Man, I was so close to getting to “move on” the easy way but thats fine. I’ll take the hard way every time if it’s available. Letting go will be the hardest thing I've ever done, harder than when I was homeless. Each of us knew from the start it had to be done for both of our well beings so I'm sorry it had to come to this for me to get the strength to move on. I did some research on how long it takes, things to varies from person to person but I heard as short as 2 months to 2 years. I know I’ll for sure I’ll be on the shorter end of that, but It’ll be a longer because I don’t want to just move on. I want to be a different person, to change myself for the better as much as I can too. I’m letting go, but I’m leaving a spider’s thread for the day I try to come back. It sounds contradictory but I simply know I’ll attempt to rekindle something between us one day. (1/5)

I’m going to try to cut you off from my perspective. After I donate some Bits if thats okay with you (I impulse bought as soon as I found out, its completely useless to me and was hoping I could get away with donating it anonymously) but I’ll watch your streams less and less. I’ll read your Twitter less and less. I’ll cut down everything  until you become just a memory to me. (2/5)

But in turn I need one more thing to remember you by. I’m going to wonder about you a lot. I’m going to wonder you’re emotionally okay, if you’re if you’re in good health, if you’re thinking of me, if you’re drinking too many energy drinks, etc. So, I need you to promise me you’ll be okay. Promise me that depressed version of you, angry you, passionate you, etc. will fight to have you live your best life even if mistakes are made along the way. And promise me you won’t check out early. Even If it’s a complete and utter lie, please promise me this. Otherwise, I’ll care too much to not check up even if I can’t do anything and I barely see the other sides of you. I have faith in your strength for you to persevere, but not in mine. (3/5)

And if possible I’m hoping you can unblock my number for potential emergency scenarios. Things like if there’s a shooting, a tornado, something I don’t want to say, in our area. I get you have trust issues and I have a horrible track record but I felt it was important enough to at least ask. (4/5)

I guess this is it. I won’t respond to your next message but know I acknowledge what you say if anything. You really are family to me, and I can say that while accepting your flaws wholesale, although I can’t say I’m too fond of the specific part that left that message that triggered me. You were a rough, weirdly cut piece in my life but you filled a lot of important parts, I hope you can one day appreciate the positive impact you left. Things as they are were doomed to end but that doesn’t mean that letting you in my life was an error, I know the life I lived had I never met you would be worse. (5/5)