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PASTOR CRAWFORD:
Okay.

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Everybody, eyes up here.
It's time to get started.

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So, I was thinking this morning.

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I was thinking about what it
was like being your age,

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how I'd come to worship like
I was ticking off a to-do list.

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I didn't get it like I do now,

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and I thought, "Well, maybe I
should tell you guys a secret."

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Do you know what we're
trying to do every Sunday

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in church as adults?

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We're trying to undo the things
we did when we were your age.

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Think about it.
You're our future,

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and you are at an age

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where you are especially
vulnerable to evil.

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Now when I say,
"Evil," I mean evil.

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And you won't see it now.

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You won't see it tomorrow.

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But what feels like fun
is actually the enemy,

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and that enemy is closing
the noose around your neck.

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Bruce?!
Is anyone home?!

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♪♪

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While you experiment
and play with that yoke

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like it's a toy and you think,

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"Oh, just this once, just...

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just a little longer,"
click.

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It's got you.

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[IRMA THOMAS' "ANYONE WHO KNOWS WHAT
LOVE IS (WILL UNDERSTAND)" PLAYS]

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♪ Anyone ♪

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♪ Anyone ♪

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Okay. Wait.
H-Honey. Honey.

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- ♪ You can blame ♪
- Can you stop it?

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♪ Try to shame me ♪

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♪ And still I'll care ♪

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- ♪ For you ♪
- [DOORBELL RINGS]

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They're here.

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♪ You can run around ♪

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Eyes to camera.

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- ♪ Even put me down ♪
- Boys...

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put your arms
around the girls' waists.

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♪ Still, I'll be there for you ♪

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Yeah, or should I go up?
Okay.

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♪ The world ♪

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♪ May be gone foolish ♪

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♪ They can't see you ♪

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♪ Like I can ♪

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You look really,
really beautiful.

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♪ Oh, but anyone ♪

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Thanks.

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♪ Who knows what love is ♪

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♪ Will understand ♪

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♪ Anyone ♪

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♪ Anyone ♪

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- ♪ Anyone ♪
- ♪ I just feel so sorry ♪

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- ♪ Anyone ♪
- ♪ For the ones ♪

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♪ Who pity me ♪

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- ♪ Anyone ♪
- ♪ 'Cause they just don't know ♪

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- ♪ Anyone ♪
- ♪ Oh, they don't know ♪

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♪ What happiness and love
can be ♪

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- ♪ Ohhh ♪
- ♪ I know ♪

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♪ I know to ever let you go ♪

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♪ Oh-oh, is more ♪

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♪ Than I could ever stand ♪

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♪ Ohhh, but anyone ♪

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♪ Who knows what love is ♪

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♪ Will understand ♪

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♪ Ohhh ♪

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- ♪ Anyone ♪
- ♪ They will understand ♪

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♪ Anyone ♪

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♪ If they try love ♪

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- ♪ Anyone ♪
- ♪ They'll understand ♪

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♪ Anyone ♪

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♪ Ohhh, try ♪

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- ♪ Anyone ♪
- ♪ And understand ♪

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[INHALES DEEPLY]

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[INSECTS CHIRPING]

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[BOTH BREATHING HEAVILY]

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I want to try something.

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[GASPS]

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[BOTH BREATHING HEAVILY]

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[MOANING SOFTLY]

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[BOTH BREATHING HEAVILY]

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[MOANING SOFTLY]

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Oh, my God.
Oh, my God.

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Oh, my God.

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JAMIE: [CRYING]
Cameron, what the fuck?

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Jamie.

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What the fuck?

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[CRYING]

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I can't fucking believe this.

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I'm sorry.

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It's just so messed up!

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♪♪

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♪♪

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♪♪

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♪♪

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WOMAN: And by the time
I was in my 30s,

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I didn't believe in God
at all.

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You know what, George?
It wasn't until...

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GEORGE: The Scripture
we're referencing

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is Matthew 10:11,

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and if you go
to Matthew 10:11,

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you'll probably know
this one.

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Uh, whatever town
or villa...

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[ENGINE SHUTS OFF]

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Hey.

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Hello.
[CHUCKLES NERVOUSLY]

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I'm looking
for Reverend Rick.

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He's still in a sermon.
I'll take you to him.

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- I'm Cameron.
- I know.

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♪ Want to see the land
so pure and true ♪

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♪ No, there's nothing
I wouldn't do ♪

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♪ Just to be born anew ♪

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[ACOUSTIC GUITAR STRUMMING]

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♪ Just to be born anew ♪

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♪ In Your eyes, my savior ♪

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♪ In Your heart, my savior ♪

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♪ In Your love, my savior ♪

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♪ My Lord ♪

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[STRUMMING CONTINUES]

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[SONG ENDS]

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- [CHUCKLES]
- [APPLAUSE]

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All right, guys. Time's up.
See you at dinner.

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[ZIPPERS ZIPPING
AND UNZIPPING]

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Erin's a big Vikings fan,
aren't you?

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Guilty as charged.
[CHUCKLES]

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But don't worry. You'll get
decorating privileges soon.

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You have to earn certain
rights at God's Promise.

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I swear it's not that bad...
just decorating and mail.

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Most disciples get there
in a few weeks.

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It's all spelled out
in the contract.

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Maybe in the meantime,
you'll become a Vikings fan.

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- Who's your favorite team?
- I-I don't have one.

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I'm impressed.

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It's pretty rare
that I don't manage to...

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Oh, spoke too soon.
[CHUCKLES]

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I'm guessing The Breeders aren't
singing in praise of the Lord.

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Where did you get this?

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Columbia House.

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I'm done here.

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Take a look at the contract?

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Yeah.

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All that's left is your
signature, and we're good to go.

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I think you're going to do
really well here, Cammie.

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Perfect. Now you're officially
a disciple of God's Promise.

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Welcome.

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Whoo!

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[SIGHS]

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Fuck.

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I want you to put on
your clothes and leave.

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- No, you don't.
- Yes, I do.

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[VOICE BREAKING]
No, you don't.

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This movie's weird.
[CHUCKLES]

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I want you to leave.

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You knew that was
going to happen.

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[CHUCKLING]
No, I didn't.

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I wouldn't know
what to do.

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You can start by putting

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the do-not-disturb sign
on the door.

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I really didn't know
it was going to happen.

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Yes, you did.

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- No, I didn't.
- Yes, you did.

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That part went smoothly.

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I'm not...

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taking off my robe.

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Well, everybody
draws the line somewhere.

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I don't usually...

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...feel this way.
It's blocking me.

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I don't know
if I've ever felt...

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this way before.

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[INDISTINCT TALKING]

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Tell me when to stop.

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[TALKING CONTINUES]

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[HINGES CREAK,
FLASHLIGHT CLICKS]

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[BREATHING HEAVILY]

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[FLASHLIGHT CLICKS]

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[BREATHING HEAVILY]

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I think if your top priority
is to get better,

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that should also be
true of the people

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you surround yourself
with, you know?

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And you think you're
getting... better?

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Of course.

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I've been brought
closer to God,

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and I can feel
Him guiding me.

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Like, Helen's
a really good friend,

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and we're positive
influences on each other.

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That's her by the milk.

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- It's a shame she's so...
- Hi!

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Well, she's kind
of butch, isn't she?

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[CHUCKLES SOFTLY]

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I know that's a mean word,
but I mean it, like,

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factually, like,
not in a mean way.

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That girl's name
is Jane Fonda...

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like, her actual name.

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[SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY]

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Either that or she's lying.

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She could be lying.

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Mark is really cool.

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Don't look now,
but he's at my 12:00.

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You looked.

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He has a really nice
singing voice,

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and, okay, you have to promise
not to tell anyone,

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but I have a really
big crush on him.

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My lips are sealed.

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Rick is such an inspiration.

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Do you know he used to struggle
with same-sex attractions?

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Really?

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Yeah, and he's been
in recovery for years,

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and now he and Bethany
are girlfriend and boyfriend.

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Yeah. How cute is that?

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I think they could
both do better.

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Totally.
Wait. What?

