Talk with Ashley 9/22/19

Uriela: Ashley..?
HexedBitch: Hm?
Uriela: What made you unblock me.. if I can ask? I'm curious.. I was surprised my message went through.
HexedBitch: I honestly don't know because I'm a good person and don't wish to hate upon anyone.
HexedBitch: But me unblocking creed because I'm a good person got me and mike screwed up so.
Uriela: I feel that, well thank you.. for doing that.
Uriela: and oh.
HexedBitch: And having you unblocked to, If kayla even remotely knew she'd be pissed at me
Uriela: You unblocked Creed, why?
Uriela: o-o
Uriela: Eeek nevermind, I should probably not ask that.. or talk about him.
HexedBitch: I have no idea, like I said I just don't like hating people but I should of had him blocked
HexedBitch: and kept it that way
Uriela: My thing is, Creed and Kayla are talking.. again. So why would she be upset if I was unblocked?
HexedBitch: I should have keep you blocked too from you talking shit about me to Mike.. but
HexedBitch: I can't seem to hate people
HexedBitch: Instead I let them walk over me
HexedBitch: She hates you worth a passion
HexedBitch: I know they are, I honestly don't care if they do
Uriela: I wish I could show you my conversation with Mike from months ago, because it wasn't shit talk nor do I want you to believe it was :/. I was trying to be there for him and I simply told him I was there for him, if there was anything else said, it was either legit Creed or from Creed. Ashley. I never ever wanted you to hate me though, that was never my intention, I'm talking about from the very beginning from when I first got with Creed.. I hurt you, unintentionally.
HexedBitch: No you really didn't lol, Creed did.
Uriela: I'm sorry he hurt you..
HexedBitch: It's okay, I don't care about Creed anymore
Uriela: /me nods..
Uriela: Understandable.
HexedBitch: I love Mike with all my heart and thinking maybe it's best if he wasn't with me even if that hurts me to say it.
Uriela: Ashley, I should've listened to you when you were with Creed.. the way he treated you, I spoke to him couple of times before about and I never agreed to it. Because I am now suffering from him, yes, I'm with someone and this dude is doing everything he can to help me heal... from Creed but I know how that feels. Loving someone with everything you've got.
Uriela: I'm sorry you went through it.
Uriela: I'm sorry for it all.
HexedBitch: It's ok, that's not what hurts me now.
Uriela: How did you...get past it..?
HexedBitch: I just did
HexedBitch: I knew that being treated like that I didn't deserve that
Uriela: Because, I'm over here, clouded with him in my head and he could honestly give less of a fuck about me and that's what is hurting me the most.
HexedBitch: and after him liking Kayla ontop
HexedBitch: I knew
Uriela: Well I knew I deserved better, which is why I left him..
Uriela: but idk how to get past this.
HexedBitch: You will eventually Krissy
HexedBitch: And I know I will too even though I don't want to with Mike
HexedBitch: I love Mike and letting him go is so hard to do.
Uriela: :/.. I'm so sorry
Uriela: I really am.
HexedBitch: It's ok
HexedBitch: It's not you're fault it's mine
Uriela: But you deserve to be hurting.
Uriela: dont
Uriela: deserve
Uriela: sorry
Uriela: crying
Uriela: z
Uriela: >_<
Uriela: fml.
HexedBitch: But I do because I did something stupid
Uriela: you dont deserve the hurt.
Uriela: regardless.
Uriela: You unblocked him... because of the person you are
Uriela: I KNOW how that is.
Uriela: there is nothing wrong with that.
HexedBitch: Yeah but that implied to Mike that I wanted him back in my life when I don't
Uriela: Did you tell Mike that..?
HexedBitch: Yes.
HexedBitch: He doesn't believe me.
Uriela: :/
Uriela: I'm sorry..
HexedBitch: It's ok.
HexedBitch: Kayla would be so mad if she found out I unblocked you
HexedBitch: Because of the person I am.
Uriela: There is nothing wrong with the person that you are, Ashley.
HexedBitch: You say that but
HexedBitch: It seem's like there is
Uriela: There isn't anything wrong with you.
Uriela: I know that myself.
HexedBitch: Idk anymore.
Uriela: Why don't you know?
HexedBitch: Because everything I do
HexedBitch: Messes everything up
HexedBitch: and I am past the point to where I don't want this pain anymore
Uriela: You unblocked people... with no intention of them being in your life again, I think he should have a bit more trust in you than that.
Uriela: That isn't your fault if he left because of that.
Uriela: You are who you are and that's never going to change.
HexedBitch: Yeah, too kind hearted
Uriela: Then just re-block Creed and fix your relationship. If you truly want that, you fight for it.
HexedBitch: I'm trying with EVERYTHING in me to fight for our relationship, but it seem's like he doesn't want to fight for ours.
HexedBitch: I've reblocked creed when he messaged me
Uriela: He messaged you?
HexedBitch: Yes.
Uriela: Did he has a reason as to why
Uriela: have a reason*
HexedBitch: But right after that message I had showed Mike and blocked creed
HexedBitch: I didn't ask.
HexedBitch: I didn't care to
HexedBitch: I want to fix mine and mike's relationship but when he seem's like he doesn't wanna fight for ours.. hurts
Uriela: Sounds relateable. That's how it was with Creed and I, and unfortunately he showed me he didn't care by treating me the way that he did and not fighting back when I gave in all my effort and more into it. Sometimes, its best to see that, atleast in my case it was the best thing because I found out how Creed truly was and everything everyone said about him... how he was with me... I deserved much more than being treated like a piece of shit under his shoe.
HexedBitch: Yeah you do deserve better, but Mike's not like Creed, never will be. Mike's actually a really good man, and makes an effort but when we fight I'll admit it's danm right awful because he act's like he doesn't give a shit and that's what hurt's the most.
HexedBitch: It's like when we're good we're absoluetly great and when we fight it's absoluetly terrible
Uriela: I'm glad Mike isn't like Creed, because you too, deserve better than that. But I'm sorry you're going through this... but everything will be how it's supposed to be and you've just got keep your head up. That's why I offered to be a shoulder to cry on... or an ear to listen to because... I'm someone from the outside. I'm not someone close.
HexedBitch: Yeah, I understand.
HexedBitch: Thank you for wanting to be here for me aand listening to me rant.
HexedBitch: and*
HexedBitch: But that still doesn't mean we are friend's or anything
Uriela: Honestly, you don't need to thank me for it because it's who I am, I still care regardless. I still care about Kayla even if she hates me. I still care about Creed even if he thinks I'm like the rest of his ex's now.
Uriela: No, I know.
HexedBitch: Yeah, I get that..I care alot for people to even if they don't deserve it sometime's.
Uriela: /me nods.
Uriela: Indeed.
Uriela: But you're not a bad person, never have been and never will be. I wish you the best on your bump with Mike and you're not blocked, obviously and I'm only a message away if you ever wanted to rant again or anything. I'm here.
HexedBitch: Thank you Krissy.
Uriela: It's really not a problem.. but I'll take my leave, just please know you aren't alone. and you've got someone from the outside who still cares..
HexedBitch: Thank you
Uriela: Of course.
Uriela: You take care Ashley.