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- On the plane home, I’d been so dejected that my fist held up my chin the whole way, looking out the
- window with the occasional tear rolling down my cheek. I couldn’t stop them and I didn’t feel like
- hiding it. Jade just kept patting my hand.
- Paul Jay’s crew filmed me on the plane: I couldn’t understand why Paul was so happy. He kept saying
- to me, “You’re going to love what I got,” but I wasn’t getting it because I was literally in shock. Paul
- said the God of documentaries had shone down on him in Montreal and he had the whole
- conversation I’d had with Vince before the match on tape. But I wasn’t processing what he said.
- At home on Monday night I couldn’t bring myself to watch Raw, so I called Marcy to find out what
- happened. When she told me that Shawn had walked out with the belt, said how he’d beaten me in
- my own country with my own finishing move and had run me out of the WWF, I finally knew for
- certain that Shawn had been full of shit when he swore to God that he wasn’t in on it. Marcy was on
- a relentless campaign to get the truth out, and on a leap of faith she contacted Dave Meltzer. She’d
- never spoken to him before because she knew that I would have considered it a betrayal, despite
- the fact that it was clear that Meltzer had by this point become pro wrestling’s most accurate
- chronicler. After a lengthy conversation with him, she pointed out to me that the one thing Vince
- seemed to be counting on to eventually save his ass on this is that I would never expose the
- business, and she suggested I talk to Dave. I?had been considering it too, so on Tuesday, for the first
- time in my life, I gave Dave Meltzer a call. If Vince could do this to me, he could do it to any of the
- boys. I told Meltzer, “You don’t have to take my word for this. You go ahead and try to disprove
- anything I’m telling you.” He printed every word I said, at the risk of alienating the sources he
- needed to make his living. His meticulously detailed story about what has come to be called the
- Montreal screwjob has never been refuted and is now considered a historic document in the history
- of pro wrestling.
- In the days after Montreal it was rumored that Vince was going to lay assault charges against me.
- Apparently I broke his jaw and sprained his ankle. At first I thought, Great, bring it on. Vince would
- have to sue me in Canada, exposing the truth about what happened in a court of law. I’d be happy to
- swear to God and explain myself. But Carlo kept calling, building fear in me about what could
- happen in a long, costly legal battle filled with uncertainty. I paced my pool room and briefly found
- myself wishing I’d never hit Vince. Then I shook my head and laughed at how surreal this all was
- continuing to be. They could put me in jail, they could do whatever the hell they wanted, and I knew
- someday I’d be sorry for a lot of things, but I’d never, ever be sorry for knocking that son of a bitch
- out.
- I didn’t know at the time that Rick Rude had already called Eric Bischoff and told him everything that
- had happened. When I phoned Eric from my hotel room after the match, he howled with laughter
- over the fact that I had broken my hand on Vince’s jaw. As far as he was concerned, the whole
- screwjob only made me hotter. On Nitro the day after Montreal, the nWo came out waving
- Canadian flags, and Bischoff called me “a knock-out kind of a guy.” Hogan chimed in, “He passed the
- initiation!” Then Miss Elizabeth conducted as Bischoff, Hogan, Hennig, Macho, Nash, Razor, Kid,
- Konan, Virgil and the rest of the nWo sang the worst rendition of “O Canada!” I’ve ever heard! But in
- many ways it was the best too.
- Stu and Helen were hurt by what Vince did to me. But Stu reiterated that, under the circumstances,
- I’d done the perfect thing. The love and support that my parents gave me was the only light I
- needed. If I’d beaten up Vince badly, I’d have looked pretty bad as well, but one punch was more
- than fair considering all the factors. What better way to say good-bye to a crooked boss than to deck
- him on my last day of work?
- Davey was trying to get out of his contract and was already talking to Eric. Owen had asked to be
- released, but Vince refused to let him out of his contract, even when he told Vince that I vowed to
- never talk to him again if he stayed. This was only a work, of course, but we both thought Vince
- might feel bad enough to go for it. When I approached Eric about my brother, he was interested, but
- he didn’t want to pay Owen the same money he was making with Vince.
- As a favor to Owen, I spoke with Vince Russo on the phone—he’d gone from writing the WWF
- magazine to writing the shows, and we both thought of him as a friend. I told Russo angrily that
- McMahon wasn’t good for his word and that it was impossible for Owen to trust anything he ever
- said again. My hostile tone wasn’t directed at him, and Russo and I hung up on good terms. Seconds
- later, my phone rang, and to my startled amazement it was Vince McMahon. I concluded that he’d
- listened in on the entire call. He said, “I can’t believe how truly selfish you are that you would want
- to hold back your brother Owen.”
- “How can you expect him to ever believe anything you say?”
- “If you say another word to Owen, I’ll sue you so fast that you won’t know what hit you.”
- “Vince, if you had an ounce of decency you’d let him go, or at least let him make his own decision.”
- “Well, I’m not letting him go. And I’m never going to let him go! And you better get used to it. If you
- keep doing what you’re doing, messing with Owen’s head, I’ll sue you with a smile on my face. And
- I’ll sue Owen for breach of contract too!” He slammed the phone down.
- I called Owen to tell him what happened. I said I couldn’t do anything more or Vince would sue us
- both. For some reason, Owen apologized.
- I told him not to worry; we would never let the wrestling business come between us. “I’ll always be
- here for you, Owen. Do what ya gotta do and don’t worry about me. Watch yourself. They’ll be
- coming for you next, you watch. Watch your back, Owen, and I’ll be waiting for you over at WCW.
- Just get home in one piece.”
- PART FOUR
- PINK INTO BLACK
- 42
- CASUALTIES OF WAR
- I ALWAYS FELT THEY KILLED The Hitman character that day in Montreal. Every picture and mention
- of my career quickly vanished from the WWF’s website. Vince McMahon was rewriting history to
- suit his own purpose, erasing me like I never existed.
- Not surprisingly I’d become an overnight hero of a different sort for having the balls to KO Vince, but
- I knew he’d be coming after me. He openly challenged me on TV, but at the same time he was still
- talking about suing me for assault. Neither Shawn nor Hunter had the guts to admit their
- involvement, but it didn’t matter: The boys had seen the yellow stripes on those two snakes long
- ago. Soon enough, Taker called to tell me, “I got it right from Vince. That little cunt Shawn, he was in
- on the whole thing.”
- One respected champion after another phoned me. Dory Funk laughed when I outlined what had
- happened, and said about me punching Vince: “You couldn’t have done a more masterful job of
- doing the perfect thing.” Pedro Morales was yet another former World Champion who told me that
- Vince had a habit of doing this to every star he made, and said Vince had learned it from his dad:
- “Vince senior never gave me any warning about dropping the belt either. He gave me less than an
- hour’s notice. I told him, you should prepare me for this.” Pedro told me to watch my back, stand up
- for myself and never let them destroy me. Harley Race filled my heart when he said, “I’m proud of
- you, Bret.” I felt like a scrappy alley cat that had got in an ugly fight with a big, vicious dog; even
- though I was limping off, that dog was limping off too.
- Vince was deep in damage-control mode. He gave a big talk to all the wrestlers at Corn-wall TVs on
- November 11, 1997, saying that he did what he did to me for the sake of the boys and the business.
- Owen told me that nobody believed a word he said, but Vince’s words seemed to do a number on
- Carlo, who did an about-face, calling me to say that Vince’s explanation made a lot of sense to him. I
- kept my disappointment with him to myself, but distanced myself a bit from him after that.
- On November 24, Vince broke his promise that he would never tarnish my character after I was
- gone, the way he’d done to Hogan and Macho. First he teased the audience into thinking that I was
- going to appear on Raw, and then he had Shawn parade out a Mexican midget wrestler wearing a
- leather jacket and a Hitman Halloween mask. Hunter and Shawn quipped that they always knew The
- Hitman was short on talent, charisma and stature. I have to admit that I was hurt by such stunts. I
- was also worried about starting at WCW, though I kept a brave face for my family and the fans.
- Harley had warned me that WCW was a den of wolves too.
- On my first visit to the WCW offices in Atlanta on December 14, I bumped into Hogan, Macho and
- Eric Bischoff, who smiled confidently at me as he said, “If you think you’re a big star now, you’re
- going to be an even bigger star when I’m done with you!” Hogan said what’d happened between
- him and me before he left the WWF was all Vince’s fault. He said that Vince had bragged to him that
- he loved to ride the boys into the ground, “then cook and eat ’em.” The truth was that Hogan didn’t
- put me over when he had the chance for his own reasons. Because we needed to work together,
- however, I shook his hand when he offered it and told him I was sorry for anything I said about him
- after he left the WWF. He grinned back like I was an old friend. He also surprised me by giving me a
- compliment: He said he thought I was the best interview in the business now, even though I knew
- that honor really belonged to Stone Cold.
- I made my WCW debut the next day on a sold-out live Nitro in Charlotte, North Carolina. I was a bit
- surprised that it didn’t feel that much different to me than a WWF show. WCW was loaded with
- hard-working Mexican boys. I’d never been much of a Lu-cha Libre fan until I saw the dedication and
- effort those wrestlers put in every night. In particular, I loved the amazing work of young Rey
- Mysterio Jr., a masked lightweight Mexican who could spin through, up and over the ropes with
- backflips and beautiful dives and rolls. In my opinion, he is the most talented Mexican wrestler there
- has ever been. I felt mucho respect from all the Mexican boys as they came to me to shake my hand.
- Paul Wight, the new Giant of wrestling at seven-foot-two and four hundred pounds, lumbered up to
- say hello. There were old-timers, such as Roddy Piper and Ric Flair, and great young talent, including
- powerhouse Booker T and, from the Stampede territory, Chris Benoit and Chris Jericho. Even Miss
- Elizabeth was there, now working as Lex Luger’s valet. Curt Hennig gave me a big, warm smile and a
- slap on the back.
- I felt honored to shake Rick Rude’s hand. He’d been at a taped Raw on November 17, which aired on
- November 24, just as he walked out live on Nitro. This was the first and only time a wrestler
- appeared for both organizations on TV at the same time. Raw was taped on alternate weeks from
- the live Nitros, and Bischoff liked to give out the results of Raw matches before they aired. Rude
- walked out there and delivered a well-spoken monologue about the rights and wrongs of
- professional wrestling. He said it was wrong for Shawn to claim he was the World Champion when
- Vince had cheated me out of the title. A lot of wrestlers were disgusted by what Vince had done in
- Montreal, but Rick Rude was one of the few who actually quit the WWF for good over it.
- Mick Foley had quit too and missed a Raw but then returned the next day. He was finally making a
- name for himself as Mankind. For him, going back to WCW would have been career suicide. Steve
- Austin called to tell me how sorry he was that it ended up this way for me but warned me that WCW
- was a black hole of bad booking and bad organization. Ken Shamrock had been so furious that he’d
- also wanted to quit, but I advised him to do what was best for his family and he finally elected to
- stay, though he said, “I’ll always be one of your crew, Bret.” Then he was quoted in a story in
- Maclean’s magazine on the screwjob, saying, “I can’t speak for what happened between Vince
- McMahon and Bret Hart, but I can say that Bret Hart was the kind of guy everyone looked up to.”
- Davey had to pay a $150,000 penalty to get out of his WWF contract in order to jump to WCW. For
- him, I was just the excuse: Quitting was more about letting down his dying sister in Birmingham than
- it was about Vince betraying me over the way I got to leave. One week after Rude left the WWF, Jim
- was brought out to the ring to be humiliated and disgraced by Shawn and Hunter as part of a
- storyline, and then he was fired. Luckily, Eric liked Jim enough to sign him to a $150,-000-a-year deal.
- I was glad to have Jim, Davey and Rude around.
- That first night in the WCW dressing room in Charlotte, I also met Steve Borden, known as Sting. This
- hard-working pioneer of WCW was a well-built, born-again Christian with long, dark hair who
- worked a white-painted-face gimmick based on the movie The Crow; for his entrance, he was
- lowered from the rafters on a steel cable. He’d been famous for his scorpion death lock long before I
- ever came up with my own variation of it: the sharpshooter.
- I was also impressed with the look of Bill Goldberg, a muscle-packed former NFLer who went simply
- by his last name. Bill was forced to retire from football after badly tearing an abdominal muscle. His
- former head coach, Bill Sleeman, later told me that if he had a whole team of Bill Goldbergs, he’d
- win the Super Bowl every year. Goldberg was bald-headed, with an angry face punctuated by a
- goatee—all he needed to be intimidating was simple black trunks and low-cut black boots. He made
- his entrance to dramatic marching music, pausing just long enough to pound his chest in a haze of
- billowing smoke. He was destined to be WCW’s new weapon in the battle of supremacy against
- Vince. Unfortunately, Bill was green and was injuring a lot of guys too.
- I was bedazzled enough by that sold-out Nitro that for the first time I felt that WCW might actually
- work out for me. I had a great first interview and got a good pop when I said: “Nobody knows better
- than me what it’s like to get screwed by a referee.” That comment set me up to referee Hogan’s
- World title match with Sting at the Starrcade ’97 pay-per-view in Washington, D.C., on December 28.
- Personally, I thought that appearing as a referee would be a lackluster debut, but what did I know?
- What did I care? I wanted to comply, to do whatever they asked to the best of my ability—win, lose
- or draw—then pick up my check and come home safe. Nobody would accuse me of taking this
- business too seriously ever again.
- The following morning at the Charlotte airport, I ran right into none other than Earl and Dave
- Hebner. Earl came up to me with his hand out and an apologetic look on his face. I refused to shake
- his hand, warning him calmly, “Don’t talk to me.” He insisted that he didn’t know what was up with
- Shawn and Vince until he was on his way out to the ring in Montreal.
- “What d’ya mean you didn’t know? I told you, Earl! You promised me, swore on your kids!” But in
- the end, I forgave him. I knew that Vince held Earl’s livelihood in his hands, and the only thing Earl
- was guilty of was not having the guts to take a stand against the man who wrote the checks. Then
- Dave asked me if I thought Bischoff would take either him or Earl on, and I told him I’d ask.
- Vince’s big news was that he was bringing in Mike Tyson to work an angle with Austin leading up to
- WrestleMania XIV, where Tyson would guest ref a main-event title match between Shawn and Stone
- Cold. At first, Bischoff laughed it off, saying he’d turned Tyson down. But then the WWF’s ratings
- went through the roof and Bischoff wasn’t laughing anymore. All I could think about was how Vince
- told me he was in such financial peril he couldn’t afford to live up to our contract, yet he was paying
- Tyson over $3 million for a few hours of work.
- Tyson was part of a storyline with Stone Cold, who turned out to be the perfect antihero to go nose
- to nose with Vince’s own new TV persona: Vince had become a dictatorial heel boss! To this point,
- Vince had been known to the majority of wrestling fans mainly as a ringside announcer. With the
- truth out about what he’d done to me, he decided to capitalize on the intense heat by turning
- himself heel and making the betrayal all part of the “storyline.” Owen was forced to confront Vince
- as part of the storyline, because the corrupt wicked promoter had screwed over his big brother. On
- Raw, Shawn and Hunter called Owen a nugget of shit that didn’t quite get flushed down the toilet
- and, of course, I was the big, smelly turd. I admired how Owen refused to let Shawn or Hunter get to
- him, ignoring their swipes as if they didn’t matter. Owen put Shawn over, and Shawn purposely
- potatoed him at one point, splitting his head open. Like me, Owen found himself making truces with
- Shawn while at the same time never trusting anything Shawn said or did.
- Vince kept working angles based on what he’d done to me for real. It not only made the Montreal
- screwjob seem less significant, it made an increasing number of fans wonder if everything that
- happened between Vince and me was “only” the biggest work in the history of the business.
- Meanwhile, Paul Jay and his crew were quietly holed up in their studio in Toronto, meticulously
- editing the documentary. Paul kept telling me it would be my vindication, and I wanted to believe
- him.