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Honey, what grade were
you starting at school?

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Um, 11th.

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Oh, great.
I think we have that one.

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Okay.

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Uh... ah.

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Here we go.

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Does this look right to you?

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- Yes.
- [CHUCKLES]

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I apologize
for the interruption,

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Ms. Kimballs-Ericson.

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I've come to meet
our new disciple.

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Welcome, Cameron.
I'm Dr. Lydia Marsh.

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I'm the director
of God's Promise.

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Hi.

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It's a pleasure
to meet you.

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I know the adjustment
can be difficult at first,

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but I have every faith you'll
find yourself at home here soon.

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In the meantime,
please don't hesitate to ask

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if you need anything.

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Thank you.

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You should consider yourself
amongst family, Cameron.

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You can call me "Cam."

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"Cameron" is already
a masculine name.

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To abbreviate as something
even less feminine

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only exacerbates
your gender confusion.

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Right.

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Glad we're
on the same page.

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I have told you

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to keep your hair

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out of your eyes.

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There's no hiding from God.

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[DOOR OPENS]

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[DOOR CLOSES]

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♪♪

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♪♪

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♪♪

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[BREATHING HEAVILY]

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♪♪

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♪♪

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♪♪

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♪♪

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♪♪

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Would you say that the tip
of the iceberg looks scary

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to the people on the boat?

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Yeah.

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It's all the people
on the ship want to focus on,

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but we know it's not
the real problem, is it?

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No.

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Um, the same can be said
for your same-sex attraction.

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The sin is so overwhelming

261
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that we become fixated on it,

262
00:18:53,918 --> 00:18:56,452
but the problems we
really need to deal with

263
00:18:56,454 --> 00:18:58,988
are below the surface.

264
00:18:58,990 --> 00:19:03,093
Your attractions are a symptom
of a larger problem.

265
00:19:03,095 --> 00:19:06,328
We're going to spend our time
together like detectives

266
00:19:06,330 --> 00:19:10,100
investigating what
in your past led you here,

267
00:19:10,102 --> 00:19:12,469
especially your relationship
with your parents.

268
00:19:12,471 --> 00:19:15,438
What relationship?

269
00:19:15,440 --> 00:19:19,476
They died a long time ago.

270
00:19:19,478 --> 00:19:21,443
I know we're throwing
a lot at you.

271
00:19:21,445 --> 00:19:24,079
How are you feeling?

272
00:19:24,081 --> 00:19:28,918
Good. Good. I'm good.
I-I...

273
00:19:28,920 --> 00:19:31,287
I've just never thought
of homosexuality like this.

274
00:19:31,289 --> 00:19:33,256
There's no such thing
as homosexuality.

275
00:19:33,258 --> 00:19:37,293
There's only the same struggle
with sin we all face.

276
00:19:37,295 --> 00:19:40,332
Would you let drug addicts
throw parades for themselves?

277
00:19:42,933 --> 00:19:46,536
No. No, you wouldn't.

278
00:19:46,538 --> 00:19:48,238
Sin is sin.

279
00:19:48,240 --> 00:19:51,841
Your struggle is with the sin
of same-sex attraction.

280
00:19:51,843 --> 00:19:53,509
The first step is for you
to stop thinking

281
00:19:53,511 --> 00:19:55,178
of yourself as a homosexual.

282
00:19:55,180 --> 00:19:57,450
But I don't think of myself
as a homosexual.

283
00:19:59,416 --> 00:20:01,817
I mean, I don't really think
of myself as anything.

284
00:20:01,819 --> 00:20:05,054
You should think of
yourself as a Christian.

285
00:20:05,056 --> 00:20:07,289
We're here to support you.

286
00:20:07,291 --> 00:20:11,560
Rick did the work, was able
to overcome his own illness,

287
00:20:11,562 --> 00:20:14,998
and I have no doubt that
you're capable of the same.

288
00:20:15,000 --> 00:20:16,902
I've been right where you are.

289
00:20:18,970 --> 00:20:21,406
I know how you feel.

290
00:20:23,008 --> 00:20:26,010
♪♪

291
00:20:35,220 --> 00:20:38,086
Is that your mom?

292
00:20:38,088 --> 00:20:41,457
She really looked like you.

293
00:20:41,459 --> 00:20:43,826
[SIGHS]

294
00:20:43,828 --> 00:20:45,460
ERIN:
How's the iceberg coming?

295
00:20:45,462 --> 00:20:47,497
Good.

296
00:20:47,499 --> 00:20:48,834
Good, just slow.

297
00:20:51,536 --> 00:20:54,604
Oh, cool.

298
00:20:54,606 --> 00:20:58,307
I have gender confusion
'cause of sports, too.

299
00:20:58,309 --> 00:21:01,877
Wow.

300
00:21:01,879 --> 00:21:03,512
Cool.

301
00:21:03,514 --> 00:21:05,216
See you later.

302
00:21:20,932 --> 00:21:25,034
ERIN: "Too much masculine
bonding with Dad over football."

303
00:21:25,036 --> 00:21:27,437
Right up the middle!

304
00:21:27,439 --> 00:21:29,005
- Yeah!
- Yeah!

305
00:21:29,007 --> 00:21:30,373
"Jessica's beauty,

306
00:21:30,375 --> 00:21:33,610
resulting in feelings
of feminine inadequacy."

307
00:21:33,612 --> 00:21:36,348
MARK: "Lack of physical
affection from my father."

308
00:21:41,152 --> 00:21:46,521
"Infatuation with soccer coach
at Holy Light Summer Camp."

309
00:21:46,523 --> 00:21:48,258
HELEN: "Inappropriate obsession

310
00:21:48,260 --> 00:21:50,293
with Vicki Jones
from church choir."

311
00:21:50,295 --> 00:21:53,262
♪ This little light of mine ♪

312
00:21:53,264 --> 00:21:55,431
♪ I'm gonna let it shine ♪

313
00:21:55,433 --> 00:21:56,900
♪ This ♪

314
00:21:56,902 --> 00:21:58,468
"Unresolved sexual trauma
from 9th grade

315
00:21:58,470 --> 00:22:01,073
when Orin Bursock
slapped my backside."

316
00:22:03,908 --> 00:22:07,378
ADAM: "Too much bonding with Mom
over feminine activities."

317
00:22:09,981 --> 00:22:13,950
"Belief in winkte
conflicting with the Bible."

318
00:22:13,952 --> 00:22:16,451
JANE: "Early exposure
to illegal drugs and alcohol

319
00:22:16,453 --> 00:22:18,954
at the commune."

320
00:22:18,956 --> 00:22:22,124
♪♪

321
00:22:22,126 --> 00:22:25,193
"Lack of stable
and singular masculine..."

322
00:22:25,195 --> 00:22:27,130
What are you doing?

323
00:22:27,132 --> 00:22:30,967
Oh, um, I'm sorry.
I was just...

324
00:22:30,969 --> 00:22:33,135
What?

325
00:22:33,137 --> 00:22:36,005
I was looking
at your iceberg.

326
00:22:36,007 --> 00:22:38,574
Everyone does it.

327
00:22:38,576 --> 00:22:40,543
You done yours yet?

328
00:22:40,545 --> 00:22:42,178
No, not yet.

329
00:22:42,180 --> 00:22:44,713
- You run, right?
- Yeah.

330
00:22:44,715 --> 00:22:47,416
[SIGHS] Just talk about how
positive reinforcements for sports

331
00:22:47,418 --> 00:22:48,985
messed with your
gender identity.

332
00:22:48,987 --> 00:22:50,119
They love that shit.

333
00:22:50,121 --> 00:22:51,688
[CHUCKLES SOFTLY]

334
00:22:51,690 --> 00:22:54,457
And how your parents gave you
too much physical affection

335
00:22:54,459 --> 00:22:56,191
or not enough
physical affection.

336
00:22:56,193 --> 00:22:59,629
Either way,
that's why you're gay.

337
00:22:59,631 --> 00:23:02,230
My parents are dead.

338
00:23:02,232 --> 00:23:05,203
That should probably
go in your iceberg.

