12/12/15

Guest_JacksonLector: Cain branded me a traitor as well didnt he
RaduBarvon: IDK
RaduBarvon: :I
RaduBarvon: He just told me to remove you from the group
Guest_JacksonLector: So he just said to kick me?
RaduBarvon: -nods-
Guest_JacksonLector: He has made an enemy
Guest_JacksonLector: I gave him loyalty
RaduBarvon: idgaf atm. I'm getting sick.
RaduBarvon: literally physically sick
Guest_JacksonLector: :I im sorry
RaduBarvon: :I Idk... I think he was getting tired of the drama
RaduBarvon: IK he's got heart problems
Guest_JacksonLector: What drama xD
RaduBarvon: idk
Guest_JacksonLector: what do i normally do xD
RaduBarvon: the inboxes you send Isaak and myself?
Guest_JacksonLector: I was saying sorry
RaduBarvon: It's a very poor and back-handed way of doing so.
Guest_JacksonLector: of course xD
RaduBarvon: < _<
Guest_JacksonLector: i didnt mean it that way
Guest_JacksonLector: of course
RaduBarvon: Think about how we'd see it then
Guest_JacksonLector: but i knew thats what would be thought
RaduBarvon: Then why'd you do it that way?
Guest_JacksonLector: to say sorry xD
Guest_JacksonLector: i didnt mean it in any other way than face value
Guest_JacksonLector: to simply say. sorry
RaduBarvon: Then simplicity must have been the best route if that's what you were going for, right?
Guest_JacksonLector: I wanted to make it personal
Guest_JacksonLector: to really show otherwise simplisity would mean i really had no regret
RaduBarvon: And actions speak louder than words. Although a lot of what you said is backhanded
Guest_JacksonLector: Anger of it yes, for being shunned
Guest_JacksonLector: but most of it was, in all honesty, regret
RaduBarvon: There are better ways to chanel anger.
RaduBarvon: Especially since now you have pushed away people you care about
Guest_JacksonLector: Dose it ever matter?
Guest_JacksonLector: It was inevitable
RaduBarvon: No. It was avoidable
Guest_JacksonLector: I doubt it
RaduBarvon: Then you have no faith in yourself.
Guest_JacksonLector: I never have xD
Guest_JacksonLector: you knew that day one
RaduBarvon: I tried to supply it for you
RaduBarvon: suply*
RaduBarvon: I had faith that if you sat and really sorted through it all, you could make the right decision. Or even ask for my guidance and help to do so
Guest_JacksonLector: I know, but you out of everyone else? I felt so...rejected
Guest_JacksonLector: I cannot sort just sit there and expect that everyone will be like you
RaduBarvon: No. That's true. Not everybody is like me. But that's when you need to sit your ass down and ask for help.
RaduBarvon: Even if it's from the people you don't think would be willing to help you
Guest_JacksonLector: But its too late  now
RaduBarvon: It is. Which breaks my heart.
RaduBarvon: I honestly felt like there was some form of punishment when Cain told me to remove you from the group. :I
Guest_JacksonLector: why?
Guest_JacksonLector: he could care less about my existance there, ever since the kiara thing
RaduBarvon: Because I had to do it.
Guest_JacksonLector: I dont blame you tho
Guest_JacksonLector: no one other than myself
RaduBarvon: -nods- if you say so. You are still my friend though
Guest_JacksonLector: always
Guest_JacksonLector: night man
RaduBarvon: night dude