- Back at home, things were not good. For eighteen years, I’d yearned to be home. Now that I was
- home more, Julie and I found that we were leading completely different lives. We had a lousy
- Christmas and barely even spoke to each other. She served a beautiful Christmas dinner on paper
- plates. The kids were too consumed with all their presents to notice her gesture, which only
- deepened her already dark mood. The truth was that none of us wanted to piss her off any further. I
- was dragging my heart around over what Vince had done to me, and Julie snapped at me to get over
- it. She was also threatening to divorce me again.
- I surrounded myself with my sadness—I missed my old friends, the fans, all kinds of people from the
- WWF circuit, from hotels, gyms, restaurants, clubs, arenas and airports. I had also lost track of my
- old loves, some of whom I missed terribly, but the truth was I didn’t want them to see me this way. I
- was hurt, vulnerable, changed: I had lost faith in the world. Bischoff wasn’t going to ask me to
- wrestle until late January 1998, and I couldn’t do any weight training because of my broken hand. I
- kept in shape through that unseasonably warm, brown Christmas in Calgary by riding my bike all
- over town.
- I’d barely seen Owen or spoken with him since Survivor Series. On Boxing Day, up at Hart house, he
- seemed surprised when I greeted him warmly. He told me the WWF was only getting worse, with DX
- getting more vulgar every week, not to mention Sable, a sensuous valet, walking out topless for a
- Fully Loaded bikini match with painted-on black handprints to cover her breasts. When he asked me
- again whether I was mad at him, I told him again that we could never let the fucked-up crazy
- business get between us. With the money Vince was paying him, Owen said, he was thinking about
- building a big house on some land just across from Clearwater Beach. I told him just to do whatever
- it took to survive and to take care of his wife and kids.
- “In three years when our contracts are up,” I said, “we’ll sit on each other’s back decks and laugh
- about all this shit.”
- Stu and Helen celebrated their fiftieth wedding anniversary that New Year’s Eve under the pall of the
- Montreal screwjob. Sipping tea in the kitchen, we reminisced about how happy and different
- everything was back at the Stampede show in July. What happened? I think 1997 was the weirdest
- year of my entire life.
- My debut at Starrcade ’97 in December had been anything but brilliant. Eric told me my storyline
- was going to be about how I saved WCW by helping Sting win back the title from Hogan, which
- called for me to confront the referee after he made a fast count on Sting. In true WCW fashion, the
- referee forgot what he was supposed to do for real and made a normal count, but that didn’t stop
- me from knocking him out cold and declaring myself the new referee. Sting resumed the match and
- beat Hogan seconds later. If I thought things were going to get better for me from there on in, I was
- sadly mistaken.
- My fans tuned into WCW for a while, but according to the mail I received and the opionions of the
- fans I ran into in person, they had a hard time following the incoherent story-lines—and so did I. In
- comparison, the WWF was well organized; usually Vince’s storyboards were done months in
- advance. I also noticed a stark contrast between WCW’s agents and Vince’s. With the exception of
- Dusty Rhodes and Paul Orndorff, none of Eric’s men had ever drawn a dime in the business. It was
- like having an NFL team run by a bunch of high-school coaches.
- WCW took a fly-by-the-seat-of-your-pants approach to live TV. Nitro was three hours of high-flying
- matches mixed with live interviews starring Hollywood Hogan and the nWo, with Eric playing the
- part of a crooked promoter, just like Vince was doing. Many times, the ideas for the interviews were
- dreamed up just seconds before the befuddled wrestler had to walk out and deliver his lines, and
- they often contradicted whatever weak storylines were in place. Eric reminded me of a guy with a
- hundred birds pecking on his head all day long. Still, WCW was doing incredible business.
- I tried my best to keep a low profile even though most of the boys wanted to pick my brain and hear
- all about what happened between me and Vince. After so many years of being at home in the
- dressing room and a leader, I was guarded and not so trusting. Hogan seemed to be the rock here,
- with waves constantly lapping up to him.
- Hennig, Rude and Duggan looked out for me like big brothers. Scott Hall and Kevin Nash were
- plotting and scheming, trying to pull me to their side to help them get rid of Hogan. Every-where,
- there were little factions of backstabbers. Many of the WCW boys despised Flair, especially Hall,
- Nash, Macho, the Steiners and Hogan. The only guys who didn’t stir up shit were the Mexicans and
- some of the young talent—Chris Benoit was having some of the best matches in the business at that
- time with Booker T. Some of the best talent were the smaller wrestlers, such as Eddie Guerrero and
- Dean Malenko, both second generation, and young Billy Kidman, who reminded me a lot of myself
- when I was starting out. These were the unsung heroes of WCW, and they worked really hard at
- keeping everything going.
- When I packed my bag to leave my house on January 23, 1998, for my first WCW pay-per-view
- match, against Ric Flair, Blade was the only one to wish me good luck.
- I was worried about how Flair would work with me—with my still-injured hand, I needed to keep a
- close eye on him. Flair appeared to be trying to get along in this den of wolves and multiple wolf
- packs, but as hard as he tried, nobody liked him except his old cronies, such as Kevin Sullivan, Arn
- Anderson, J.J. Dillon and Mongo McMichael. Hogan took every opportunity to try to stir me up about
- Flair, but I said nothing. I let Ric do the match his way, even letting him chop me to his heart’s
- content as he tried to show me how good he really was. I offered no resistance in what was, as usual
- with Flair, twenty minutes of nonstop non-psychology.
- On January 25, Vince’s mother, Juanita, passed away. She’d always been nice to me, and so, despite
- everything, I sent a card of condolence to Vince’s house. I didn’t expect a reply, and I never got one.
- I couldn’t find any way to be at peace with what I had. When a soul gets bigger than a mind can
- comprehend, it becomes easy to give up on trust and judgment. I heard two voices in my head,
- talking loud and fast, contradicting each other. Go left! Go right! Look out! I now measured time by
- how many more trips I’d have to take before I could say, “Fuck you, I’m going home” to the whole
- business—whatever “going home” meant. Would the day ever really come when I could walk away
- and not be another wrestling tragedy? I was forty-one now, and Harley Race was right about getting
- to the point where you were feeling every damn one of those bumps. My knees were running on
- borrowed time and so was the rest of me. I’d do whatever they asked, yet I’d be careful and work
- safe. Pedro Morales had told me, “There are only three things in this business—you, you and you.”
- What he meant was that at this stage of the game it was imperative to protect myself, especially in
- the ring. So I did my job and waited for a much-anticipated storyline between me and Hogan to
- start. A Hitman-Hogan match clearly had the potential to be the biggest match of all time.
- Meanwhile, back in the WWF, Vince converted Papa Shango from a gangsta into a pimp, whose line
- was “Pimpin’ ain’t easy!” Raw was becoming more about bra-and-panty Jell-O matches than about
- wrestling, with Jerry Lawler’s commentaries going on about all the girls showing their puppies.
- Still, the hype about Tyson refereeing the main event title match between Shawn and Austin at
- Wrestlemania XIV ignited the WWF into a roaring fire. The fire that Vince tried to put out, but
- couldn’t, though, was the one raging in the hearts of my fans. At the Wrestlemania XIV press
- conference, a fan angrily shouted at Shawn, “You screwed Bret!” until he was dragged away. Shawn
- had to realize that screwing me would haunt him for the rest of his life; more than it would haunt
- me, which is saying a lot.
- I was more than eager to see Shawn drop the belt to Stone Cold, whose character had become a
- gun-waving, beer-guzzling antihero perfectly suited to punishing the prima donna asshole who
- screwed over Bret Hart.
- I often reflected on the five of us who had started out so long ago, galloping free like wild stallions:
- Dynamite, Davey, Jim, Owen and me. Dynamite was now stuck in his wheelchair, drunk and bitter,
- everything gone. It seemed to me that now Davey was falling lame like Dynamite, his drug problems
- getting worse, and Jim wasn’t much better. Despite my broken heart, I was strong and free, and still
- at the front of the herd along with Owen. I fantasized that my brother and I were literally stallions,
- lathered with sweat, galloping up a Rocky Mountain foothill, steam coming out of our nostrils in
- snorts. We reach a ledge wide enough to stop, where two clear paths lead in two different
- directions, and we stare at one another with eagerness and apprehension, long tails swishing. Which
- way should we go? The dark horse shakes his head, then carefully picks his way south up the
- cliffside. The palomino prances to and fro, wanting to follow, but then takes the path to the north,
- and they part ways forever.
- A lot of pro wrestling’s old horses were falling away or dying off. Britain’s Big Daddy Crabtree had
- died in 1997, Loch Ness was failing and then the legendary wrestler BoBo Brazil died at seventy-
- three. But the Grim Reaper of wrestling wanted more young bones too. On February 15, 1998, a
- drunken Louie Spicolli downed twenty-six Somas and died at the age of twenty-seven, drowning in
- his own vomit. The sad thing was that more guys were worried about drug testing being introduced
- as a result than about dying like Louie did, or like Brian Pillman had. Eric Bischoff was pissed off after
- the news hit the dressing room about Louie, and said to me: “Man, these guys are just getting
- dressed and nobody gives a shit.”
- Dave Meltzer wrote a scathing piece about how Louie’s death should finally be the wake-up call for
- all wrestlers, but nobody was listening. The industry was too caught up with stunts such as Shawn
- Michaels jerking off a wiener on camera as Hunter wore a SUCK THE COOK T-shirt.
- Vince appeared on Off The Record, a Canadian sports talk show, where he claimed that before I left,
- I’d become a real pain in the ass with a bad attitude; that I was disruptive in the dressing room; that I
- was breaking down physically; and that I was starting to miss dates. I guess that last one was my
- thanks for having shown up at Omaha Raw in a wheelchair only five days after surgery. But the
- determined interviewer, Mi-chael Landsberg, finally got Vince to admit, after considerable
- squirming, that he had lied to me.
- Owen had become the Intercontinental Champion, and was working with Hunter and Rock, while I
- was working with Hennig and Rude. Then Shawn came down with another “career-ending” injury,
- four days before the lead-in pay-per-view for Wrestlemania XIV. Now he wouldn’t have to put Steve
- over. I just shook my head. In the end, Wrestlemania XIV was a huge success, but it took Vince right
- up until match time to coax Shawn into dropping the belt to Austin. (On another note, Earl Hebner
- wasn’t at WrestleMania at all, having been hospitalized with a brain aneurysm that could easily have
- been fatal. When I called to wish him a speedy recovery, he broke down on the phone.)
- In the face of relentless competition from Vince, Eric Bischoff seemed to be burning out, and as a
- result, the disorganization at the WCW was getting worse. Though the house shows were still selling
- out, by March his TV ratings were beginning to slip. The WWF had figured out that the way to beat
- WCW was to get raunchier and sleazier every week. Vince’s shock TV pushed the envelope of what
- the censors would allow, and Bischoff looked more lost and confused every day: He had to put out a
- product that fit within Ted Turner’s squeaky-clean guidelines, and Vince knew it. Maybe it’s a good
- thing that Eric couldn’t go that way, even if he’d wanted to. I liked Eric and often offered him ideas. I
- don’t know if it was pride or politics that made him shoot them down one by one; his own angles
- rarely made sense. They’d fly me to TVs—paying for first-class air fare, hotel and a lux-ury car—only
- to leave me off the show. At the end of the day, in the WWF I got screwed for money, while in WCW
- I got paid well enough for so little output that I felt a bit too much like a whore.
- I saw a rough cut of Paul’s documentary, which was set to air in the fall, and now I understood what
- he’d been trying to tell me: The story of what had really happened to me in Montreal was going to
- be told, and it would be a vindication.
- Eric had me turn heel by double-crossing Sting and revealing that, all along, I was part of the nWo.
- Vince’s radical new direction was as brilliant in the ratings war as Eric’s was weak. Aside from Stone
- Cold being one of the most popular TV characters in the world, Sable, Taker, Mankind and Rock were
- all coming into their own. On April 13, Austin wrestled McMahon to a DQ on Raw (because of
- interference from Mick Foley as Dude Love), the WWF shot out in front and never looked back. The
- ratings war was essentially over. I was the greatest weapon Eric had at that time, and why he never
- deployed me, I’ll never know.
- With my marriage and my career both falling apart, I felt darkness from all sides. I kept to myself
- more than ever, which wasn’t a good thing. One day Julie summoned all the kids into the living
- room, against my protests, and told them we were divorcing. She then asked them to pick who they
- wanted to live with. The kids and I had been through this before, but when seven-year-old Blade
- broke into tears and cried, “I’m going with Dad!” it hit a powerful nerve in me. It had been six
- months since Vince had broken my heart, and neither Julie nor I knew how to fix it. This time I took
- Julie at her word. We officially separated on May 15, 1998.
- Meanwhile, Stu and Helen had their own misery to deal with, being in a deep financial hole. I gave
- them $70,000 to get them through, making them promise me they’d use the money for themselves
- and not for those Harts who always had their hands out.
- On May 17, I worked a good hard match with Macho at the Slamboree pay-per-view in Worcester,
- and that set up a tag match: me and Hogan versus Piper and Macho at the Great American Bash in
- Baltimore, which was a month away.
- Death took yet another wrestler on June 2. The Junk Yard Dog, Sylvester Ritter, fell asleep at the
- wheel and rolled his car. He was forty-five.
- I was worried about Davey, who told me that he and Diana were on the rocks too. He again confided
- to me that he needed help with his drug problem. I went to Eric on his behalf, and Eric said that if
- Davey got help, he didn’t have to worry, his job would be secure. Sadly, even though Davey freely
- admitted he needed help, he wasn’t yet ready to accept it.
- At the Great American Bash, Macho and I cut a good pace, but Roddy and Hogan showed their age.
- Hogan was starting to remind me of Giant Baba, who was old, phony and uncoordinated, but whose
- fans loved him anyway. The whole storyline didn’t make sense to me, or to the fans, but to Eric and
- Hogan it was all great work. My heel character had become a deranged, angry bad guy. My fans
- didn’t like him, and neither did I. My original following was now outnumbered by a new breed of
- fans, who were like cartoon characters themselves. I couldn’t remember the last time I saw younger
- kids or a family at ringside. Even The New York Times proclaimed that pro wrestling was no longer
- suitable for kids.
- On July 20, I won the U.S. title in Salt Lake City when I beat up Diamond Dallas Page with a steel
- chair. Page was a close friend of Eric’s, a scruffy, wiry older rookie who resembled a Scottie dog. He
- was playing the part of an old veteran, even though he’d only been wrestling a few years. He was a
- good hand who was always trying to improve. We had a kind of chemistry and got on well in and out
- of the ring.
- I’d brought Blade with me to Salt Lake City, and he sat watching the monitor in the dressing room as
- Scott Hall took some kind of phony-looking bump into a TV production trailer while wrestling Kevin
- Nash. Minutes later, when Scott walked in, my eight-year-old son called out, “Hey, Razor, that was
- pathetic,” cracking up the whole dressing room. During these sad and empty days, the only real joy
- in my life was Blade.
- On August 4, I boarded a plane home after a Nitro in Denver and was happy to find Owen in the seat
- next to mine, smiling as if he’d been waiting for me. For the next couple of hours, we talked about
- the state of the business. He was disgusted by a recent angle on Raw that featured wrestler Val
- Venis and special guest John Wayne Bobbitt, where Venis put his penis out on a chopping block.
- Owen didn’t like the guns, sleazy sex and female fans taking their tops off in the audience. He told
- me he wanted to resurrect his old Blue Blazer character just to change things up: Perhaps becoming
- a masked superhero was a way to avoid involvement with the vulgar aspects of the show.