339
00:23:07,605 --> 00:23:09,972
You grew up in a commune?

340
00:23:09,974 --> 00:23:12,174
Yeah.

341
00:23:12,176 --> 00:23:15,244
I didn't know hippies
were evangelical.

342
00:23:15,246 --> 00:23:18,581
They're not.
My mom's new husband is.

343
00:23:18,583 --> 00:23:22,285
- One last question.
- I was in a car accident.

344
00:23:22,287 --> 00:23:25,958
I was actually going to ask you
where you got your weed.

345
00:23:27,591 --> 00:23:29,260
I beg your pardon?

346
00:23:31,562 --> 00:23:34,132
I saw you and Adam
in the cellar.

347
00:23:38,470 --> 00:23:42,238
I grow it myself.
It's ditch weed.

348
00:23:42,240 --> 00:23:44,339
I already harvested,
but there are some stragglers

349
00:23:44,341 --> 00:23:46,544
Adam and I are going
to check out Thursday.

350
00:23:49,079 --> 00:23:51,416
[SNIFFS]

351
00:23:54,318 --> 00:23:58,220
You don't really seem like the
kind of person that'd be here.

352
00:23:58,222 --> 00:24:00,326
Why? 'Cause I'm
such a dick magnet?

353
00:24:02,460 --> 00:24:04,594
No, just...

354
00:24:04,596 --> 00:24:07,162
I didn't have a choice.

355
00:24:07,164 --> 00:24:09,600
Did you?

356
00:24:13,771 --> 00:24:16,671
HELEN: I will not pray
for God to change me

357
00:24:16,673 --> 00:24:19,642
because God does not
make mistakes,

358
00:24:19,644 --> 00:24:24,247
and I am the one
who is tempted by sin.

359
00:24:24,249 --> 00:24:27,383
Change will come
through God

360
00:24:27,385 --> 00:24:29,085
- but within me.
- Me.

361
00:24:29,087 --> 00:24:31,757
I must be the change.

362
00:24:35,059 --> 00:24:37,393
STEVE: I've always known
I didn't want to act

363
00:24:37,395 --> 00:24:39,528
on my same-sex attractions,

364
00:24:39,530 --> 00:24:44,400
so, in the past, I would
resort to... self-pleasure.

365
00:24:44,402 --> 00:24:46,568
Then when I learned
that that was a sin, also,

366
00:24:46,570 --> 00:24:48,770
I stopped,

367
00:24:48,772 --> 00:24:52,240
but it's like...
shouldn't it be okay

368
00:24:52,242 --> 00:24:54,078
if it's
instead of acting out?

369
00:24:55,379 --> 00:24:56,612
What?

370
00:24:56,614 --> 00:24:58,780
You can't get a pass
from God to jerk off.

371
00:24:58,782 --> 00:25:00,216
Who asked you?

372
00:25:00,218 --> 00:25:04,086
Steve, what are
you experiencing?

373
00:25:04,088 --> 00:25:08,191
- I'm experiencing irritation.
- And why are you irritated?

374
00:25:08,193 --> 00:25:10,226
It's like he thinks he's better
than everybody else.

375
00:25:10,228 --> 00:25:11,661
HELEN: I feel that, too.

376
00:25:11,663 --> 00:25:13,496
Like, look
at his body language.

377
00:25:13,498 --> 00:25:16,498
Yeah, Steve's projecting his
masculine securities onto me,

378
00:25:16,500 --> 00:25:18,633
and Helen has to have
an opinion on everything.

379
00:25:18,635 --> 00:25:20,335
That's not true.

380
00:25:20,337 --> 00:25:22,270
- Dane brings up some interesting points.
- Really?

381
00:25:22,272 --> 00:25:24,473
It's like he can't do anything
wrong because of his past.

382
00:25:24,475 --> 00:25:26,142
You have no idea what
you're talking about!

383
00:25:26,144 --> 00:25:28,177
Okay. Then, Dane,
just tell us.

384
00:25:28,179 --> 00:25:29,644
No.

385
00:25:29,646 --> 00:25:31,247
You don't go get to tell
your reverend later

386
00:25:31,249 --> 00:25:33,382
about how you met
a junkie in treatment.

387
00:25:33,384 --> 00:25:35,852
I'm not like you,
and I'm glad I'm not like you.

388
00:25:35,854 --> 00:25:37,452
I don't even know you,
but one look at you,

389
00:25:37,454 --> 00:25:39,255
and I can tell
you're a dyke.

390
00:25:39,257 --> 00:25:42,327
[LAUGHS]

391
00:25:52,737 --> 00:25:55,340
How are you finding
God's Promise, Cameron?

392
00:25:57,474 --> 00:26:00,545
Uh... good.

393
00:26:03,748 --> 00:26:06,649
I hope you use this time
as an opportunity to examine

394
00:26:06,651 --> 00:26:08,787
the way you respond
to discomfort.

395
00:26:11,856 --> 00:26:13,756
Okay.

396
00:26:13,758 --> 00:26:17,192
Dane, this instinct
of yours to punish others

397
00:26:17,194 --> 00:26:21,497
for not having experienced
the kind of trauma you have,

398
00:26:21,499 --> 00:26:23,365
who does it remind you of?

399
00:26:23,367 --> 00:26:26,768
My father.

400
00:26:26,770 --> 00:26:29,407
I can't hear you.

401
00:26:32,277 --> 00:26:34,712
My father.

402
00:26:42,252 --> 00:26:44,719
Hey. How's it going?

403
00:26:44,721 --> 00:26:46,191
It's okay.

404
00:26:48,792 --> 00:26:50,228
Follow me.

405
00:27:01,873 --> 00:27:05,373
So, this worked for you, then?

406
00:27:05,375 --> 00:27:06,875
Like, you changed?

407
00:27:06,877 --> 00:27:10,479
Yes. I changed.

408
00:27:10,481 --> 00:27:12,815
How?

409
00:27:12,817 --> 00:27:15,218
[SIGHS] It was a process.

410
00:27:15,220 --> 00:27:18,854
[CHUCKLES SOFTLY]
It's funny, actually.

411
00:27:18,856 --> 00:27:21,757
The moment things began
to turn around was in a bar.

412
00:27:21,759 --> 00:27:23,291
Bar?

413
00:27:23,293 --> 00:27:27,329
Yeah. A gay bar,
of all places.

414
00:27:27,331 --> 00:27:29,832
Two men from my church
came in.

415
00:27:29,834 --> 00:27:31,499
They saw my car
parked outside,

416
00:27:31,501 --> 00:27:32,735
and they knew
I'd been struggling,

417
00:27:32,737 --> 00:27:37,239
so they came in
looking for me.

418
00:27:37,241 --> 00:27:38,708
Wow.

419
00:27:38,710 --> 00:27:41,376
It was God, Cameron.

420
00:27:41,378 --> 00:27:42,944
I asked for His help,

421
00:27:42,946 --> 00:27:46,915
and He gave it to me
in the form of those allies.

422
00:27:46,917 --> 00:27:49,485
I was so deeply unhappy,

423
00:27:49,487 --> 00:27:53,588
but I didn't think
I was worth saving,

424
00:27:53,590 --> 00:27:56,227
and I wonder if you've
asked that of yourself.

425
00:27:58,262 --> 00:28:00,698
Are you worth saving?

426
00:28:03,000 --> 00:28:05,034
[BALL CLACKING]

427
00:28:05,036 --> 00:28:07,569
[UP-TEMPO MUSIC PLAYS]

428
00:28:07,571 --> 00:28:11,274
♪ It's gonna be fun
to Blessercize with Jesus ♪

429
00:28:11,276 --> 00:28:14,442
♪ To be fit for Him
in every way ♪

430
00:28:14,444 --> 00:28:17,479
♪ He will bless my body, soul,
and spirit... ♪

431
00:28:17,481 --> 00:28:20,783
You know it's God who created
these bodies of ours,

432
00:28:20,785 --> 00:28:22,785
and it's God who blesses them,

433
00:28:22,787 --> 00:28:24,620
and with His help,

434
00:28:24,622 --> 00:28:27,355
we can keep these bodies
working in optimum condition.

