who would forgive people and not hold grudges. i can't find any reason to hold a grudge against you or any of your friends because they didn't harm me at all. i just felt like since i took a break from tf2 i was completely pushed away? in a sense that you guys met so many new people without me that no one actually bothered playing with me anymore. i was always the one who would have to start convos and ask for invites and shit which wasnt the case in the past. i guess maybe i'm just a washed up player now?

-zh