- I had just moved, alone, into an old stone ranch house planted on the edge of a hill in the west end
- of Calgary, overlooking the Rocky Mountains; because I had to travel so much, it made the most
- sense for the all the kids to live with Julie. I took the opportunity to invite Owen to come over to see
- my new place as well as watch a rough cut of Paul’s documentary, now titled Wrestling with
- Shadows. I was worried that my dad came across as too harsh in the doc when I talked about him
- often stretching me hard enough to pop the blood vessels in my eyes and about my life passing
- before my eyes while he smothered me in various submission holds. I wanted Owen’s honest advice
- because the last thing I wanted to do was hurt my dad, and I was relieved when he told me not to
- worry because it was all true. The thing that upset Owen was when, in the documentary, I compared
- losing to Shawn with blowing my brains out. My brother admonished me, reminding me,“We always
- said there’s nothing in wrestling worth dying for.”
- The next day I got a script to do a Disney series called Honey, I Shrunk the Kids, in which I’d play
- myself. There was also a part for a Hart brother and I got Owen the job so we could spend some
- time together. Owen couldn’t have been happier.
- I lost the U.S. title to Lex Luger on August 10, only to win it back from him three days later. Titles
- didn’t mean anything anymore; they changed hands almost as many times as the WCW senselessly
- turned me from heel to babyface. At that time, Eric was pinning his ratings hopes on the return of
- The Ultimate Warrior. But within days, Warrior tore a biceps muscle and that was the beginning of
- the end for him, not that he could’ve been Eric’s savior anyway.
- I’d given Eric and Hogan advance dubs of Paul’s documentary, and they both called to tell me they
- loved it. I thought perhaps it would encourage Eric to keep me baby-face, seeing as how wrestling
- fans would soon see me looking like a real hero in Paul’s movie. I was baffled when Eric wasted Hart
- versus Hogan on a free match at Nitro, on September 28, throwing away a guaranteed moneymaker
- that the fans had been waiting years for. The plan, in my view, was insane. He wanted me to turn
- babyface during an in-ring interview, challenge Hogan, then get injured and have Sting take my
- place. When Sting twisted Hogan into his scorpion death lock, I would limp back out and double-
- cross Sting by DDTing him headfirst into the mat, turning heel again. To turn me heel at this point
- was so stupid it felt like sabotage.
- Then I heard the news that my old pal Jim Duggan had kidney cancer, which only added to the
- weight I was carrying around. My divorce had also turned into a War of the Roses.
- Julie and I had monumental fights, over money, over whose friends were on whose side, over . . .
- everything basically. And then we would make up. We went through this cycle over and over again. I
- couldn’t take the up-down, push-pull anymore and sank into a deep depression. On October 11,
- while riding with The Giant from Milwaukee to Chicago, I found myself wishing I was dead. But then,
- when Paul Wight actually started to pull out to pass—in front of a speeding semi truck—I heard
- myself shouting, “Stop!” When both our heart rates had slowed again, the big guy looked over at me
- and said, “Thanks for saving my life tonight.”
- I worked Halloween Havoc with Sting in Las Vegas, retaining the U.S. title by beating him senseless
- with a baseball bat that was actually made of foam.
- I could rarely bear to watch Raw anymore but checked it out to see Owen’s new turn as The Blue
- Blazer. I understood what Owen was talking about when I saw Vince McMahon appear to piss
- himself in the ring on live TV after Stone Cold pressed a .38 special to his head. With the WWF
- ratings going through the roof, Sable appeared in the highest-selling Playboy magazine of all time
- and Stone Cold was on the cover of Rolling Stone.
- That November, Jesse The Body Ventura surprised political pundits when he was elected governor of
- Minnesota. Dave Meltzer wrote, “Pro wrestling is more real and more phony than people can
- imagine.” The simple truth was that wrestling had never been more widely acceptable to the
- mainstream than it was that year. But it felt to me that I kept spiraling down, in my own estimation
- and in my fans’ eyes too.
- On November 9, a year after the Montreal screwjob, I thought I finally had my chance to show Eric
- what I was worth when I worked the Nassau Coliseum, wrestling in New York for the first time since
- coming to WCW. To my complete dismay, I had a meaningless match with Konan and did a run-in
- during the last few seconds of the show. But I refrained from complaining: Eric had just given Davey
- more time off to get his act together, though he’d had to let Jim go because he was clumsily missing
- shots—not showing up for work.
- The high point of the whole year was the premiere of Paul’s documentary at a gala in Toronto. After
- watching it with the audience, I got a standing ovation. A week later, I sat with Stu and the rest of
- the Hart family at the IMAX theater in Calgary, where once again the audience got to its feet to
- cheer me. That felt especially good, because halfway through the screening, Bruce abruptly dragged
- his kids out because of how Stu was portrayed. But Stu told me he liked it, which was a great relief.
- Afterwards, I fielded questions from the audience, and I saw a warm smile on Owen’s face when I
- said the only thing I missed about the WWF was him.
- New Year’s Eve, 1998. I had no idea when I bought my new house that the view would be like an
- ever-changing painting every day. I was alone and had my music cranked while looking out my
- kitchen window at a family of deer digging up fallen crab apples beneath a blanket of snow.
- I eased myself into a more comfortable position on a huge round couch, where I could stare out at
- the distant lights of Calgary. I’d dropped the U.S. title again, to Dallas Page in Phoenix on November
- 22. The next day I worked a Nitro match in Grand Rapids, Michigan, against pintsized Dean Malenko,
- a second-generation wrestler who was a good, capable worker, although his style reminded me of
- Cirque du Soleil—it was a little too rehearsed. When Malenko went for a standing suplex on me, I
- went up for him effortlessly in the air, straight as two dinner forks stuck together. Instead of taking
- me back for a simple back bump, Malenko decided to walk me the short distance to the corner, but
- he didn’t have the size or strength and dropped me full-weight, crotching me and tearing my groin. I
- don’t even know how I was able to bring myself to finish the match. I was in too much pain even to
- tell Dean how pissed off I was at him. Even worse, he dressed fast and left without acknowledging
- that he hurt me, or that he was sorry. As well regarded as little Malenko was, I lost respect for him as
- a professional that day. I could barely walk, let alone wrestle, yet Eric had me win back the U.S. title
- from Page in Chattanooga a week later, with a lame finish where The Giant helped me. As ridiculous
- as the storyline was, at least The Giant did do all the work.
- I also managed to do another appearance on Mad TV in December, in a sketch about The Hitman
- becoming Jesse Ventura’s lieutenant-governor and getting too physical at a press conference, where
- I’d rough up the cast before stomping off the set. The funniest bit came at the end of the show when
- I decked the heavy-set Will Sasso with a plastic chair, twisted him into a sharpshooter and fled. He
- followed me back to my dressing room, with a camera crew in tow, asking me what my problem
- was. I jumped him from behind, pulled his shirt over his head and appeared to beat him senseless.
- The show went off the air with cast members attending to Will, who actually got a bloody nose in all
- the excitement. As ole J.R. Foley used to say, “I never, erm, touched him.”
- Christmas had been especially bleak. Diana had got so fed up with Davey passing out like a zombie
- on the couch in front of the kids that she downed his entire bottle of Xanax right in front of him to
- prove a point. Sadly, it was young Harry who had to call 911 because Davey was too out of it to dial
- the number. Alison said that Diana had had her stomach pumped and that they’d read her the last
- rites. But Owen told me at dinner at his place on Boxing Day that, as far as he was concerned, the
- incident hadn’t been life threatening and that Diana only acted like she was out of it when there
- were people around. I thought Owen was being a little too hard on Diana. She was having a tough
- time with Davey’s out-of-control drug problem. Poor Davey. His sister, Tracey, had only just passed
- away in November and his mother, Joyce, was dying of cancer and was down to her last days in a
- hospital in England too.
- No matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t seem to escape the Montreal screwjob. With the release of
- the documentary, wherever I went people stopped me to shake my hand. A teary-eyed Marine came
- up to me at the St. Louis airport and told me he’d never watch the WWF again, and that he was
- proud of me. But I’d read in a Forbes magazine before Christmas that the WWF was now a $500
- million-a-year company. In the last year alone, the company grossed $54.7 million, breaking all
- records. I had to shake my head at the irony of the fact that the whole thing started when Vince told
- me that the WWF was in financial peril! Vince had used what he did to me for real to turn his
- company around completely—and his words about WCW not knowing what to do with a Bret Hart
- echoed louder and louder in my head.
- The heated negotiations over my divorce were basically done, and all I needed to do was sign the
- papers. Though I’d decided that marriage was not for me, I’d gone through some kind of strange
- metamorphosis: I now had no interest in the pretty girls at the hotels who threw themselves at the
- wrestlers after the shows. Oddly, now that everything Julie and I had owned had been divided up,
- we were getting along better than we had in a long time.
- The constant pain in my groin was bad enough that I winced when I hoisted myself off the couch to
- pace around inside my big house, thinking and remembering. I promised Eric I’d delay my groin
- surgery until after WCW’s Canadian debut, which was going to be in Toronto, on March 29, 1999. I
- thought I could make it because I could walk, run reasonably fast and take some bumps, but I’d have
- to go real easy. Eric had also apologized to me for how they’d dropped the ball with me from the
- start.
- On February 1, Bill Goldberg and I were waiting on the runway in Los Angeles for Hogan and Bischoff
- to arrive for a chartered flight to San Francisco, both of us worried that we wouldn’t get to Nitro on
- time. As we chatted I told Bill that I had an idea for WCW’s debut in Toronto, which was coming up,
- a great angle that played on my popularity in Canada, especially after the documentary. Wearing my
- trademark skater shorts and a Hitmen jersey, I’d call him out and goad him into spear-tackling me
- like a freight train, only I’d hide a “steel” chest plate under my jersey, and he’d end up knocked out
- cold for the one . . . two . . . three. This of course would set us up to work together, with him coming
- after me to get even. “It’s great television, Bill, and it doesn’t hurt you one bit.” Bill grinned and told
- me he was all for it.
- Eric, Hogan, Bill and I missed all but the last three minutes of Nitro and hit the ring one after another
- in our street clothes. The next day I told Eric my idea about Goldberg and the steel plate and he told
- me he loved it too, but he thought Bill would never go for it. I explained that I had already run it past
- Bill and that he wanted to do it. Surprised, Eric told me we could do it. I suggested to him that with
- Toronto barely two months away, I’d need to be built up some, get a few wins and cut some good
- promos. We planned out my next few weeks leading into Toronto, and Eric asked me not to say a
- peep about our plans to anyone.
- On February 7, I was flown down to Atlanta to sit in on a booking meeting that was supposed to
- determine finally where The Hitman was going at WCW. I wasn’t surprised to find Hulk, Nash, Eric
- and the rest of the booking committee playing God with the careers of the wrestlers. First off, Hogan
- suddenly brought up rumors that I was going back to Vince, which would do big business. I
- downplayed the chance of it ever happening, while knowing this fear was really the only leverage I
- had anymore. The only thing bigger than a Hart-Hogan match would be if I did an angle with Vince,
- but for all the money in the world, I would never let Vince make an angle out of something that hurt
- so deeply. I let them know I was happy to put over anybody they wanted, but it seemed to me that it
- didn’t make much sense to beat me so often considering what they were paying me. Bischoff and
- Hogan stayed in the meeting just long enough to clear the way for me to work with Hogan in the fall.
- After they left, Nash, who was the new captain of the booking committee, told me there was no
- chance I’d be working with Hogan in the fall: he had Hogan with Gold-berg.
- “Eric was just here and we were all in agreement.” I said. “Where were you?”
- Nash walked off, bitching and shaking his head.
- The next day, in Buffalo for Nitro, as part of an angle that was tied in with Mad TV, I was supposed to
- drop the belt to an unworthy and unreliable Razor, but at the last minute that was switched, and
- Roddy Piper was going to get the belt. I wanted to do all I could for Roddy, in return for all his years
- of being a true friend to me. I laid him out after the referee had also been knocked down. Then I
- attempted to drag the semi-conscious ref over to make the count, just as Will Sasso climbed over the
- railing. We got into a tug-o’war over the ref, with me pulling on his arm and Will pulling on his leg.
- When Roddy schoolboyed me from behind, with the ref just able to make the count, it got a huge
- pop.
- Then Eric decided to go on a family vacation to France, leaving Nash in charge. Eric’s last Nitro before
- his time off was February 22 in Sacramento; instead of building me up for Goldberg, he had me lose
- to Booker T. This made no sense to me at all, but Eric sheepishly told me that his booking committee
- insisted that it was time to see me do a job. I told him I’d done plenty of them and beating me was
- beyond stupid when they had so much invested in me. “Just put Booker over and we’ll build
- everything after this,” he said. I had nothing but respect for Booker T, so told Eric I’d do whatever he
- needed me to do. (I was pleased to see that despite my groin injury, Meltzer rated it a four-star
- match.)
- Three days later, at Thunder in Salt Lake City, Eric was gone and Nash had the nerve to tell me that
- he’d taken my groin injury into account but he still wanted me to do a ridiculously long seventeen
- minutes with Disco Inferno. Disco was comic relief, and no way to build me for Goldberg, let alone
- Hogan. Next, at Nitro in Worcester on March 8, it was Malenko I would supposedly lose to. When I
- protested to Nash that I needed to stay strong for Goldberg, of course he didn’t know what I was
- talking about. To me, it felt like Rome was burning yet again. Nash was doing all he could to kill me
- off, for reasons I’ll never know. That time, I somehow managed to persuade him that Eric had
- something big planned for me, so, acting like he was doing me a huge favor, he threw me in with a
- big, clumsy rookie named Heavy Metal Van Hammer. I didn’t lose, but it added nothing to my heat
- going into Toronto.
- At home, my mom told me that Smith’s on-and-off girlfriend Zoe—Chad’s mother—had died of a
- drug overdose. I decided to go to her funeral to be there for Smith. A few days later Smith showed
- up at my place with Stu in tow, his excuse being that Stu wanted to see my house (clearly an excuse
- because Stu had just been over for a visit). I helped my dad into the kitchen where we soon got so
- engrossed in talking about Davey, and the pain he was in from a hurt back, that I didn’t immediately
- notice that Smith had gone missing. I soon found him rummaging through my things in the living
- room, and I invited him back to the kitchen, telling him he had to stay where I could keep an eye on
- him. He sheepishly followed me. My dad told me he thought Eric Bischoff was the cause of Davey’s
- problems and soon I was defending Eric to my dad: Davey’s story was that he’d hurt his back on a
- malfunctioning trap door in a WCW ring. He and Diana were even talking about suing. I told Stu that
- as far as I was concerned, Davey was battling a morphine addiction more than any injury or
- infection, and he needed to get clean. Eric had given him lots of chances to do just that, but Davey
- was still procrastinating about going to rehab.
- On March 22, I flew all the way to Panama City to find out I’d be off that night, but I managed to
- persuade Nash to give me an interview on Nitro to set things up for Toronto—because it looked like
- WCW was going to waste that opportunity too, even though I was over in Canada following the
- documentary release. In my brief interview with Gene Okerlund, I prepped my Canadian fans by
- challenging Hogan and Nash, and then subtly tossing Goldberg’s name out for the very first time,
- planting a seed that I knew was sure to grow in the week remaining before the Toronto show.
- At Wrestlemania XV in Philadelphia on March 28, Austin pinned Rocky Maivia, now known as The
- Rock, to win the World Heavyweight title, while Owen and Jeff Jarrett defeated D-Lo Brown and Test
- to retain the Tag Team belts. The WWF was red hot.
- The next day at about noon, I walked into the Air Canada Centre in Toronto for Nitro and there were
- already a few thousand fans standing on the street in the frigid cold chanting my name. Eric had
- filled in the booking committee about my Goldberg angle, but, much to my disappointment, Nash
- and WCW road agent Kevin Sullivan had got to Bill and persuaded him that the angle would kill him
- off.
- I tried to talk Goldberg back into it in the dressing room. “C’mon on, Bill. You’re kidding me? We
- talked about this, remember? You loved it! Nothing’s changed. You know this will set us up to work
- after my surgery.”
- When I left him, I ran into Nash, who’d now decided he would come down at the end and leave me
- laying, which made no sense at all.