435
00:28:27,357 --> 00:28:28,824
Are you ready to start

436
00:28:28,826 --> 00:28:31,027
your "Fun to Be Fit"
Blessercize program?

437
00:28:31,029 --> 00:28:32,560
Huh? Come on, everybody!

438
00:28:32,562 --> 00:28:34,063
All right!

439
00:28:34,065 --> 00:28:36,565
You know, for too long,
we have disassociated

440
00:28:36,567 --> 00:28:40,469
our spiritual selves
from our physical selves,

441
00:28:40,471 --> 00:28:42,571
and it was only after the...

442
00:28:42,573 --> 00:28:45,908
only after I decided
to give God my body

443
00:28:45,910 --> 00:28:50,813
as well as my spirit and soul
that I discovered health...

444
00:28:50,815 --> 00:28:52,480
I mean, more energy

445
00:28:52,482 --> 00:28:54,517
than I think
I've ever known in my life!

446
00:28:54,519 --> 00:28:57,752
Keep it going. Good!

447
00:28:57,754 --> 00:29:01,089
You know, there's another
kind of warm-up that we do.

448
00:29:01,091 --> 00:29:03,025
Out you go and over.

449
00:29:03,027 --> 00:29:06,062
In fact, I think it's the most
important warm-up of all.

450
00:29:06,064 --> 00:29:07,997
It's our spiritual warm-up.

451
00:29:07,999 --> 00:29:10,665
After all, that's what this
whole program is all about.

452
00:29:10,667 --> 00:29:14,069
And up. Let's warm up
with a Bible verse.

453
00:29:14,071 --> 00:29:16,540
Hey. Jane.

454
00:29:18,041 --> 00:29:21,076
Just in time.

455
00:29:21,078 --> 00:29:23,612
It's a really intense hike.

456
00:29:23,614 --> 00:29:26,481
Your shoes don't
look right for it.

457
00:29:26,483 --> 00:29:28,616
Jane and I are wearing
the exact same shoes.

458
00:29:28,618 --> 00:29:31,055
Don't be so paranoid.

459
00:29:33,657 --> 00:29:36,124
A warning would be nice.

460
00:29:36,126 --> 00:29:44,767
♪♪

461
00:29:44,769 --> 00:29:47,370
So, they let you go on hikes
whenever you want?

462
00:29:47,372 --> 00:29:50,038
It's a gender-neutral sport.

463
00:29:50,040 --> 00:29:52,575
I mean, couldn't we
just walk off?

464
00:29:52,577 --> 00:29:54,110
And go where?

465
00:29:54,112 --> 00:29:55,978
Yeah, should we go directly
to Times Square to turn tricks,

466
00:29:55,980 --> 00:29:58,748
or would you rather try
break-dancing first?

467
00:29:58,750 --> 00:30:02,418
What's worse... karaoke night
or living on the streets?

468
00:30:02,420 --> 00:30:05,621
Tough call.

469
00:30:05,623 --> 00:30:07,589
What do you guys
think of Dr. Marsh?

470
00:30:07,591 --> 00:30:10,058
I guess it's like having
your own Disney villain,

471
00:30:10,060 --> 00:30:13,496
only this one won't
let you jerk off.

472
00:30:13,498 --> 00:30:16,498
I find her kind of sexy.

473
00:30:16,500 --> 00:30:21,636
Sex with Lydia would be like
fucking the mom from "Carrie."

474
00:30:21,638 --> 00:30:24,539
Cameron, Lydia...
hot or not?

475
00:30:24,541 --> 00:30:26,444
Ugh. No comment.

476
00:30:28,445 --> 00:30:30,412
What's her deal anyway?

477
00:30:30,414 --> 00:30:32,815
Like, I know why Rick is here,

478
00:30:32,817 --> 00:30:35,918
but why does she
give such a shit?

479
00:30:35,920 --> 00:30:38,487
She's not, like,
ex-gay, is she?

480
00:30:38,489 --> 00:30:40,523
- Ew, no.
- She's Rick's sister.

481
00:30:40,525 --> 00:30:42,024
- Seriously?
- Yeah.

482
00:30:42,026 --> 00:30:43,558
She degayed him.

483
00:30:43,560 --> 00:30:45,795
Like, before, she was
just a regular therapist,

484
00:30:45,797 --> 00:30:47,997
and then he became
her human guinea pig.

485
00:30:47,999 --> 00:30:50,799
Wow.

486
00:30:50,801 --> 00:30:54,202
I bet she gives, like,
wool socks for Christmas.

487
00:30:54,204 --> 00:30:56,538
I'd be so down with
wool socks for Christmas.

488
00:30:56,540 --> 00:30:58,707
My grandma would be down
for wool socks for Christmas.

489
00:30:58,709 --> 00:31:02,481
Old-people tastes and
lesbian tastes run parallel.

490
00:31:05,482 --> 00:31:07,516
How long have you
guys been here?

491
00:31:07,518 --> 00:31:10,989
I started last fall,
and Adam came spring semester.

492
00:31:12,956 --> 00:31:18,126
Do you still consider
yourself, like... gay?

493
00:31:18,128 --> 00:31:19,828
Don't answer that.

494
00:31:19,830 --> 00:31:22,565
You read our icebergs, but we
don't know shit about you.

495
00:31:22,567 --> 00:31:23,932
How'd you get here?

496
00:31:23,934 --> 00:31:25,934
Were you caught, or could
they just smell the SSA?

497
00:31:25,936 --> 00:31:29,838
You don't have to answer
that if you don't want.

498
00:31:29,840 --> 00:31:32,641
It's okay.

499
00:31:32,643 --> 00:31:33,875
What's SSA?

500
00:31:33,877 --> 00:31:35,877
Same-sex attraction.

501
00:31:35,879 --> 00:31:38,847
Like, with Mark, you can just
tell by looking at him.

502
00:31:38,849 --> 00:31:41,816
I'm pretty sure Erin
turned herself in,

503
00:31:41,818 --> 00:31:43,986
and I think Helen
probably thought

504
00:31:43,988 --> 00:31:46,055
she was going to music camp.

505
00:31:46,057 --> 00:31:50,860
My boyfriend walked in on me
and this girl, Coley.

506
00:31:50,862 --> 00:31:54,095
Shit.

507
00:31:54,097 --> 00:31:55,831
Where'd they send her?

508
00:31:55,833 --> 00:31:57,499
Nowhere.

509
00:31:57,501 --> 00:31:58,834
It's fucked up.

510
00:31:58,836 --> 00:32:01,740
It's not her fault.

511
00:32:04,775 --> 00:32:06,608
You should forget about her.

512
00:32:06,610 --> 00:32:09,077
Why?

513
00:32:09,079 --> 00:32:10,813
I mean, who's to say
I haven't already?

514
00:32:10,815 --> 00:32:12,280
It's just messed up
that your life had to stop

515
00:32:12,282 --> 00:32:14,919
and hers didn't.

516
00:32:19,891 --> 00:32:23,124
What happened
happened to both of us.

517
00:32:23,126 --> 00:32:26,261
I'm sure you'll work it out
when you get out of here.

518
00:32:26,263 --> 00:32:28,564
That sounded sarcastic,
but it's not.

519
00:32:28,566 --> 00:32:31,001
This is my genuine voice.

520
00:32:36,574 --> 00:32:40,142
[MAN SINGING INDISTINCTLY]

521
00:32:40,144 --> 00:32:43,812
♪ I keep changing,
but you're still the same ♪

522
00:32:43,814 --> 00:32:48,284
[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

523
00:32:48,286 --> 00:32:49,317
Lydia says we can
use the rec room

524
00:32:49,319 --> 00:32:51,152
if we wake up
early enough.

525
00:32:51,154 --> 00:32:53,588
Cool.

526
00:32:53,590 --> 00:32:56,158
Tandy Campbell's
a huge deal.

527
00:32:56,160 --> 00:32:58,693
I bet my aunt Ruth
totally knows about her.

528
00:32:58,695 --> 00:33:00,595
I'm sure.

529
00:33:00,597 --> 00:33:02,297
Blessercize has helped
so many people

530
00:33:02,299 --> 00:33:05,334
find their bodies through God,

531
00:33:05,336 --> 00:33:10,239
and I need a workout buddy,
so it's a perfect fit.

532
00:33:10,241 --> 00:33:12,941
Sounds like a plan.

533
00:33:12,943 --> 00:33:15,810
[MID-TEMPO MUSIC PLAYING]

534
00:33:15,812 --> 00:33:18,682
[BABY CRYING]

535
00:33:31,028 --> 00:33:32,764
You should get in line.

536
00:33:37,068 --> 00:33:38,366
You're stealing?

537
00:33:38,368 --> 00:33:39,969
No. It's only stealing
if I actually leave

538
00:33:39,971 --> 00:33:41,769
the store with it, okay?
I put it back on the shelf.

539
00:33:41,771 --> 00:33:43,305
No. No way.

540
00:33:43,307 --> 00:33:45,207
Erin, please.

541
00:33:45,209 --> 00:33:47,643
You had the sin in your heart,
and that's what counts.

542
00:33:47,645 --> 00:33:49,143
I put it back on the shelf.

543
00:33:49,145 --> 00:33:50,845
I'm not being a good friend
if I ignore your sin.

544
00:33:50,847 --> 00:33:53,284
- Nice vest. [SNICKERS]
- [SNICKERS]

545
00:33:56,721 --> 00:33:59,321
Okay, fine. I'll tell Rick.

546
00:33:59,323 --> 00:34:01,256
It's the right choice.

547
00:34:01,258 --> 00:34:04,258
- Hey, guys.
- Hi, Mark.

548
00:34:04,260 --> 00:34:06,127
- So, I saw what happened.
- Yeah, I know. I'm sorry, okay?

549
00:34:06,129 --> 00:34:07,762
- I put it back on the shelf.
- Yeah, I-I know.

550
00:34:07,764 --> 00:34:09,932
But I-I also think
Erin was right to stop you.

551
00:34:09,934 --> 00:34:11,666
- I know.
- Thank you.

552
00:34:11,668 --> 00:34:14,769
- That took a lot of courage.
- Yeah, I know.

553
00:34:14,771 --> 00:34:18,874
But maybe we could keep
this between us three?

554
00:34:18,876 --> 00:34:20,275
- Wait, really?
- Wh-Why?

555
00:34:20,277 --> 00:34:21,809
I think that you made
a split-second mistake

556
00:34:21,811 --> 00:34:24,679
and you're sorry.

557
00:34:24,681 --> 00:34:26,315
That... That's just my opinion,

558
00:34:26,317 --> 00:34:28,217
so, you know,
what do you think?

559
00:34:28,219 --> 00:34:30,753
I don't know.

560
00:34:30,755 --> 00:34:32,286
Well, you've learned
your lesson?

561
00:34:32,288 --> 00:34:34,625
Yes. I'm... I'm so ashamed.

562
00:34:37,395 --> 00:34:39,293
I just want to look out
for you

563
00:34:39,295 --> 00:34:41,796
the way I hope you'd
look out for me.

564
00:34:41,798 --> 00:34:44,201
Yeah. Yeah, and you know
how much I appreciate that?

565
00:34:49,139 --> 00:34:51,306
Thank you.

566
00:34:51,308 --> 00:34:56,211
[MUSIC CONTINUES]

567
00:34:56,213 --> 00:34:58,213
[CHEERS AND APPLAUSE]

568
00:34:58,215 --> 00:34:59,748
♪ Once upon a time ♪

569
00:34:59,750 --> 00:35:01,916
♪ I was all alone ♪

570
00:35:01,918 --> 00:35:06,257
♪ I was scared and I was idle ♪

571
00:35:09,360 --> 00:35:13,362
♪ I couldn't ask for help
when I needed You ♪

572
00:35:13,364 --> 00:35:17,936
♪ 'Cause I was too full
of pride ♪

573
00:35:20,003 --> 00:35:23,871
- ♪ Ahhhh ♪
- ♪ And if anyone asks ♪

574
00:35:23,873 --> 00:35:27,842
- ♪ Ahhhh ♪
- ♪ "Are you alone tonight?" ♪

575
00:35:27,844 --> 00:35:32,981
- ♪ Ahhhh ♪
- ♪ You've been there the whole time ♪

576
00:35:32,983 --> 00:35:36,985
♪ Your footsteps
right behind mine ♪

577
00:35:36,987 --> 00:35:40,088
[SINGING INDISTINCTLY]

578
00:35:40,090 --> 00:35:41,757
Check out Helen.

579
00:35:41,759 --> 00:35:44,760
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

580
00:35:44,762 --> 00:35:46,260
♪ Your footsteps
right behind mine ♪

581
00:35:46,262 --> 00:35:47,963
JANE: Her panties
would be on that stage

582
00:35:47,965 --> 00:35:52,400
if she wasn't so afraid
of the wrath of God.

583
00:35:52,402 --> 00:35:56,505
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

584
00:35:56,507 --> 00:36:00,809
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

585
00:36:00,811 --> 00:36:04,813
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

586
00:36:04,815 --> 00:36:12,320
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

587
00:36:12,322 --> 00:36:15,456
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

588
00:36:15,458 --> 00:36:20,028
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

589
00:36:20,030 --> 00:36:23,766
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

590
00:36:23,768 --> 00:36:27,336
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

591
00:36:27,338 --> 00:36:31,542
[CHEERS AND APPLAUSE]

592
00:36:35,411 --> 00:36:38,079
♪♪

593
00:36:38,081 --> 00:36:41,249
HELEN: I want to use my voice
in service of God,

594
00:36:41,251 --> 00:36:45,820
and I can't do that if I'm
living with sin in my heart,

595
00:36:45,822 --> 00:36:48,956
and they could tell.

596
00:36:48,958 --> 00:36:53,494
Of course, they could all tell
that I was struggling with SSA,

597
00:36:53,496 --> 00:36:58,400
and they asked me
to leave the group,

598
00:36:58,402 --> 00:37:02,905
and it was...
[SIGHS]

599
00:37:02,907 --> 00:37:06,374
Yeah, it was
the worst day of my life.

600
00:37:06,376 --> 00:37:08,844
[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS
IN DISTANCE]

601
00:37:08,846 --> 00:37:12,514
[SIGHS]

602
00:37:12,516 --> 00:37:16,818
What about you?

603
00:37:16,820 --> 00:37:20,088
- I was running with her faster.
- [DOOR CLOSES]

604
00:37:20,090 --> 00:37:22,925
- Did you hear that?
- What?

605
00:37:22,927 --> 00:37:24,325
RUTH: Cam, I'm home!

606
00:37:24,327 --> 00:37:29,130
♪♪

607
00:37:29,132 --> 00:37:31,333
Um...

608
00:37:31,335 --> 00:37:34,202
[CONVERSATIONS CONTINUE]

609
00:37:34,204 --> 00:37:36,938
...I can't really
think of anything.

610
00:37:36,940 --> 00:37:38,940
Don't overthink it.

611
00:37:38,942 --> 00:37:41,008
When did your
same-sex attractions

612
00:37:41,010 --> 00:37:43,447
get in the way
of your goals?

613
00:37:47,951 --> 00:37:50,184
I don't know.

614
00:37:50,186 --> 00:37:52,389
Why can't you try?

615
00:37:55,226 --> 00:37:56,891
I mean, I am trying.

616
00:37:56,893 --> 00:37:57,925
No, you're not.

617
00:37:57,927 --> 00:38:00,628
- What?
- Is there a problem?

618
00:38:00,630 --> 00:38:02,931
I'm... I'm sorry.
I don't...

619
00:38:02,933 --> 00:38:05,266
I-Is this
just a joke to you?

620
00:38:05,268 --> 00:38:07,302
What? I-I didn't
even say anything.