- I went and found Eric in his office. I knew that the ratings success of Wrestlemania XV had to be
- weighing heavily on his mind, but I still couldn’t believe my ears when he said, “How ’bout this—you
- go out and tell the fans that you don’t need them anymore!”
- In my first WCW refusal, I shook my head: no. “Eric, you hear that sound?” I said. “That’s the sound
- of thousands of my fans, and only my fans, standing outside on the sidewalk, in the dead of winter,
- chanting my name. Why would I do that?”
- He had another idea: We’d do everything the same, except that Hogan, not Nash, would come down
- at the end. He’d go to high-five me, but instead he’d double-cross me, jump me and leave me for
- dead. Dumbfounded, I asked Eric if I was going to work with Hogan instead of Goldberg. He said not
- until next fall. I asked if Hogan was going to be wrestling Goldberg. He said not anytime soon. I asked
- him, “Why in God’s name would you fuck up such a great angle with something so stupid and
- pointless?”
- Eric said nervously, “You’ll have to convince Terry. If he says it’s okay, then fine.” Now I knew who
- was really in charge of WCW.
- So I went and found Hulk and asked him. “So why would you come down?”
- “I don’t need to come down,” he admitted.
- When I relayed Hulk’s response to Eric, he seemed surprised and relieved. Eric wanted me to feed
- the rumors that I was going back to the WWF, so he told me that after the bit with Goldberg, he
- wanted me to get on the mic and quit WCW. I had no idea what that would be about, but I agreed.
- I felt like a cat in the dark, watching Hogan battling Nash in some kind of power play in which we
- were all caught in the middle; Eric was clearly in over his head, unable to cope with the warring wolf
- packs.
- As I walked out to my music, there was a commotion going on in the entranceway. Kevin Sullivan
- was on the floor, frothing at the mouth in a seizure (in the dressing room the next day, he explained
- that he had miscalculated his GBH dosage). Who could make such stuff up? As I stepped over him, I
- couldn’t help thinking, It’s a good thing I don’t follow the leaders around here.
- I walked out wearing my friend Tie Domi’s Maple Leafs jersey underneath my Hitmen jersey. I knew
- if Eric had seen it, he’d have made me take it off because he was already terrified that I was going to
- go over so strong with the Canadian crowd that it would turn Goldberg heel, which was going to
- happen anyway, no matter what we did. I received a thundering ovation from the crowd, and then
- on the mic, I accused Goldberg of hiding in his dressing room, biting his fingernails and trembling
- with fear. While I peeled off my Hitmen jersey to expose the Maple Leafs jersey, declaring Canada
- “hockey country,” Eric was frantically running around backstage screaming at Goldberg to get out
- there before I killed him off. When Goldberg finally got in the ring, snorting like a Brahma bull, I
- taunted him, begging him to come and get me. When he spear-tackled me, the fans had no idea
- what was going to happen next. We both lay there without moving for what seemed like an eternity.
- Then I rolled him off me, counted him out, stood up, peeled my jersey off and threw it down on his
- unconscious body revealing the “steel” plate: the whole building came unglued. As Eric requested, I
- got on the mic and declared, “Hey, WCW, I quit!”
- When I got home I actually contemplated quitting for real. It seemed to me that Eric just didn’t have
- enough wrestling smarts to do his job: He had freaked out backstage because he thought I
- overshadowed Goldberg, but within hours the angle was being talked about as the best thing WCW
- had done in years. It even made the front page of The Toronto Sun, under the headline “HITMAN
- QUITS.”
- When I?got home, I signed a two-year extension to my contract. I hoped it would dispel any fears
- that I was going back to WWF, which might give WCW the incentive to do better by me—not to
- mention that $2.5 million a year until 2003 was too good to turn down. Then I?had my surgery.
- Davey was in the hospital too, supposedly with a staph infection that had traveled to his spine. I
- believe he was actually going through withdrawal. I don’t think it helped when WCW, not being able
- to reach him, FedExed termination papers to his house and Diana brought them right to him in the
- hospital. What did help was when Owen and Mankind visited him that same afternoon and put him
- on the phone with Vince, who told Davey that if he got clean, he’d have a job waiting for him. With
- Davey, though, that was a big if. The WWF was in Calgary for a sold-out non-televised show at the
- Saddledome on April 17. Owen asked me if I would come down and say hi to all the wrestlers. I
- decided I would, as a favor to him, but I also needed to do it for myself. I didn’t want to carry around
- my bitterness anymore.
- I spoke to Eric the night before, and he told me to go down to the show, that it would really feed the
- rumors on the Internet. When I arrived at the back of the Saddledome, Carlo was there to meet me
- and seemed overly concerned about letting me come backstage. The closer we got to the dressing
- room, the more I realized that Carlo was the only one who had a problem with it. I was soon
- surrounded by the smiling faces of Owen, Mankind, Edge, Test and Papa Shango. Even Hunter came
- out to greet me, with Chyna, who clearly had had radical cosmetic surgery since the last time I’d
- seen her; she looked drastically altered, reconstructed and beautiful in a ghastly kind of way. I gave a
- hardy handshake to Ken Shamrock just as agent Jack Lanza waded in with a big smile, flashing a look
- of annoyance at Carlo, who was still standing around like a useless guard dog. “What the hell?” he
- said to Carlo. “Of course he can come down. Are you kidding?”
- It felt good to see my old friends, and I could tell by the huge smile on Owen’s face that it meant a
- lot to him that I was there. I was soon pulling my pants down just enough to show them the four-
- inch incision from my surgery. Then I went to watch Taker’s match, and when the fans glimpsed me
- in the wings, they began chanting “We want Bret,” over and over. After his match, Taker walked past
- me grinning and said, “You’re next.”
- I noticed Stone Cold playing innocently enough with some black-haired girl’s hand. I couldn’t see her
- because she was all wrapped up in the curtain, but I assumed this might be a new girlfriend. Like so
- many of us, Austin had just gone through a divorce. Then Steve noticed me and I noticed that the girl
- he was playing around with was Diana. She’d dyed her hair. I’d seen Davey do a lot more than flirt,
- but still, this seemed a bit callous with Davey in the hospital, for whatever reason he was there.
- Steve left her to come over and chat with me; we parked ourselves on some equipment boxes, and
- soon we were talking about our divorces. Then Owen asked me to say hi to Earl, and I had no
- problem doing that.
- Moments later, I stood with The Rock, who told me, “I’ll never forget what you did for me.” He also
- said that I should come back, that WCW was screwing me over worse than Vince had. Shawn wasn’t
- wrestling anymore, just playing the role of a commissioner, so he, Taker and Austin were the ones in
- charge. I shrugged and said, “I don’t think so.”
- After the show, I sat with Taker at a bar and we laughed like the long-lost friends that we were. I
- went home that night feeling better than I had in months, because finally, at least in some sad, small
- way, I got to say a proper good-bye.
- Three days later, on the same day as the Columbine high-school massacre, the Grim Reaper came
- calling for Rick Rude, who was found dead of a heart attack from an overdose of painkillers. He was
- forty. I’ll never forget how Rick stood by me after Montreal. Rick was one of those guys who never
- took his wedding ring off; he’d wrap a piece of white tape around it when he went into the ring. He
- was the kind of guy who, when you needed someone to back you up, wouldn’t flinch at all. Not for
- money. Not for anything.
- And then, in early May, that crazy lumberjack, Jos The Maniac LeDuc, died. I can’t express how much
- the constant string of wrestlers’ deaths affected me. They developed drug habits and took such risks
- with their health, all for what? Just to make the next town? To entertain people? This sort of funeral
- march happens to most people when they hit their seventies. To me it felt like the casualties of war.
- On May 17, I did a bit where I came out of the crowd on The Tonight Show to accept a challenge
- from Kevin Nash that I come back to WCW in one week to wrestle him. Jay Leno had been part of
- WCW’s Hog Wild pay-per-view back in July 1998, and he laughed when I pulled out a WCW wrestling
- card with his picture on it and asked him to sign it.
- Meanwhile, the Hitmen had won the WHL championship and were set to meet the Ottawa 67s in the
- Memorial Cup. Things had improved so much between Julie and me that I invited her, along with
- Blade and Dallas, to fly east with me to watch the game. On Sunday afternoon, May 23, 1999, the
- Ottawa 67s defeated the Hitmen in a heartbreaking overtime. Julie and I, along with the boys,
- stopped in the locker room to congratulate the team on a great season. Even though the team had
- lost, that visit was a sweet moment of competitive purity that one only finds in real sports.
- I had to rush to make my flight to L.A. for my second live appearance on The Tonight Show the next
- day. While I was saying good-bye to Julie and the kids at the airport, we bumped into some of the
- mothers of the Hitmen players who were catching a flight back to Calgary. They were still tearful,
- and then one of them cracked a tentative smile and said, “Why are we crying? It’s not like somebody
- died.”
- I connected to my L.A. flight through Toronto, but had no time at the airport to call home. I pictured
- the whole Hart clan sitting in Stu’s kitchen watching the nationally televised Memorial Cup final and
- feeling the same passion and heartache as me. A couple of hours later, in the air, something
- ominous nagged at my heart. It couldn’t be the game. I knew all about the game. Then the cockpit
- door opened and the pilot came out, and I just knew that he was looking for me. He handed me a
- note that read, “Bret Hart, please call home. Family emergency!”
- I tried every phone in the first-class cabin, but as luck would have it, the only one that worked was
- next to the only other passenger in the compartment. At first I got nothing but busy signals. So I
- checked my voice mail to find a frantic message from Carlo asking me to call him right away. I knew
- at that moment that someone had died.
- When I reached him, Carlo kept asking, “Are you sitting down?”
- “I’m on a plane, of course I’m sitting. What happened?”
- “Don’t be alarmed. Don’t get mad. I don’t know how to tell you this. Are you sitting down?”
- I was getting annoyed. “Just spit it out.”
- “Owen’s dead. He got killed doing some kind of stunt in the ring.”
- I felt like my chest caved in. Carlo didn’t have the facts yet, but all he knew for sure was that Owen
- was gone.
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- “IF I GAVE YOU MY LIFE, WOULD YOU DROP IT?”
- THE NEXT DAYS ARE ALL IMAGES smeared together. I couldn’t get back to Calgary until about five
- a.m. the next morning, and when I got home I went to bed. I hadn’t slept at all since hearing the
- news, and I didn’t want to show up at Hart house until I’d had a little rest—I wanted my parents to
- be able to lean on me. I couldn’t shake the thought from my mind: What happened to you, my little
- Oje?
- The night before, a somber Jim Ross sat at the announcers’ table at the Over The Edge pay-per-view
- in Kansas City with the cameras on the crowd, not daring to reveal what was happening in the ring to
- the live audience watching around the world. “This is as real as real can get,” he said. “The Blue
- Blazer, known as Owen Hart, was going to make a very spectacular superhero-like entrance.
- Something went terribly wrong . . . this is not a wrestling angle . . . this is not part of the story . . .”
- Hanging from a cable off a catwalk up in the rafters of the arena, Owen suddenly fell seventy-eight
- feet to the ring, smashing chest-first across the ropes, about a foot from a turnbuckle, bouncing hard
- onto his back toward the middle of the ring. He lay there for several minutes turning blue while
- paramedics worked feverishly on him, to no avail.
- I pulled into Stu’s yard at around eleven that morning. Hart house never looked so sad. Dean’s old,
- crippled pit bull, Lana, was the first to greet me, her tail whacking my car door. I thought to myself
- that Owen would have laughed at the notion that the old dog outlived both Dean and him.
- A swarm of reporters surrounded me as I made my way up the back porch steps. Stu was sitting at
- the head of the diningroom table going through pictures of Owen. I reached out for his big hand, and
- put my other hand on his shoulder. In the living room, grandkids were huddled together in little
- groups softly crying while various members of the family were giving interviews. My mom politely
- excused herself from a group of reporters to give me a big hug, crying as she held me tight. The story
- of Owen’s fatal fall was covered by news outlets worldwide, all of which were asking if pro wrestling
- had gone too far.
- When Owen had been dying in Kansas City, Martha had been home packing for the big move into
- their new dream house, across the road from what used to be Clearwater Beach. Leaving the media
- circus at Hart house, I drove over to see her. I was amazed by her composure. She had already called
- a lawyer friend of hers by the name of Pam Fischer to seek legal advice. I watched the news with
- Martha and there, on camera, was Davey, looking much better than he had in a long while. I couldn’t
- believe it when Davey said that Owen’s death was just an accident, and that it was nobody’s fault.
- Who was Davey to say whose fault it was, when the police were still investigating what had
- happened? Davey then vowed that he’d return to the WWF to win a title in Owen’s honor.
- I left Martha to go to see my own kids. Owen was their closest uncle and, like the rest of the Hart
- grandkids, they were taking it hard. Perhaps it was a blessing that Owen’s own children, Oje and
- Athena, were still too young to really understand that their dad was never coming back. When Julie
- comforted me, I broke down crying hard, sitting on the front steps. It felt somehow like I was
- responsible.
- Because of my experience dealing with the media, Martha asked me to be a spokesperson for
- herself and her family. In the days after Owen died, I asked Marcy to relocate permanently to
- Calgary to run my office and be my personal assistant; I got her a ticket on the next flight out of New
- York. I did Good Morning America at four a.m., Calgary time, in Stu’s living room with Martha and
- my parents. I arrived unshaven and weary. Martha’s lawyers were there to guard against anything
- being said that could jeopardize her legal standing with the WWF, so I focused on how the business
- had strayed too far from the premise of two athletes telling a story using only their bodies. Pro
- wrestling had become a can-you-top-this ratings war of increasingly more dangerous stunts and
- sleazy storylines. Owen was no stuntman and clearly someone didn’t know what they were doing. A
- union for wrestlers was long overdue, I said. At least if we had one, there’d be guidelines to
- distinguish between wrestling and stunt work, and there would be protection when someone got
- hurt.
- Meanwhile, Vince left me numerous phone messages pleading with me to call him back. I couldn’t
- bring myself to do it until I had a better idea of his role in Owen’s death.
- On Thursday morning, May 27, Martha asked me to come with her to meet the plane that was
- bringing Owen home. We watched as the closed casket, draped with a big Canadian flag, was placed
- into a hearse. The next morning at the viewing, I stared down at Owen in his coffin laying there with
- his fingers laced across his chest. It didn’t look like him. When I kissed his cold cheek, it struck me
- that my little brother felt like a porcelain doll. Smoothing his hair, I kept asking, “Ahh, Owen, what
- were you thinking?”
- I finally relented enough on the Vince front to have Carlo arrange to have Vince meet me on a park
- bench overlooking the Bow River where I’d spent so much time thinking about what Vince had done
- to me. Soon, three limos pulled up at my old house, and I led them to the park. A Calgary policeman
- told me, some time later, that Vince had hired him and some under-cover cops to stake out our
- meeting in case I got violent. Apparently Vince was wearing a wire: The cop said he heard every
- word of our meeting and had been impressed with my dignity.
- That whole May was cold in Calgary, and the backdrop of our meeting was a watercolor sky of ashen
- gray and swollen, black, angry clouds that would be crying along with us before long. Vince wore a
- long, heavy coat. He slapped me hard on the shoulders, hugged me and told me how sorry he was.
- “This is the worst thing to ever happen in the business, to the nicest guy who was ever in the
- business.”
- He asked me if he should go to Stu’s, and I suggested that he might want to wait until after the
- funeral. I’d left Hart house not an hour earlier and Bruce and Ellie were still screaming for his head,
- but I didn’t see the need to tell Vince that. When I asked him what happened, he told me he didn’t
- know all the details, he was in makeup at the time. I told him that, in all likelihood, Martha would be
- suing him. I gave him fair warning that if he had anything to tell me, he should go ahead, but that we
- didn’t need to talk about it. He accepted that and seemed to relax a little.
- I told Vince that I didn’t appreciate that they went on with the show after Owen died. He replied
- that nobody knew what to do, they were so shocked; and they were afraid the fans might riot if he
- stopped the show. That struck me as ridiculous, and I said that if Shane had been dropped from the
- ceiling, Vince would have stopped it fast. He stared out at the river and simply said, “We didn’t know
- what to do.”
- I also didn’t appreciate them airing a replay for profit either, and I didn’t like watching Raw the day
- after Owen’s death, when wrestlers sick with grief were given no choice about pouring their hearts
- out on live TV for ratings. I said a more fitting tribute to Owen would have been to celebrate his
- career by showing his matches.
- Then I sighed and told Vince that this never would have happened to Owen if I’d been there. Owen
- always came to me for advice, and I would have shot such a stupid idea down fast.
- Vince finally admitted, though I didn’t know whether I could believe him, that “There isn’t a day that
- goes by that I don’t regret what I did to you. You need to come back and finish your career with me. I
- could put the belt back on you. . . . I could have a storyline for you by tomorrow morning.”
- I couldn’t imagine getting back in the ring ever again, I replied, and aside from that I’d just resigned
- with WCW for another two years.
- Vince seemed to mean it when he asked if there was anything he could do for me. When I still
- worked for him, we talked about doing a Best of Bret Hart video collection, but that was more than
- unlikely after Montreal. I didn’t have much of a history if Vince locked up everything I did in a
- warehouse somewhere. “Well, it would mean a lot to me if I could have access to my video history
- and photos whenever I need them . . .”
- He cut me off, “Anything you want.”
- “I don’t want to lose my legacy. I don’t want to be forgotten . . .”
- He waved me off. “You don’t even need to ask. Anything you want.”
- I found myself thanking him and telling him how much this simple gesture meant to me, especially
- under the circumstances. If the police cleared Vince, then maybe I could forgive him.
- After two hours on that park bench, exchanging stories about Owen and finally even managing to
- laugh a little—for better or worse, Vince and I had fourteen years of shared history—we shook
- hands and headed back to our cars.
- The WWF wrestlers and a lot of the crew and office staff made the long flight to Calgary for Owen’s
- funeral. The May 31Raw was already in the can, but Nitro was live and Eric left a message for me
- apologizing for not being able to attend. To his credit Hulk arrived in town quietly, on his own with
- no fanfare.
- On Monday morning, May 31, I got up from my dining-room table, where I’d been writing the
- finishing touches of a eulogy to my brother, and went out for a walk. The Calgary sky was as gray as
- my mood and it cried tears from heaven on and off all day. When I got back I donned my best suit
- and drove over to Stu’s to meet the motorcade. A dozen perfectly polished white limousines were
- lined up in Stu’s front driveway, into which climbed various Harts all dressed in black. I was annoyed
- when I saw Ellie and Diana guiding Vince by the arm into Stu’s limo; as far as I was concerned, he
- was far from forgiven yet.
- Tension was smoldering among the siblings. I’d heard various rumors that Diana was pissed off
- because I’d got so much more TV time all week than anyone else. Bruce was upset because Martha
- wouldn’t let him speak at the service. And Smith, who’d written a poem for Owen, was crushed
- when Martha told him he couldn’t read it. Martha did ask both Ross and I to speak, and she
- requested that I tell some lighthearted stories about Owen before she delivered her own eulogy.
- Unfortunately, all these little things that I did to oblige Martha were only getting me heat from the
- rest of the family. It wasn’t as though I wanted to be on TV right after my brother died, and I
- dreaded having to be on Larry King Live immediately after the funeral. All I wanted was to be left
- alone to grieve like everybody else.
- The line of cars grew longer with each passing mile of the procession, with media and police
- helicopters overhead. The WWF wrestlers followed in a bus that bore a banner proclaiming, OWEN
- YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN OUR HEARTS. All that banner really told me was that Vince was treating the
- funeral as much as an exercise in damage control as it was about laying my brother to rest.
- This was one of the biggest funerals that Calgary had ever seen, and people lined the motorcade
- route, many in their finest clothes, some bowing their heads and others holding signs. The Calgary
- police, in dress uniforms, closed major highways and provided a motorcycle escort all the way to the
- McInnis ; Holloway funeral chapel, which was surrounded by thousands of people of all ages and
- walks of life. The chapel only held three hundred, so a separate room with TV monitors was provided
- for the WWF personnel and a PA system was set up outside for the public.
- I remember seeing a blur of old and young battered faces. Owen’s close pal Chris Benoit stood with
- Killer Kowalski, The Funks, Mick Foley, Taker, Bad News, Jericho, Hunter, Chyna and a cavalcade of
- other wrestlers.
- The next thing I remember clearly is the heartfelt vow with which Martha closed her eulogy: “There
- will be a day of reckoning. This is my final promise to Owen. I won’t let him down!”
- The six remaining Hart brothers carried Owen’s casket out of the chapel. It was the heaviest weight
- any of us had ever carried.
- The procession then wound its way to Queen’s Park Cemetery, where I’d so long ago raked leaves
- from headstones and made the decision to give the wacky world of wrestling a try. Tears filled my
- eyes when I saw a military officer in full dress uniform standing on an overpass at attention, saluting.
- After Owen was lowered into the ground, the motorcade headed to Hart house, where friends and
- family from around the world gathered. It wasn’t long before Pat Patterson came to find me. He
- wanted to tell me that he wasn’t in on what happened to me in Mont-real, but he shut up when I
- asked coldly, “So, where were you when they brought the midget out all dressed up as me?”
- Finally, after doing Larry King Live from Martha’s living room, I went home totally spent. I found a
- FedEx package from Carlo sitting at my doorstep among a forest of floral deliveries. I opened it to
- find Owen’s bloody Blue Blazer gear inside. I held up the bloodstained blue mask that’d been cut off
- my brother, remembering that it was originally my idea for Owen to wear a mask. I grabbed my coat,
- got away from the smell of all those flowers, and went for a long, long walk.
- Smith’s Poem for Owen
- Once you were here
- What a difference you made, dearest of dear brothers.
- To the hell that was raised when a dozen then played without any others.
- Only heaven knows why you got chosen,
- and that you’ll await us is our belief.
- I smell lily and rose and read each and every heartfelt card,
- through flows of grief.
- What is spoken is tasted
- and what is heard of your greatness is felt deep within our heavy hearts
- and certainly all around this solemn gathering.
- As I still try to write in this, the 13th hour, Owen
- And search for words of praise and worth,
- I sense your presence pure and sweet.
- Owen, don’t think I don’t know
- that you are haunting our house already.
- Sadly, I’d lose more family than Owen after his death.
- That Wednesday morning, tears came to my eyes reading about my brother’s funeral in the morning
- papers while listening to Tom Petty sing about having a room at the top of the world and not comin’
- down. I’d be leaving for Missouri the next day with Martha, Pam Fischer and Ed Pipella, Martha’s
- other Calgary lawyer. I had no misgivings about supporting Martha, who was determined to see the
- WWF pay dearly for destroying her life and her husband. I also needed someone to tell me for sure
- that Owen had not been murdered in some way. So I swore to Martha that I would be there for her
- no matter what happened, but I was having a tough time trying to get some of the Harts to stop
- talking to the media about Owen’s death.
- Still, my kids were over for a visit, and the sound of them playing lifted my spirits. I remembered
- how, whenever we landed in Calgary, Owen would grab his two carry-on bags, ready to race down
- the ramp as soon as the plane doors opened because Martha and the kids were always there
- waiting. As I flipped through the Calgary Herald, I couldn’t get over the smiling face of my sister
- Diana, looking way too happy for the occasion as she posed with a bunch of sad wrestlers flanking a
- deflated Stu. There was a quote from Diana in the paper that made my blood boil: “Dad is like a
- father figure to Vince and Vince felt like Owen was one of his sons.” Why couldn’t they just say “no
- comment,” at least until the criminal investigation was over and we knew whether any charges
- would be laid against Vince or his organization? This was what Owen’s widow had asked us all to do!
- I phoned Diana and I wasn’t surprised that she turned on me like a grass fire. She blistered my heart
- when she tore into me about how Owen was a better wrestler than me and that I was jealous and
- had always held him back. She defended Vince, saying that this was no different than if Owen had hit
- his head in a cage match—accidents happen!
- “All you have to say is no comment,” I said. “How hard is that, Diana? Vince hasn’t even been
- cleared of criminal charges.”
- “You hold it against Vince for what he did to you at Survivor Series because you didn’t want to do a
- job for Shawn Michaels. You’ve got a vendetta and you’re the only one that wants to sue anybody.”
- “Diana, this is about Martha. It’s her decision!”
- Then Ellie was suddenly on the extension, and I shouldn’t have been so hurt or surprised when she
- coldly fired back, “You know, Bret, I’ve hated your guts since the day you were born and I’m glad to
- tell you that.” I listened to them both screaming and yelling and it felt as though someone was
- pouring scalding water down my back. I was trying so hard to stand up for the whole family, to make
- them proud, and what I was asking Ellie and Diana to do was only what Owen would have asked of
- them himself, if he could have. I rose, clutching the phone, and erupted in a loud, booming voice, “If
- you two think for one minute that you’re going to use Owen’s death to get your husbands jobs, if
- you don’t support Martha and Owen’s kids right now, I will never, ever talk to either of you ever
- again!”
- I slammed the phone down hard, then sat with my hands trembling as my kids all gathered around
- to comfort me. Then I actually called my mom to tell her the vicious, biting words that Ellie and
- Diana had said to me, as though I were a little kid again. She told me that she and Stu were firm in
- their decision to support Martha; it was the only thing to do; it was their decision; and it had nothing
- to do with me at all.
- “Why do they all hate me so much?” I asked, and she broke down. “Dawling, they’re all just so damn
- jealous of you. Jealousy is an ugly thing, and some of your brothers and sisters are infected with it.
- They don’t mean it, they just wish that they could all be like you and have what you have.” And then
- she comforted me as best she could.
- In Kansas City the next day, Martha and I and her Calgary lawyers met Garry and Anita Robb, highly
- respected Missouri counsel who hoped to be hired to handle Martha’s case. At noon we all went to
- a Kansas City police station where they showed us the flimsy sailboat clip the riggers used to attach
- Owen’s harness to a single cable. The chief of police and a room full of detectives explained what
- they thought happened. Some of the cops in that meeting had been in the ring with Owen less than
- forty seconds after he hit the mat and they did everything they could to try to save his life.
- I had heard that he was supposed to do the stunt with the same Mexican midget they paraded out
- as me after Montreal scissored between his legs, and was shocked when the cops confirmed it. The
- midget had only been nixed that afternoon. The officers calmly explained that Owen had been alive
- after he hit the ring and that he lay there for eight minutes with a severed aorta, his lungs filling with
- blood until he drowned. He had tried to sit up, to reassure the fans, but he couldn’t. The impact
- when he hit the ring smashed almost all the heavy wooden ring planks and loosened all the ropes
- like they were rubber bands.
- We were also told that criminal charges weren’t likely to be laid but hadn’t been ruled out.
- Afterwards, the Robbs took us to Kemper Arena. As we headed up to the catwalk, Ed Pipella noticed
- a creepy insurance adjuster tagging along with us. When Ed quizzed him about who he was and what
- he was doing there, it turned into an ugly scuffle until security dragged the adjuster off.
- It was a long climb to the top of the building. I wanted to get to the exact spot where Owen had
- fallen and started up a steep ladder to the catwalk. My stomach was queasy as I thought of a line
- from The English Patient, “If I gave you my life would you drop it?” Then it was a long, nerve-
- wracking walk along the catwalk to the score clock—and this was with the lights on. I could just
- imagine Owen having to race all the way up here as fast as he could in the dark, dressed in bulky
- coveralls, with a baseball cap pulled down to hide his face from the fans. Climbing over the railing of
- the catwalk must have been a terrifying moment. Standing next to the score clock, I looked out to
- where he would have hung. I pictured him fidgeting with his cape, breathing hard from the sprint up
- and then—ping—the sailboat clip holding his full weight released prematurely: the deep breaths he
- was taking would have provided more than the eight pounds of pressure the clip was designed to
- take. The riggers happened to be looking away at that moment, and when they turned back they
- were aghast to see that he was already falling, clawing at the air with his hands. I looked down and a
- chill went up my back wondering how in hell he let himself get talked into this. If Montreal never
- happened, I thought, and I had still been in the WWF, I would’ve stopped this from ever happening
- to Owen!
- By the time I got home, I was even more distraught and wildly confused. Owen had been so straight
- and so good, whereas I had always broken the rules, always been a bad boy, drinking, doing drugs
- and cheating on my wife. Why would God take the best one? Owen once said, “You can be a good
- person and do everything right and it doesn’t guarantee you anything.” Since his death, the Harts
- were forming into backstabbing cliques of their own, with Ellie and Diana fiercely demanding that
- Martha and my parents settle with Vince immediately, extolling the head of the WWF as some kind
- of saint who loved all the Harts.
- Not surprisingly, a desperate Bruce, with his wrestling school and the broken-down vestiges of the
- Stampede Wrestling promotion, was looking for Vince to fund him in some way. Smith was talking
- about suing Vince because, he claimed, he and Owen were going to open a wrestling school
- together. Owen wouldn’t have opened up a lemonade stand with Smith! Every time I encountered
- them at Hart house, Ellie and Diana demanded that I fill them in on the details of the lawsuit, yet
- every time I tried to make Martha’s case, it turned into a shouting match, which only upset my
- parents and the grandkids. If Martha could’ve been a little kinder to them, instead of propping me
- up to take the heat, she might have avoided a lot of heartache, for herself and everyone else. But
- really, this whole thing should have had nothing to do with the other Hart siblings, or me.
- In one of her many curt phone messages, Ellie implored me: “I’ve got the right to feed my family,
- and my dealings with Vince McMahon don’t have anything to do with you, and nothing to do with
- Owen’s death. Not everyone wants you to be their spokesperson.” Ellie and Diana soon had Vince
- convinced that I was the driving force behind Martha’s lawsuit. After Owen died, we had reached a
- delicate détente about my archive of matches for the WWF, which Vince totally controlled, and he
- had been on the verge of agreeing that I could have access to them. Now the WWF’s in-house law-
- yer told my lawyer, Gord Kirke, that Vince simply had no recollection of any conversation with me on
- the subject. Vince now saw me as the enemy and seemed determined to make me suffer, as if I
- hadn’t suffered enough.
- Eric asked me to fly down and meet him in Chicago on June 25 to talk about where I was at. It was
- still nearly impossible for me even to think about getting back into the ring, but as the days passed, I
- realized that it wasn’t right for me or my fans to let Owen’s tragic death be the end of my career.
- Eric had been incredibly kind after Owen’s death, telling me to take all the time I needed, and I
- didn’t want to leave him in the lurch either.
- At our meeting, Hulk was friendly and told me that he was anxious to finally work with me in the fall
- that year. Eric talked about putting the World title on me, but he understood that I wasn’t ready to
- commit to anything yet and that I still needed time to heal physically and emotionally. Both of them
- listened empathetically as I told them about the problems in the Hart family since Owen’s death and
- that Vince had offered jobs to both Jim and Davey, in effect bribing Ellie and Diana to be on his side
- against Owen’s widow. Eric kindly said if it would help the situation, he’d hire Jim back and told me
- to have Jim give him a call. I left, shaking both their hands, content to show up at the Georgia Dome
- on July 5 for an in-ring interview on Nitro. Eric told me I could say anything I wanted wrestling fans
- around the world to hear. For the next ten days I thought about it almost all the time. I really didn’t
- know what I’d say. Maybe it would be good-bye.
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- “WATCH THE KICK!”
- WHEN I WALKED INTO THE DRESSING ROOM at the Georgia Dome, the boys rose from their chairs,
- one after another, to offer heartfelt condolences. In that moment, as in too many others, I felt more
- support and unity from my wrestling brothers than from my blood siblings. It meant so much to me
- when Randy Savage gave me a hug, with tears in his eyes. “Brother, I’m so sorry.” Jim Duggan put his
- hand on my shoulder. “Sorry man!” (Hacksaw had beaten the cancer and was now back at work,
- minus his right kidney.)