621
00:38:07,304 --> 00:38:09,637
Exactly.
You never say anything,

622
00:38:09,639 --> 00:38:13,342
and... and your silence feels
aggressive and judgmental,

623
00:38:13,344 --> 00:38:14,976
and it makes the space
not safe.

624
00:38:14,978 --> 00:38:16,345
That's ridiculous.

625
00:38:16,347 --> 00:38:19,481
Well, Helen perceives
hostility in your behavior.

626
00:38:19,483 --> 00:38:21,048
You can agree or not,

627
00:38:21,050 --> 00:38:24,255
but you must recognize
that that is her truth.

628
00:38:26,489 --> 00:38:30,258
Well, I-I mean, what do you
want me to say?

629
00:38:30,260 --> 00:38:33,364
Anything.
Just be honest.

630
00:38:40,103 --> 00:38:41,503
[SIGHS SOFTLY]

631
00:38:41,505 --> 00:38:45,076
Tell us about that girl
you knew from home.

632
00:38:51,981 --> 00:38:54,382
Okay. Um...

633
00:38:54,384 --> 00:38:58,320
her name was Coley.

634
00:38:58,322 --> 00:39:01,623
We were in the same
Bible study.

635
00:39:01,625 --> 00:39:04,262
What was she like?

636
00:39:07,163 --> 00:39:09,499
She was perfect.

637
00:39:11,001 --> 00:39:15,403
But she wasn't
full of herself.

638
00:39:15,405 --> 00:39:17,039
You know, she was
the type of person

639
00:39:17,041 --> 00:39:20,074
that, no matter who you were,
you'd meet her,

640
00:39:20,076 --> 00:39:22,045
and you'd... you'd want
to be her friend.

641
00:39:24,181 --> 00:39:28,684
It's said that cannibals
only eat the enemies they admire

642
00:39:28,686 --> 00:39:31,956
as a way to take inside
their best qualities.

643
00:39:34,157 --> 00:39:35,490
Okay.

644
00:39:35,492 --> 00:39:37,659
When you speak,
you reveal a compulsion

645
00:39:37,661 --> 00:39:39,728
to take into yourself

646
00:39:39,730 --> 00:39:42,266
the qualities you
admired in this girl.

647
00:39:46,503 --> 00:39:48,470
I wanted to be like her,

648
00:39:48,472 --> 00:39:51,139
and I confused that
with being with her?

649
00:39:51,141 --> 00:39:54,012
Correct.

650
00:39:56,679 --> 00:39:59,447
I guess that makes sense.

651
00:39:59,449 --> 00:40:04,119
[CHUCKLING] It's like I thought
I was in love with Vicki Jones,

652
00:40:04,121 --> 00:40:07,558
but... what I really loved
was her perfect pitch.

653
00:40:10,226 --> 00:40:18,733
♪♪

654
00:40:18,735 --> 00:40:27,441
♪♪

655
00:40:27,443 --> 00:40:30,311
Looks like I'm going home
at the end of this semester.

656
00:40:30,313 --> 00:40:32,581
Oh, cool.

657
00:40:32,583 --> 00:40:34,452
Congratulations.

658
00:40:39,722 --> 00:40:41,690
Can I ask you
a personal question?

659
00:40:41,692 --> 00:40:43,458
Uh-huh, sure.

660
00:40:43,460 --> 00:40:45,262
Do you believe in God?

661
00:40:49,065 --> 00:40:51,168
Um...

662
00:40:56,606 --> 00:40:58,409
...I-I guess I don't...
I don't really know.

663
00:41:00,543 --> 00:41:02,980
Yeah. That's okay.

664
00:41:07,050 --> 00:41:10,284
I guess every time...

665
00:41:10,286 --> 00:41:13,255
I pray...

666
00:41:13,257 --> 00:41:16,626
I kind of feel like
I'm being phony.

667
00:41:17,661 --> 00:41:21,630
Yeah. I-I think everybody
can feel like that sometimes,

668
00:41:21,632 --> 00:41:23,331
but I also think that
those are moments

669
00:41:23,333 --> 00:41:27,101
where it's really important
to lean back on your faith

670
00:41:27,103 --> 00:41:29,272
and trust that that
will take you forward.

671
00:41:34,378 --> 00:41:36,381
I don't think I really
have any faith.

672
00:41:39,083 --> 00:41:41,182
Or at least I don't...

673
00:41:41,184 --> 00:41:42,717
really know how to go
about getting it...

674
00:41:42,719 --> 00:41:45,220
[CHUCKLES SOFTLY]

675
00:41:45,222 --> 00:41:48,322
...or if I really want it.

676
00:41:48,324 --> 00:41:52,394
Look, I get it.
I'm not going to lie to you.

677
00:41:52,396 --> 00:41:55,496
I can feel very lost.

678
00:41:55,498 --> 00:42:00,802
But I find it important
to remember...

679
00:42:00,804 --> 00:42:03,374
one foot
in front of the other.

680
00:42:06,543 --> 00:42:08,409
You write here that
the positive reinforcement

681
00:42:08,411 --> 00:42:11,715
you receive for athleticism
confused your gender identity.

682
00:42:15,451 --> 00:42:17,619
Expand on that.

683
00:42:17,621 --> 00:42:20,822
Um...

684
00:42:20,824 --> 00:42:22,624
I don't know.

685
00:42:22,626 --> 00:42:25,063
You must have had a reason
to put it on your iceberg.

686
00:42:29,699 --> 00:42:32,467
Well, I was always
encouraged to compete.

687
00:42:32,469 --> 00:42:34,202
You know, I was all-state
track and field,

688
00:42:34,204 --> 00:42:38,340
so my entire family would
come and watch, cheer me on.

689
00:42:38,342 --> 00:42:40,708
That's how you
earned their love?

690
00:42:40,710 --> 00:42:43,811
No. I wouldn't say that.

691
00:42:43,813 --> 00:42:46,280
They weren't... like that.

692
00:42:46,282 --> 00:42:49,319
What were they like?

693
00:42:52,422 --> 00:42:54,923
They were fine.

694
00:42:54,925 --> 00:42:58,325
Cameron...

695
00:42:58,327 --> 00:43:00,161
if your parents
were still alive,

696
00:43:00,163 --> 00:43:02,799
do you think they'd
be proud of you?

697
00:43:05,936 --> 00:43:07,469
Uh, I don't know.

698
00:43:07,471 --> 00:43:10,173
Your aunt said they had
concerns about you.

699
00:43:23,253 --> 00:43:26,521
Cameron, your progress
is dependent

700
00:43:26,523 --> 00:43:28,657
on the effort you put in,

701
00:43:28,659 --> 00:43:30,559
in our work together.

702
00:43:30,561 --> 00:43:35,396
Your success or failure
is entirely in your own hands.

703
00:43:35,398 --> 00:43:39,434
Do you understand that?

704
00:43:39,436 --> 00:43:40,902
Okay.

705
00:43:40,904 --> 00:43:44,842
Okay.

706
00:43:59,456 --> 00:44:01,590
[ERIN SNORING SOFTLY]

707
00:44:01,592 --> 00:44:08,295
♪♪

708
00:44:08,297 --> 00:44:14,802
♪♪

709
00:44:14,804 --> 00:44:21,508
♪♪

710
00:44:21,510 --> 00:44:28,016
♪♪

711
00:44:28,018 --> 00:44:34,722
♪♪

712
00:44:34,724 --> 00:44:41,396
♪♪

713
00:44:41,398 --> 00:44:47,902
♪♪

714
00:44:47,904 --> 00:44:55,577
♪♪

715
00:44:55,579 --> 00:44:57,778
Fuck.

716
00:44:57,780 --> 00:44:59,813
[SIGHS]

717
00:44:59,815 --> 00:45:02,483
[SNORING CONTINUES]

718
00:45:02,485 --> 00:45:04,521
[SIGHS]

719
00:45:19,001 --> 00:45:22,603
[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

720
00:45:22,605 --> 00:45:25,740
[WOMAN SINGING INDISTINCTLY]

721
00:45:25,742 --> 00:45:28,779
[CONVERSATIONS CONTINUE]

722
00:45:38,722 --> 00:45:40,758
[DIALING]

723
00:45:43,693 --> 00:45:51,365
[RINGING]

724
00:45:51,367 --> 00:45:53,400
COLEY: Hello?