- Before I knew it, I was caught up trading Owen stories with Randy, Hacksaw, Crush and Brian
- Knobbs. I felt safe being back with the men who truly understood this life. These were my brothers
- from other mothers.
- Suddenly, I was called out to do my interview. My terrible WCW entrance music rumbled and the
- crowd cheered as I made my way up the aisle, still having no idea what I was going to say! This was
- going to be a shot from the heart. Without even thinking about it, that day I left The Hitman behind
- and for the first time came out to the ring as Bret Hart, as real as real can be. No Hitman shades,
- leather jacket, ring gear, hair gel—not even the strut and the attitude. I did all I could not to break
- down as twenty-five thousand fans grew still for me, and for Owen.
- And so, I learned at the same time as the fans did what was in my heart and on my mind. I told them
- what Owen meant to me and that I was at a crossroads in my life and I just didn’t know if I’d ever be
- back. “I’m gonna take some time, put things in perspective, but if I never get the chance to ever say
- it again, I just want to thank all my fans everywhere that I ever had and still have. You’ve been with
- me from the very start and if this is the last chance I ever get to talk to all my fans all over the world,
- thank you very, very much. I wanna thank all the wrestlers in dressing rooms all over the world, it
- was a pleasure to work with each and every one of you. I hope I wasn’t too stiff!”
- I returned home to find another phone message from Ellie: “I want to know what’s going on with the
- lawsuit. I want to find out what options Mom and Dad have. If you want to go through with this five
- or six years down the road, even two years, it’s taking its toll on Dad and we need to discuss this. It’s
- not the only way to go. Enlighten me a bit. Di and me haven’t done anything yet. We’ve got a bad
- rap. No more stress on Dad.”
- What was I to make of that?
- When I called my mom, she said, “I just wake up every day and try to live with it all day long all over
- again.” Stu was never the same after Owen died. My mom wept, a few weeks later, when I confided
- to her that I’d been talking to Senator Harry Hayes’s office in Ottawa and that they were in the
- process of nominating Stu for the Order of Canada, the highest civilian medal of honor in the
- country, in recognition of the lifetime of charity work my dad had done.
- My mom said that I needed to remember that she and Stu were with me 100 percent, and that they
- were suing the WWF along with Martha. In an attempt to ease the family tension, Martha’s lawyers
- were trying to work out an agreement that would allocate a portion of my parents’ settlement to
- each of the remaining siblings if Stu and Helen died before the suit was settled. But Ellie, Diana and
- Bruce refused to sign any such agreement. Before long, Ellie was calling Martha’s lawyers names
- again. The idea was scrubbed and the potential truce was quickly forgotten.
- On July 27, Vince coolly stated on Off The Record: “Out of respect for Owen, I met with Bret. Bret
- carried the entire conversation. I really thought he wanted to talk about Owen. . . . It was looking
- into the eyes of a skeleton, in some respects. It seemed like he wasn’t human. It was a very weird
- experience.” Vince went on to pretty much blame me for everything related to Martha’s lawsuit. I
- was already mad that he’d reneged on his promise to give me access to my footage, but when he
- referred to me as a skeleton and to my not being human, my anger flared into real hatred. But as far
- as criminal responsibility for Owen’s death went, four days later he was in the clear. After two
- months, on July 31, then and only then did the Kansas City Police determine that there wasn’t
- enough evidence for criminal charges against Vince.
- WCW called me out of the blue to come work some house shows with Hogan; I actually looked
- forward to going back on the road. At the Cow Palace in San Francisco, Hogan did all he could to
- show me he could work a realistic style. It’s fair to say that nobody, especially Terry, wanted the
- boys to come back saying how bad it was, because almost nobody ever had a bad match with me. It
- seemed to loosen everybody up when I took to the blackboard again, drawing Knobbs with ten
- penises and a speech balloon that read, “Now you know why they call me Knobbs.” A lot of the
- WCW boys had only heard about the cartoons I used to draw in the WWF dressing rooms, and it was
- nice to see Sting and the rest of the boys crack up laughing.
- I wasn’t the only Hart-affiliated wrestler to return to the ring. Flying the couple in to New York City
- so that Davey could do an interview with the WWF magazine, Vince put Davey and Diana up at the
- Waldorf Astoria. In the interview Davey again did what Martha asked him specifically not to do,
- declaring that Owen’s death was nobody’s fault. He also garnered headlines in the Calgary papers
- about his courageous comeback.
- I did some Florida dates leading to Nitro in Miami on September 6. Eric said he wanted me to work a
- hero-versus-hero concept for a couple of months, leading into Halloween Havoc. The hope was that
- the good reaction at the house shows with Hogan might help turn WCW’s sagging business around.
- When I walked into Eric’s office at Miami Nitro, I hadn’t been seen on TV since the interview in
- which I’d said I wasn’t sure if I’d ever wrestle again. I waited around all day until Eric finally broke the
- news that I would be part of a heel run-in. I said, “After all these months I’ve come here to do
- what?” Given all that had happened, having me do a run-in on someone else’s match would have
- been an incredible waste, and really dumb booking.
- At 7:59, one minute before the live show started, Eric decided that I should do an interview, and
- then walked alongside me to the TV entranceway inventing what he wanted me to say. I walked out
- to a good pop from the crowds but went into the ring and cut a shitty promo, talking about how I
- was coming back soon but I didn’t know when. What should’ve been a huge kickoff for my return
- was just terrible.
- I think Eric knew his days were numbered. First his boss, Harvey Schiller, was gone, then on
- September 10, Eric was too. Bill Bush, who’d been WCW’s head accountant, took over from Eric, and
- the first thing he did was hire Vince McMahon’s now-former scriptwriter, Vince Russo. Russo, a thin
- New Yorker with a black beard and mustache, liked to dress only in black and had the air of a carnie
- magician. It was Russo who’d come up with the idea for the Blue Blazer to descend from the rafters
- in Kansas City. As soon as Owen landed in the ring, he was supposed to trip and fall as a spoof on
- wrestling superheros. That’s why there had been no safety line—Owen had to release himself
- quickly so he could deliver Russo’s pratfall. I’m not laying blame here. It’s punishment enough that
- Russo has to live with the knowledge of his role in Owen’s death.
- I saw a long, empty road ahead. The business was more dead to me than it had ever been before,
- but I still cared enough about my career that I wanted to have one last great match. I knew the
- Kemper Arena was the best place to do it, and that Chris Benoit was the only guy to do it with: a
- tribute match for Owen right there in front of the fans who watched him die.
- I knew the end of my career wasn’t so far away anymore. I could still put out, but I could feel the
- pain every night and I couldn’t truthfully make the claim that I was the best in the business anymore.
- Wrestlers seemed so much more reckless now, and the business had sunk even deeper into violence
- and sleaze. Often, there was no attempt at realism, which couldn’t have been more clear than on
- September 14 when Vince himself defeated Hunter to become WWF World Champion. Wrestling
- belts were just props now.
- I actually had to talk WCW into letting me work with Chris Benoit in honor of Owen. Like anything
- else that made sense, it took them a while even to get behind it, and it was Chris who got them to do
- it. Chris had never forgotten that Stu, and Bruce, had got him into the business. Wrestling, old style,
- was all about trust and respect, the business of very tough men who could set aside those prized
- reputations when they needed to do so in order to make each other and the business. Benoit,
- despite being a young man, was old school. I wanted the Benoit match to honor my dad, the workers
- of his generation, the boys in the dressing room, those old-time fans—and, most of all, Owen.
- October 4, 1999. Kemper Arena. I could feel Owen’s spirit there with me, and that he was really
- looking forward to watching this match. I didn’t want to disappoint him, but I’d been off for so long
- that my conditioning and timing weren’t the best. I said a prayer, asking for Owen to help me out. I’d
- also invited Harley to be the special guest announcer, and he’d driven for three hours with a bad
- back to be there.
- The fans were respectful and quiet when Chris and I started. The fact was, they weren’t used to
- babyface contests anymore and it was a hard sell. Too bad, I told them in my head, you’re getting an
- old-time match whether you like it or not!
- Twenty minutes later, we had the crowd riveted to every move as we neared the finish. Mickey Jay,
- the ref, gave us the cue and after a hard-fought battle, Chris went for his crippler finish. I blocked it,
- tripping him backward to the mat. I sprawled over Chris and somehow came up with the
- sharpshooter, and the Kemper Arena crowd rose as one and cheered for both of us as Chris tapped
- out. I could feel Owen’s presence. I looked up, fighting off tears, and gave Owen one last wave. Then
- I hugged Chris, who broke down crying. “Chris, he’s up there right now watching us.” I somehow
- knew that this would be my last beautiful moment in the ring, ever. Back home in the kitchen at Hart
- house, my mom and Stu, too frail to attend, watched with tears in their eyes.
- The WWF’s legal eagles countersued Martha for U.S.$75,000, plus costs, which could easily add up
- to millions if she lost. They asserted that Owen’s contract stated any litigation against the WWF
- under its terms would be brought in its home state, Connecticut, where punitive damages weren’t
- awarded. Martha’s legal team argued that the contract was terminated when Owen died, that it did
- not cover negligence by the defendant outside the ring and that since Owen died in Missouri and the
- suit was filed in Missouri, it should be heard in Missouri. On October 23, Yokozuna died of a massive
- heart attack in a sleazy London hotel. He was thirty-four years old and at the time of his death he
- topped seven hundred pounds. On that same day, Vince McMahon offered shares of the WWF to
- the public and became a billionaire. Within days, Linda McMahon told CNBC that the McMahons
- would love to settle with Martha in a way that would take care of her and the children for the rest of
- their lives. But no such settlement had been offered, and one of her lawyers, Ed Pipella, fired back,
- in the Calgary Herald, that the WWF’s threatened countersuit could more than wipe her out
- financially, no matter what Linda’s fine sentiments were. At WCW, we were hanging on for dear life
- trying to put over Vince Russo’s weird story-lines. Russo thought his storylines had a lot to do with
- the WWF’s rise in the ratings war, but he didn’t get, and never would, that the best wrestling needed
- at least to pretend to be real. He had grand plans for me—as a heel. I told him the sympathy factor
- for me was too strong to pull off a heel turn, not to mention that I’d been turned so many times
- already. He still wanted to do this big angle on Nitro where I turned heel on Goldberg the day after
- Starrcade ’99 in Toronto. I hated it all, but I was so angry at McMahon that I hoped Russo could bring
- the company back to life with his radical soapopera booking. At the Halloween Havoc pay-per-view
- on October 24, he had me pretend to injure my ankle and give up to Lex in a single-leg Boston crab
- as part of the buildup. After the match, Liz gave me a big hug and told me she was sorry things had
- got so dark for me. “Things will get better,” she said, and she sweetly added that I had always been
- her favorite wrestler to watch. Her words meant a lot to me.
- The following night, I pulled up to the back of the building in Phoenix for Nitro, popped my trunk and
- got out to get my bag. One worried little boy, wearing Hitman shades pushed up on his forehead,
- stood blinking at me. “How’s your ankle, Hitman?” he said. I hardly pretended this stuff was real
- anymore, but as I lifted my bag I hissed, “It’s pretty sore.” After signing his shades, I limped painfully
- off: I had too much respect for both of us not to. I didn’t see enough real fans anymore.
- That night, Russo put together a storyline that had me face Goldberg with my “bad” ankle. I wasn’t
- too keen on getting hurt by Goldberg for real; he’d already hurt three or four guys, including nearly
- breaking Haku’s neck. I liked Goldberg, but I was going to use this opportunity in Phoenix to feel him
- out in the ring.
- When I jumped on Goldberg’s back, I felt like a cowboy riding a Brahma bull at the Stampede. Bill’s
- neck was so thick it was hard for me to grip him in a sleeper. He reached up and yanked me down,
- taking out a referee. When I rolled out to the floor, Nash, Razor and Sid came charging out and after
- a tough stand Goldberg was laid out. I crawled back into the ring just before going off the air and
- covered Bill for the one . . . two . . . three. This would give me my second big win over him.
- As usual, there were messages from fans on my hotel phone that night, a lot of sincere good wishes
- and the usual number of women offering themselves up to me. Clearing my inbox, I hit the gentle
- voice of a woman who called herself “The Nasty Girl,” telling me once again that she was going to
- make all my sexual dreams come true. She’d been leaving me messages after every Nitro for
- months. She called me again later that night and got me on the phone. I tried to be nice, but I finally
- had to be blunt with her and hung up. Some fans I’d limp for, others I had no time for at all.
- On November 2, I jetted off to England to attend the U.K. premiere of Wrestling with Shadows.
- Meanwhile, a compelling documentary that Paul put together on Owen, which included interview
- footage of Owen that had not been used in Shadows, was shown on TV in Canada and the United
- States. While in England, I finally had a chance to catch up with Dynamite on the phone and told him
- I’d be more than happy to pay for any back surgery that might help him get out of his wheelchair,
- but he said there was nothing that could be done. He told me he’d written a book, and laughed
- about how he was going to include a story about Stu scooping up cat shit with a spatula while
- making eggs for him. Stu was such a wounded soul right now though that I worried that Dynamite
- telling a ridiculous story like that would be hard on his already broken heart. (Later, I read
- Dynamite’s book, and the story was there, along with all kinds of other nasty and depressing stuff. I
- have not talked to him since.) November 19, 1999. I stood talking with Ric Flair, who I was going to
- work with that night. As he knew, I loved to hear stories of wrestling history, and he was telling
- about what happened when he finally got his chance to work with the real “Nature Boy,” Buddy
- Rogers. Rogers had walked away from the business after a falling out with the Crocketts, and was
- only coming back for this one match where he was about to put Flair over. Before they started,
- Rogers grabbed Flair by the wrists, looked him square in the eye and said, “Just remember, kid,
- there’s only one Nature Boy!” I glanced at Flair, wondering how long it had been since anyone had
- called him a kid. There was only one Nature Boy and it wasn’t Ric Flair. I respected Ric for hanging
- on, but I vowed that no-body would see me wrestle old. Julie, my kids and my nephew Marek, Tom’s
- son with Michelle, all flew in for the big night in Toronto, on November 21, where I was slated to win
- the WCW World title.
- I won my match with Sting after all kinds of hokey interference, then took on Chris Benoit in the
- final. Chris and I worked a good solid match, with me finally fighting off his crippler and slapping on
- the sharpshooter. Chris tapped out, I rolled off and Mickey Jay handed me the World title. Twenty
- thousand Toronto fans stood in one long, rousing cheer, wanting to believe that this moment really
- did mean something. I held open the ropes as Julie, my kids, Marek and Wayne Gretzky’s kids all
- climbed into the ring to celebrate my sixth World title win. (Wayne and his children had been invited
- to the show, and though Wayne couldn’t make it, his kids had spent the day hanging around with
- mine, and I invited them to join in.) When I came back to the dressing room, Curt Hennig was there
- to greet me with a handshake. “You’re the iron man, Hitman! I don’t know how you keep doin’ it!”
- The next day Julie and the kids went home and I headed off to Detroit for Nitro. On the moving
- sidewalk at the airport, I noticed a heavy-set black woman glaring at me and studied her stare long
- enough to remember it.
- At Cobo Hall, I kept my babyface storyline going even though Nash and Razor always arrived on the
- scene to interfere in my matches. The wrestling was silly, but I went along with it because that’s all I
- could do. Over the next few weeks I somehow even won the WCW Tag belts with Goldberg as my
- partner. After Nitro, I listened to a phone message from that Nasty Girl. She said she’d seen me at
- Detroit airport and she was furious because apparently I’d stood her up again: The next time she saw
- me I’d be a dead man! I’d received a lot of weird threatening messages in my time, but I put
- together the look I’d got at the airport with that scary message and a chill went down my back.
- I kept working as many house shows as I could because I wanted to whittle down the number of
- days I was required to work in order to have more time off in the summer. I worked some house
- shows with Goldberg down south in Alabama and Florida. Goldberg was no fun. Every night he
- mowed me down with his full-contact spear tackle, only to have Razor, Nash and Sid run in for the
- DQ to save the belt for me.
- Starrcade ’99 came on December 19, 1999, at the MCI Center in Washington, D.C. I sat on my bench
- strapping on my knee brace, wrapping my battered wrists and knees. My ribs were sore from
- Goldberg spearing me; they’d been tender for at least ten years, ever since Dino Bravo knocked me
- into that steel fence back in 1989. I stretched and paced as I waited for my match with Goldberg.
- “Whatever you do out there, Bill, don’t hurt me,” I said. I really wanted this to be a great match.
- The storyline called for the referee to get hurt and be replaced three times, with Roddy coming out
- at the end. After wiping out the first ref, Goldberg and I brawled out on the floor, but once the
- replacement ref showed up Goldberg tossed me back in the ring, like a suitcase. He reminded me of
- the gorilla on that old Samsonite luggage commercial. Then he had me backed into a corner and
- drilled me with an elbow smash that I can only compare to someone swinging a pillowcase full of
- bricks. It was a stiff blow that left me dazed. Goldberg knew it too and whispered in my ear, “Sorry,
- brother.”
- He grabbed me in a front face lock and wrenched me backwards, wiping out the second referee. I
- was still groggy as I pulled myself up, and I barely moved out of the way in time as Goldberg charged
- me in the corner, nearly hitting his head on the post. The impact shook the whole ring, and he was
- lucky he didn’t really hurt himself. I slid out to the floor and pulled his legs toward the post to do my
- figure four around the post. I threw one foot up on the apron and felt Goldberg grab it like I’d told
- him to, but when I fell backwards he let go! My head thumped hard on the padded floor and all my
- weight buckled on top of me like an accordion. The crowd was chanting “Goldberg!” as I pulled
- myself up. I had to carry on. This was my heat.
- To give myself time to recuperate, I rolled Goldberg in and began fiercely working his leg—neither
- the crowd nor Goldberg had any idea that I was hurt. He snatched me by the throat and gave me a
- couple of punches as the third referee tried to break us up. I snapped a boot into his knee, fired him
- into the ropes and as he reversed me, I heard him call, “Watch the kick!” I had no idea what kind of a
- kick he meant and there wasn’t much room coming off the ropes. Goldberg was standing in the
- middle of the ring, standing sideways to me, and his right foot flew just under my right hand, which
- I’d thrown up in an attempt to shield my face.
- WHAAAAM!
- I felt like someone chopped me with a hockey stick, an agonizing blow that sent me crashing to the
- mat where I lay holding my neck just behind my right ear at the base of my skull.
- I was thinking, I’ve got to get up for the finish . . . but I can’t remember what it is!
- I got up anyway, just in time for Goldberg to spear-tackle me like someone running me over with a
- car. The ref was still down and Goldberg played to the crowd. Right on cue, out came Roddy, doing
- his best John Wayne imitation, making his way down the aisle in a referee shirt. I have a foggy
- recollection of clipping Goldberg from behind and quickly twisting him into the sharpshooter. The
- crowd was confused when Roddy didn’t even wait for Goldberg to give up to signal for the bell.
- When Roddy took the belt and headed back down the aisle, I was as confused as the booing fans. I
- jumped out after Roddy. I felt nauseous, and my head was throbbing and my vision blurred, but I
- managed to race up and grab him before he cleared the curtain, where he handed me the belt. On
- autopilot, I followed the script, but I was totally out of it as I stumbled through the curtain.
- I was dazed and glassy eyed and my neck was killing me. The dressing room was almost empty
- because the boys had rushed to beat the crowd out of the building, except for Roddy and the WCW
- trainer, Danny Coach Young. I told Danny I had hurt my neck, and he apologized because all he could
- do was hand me a few packets of Advil. I was in such a fuzzy state of mind, I barely remember
- handing Marcy the car keys because I knew I wasn’t capable of driving back to the hotel. As we made
- our way through the dark, in an icy rain, I was slurring my speech and Marcy was very worried. She
- wanted me to see a doctor, but I thought—in the way you think when you’ve just suffered a severe
- concussion only you don’t realize it yet—that I’d just take it slow and see how I felt in the morning.
- When I staggered through the sliding doors of the Marriott, the fans, who usually stampede over top
- of one another to get pictures or autographs, stopped in their tracks. Clearly something wasn’t right
- about me. The lobby was a blur, and the walls of my room were spinning when I dropped my bag
- and passed out on the bed.
- I woke up around five the next morning still in my clothes, drenched in sweat, with a pounding
- headache and an aching throb in the back of my neck. I slept miserably for a couple more hours and
- when I checked out, the front desk gave me a message from that crazy Nasty Girl. Her note said that
- she’d caught a bus all the way up from Detroit after I supposedly stood her up the second time and
- included an even more disturbing death threat than the first one.
- It was ingrained in my nature just to keep on going, so I showed up at the building in Baltimore, still
- too out of it to know how out of it I really was. I went over everything with Russo as he set the stage
- for my heel turn. After the horrible finish the night before, I forfeited the World title on Nitro and
- gave Goldberg an immediate rematch. It was a total farce, with Nash and Hall hitting the ring and me
- double-crossing Goldberg again for a flat ending.
- The next day in Salisbury, Maryland, for Thunder, I told Russo that I was badly hurt from Goldberg’s
- kick and that I thought I might have a concussion. He still wanted me to work a match with Benoit,
- with Jeff Jarrett coming out to double-team him. Goldberg would charge out and spear Jarrett while
- I fled the scene with cameras following and Goldberg coming after me in hot pursuit. I’d race to my
- rented Cadillac, which would be parked on the back ramp with the keys in the ignition, and just as
- Goldberg reached my car I’d zoom out of the building. We’d go off the air with a seething Goldberg
- punching out the windows of a limo, a sharp steel gimmick hidden in his fist.
- While Russo went over everything, I reasoned (in the foggy way a concussed person reasons) that I
- could do all that easy enough. All I could think about was getting home for Christmas. That night I
- had a good solid match with Benoit, who did his best to take it easy. Jarrett came out and then the
- one-man tank, Goldberg. When Goldberg speared Jeff, I ran down the aisle, jumped in my car and
- floored it out the back ramp just as Goldberg caught up and pounded furiously on my car windows.
- What nobody noticed was that as I pulled out, my car hit the icy pavement and I skidded out of
- control, having had no time to put on a seatbelt, so there I was with a concussion, barreling head-on
- towards a huge TV production truck! I thought of Owen in that instant. What would the world think
- if I got killed plowing my car into a TV truck for some stupid stunt? People would say, “You’d think
- Owen’s stupid brother would know better than that!”
- Luckily the tires hit a patch of dry pavement and I burned rubber past the truck to safety. Even with
- my head full of fuzz I was plenty pissed off and came steaming back to blast Russo, but I completely
- forgot about it when I saw a worried Goldberg holding his arm in the air with blood pouring
- everywhere. The gimmick he was using had failed to break the window, so Gold-berg decided that
- he’d simply break it himself. He did, but he sliced a twelve-inch gash the length of his forearm all the
- way to the bone. Paramedics tried to staunch the flow of blood and raced him to a hospital. I felt
- terrible for him; for the first time this big brute of a man looked very afraid as he was loaded into the
- ambulance. I showered and then left, not even remembering what it was that I’d been so livid about
- only minutes earlier—that I’d nearly got killed doing some stupid shit from the same screwball who
- scripted the stunt that killed Owen.
- I bought Julie a ring for Christmas, which she unfortunately took to mean more than I intended.
- When my mom called to congratulate me, I downplayed it. When it became clear that the ring was
- just a present, Julie’s disappointment put a damper on everything.
- Over Christmas at Stu’s, Ellie and I had another shouting match with Stu in the middle again. Stu was
- far more deaf than he was blind and he felt obligated to defend her, as he always did. I’d about had
- enough of Ellie. The way I tore into her put a scare into Stu. I shouted, “Ellie, this has nothing to do
- with you or me! This is all about Martha’s decision to sue Vince for killing her husband! Your
- brother! How in the hell can you work hand-in-hand with Vince against your dead brother’s wife and
- kids and your very own parents? How can you sleep at night?”
- “Real easy,” Ellie shot back.
- Stu, who couldn’t hear anything, kept defending her. “I don’t believe Ellie is doing that!”
- “Dad, she’ll tell you herself!”
- My mom took up for me, telling Ellie that she and Stu chose to support Martha and it had nothing to
- do with me. Ellie lashed out, accusing her of always taking my side. I’d had a nonstop headache from
- hell ever since Goldberg’s kick and by the end of this scene my head felt like it was going to explode.
- In Houston for Nitro on December 27, I went looking for Bill Bush and Vince Russo. I could barely
- remember Christmas, despite how crappy it was. I still wasn’t sleeping well, and my head was
- pounding with the constant pain in the back of my neck. I told Bush: “I’m not a stuntman, I’m a pro
- wrestler, and from now on everything I do needs to be done in the ring.” They both apologized
- profusely for the circumstances that put me in the state I was in; yet not ten minutes later, Russo
- told me that he needed me to drive a giant monster truck over the top of Sycho Sid’s rental car, with
- Sid in it! As out of it as I was, I looked at Russo and said, “Are you guys for real? I just told you that I
- don’t do stunts. I’m a goddamn wrestler.”
- On top of everything else, Russo was putting me with Jerry Flynn, an ex-kickboxer with limited pro
- wrestling ability. That night, while brawling out on the floor, Flynn leaped up with a spin kick and hit
- me so hard in the guts that I crumpled to the mat. I struggled to recover because either I had to or
- take more of the same. I finished the match, but I wondered why WCW thought the best way for me
- to get through my concussion was to work with a stiff rookie. Then I watched a fully loaded Cadillac
- with eleven miles on the odometer get crushed by the monster truck—all for a thirty-second ending
- to Nitro. Stu would’ve cried if he’d been there.
- The first night I was at home again, I had a fantastic dream. I was sitting with Owen at my kitchen
- table. He had on his favorite baggy blue sweatshirt, and we actually laughed and talked about all the
- problems in the family since he died. He shook his head as though we both knew this would happen
- and told me he never had any doubts that I’d be fending off various siblings. In the dream, I got to
- tell him how much I loved him and he seemed at peace, which did a lot for me and my shattered
- heart and battered brain.
- As the dream began to fade, I could feel myself pleading for it to keep going—don’t let me wake up, I
- have so much left to tell him—but it dissolved and Owen was gone. I woke up with the sense that
- we’d really talked. That morning I found a thank-you poem from Martha tucked in my front door.
- Bret’s Poem
- Let it be you
- who comes to bring the light, who
- guides me with his hand held tight
- let it be you
- who navigates through all the gray
- to help me see a better day
- let it be you
- who listens endlessly of broken lives
- and shattered dreams
- let it be you
- who sees the ugliness of people’s
- souls in times like this
- let it be you
- who’s tall while others fall, whose
- heart is purest of all
- let it be you
- whose love and tenderness will not
- let me slip into this great abyss
- let it be you
- who stands by faithful friend
- until the bitter end
- (written with love by Martha, December 29, 1999)
- As the millennium came to a close, I was relieved that 1999 was over. What a horrible year for me
- and all the Harts. At least Bill Bush called me at home to thank me for all I was doing. He asked me
- how long I could keep going and I told him: “I still have a few good years left.”
- Then my old friend Wilk called and told me to turn on the TV. So there I sat, at first amused but then
- disgusted, watching the embarrassing conclusion to Bruce’s Stampede Wrestling show. Diana did a
- run-in to save fourteen-year-old Harry, who’d been dragged into his first angle. Soon, even Ellie was
- in the ring taking a bump. I could only roll my eyes in disgust. A farce like this made all of us Harts
- look bad.
- 45
- THE LAST DANCE
- PEOPLE WITH CONCUSSIONS are the last ones to figure out how badly hurt they are. I was more
- responsible than anyone for downplaying my condition to myself and everyone else. Somewhere
- inside me, a fearful voice cried out that I was seriously hurt, but that same voice warned me to quit
- listening to my brain because it was my brain itself that was damaged. So I let myself go on believing
- that the problem was a sore neck.
- I drifted through every day in a pale-faced, sweaty, head-pounding stupor, pacified to the point of
- numbness by the four Advils I took every three hours. The turn of the millennium floated right past
- me. By January 3, 2000, I was in Greensboro, South Carolina, for Nitro, and in too much of a haze to
- heed my own vow to Bush and Russo one week earlier: that I’d only do wrestling and in a ring. I
- rubbed the back of my head as Russo laid out the script to hype my upcoming pay-per-view title
- match on January 14 with Sycho Sid. That night, Nitro opened as cameras caught Sid attacking me as
- I came into the building. I was thrown into backstage walls and knocked into a stack of steel trusses
- that broke apart, spilling everywhere, nearly clipping my knees and ankles and coming close to
- crushing all my toes. Working a backstage brawl was far more dangerous than an actual wrestling
- match. I was soon battered to the concrete floor, over thick wire cables and equipment boxes,
- where Sid stood pummeling me with a barrage of punches.
- Only a few hours earlier, road agent Terry Taylor had successfully begged me to fill in for Kevin Nash
- for the rest of the week because Nash was out with a concussion, of all things. With nobody else to
- replace Nash in the main events, I said I would, even as I reminded Terry that I thought I might have
- a concussion of my own. Guys such as Taylor and Russo were quick to tell me how much this all was
- appreciated, assuring me that I’d be protected in every way possible. Unfortunately, this was a
- promise that neither one of them could keep or even had a right to make, because they weren’t the
- ones in the ring with me.
- Every night I crawled into bed, my head pounding and my neck aching: my solution was more Advil
- and another fitful sleep. In Florence, South Carolina, for Thunder, I opened up the show standing
- glassy-eyed in my nWo T-shirt, along with nWo members Jeff Jarrett, Scotty Steiner and Kevin Nash,
- who appeared not to be suffering from a concussion after all. Russo’s new acting commissioner,
- Terry Funk, had just ordered me to face him in a hard-core match later in the show. Somewhere in
- the back of my mind I remembered having his retirement match with him back in Amarillo. With a
- scornful over-the-top sneer, I coldly cut a promo: “I think I just might have to kill you tonight, Terry
- Funk!” I laughed to myself at how ridiculous I sounded, but I gave Russo what he wanted because I’d
- all but given up. I also knew that I could trust Terry with my body a helluva lot more I could trust the
- other WCW wrestlers.
- Terry did all he could to go easy on my head, even as we brawled around the ring and on the floor
- with chairs, rubber bats and garbage cans. I beat Terry hard, loud and mercilessly with a steel chair,
- right down to his knees, because he made me promise to lay it in. Terry was old school, the King of
- Hardcore for real. He spent most of the match selling for me, flopping around like a fish. When he
- finally charged me with a steel chair, I got my hands up and deflected it completely. So far so good. I
- staggered off in retreat, making my way up the aisle as Terry grabbed a fistful of my hair and tossed
- me into a big, rolling canvas laundry bin that just happened to be sitting right there. With my legs
- hanging over the sides, I couldn’t pull myself up into a better position. Terry spun it around and
- pushed it hard toward the ring. I braced myself by wrapping my arms around my head, but when I
- spilled out I whacked the back of my head on the heavy wooden lid of the cart, which made a sound
- like a dropped watermelon.
- After the match, Terry felt terrible, but it wasn’t his fault—I shouldn’t have been in a hard-core
- match with a concussion in the first place. I gulped down another handful of Advils and didn’t give it
- another thought, but I sure wished my horrible headaches would go away. And when I finally called
- Marcy, back in Calgary, to set up a doctor’s appointment, it was because I thought I needed my sore
- neck looked at, not my head.
- I filled in for Nash against Sid in Roanoke, Lowell and Utica. Each night I took a choke slam and a
- powerbomb. Sid did everything he could to set me down as lightly as he could, but it was nearly
- impossible. I took my lumps with little complaint.