725
00:45:53,402 --> 00:45:54,635
Hey.

726
00:45:54,637 --> 00:45:57,938
Uh, it's me...

727
00:45:57,940 --> 00:45:59,509
Cameron.

728
00:46:01,577 --> 00:46:03,845
Hey.

729
00:46:03,847 --> 00:46:06,380
Are you at that place?

730
00:46:06,382 --> 00:46:09,450
Yeah. Um...

731
00:46:09,452 --> 00:46:12,487
listen, I've been thinking
about what happened,

732
00:46:12,489 --> 00:46:16,057
and I just want
to say I'm sorry.

733
00:46:16,059 --> 00:46:19,427
It was really shitty
the way it all went down.

734
00:46:19,429 --> 00:46:21,528
Yeah.

735
00:46:21,530 --> 00:46:24,733
Did you get my letter?
I sent you a letter.

736
00:46:24,735 --> 00:46:27,469
- Wait, really?
- Yeah.

737
00:46:27,471 --> 00:46:28,603
RICK: Hey, guys!
Time to wrap it up!

738
00:46:28,605 --> 00:46:29,771
BETHANY:
Hey, eyes up here, guys!

739
00:46:29,773 --> 00:46:32,374
Coley, I have to...
I have to go.

740
00:46:32,376 --> 00:46:33,778
I'll call you back.

741
00:46:35,746 --> 00:46:37,845
How long did it take you guys
to get mail privileges?

742
00:46:37,847 --> 00:46:39,514
I don't know.

743
00:46:39,516 --> 00:46:42,950
Like, two months...
maybe longer.

744
00:46:42,952 --> 00:46:45,887
Hey! I did it!

745
00:46:45,889 --> 00:46:47,822
Great!

746
00:46:47,824 --> 00:46:50,494
[APPLAUSE]

747
00:47:10,012 --> 00:47:11,882
What the...?

748
00:47:19,523 --> 00:47:22,891
Hey, Adam.

749
00:47:22,893 --> 00:47:24,992
What's winkte mean?

750
00:47:24,994 --> 00:47:28,195
ADAM: Winkte?
Why do you ask?

751
00:47:28,197 --> 00:47:30,063
Um...

752
00:47:30,065 --> 00:47:31,800
I read it...

753
00:47:31,802 --> 00:47:33,904
on your iceberg.

754
00:47:35,639 --> 00:47:37,871
Yeah. It's a... It's a Lakotan
word for two-spirit.

755
00:47:37,873 --> 00:47:39,976
It's like a...
It's like a third gender.

756
00:47:42,212 --> 00:47:44,912
Okay, so, I am two-spirit,

757
00:47:44,914 --> 00:47:47,182
which, uh, means I was born
with a man's soul

758
00:47:47,184 --> 00:47:48,849
and a woman's soul,

759
00:47:48,851 --> 00:47:50,985
and, uh, literally, "winkte"
means "killed by woman,"

760
00:47:50,987 --> 00:47:52,653
so it's as if
the male part of me

761
00:47:52,655 --> 00:47:54,856
is being killed
by the female part.

762
00:47:54,858 --> 00:47:57,492
That make sense?

763
00:47:57,494 --> 00:48:00,595
He's basically like the
Native American David Bowie.

764
00:48:00,597 --> 00:48:03,731
[CHUCKLES SOFTLY]
I'll take it.

765
00:48:03,733 --> 00:48:05,699
So, why'd your parents
send you here?

766
00:48:05,701 --> 00:48:07,635
His dad got into politics,

767
00:48:07,637 --> 00:48:11,139
and then he converted
to Christianity.

768
00:48:11,141 --> 00:48:13,041
Me being like this...

769
00:48:13,043 --> 00:48:14,912
fucks his image.

770
00:48:24,119 --> 00:48:26,086
Did, um...

771
00:48:26,088 --> 00:48:28,188
Did Rick tell you guys the story
about how he was saved?

772
00:48:28,190 --> 00:48:30,724
[CHUCKLES SOFTLY]

773
00:48:30,726 --> 00:48:32,961
You mean how Christian allies
happened upon his car

774
00:48:32,963 --> 00:48:36,530
in the parking lot of a gay bar
and went inside to investigate?

775
00:48:36,532 --> 00:48:38,967
There was this, like,
weird staredown,

776
00:48:38,969 --> 00:48:44,972
and everybody is like, "Fuck,"
and, finally, Rick is like,

777
00:48:44,974 --> 00:48:48,141
"Oh, my God. Did you guys
come here to save me?"

778
00:48:48,143 --> 00:48:53,715
They're like, "Oh, yeah. We were
driving, and we saw your car."

779
00:48:53,717 --> 00:48:56,617
- "You drive the blue ..."
- "Gray Toyota Camry," yes.

780
00:48:56,619 --> 00:48:58,552
- "Yeah, yeah, yeah. Of course."
- Mm-hmm.

781
00:48:58,554 --> 00:49:00,188
We were driving.
We saw it, and we were like,

782
00:49:00,190 --> 00:49:04,057
'Wow, Rick really needs
our help finding God, '

783
00:49:04,059 --> 00:49:07,762
and that's why we're here,
not to suck your dick."

784
00:49:07,764 --> 00:49:08,862
[LAUGHS]

785
00:49:08,864 --> 00:49:10,731
[LAUGHS]

786
00:49:10,733 --> 00:49:13,601
[WOMAN SINGING INDISTINCTLY]

787
00:49:13,603 --> 00:49:15,936
[YOUNG WOMAN LAUGHS]

788
00:49:15,938 --> 00:49:18,972
[SINGING CONTINUES]

789
00:49:18,974 --> 00:49:22,175
That's really good.

790
00:49:22,177 --> 00:49:25,014
ADAM: I'm too stoned
for art therapy.

791
00:49:27,851 --> 00:49:31,085
CAMERON: I'm sorry.
How is this supposed to help us?

792
00:49:31,087 --> 00:49:33,720
Just think of it as a test
of how far your bullshit

793
00:49:33,722 --> 00:49:35,690
- can take you. Like...
- [LAUGHS]

794
00:49:35,692 --> 00:49:38,659
...let's see. Um...

795
00:49:38,661 --> 00:49:40,728
- this woman riding a horse?
- Mm-hmm.

796
00:49:40,730 --> 00:49:44,699
She's you galloping away
from a past of gender confusion

797
00:49:44,701 --> 00:49:48,635
and into a bright future
of opposite-sex lovemaking.

798
00:49:48,637 --> 00:49:49,970
And, uh...

799
00:49:49,972 --> 00:49:51,338
hold on.

800
00:49:51,340 --> 00:49:53,074
This cat...

801
00:49:53,076 --> 00:49:56,077
and this cat is the devil.
Think of it as your past,

802
00:49:56,079 --> 00:49:59,046
the temptations
and the dangers and...

803
00:49:59,048 --> 00:50:00,248
Hey, how are you?

804
00:50:00,250 --> 00:50:02,152
- Good work, Adam.
- Thank you.

805
00:50:04,219 --> 00:50:05,820
"Good work, Adam."

806
00:50:05,822 --> 00:50:07,822
This Pillsbury Doughboy?

807
00:50:07,824 --> 00:50:10,757
Domesticity and
comfort and family.

808
00:50:10,759 --> 00:50:13,628
I mean, just imagine you're
all sitting at a table together

809
00:50:13,630 --> 00:50:17,331
eating crescent rolls
like a healthy American family.

810
00:50:17,333 --> 00:50:21,635
It's like watching Michaelangelo
paint the Sistine Chapel.

811
00:50:21,637 --> 00:50:24,104
- [SNICKERS]
- What? Why are you laughing? You know I'm right.

812
00:50:24,106 --> 00:50:25,639
That is why I'm laughing.