- In Utica, New York, I was needed to make a call to a radio station using the phone in an office across
- from the dressing room. I stripped down to my black singlet and left Doug Dillenger sitting outside
- my dressing room like a fat old sheriff to guard my stuff. Over the past year, Dillenger and his crack
- security team had allowed every one of my leather ring jackets to be stolen by fans until I stopped
- wearing them. After the call to the radio station, I returned to my dressing room to find Doug
- snoozing and all my wrestling gear stolen, except for one pink and white boot. Amazingly, the
- thieves never thought to grab my wallet, which was in the pocket of my jeans still hanging there, or
- my Rolex, which was tucked into my shoe.
- On January 9, I worked in State College, Pennsylvania, wearing my work-out gear. That night I got a
- phone message from Martha letting me know that a judge had been picked and the trial date was
- set for February 5, 2001. She could at least see light at the end of the tunnel now.
- I also got a message from Stu telling me that he and my mom agreed completely with everything I’d
- written in my column in that week’s Calgary Sun. I’d written an impassioned piece about the state of
- the business and how, when a fan asked me if wrestling is real, I realized that I didn’t even know the
- answer to that question anymore! It once bothered me when people thought wrestling was fake,
- and now it bothered me that they thought we were really hurting ourselves and one another: The
- sad part was that we were! In the column, I wrote that the colossal pulverizing that Goldberg gave
- me had been real, and so were Jerry Flynn’s stiff kicks. When The Hitman tried to kill Sycho Sid with
- a monster truck, that was fake, but when I careened out of control and nearly crashed my rental car
- into the television truck, that was real. I’d written about how my match in Kansas City with Chris
- Benoit was the ghost of what wrestling used to be, but what I had always thought it was meant to
- be. And I asked myself, in the column, how far I could bend without breaking in order to help WCW
- beat Vince McMahon. Maybe I’d gone too far already. Maybe the whole wrestling business was
- fucked up now, including me.
- I didn’t know when I got up on January 10, 2000, that this would be the day I’d have the very last
- match of my twenty-three-year career. My head ached miserably and it was a long drive from State
- College to Syracuse, where I caught an early morning flight to Buffalo. I dropped my bags on the
- floor at the Avis car rental counter and made small talk with the lady working there. I happened to
- glance over my shoulder and caught Nasty Girl poking her head out from behind a cement pillar
- across the street. I was tired, fed up and sick of the threat of her doing God-knows-what to me. I
- matter-of-factly asked the Avis lady, “Have you ever seen a real-life stalker be-fore?”
- She couldn’t help but notice this large girl poking her head out from behind the pillar over my
- shoulder, and she began taking me more seriously. “You’re not kidding, are you?”
- “No, I’m not.”
- She asked me if I’d mind if she called the airport police and I told her that not only would I not mind,
- I would greatly appreciate it. Within a few minutes, three policemen showed up and we had a brief
- chat. Two of the officers walked me to my car, while one headed over to ask Nasty Girl a few
- questions. I drove off to my hotel.
- I called Julie when I got to the hotel, and we’d opened up our next round of peace talks when we
- were interrupted by a knock at my door. I set the phone down and found one of the policemen I’d
- just said good-bye to standing there. He looked a little rattled, and asked me if I’d come make a
- statement. Nasty Girl had attacked a cop with a knife. I told Julie I had to go, and I’d explain it all
- later.
- Sitting at airport police headquarters, I couldn’t help but hear loud wails from a not-too-distant
- holding cell, followed by the thuds of Nasty Girl’s powerful kicks. The officers around me kept
- shaking their heads in amazement at the sheer power and volume of her rage. An exasperated cop
- finally came out of the holding cell, slamming the door behind her. She told her fellow officers, “If
- you want her wig off, you’ll have to do it yourselves!” Apparently they’d needed to remove her wig
- to check whether she was carrying a concealed weapon in it! The cops then gathered in a circle and
- drew matchsticks to see who’d be the lucky one to take the wig off. Finally the cop who’d lost burst
- out of Nasty Girl’s cell letting out his best war cry while shaking a long black mane above his head, “I
- got it! I got it!” I signed my statement; the policemen whom she’d attacked would ensure that she
- didn’t bother me for a while.
- When I arrived at the arena for Nitro, I found that Russo had concocted a storyline around me being
- forced by Terry Funk to wrestle a title match against my own nWo team member Kevin Nash. I’d
- hoped to be off that night, but instead I had to hurry away to buy black skater shorts, new running
- shoes and knee pads and change in time to air live clips of me and Kevin getting worked up and
- dressing for the match. With my head thick and thumping and that stabbing pain in my neck, I taped
- my ankles, wrapped my broken-down knees and smeared my lower back with gobs of Icy Hot. Just
- another day in my pain-filled life.
- Kevin had read my last Calgary Sun column and told me: “You shouldn’t be too hard on yourself, it’s
- not your fault the business is so fucked up.” He promised me we’d take it real easy and then he
- surprised me when he said, “The match I had with you back at Survivor in 1995 was the best damn
- match I ever had. You’re the best worker this business ever knew. And that’s the God’s honest
- truth.” I smiled and thanked him, wondering all the while why Kevin had put so many rocks in my
- path at WCW if that was the way he truly felt.
- I made my way out to the ring, WCW Champion of the World, with the big gold belt hung on my
- shoulder. I felt less than myself in a sleeveless nWo shirt and runners. If I’d been able to foresee the
- future, I would have strutted out there in my pink and black tights and my shades, and I’d have
- climbed all four turnbuckles taking in the faces of the fans who loved me in those final moments. I
- was Humpty Dumpty about to fall and never be put back together again. I’ll forever imagine how it
- could have been, with fans, young and old, slowly rising, proudly standing and clapping and waving
- signs. In my mind’s eye, I read them: HITMAN YOU WERE THE BEST; WE’LL MISS YOU. But I was the
- last one to know that this would be my last dance.
- The bell rang, and Kevin and I worked hard and well together. He protected me as best he could. I
- chopped him down at the knees, and we let Russo’s silly storyline unfold; it wasn’t long before Kevin
- dropped me hard with a punishing sidewalk slam. I was rocked, and the next thing I saw was Arn
- Anderson on the floor cracking Kevin across the back with a rubber lead pipe, which was my cue. I
- forced myself up to fend Arn off with a steel chair, when suddenly Sycho Sid was behind me. As I
- turned, he mistimed his frontal kick, but somehow I still managed to clunk myself on the head with
- the chair anyway. Sid snatched me by the throat, hoisted me up over his head with one hand and
- held me, then drove me down into the mat with a choke slam. He pulled me right back up and
- proceeded to give me his powerbomb. I tucked my chin to protect myself as I?floated to the mat in
- slow motion, but I landed flat and hard. Lying on my back staring up at the lights, I saw millions of
- tiny silver dots everywhere, a galaxy of stars. Like a TV falling from a high shelf, my tube smashed
- and I lay there not moving. I couldn’t help but think, This must be what you see in the seconds
- before you die. I thought of Owen and tears filled my eyes. Then I managed to roll out of the ring to
- see Terry Funk racing out, brandishing a flaming branding iron and pretending to burn Kevin with it.
- By the time I sat down to unlace my boots, I’d already forgotten enough of what had just happened
- that I complained only about the pain in my neck.
- The next day, in Erie, Pennsylvania, for Thunder, I told Russo again that I was hurt. He replied with a
- confident grin that I wasn’t to worry—I didn’t have to wrestle. Instead he had a storyline built
- around me turning babyface, appearing to be taken hostage by a hostile nWo, only to swerve
- everyone by the end of the show when I’d double-cross Funk and turn heel again. I hated it, but at
- that point I’d have done anything not to actually have to wrestle. I was so foggy it didn’t occur to me
- that I could have just told them I was hurt and gone home, but maybe I stayed because it had always
- been so ingrained in me to keep going no matter what. Besides, Russo was on such thin ice I wanted
- to do whatever I could for him. I don’t know why. It was just my nature, I guess. With hindsight, as
- soon as I told my WCW bosses I thought I had a concussion, they should have sent me home.
- I opened the show coming out in a T-shirt and jeans for a heartfelt in-ring interview. I apologized to
- the fans for taking the wrong road and told them I was so disgusted with myself that I didn’t deserve
- their respect. The camera cut to a fan holding a sign that read, RESPECT BRET HART! I saw one older
- woman in the bleachers cheering and jumping for joy, and I hated the thought of seeing their faces
- when I turned heel again at the end of the night. Then I challenged the nWo, and when they came
- out, Kevin declared, “Tonight, Hitman, your career will be finished, maybe even your life!”
- All through the show there were clips of me being held hostage, choked and bullied with baseball
- bats by Nash, Steiner and Jarrett for my disloyalty to the nWo. They even burned some pink tights—
- not mine but they said they were—in effigy, setting them alight in a trash can. At the end, I made my
- escape, limping out into the ring holding a bat, and I again challenged the nWo to fight me. Seconds
- later, we were all taunting one another with bats and chairs. The three-to-one odds were too much
- for Terry Funk and a cavalry of WCW babyfaces to take, and they charged the ring to rescue me. I
- saw the old lady in the bleachers clapping and cheering like a schoolgirl.
- Then Arn tossed a pail of water in my face so everyone could see that my blackened eyes were only
- make-up. Unfortunately for Russo, nobody understood it. So I smashed Funk with a rubber bat to
- reveal the double-cross. I felt like a total piece of shit as the nWo beat all the baby-faces down with
- bats. And my heart filled with shame at the sight of the old woman in the stands now sobbing like a
- baby.
- On Thursday, January 13, I sat in Dr. Meeuwisse’s office in Calgary, telling him about Goldberg’s
- ferocious kick to my neck while he felt around with his fingers. I told him about taking the choke
- slam and seeing silver dots. He noticed that I was slurring my words and asked me if I thought I had a
- concussion. I told him maybe a slight one. He probed me with questions and then recited some
- numbers and asked me to repeat them back to him backwards. I couldn’t. Then he gave me five
- random words that he’d ask me to remember in a few minutes. I couldn’t. He studied me, then
- asked me again if I thought I had a concussion. I told him again, a slight one.
- He asked me what I was taking for my headaches and when I told him, “Four Advils every three
- hours,” he shook his head and told me they’d eat a hole in my stomach as he wrote me a proper
- prescription.
- “I can feel a hole in the back of your neck the size of a quarter.” He felt around the back of my skull.
- “This part here feels like hamburger.”
- “I have a pay-per-view on Sunday. I’m the main event.”
- With a dry smile, he said, “You’re not going anywhere. The problem with people that have
- concussions is that you think you’re okay, but you’re not.” He paused and crossed his arms, looking
- me in the eye. “I hate to be the one to have to tell you this, but your career is probably over.”
- “What happens if I don’t stop?”
- “The boxing world likes to pretend that Muhammad Ali’s problems today are all related to
- Parkinson’s disease, but the simple truth is Ali kept on boxing after being concussed. All those blows
- to the head cost him. You’re no different than him, and I’m sure you don’t want to end up like him. I
- don’t want you doing anything. It could take up to a year before we can even determine how bad
- this is. No working out, no flying, no watching TV, no listening to loud music.”
- “When I call WCW, what should I tell them?”
- “You tell them your doctor has diagnosed you with a severe concussion.”
- “Yeah, but who are you?” I meant, Why would WCW believe him?
- “I’m the chairman of the NHL injury committee. Tell them to call me.”
- Driving home, tears came to my eyes as I thought about calling J.J. Dillon with the news. After
- twenty-three years, I didn’t want to go out like this. What would I do now?
- By that weekend, Vince Russo had been sacked and WCW rewrote their storylines without me; it
- was like I had never been there. I had been erased.
- I sat home staring blankly at the walls with the TV off and the lights dimmed. I couldn’t even read,
- my head hurt so much. Julie was pissed off and wasn’t talking to me again. For comfort, I relied on
- the steadfast loyalty of a pug dog named Coombs, which Dallas had given me. He rested his head on
- my lap doing his best Jim Neidhart impression with a face that looked even sadder than mine.
- I didn’t want to lose myself to brooding, and Dr. Meeuwisse told me to find a hobby. When I was
- chosen by Calgary’s Glenbow Museum as one of six guest curators to help design an exhibit paying
- tribute to Canadian heroes, I really put my heart into it. One of my choices was Tom Longboat, one
- of Canada’s most famous long-distance marathon runners in the early 1900s. My mom surprised me
- with a story about how Longboat had run against her father, Harry. “My father impressed upon me
- that a mara-thon runner never, ever turns his head to look back,” Helen said. “It’s just not done. It
- throws off the timing. But in a big race one day, my father could hear footsteps behind him, always
- there, and so, for just a moment, he turned and his gaze was caught by the brown eyes of Tom
- Longboat, only a step behind him. Then Longboat edged past him! I don’t know who won the race,
- but my father never forgot the speed and grace of that kid or the look in his eye.”
- WCW desperately needed me to make a tour of Germany in February: I was the headliner and it was
- sold out. I’d only step into the ring to say a few words to the fans. Reluctantly, Dr. M cleared me to
- fly, mostly because I was afraid I’d be fired if I didn’t. Duggan, Sting, Knobbs and Liz all reached out
- to me with supportive arms. A big, young, white-haired kid from Philadelphia named Jerry Tuite,
- who worked as The Wall, insisted on carrying my bags for me. Still, I couldn’t help but see that most
- of the other wrestlers didn’t believe I was hurt. When I slurred my words, they grinned at me like I
- was putting them on, which hurt because I had never faked an injury in my “real” life or missed a
- match on purpose. But there were so many worked injuries in WCW that when somebody got hurt
- for real, hardly anybody believed it.
- On the bus in Hamburg, I had a talk with Jeff Jarrett, who had been one of Owen’s closest friends. He
- told me he was offended when Martha’s lawyers pressed him about any possible philandering Owen
- might have been doing, and had refused to even call them back. I told him that they were just doing
- their job, checking out every aspect of Owen’s life—and for the sake of Owen’s kids, he needed to
- talk to them. He told me how he and Debra McMichael, his valet, had been up next after Owen’s
- match in Kansas City and backstage everyone was running around in a panic, as Jeff stood at the
- Gorilla position. Owen’s dead body was wheeled past him at the same time as two firm hands
- shoved him hard through the curtain, “Go! Go! Go!” He told me he was sorry he went out to the ring
- that night and that he bawled his eyes out the whole time, as he did again just telling me about it.
- Terry Funk had been listening to us, and now he asked me how my family was doing. I told him how
- crazy things had got up at Hart house. Terry knew the Harts pretty well, and he gave it some deep
- thought before telling me: “Everybody’s crazy. The whole world’s crazy. You’re crazy. I’m crazy. It’s
- all about to what degree you’re crazy.” In my concussed state, Terry made a lot of sense.
- Poor Davey was a case in point; he was a shell of his former self and still hooked on morphine. Being
- in no shape to wrestle, he hadn’t lasted long in the WWF, but Vince still said he needed him, so he
- headed off to a rehab program in Georgia. In answer to my criticisms of the year-end show on
- Stampede Wrestling, that involved various non-wrestling members of the Hart family, Bruce ripped
- into me on the Stampede Wrestling website for taking shots at Davey in my column. He defended
- Davey, saying he was “a damn loyal and trusted trooper of the clan who’d been unjustly maligned
- and made to look bad.” Bruce had as much right to express his opinion as I did, but he didn’t know
- the truth.
- I felt more and more estranged from so many people in my family because nobody stood shoulder to
- shoulder with me in defending Martha, except my mom. Keith, Wayne, Alison and Ross all steered
- clear of Ellie and Diana, supporting me only from behind the scenes. I understood why Georgia was
- on Ellie’s side: she had spent her whole life defending Ellie and turning a blind eye to Ellie’s actions,
- and she would never forget Ellie’s support when she went through the loss of her son, Matt.
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