813
00:50:25,641 --> 00:50:28,976
I mean, the system
is working on you.

814
00:50:28,978 --> 00:50:33,280
Fuck you. No, it's not
working on me at all.

815
00:50:33,282 --> 00:50:37,085
[MUSIC CUTTING IN AND OUT]

816
00:50:37,087 --> 00:50:40,287
[RADIO TUNING]

817
00:50:40,289 --> 00:50:42,155
♪ Oooh ♪

818
00:50:42,157 --> 00:50:44,057
♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh ♪

819
00:50:44,059 --> 00:50:47,394
♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

820
00:50:47,396 --> 00:50:52,833
♪ Ooh, ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh ♪

821
00:50:52,835 --> 00:50:55,403
♪ And I try ♪

822
00:50:55,405 --> 00:50:59,039
♪ Oh, my God, do I try ♪

823
00:50:59,041 --> 00:51:03,144
♪ I try all the time ♪

824
00:51:03,146 --> 00:51:07,048
♪ In this institution ♪

825
00:51:07,050 --> 00:51:10,018
♪ And I pray ♪

826
00:51:10,020 --> 00:51:13,021
♪ Oh, my God, do I pray ♪

827
00:51:13,023 --> 00:51:17,324
♪ I pray every single day ♪

828
00:51:17,326 --> 00:51:19,827
♪ For revolution ♪

829
00:51:19,829 --> 00:51:21,996
- Whoo!
- [CHUCKLES] It's really embarrassing.

830
00:51:21,998 --> 00:51:24,032
- ♪ And so I cry sometimes ♪
- Please... Please don't stop.

831
00:51:24,034 --> 00:51:25,833
♪ When I'm lying in bed ♪

832
00:51:25,835 --> 00:51:29,070
♪ Just to get it all out
what's in my head ♪

833
00:51:29,072 --> 00:51:30,371
- ♪ And I ♪
- [WOLF-WHISTLES]

834
00:51:30,373 --> 00:51:32,072
- ♪ I am feeling ♪
- Get up on stage.

835
00:51:32,074 --> 00:51:35,842
♪ A little peculiar ♪

836
00:51:35,844 --> 00:51:38,079
- Sing it.
- ♪ And I wake in the morning ♪

837
00:51:38,081 --> 00:51:40,048
♪ And I step outside ♪

838
00:51:40,050 --> 00:51:41,749
♪ And I take a deep breath ♪

839
00:51:41,751 --> 00:51:44,184
♪ And I get real high, and I ♪

840
00:51:44,186 --> 00:51:46,054
- Whoo!
- ♪ Scream from the top of my lungs ♪

841
00:51:46,056 --> 00:51:47,822
♪ "What's going on?!" ♪

842
00:51:47,824 --> 00:51:49,389
Come on, everyone!

843
00:51:49,391 --> 00:51:54,429
♪ And I say,
"Hey, yeah, yeah, yeah" ♪

844
00:51:54,431 --> 00:51:57,264
♪ "Hey, yeah, yeah" ♪

845
00:51:57,266 --> 00:52:00,333
- ♪ I said, "Hey!" ♪
- Helen!

846
00:52:00,335 --> 00:52:02,235
♪ What's going on?! ♪

847
00:52:02,237 --> 00:52:03,905
[MUSIC STOPS]

848
00:52:03,907 --> 00:52:06,977
[BREATHING HEAVILY]

849
00:52:11,146 --> 00:52:13,046
Back to work.

850
00:52:13,048 --> 00:52:19,220
The station went static,
so we changed it.

851
00:52:19,222 --> 00:52:20,954
Adam, if you don't get
that hair out of your eyes,

852
00:52:20,956 --> 00:52:22,289
- I'll shave it off.
- Yes, ma'am.

853
00:52:22,291 --> 00:52:25,193
Cameron, come with me.

854
00:52:25,195 --> 00:52:27,731
Shit.

855
00:52:36,472 --> 00:52:38,472
Why now?

856
00:52:38,474 --> 00:52:41,010
I think you'll benefit
from what's in those letters.

857
00:52:42,145 --> 00:52:45,313
[DOOR LOCKS]

858
00:52:45,315 --> 00:52:47,418
Thank you.

859
00:53:17,112 --> 00:53:19,947
[TRAIN WHISTLE BLOWS
IN DISTANCE]

860
00:53:19,949 --> 00:53:21,882
CAMERON: I'm sorry.

861
00:53:21,884 --> 00:53:25,853
JAMIE:
It's just so messed up!

862
00:53:25,855 --> 00:53:28,891
[CRYING]

863
00:53:30,460 --> 00:53:35,028
I'm sorry.

864
00:53:35,030 --> 00:53:36,396
Coley.

865
00:53:36,398 --> 00:53:38,231
Are you fucking kidding me?

866
00:53:38,233 --> 00:53:41,168
Coley, please just get
out of the car.

867
00:53:41,170 --> 00:53:42,836
[CRYING CONTINUES]

868
00:53:42,838 --> 00:53:45,539
Coley, come on.
Just get out of the car.

869
00:53:45,541 --> 00:53:52,345
[TRAIN WHISTLE BLOWS
IN DISTANCE]

870
00:53:52,347 --> 00:53:54,884
F-Fuck!

871
00:54:01,456 --> 00:54:03,259
Jamie, I...

872
00:54:07,963 --> 00:54:10,264
"Dear Cameron,
I'm very angry at you

873
00:54:10,266 --> 00:54:13,367
for taking advantage
of our friendship."

874
00:54:13,369 --> 00:54:16,304
- Shit.
- Keep reading it.

875
00:54:16,306 --> 00:54:18,505
"You already had this thing
in you, but I didn't.

876
00:54:18,507 --> 00:54:19,940
When I think of
how long it took me

877
00:54:19,942 --> 00:54:21,108
to gain the strength
to tell my mom ..."

878
00:54:21,110 --> 00:54:24,211
She told.
It wasn't Jamie.

879
00:54:24,213 --> 00:54:28,349
What if she's right...

880
00:54:28,351 --> 00:54:30,518
you know, like I-I-I
took complete advantage

881
00:54:30,520 --> 00:54:32,052
of our friendship

882
00:54:32,054 --> 00:54:34,921
and I wasn't even aware
I was doing it?

883
00:54:34,923 --> 00:54:37,224
No.

884
00:54:37,226 --> 00:54:39,362
Pink stationery does not
get to fuck with you.

885
00:54:42,164 --> 00:54:44,999
[WATER RUNNING]

886
00:54:45,001 --> 00:54:48,302
This girl is spineless.

887
00:54:48,304 --> 00:54:50,237
Let's say what you
did was fucked up

888
00:54:50,239 --> 00:54:52,106
and you infected
her or whatever.

889
00:54:52,108 --> 00:54:54,641
It was a shit move
to rat you out.

890
00:54:54,643 --> 00:54:56,210
She was just trying to help me.

891
00:54:56,212 --> 00:54:58,912
- She's a fucking rat.
- And she misspelled "courage."

892
00:54:58,914 --> 00:55:01,048
Stop it.

893
00:55:01,050 --> 00:55:03,516
She's better than all of us.

894
00:55:03,518 --> 00:55:07,188
And I hurt her.

895
00:55:07,190 --> 00:55:13,094
What if this really is our only
chance and we're blowing it?

896
00:55:13,096 --> 00:55:15,998
I'm tired of feeling
disgusted with myself.

897
00:55:20,036 --> 00:55:22,369
Maybe you're supposed to feel
disgusted with yourself

898
00:55:22,371 --> 00:55:24,106
when you're a teenager.

899
00:55:28,478 --> 00:55:36,383
♪♪

900
00:55:36,385 --> 00:55:45,358
♪♪

901
00:55:45,360 --> 00:55:47,327
[DIALING]

902
00:55:47,329 --> 00:55:50,097
[RINGING]

903
00:55:50,099 --> 00:55:58,572
♪♪

904
00:55:58,574 --> 00:56:01,041
RUTH: Hello?

905
00:56:01,043 --> 00:56:02,610
Ruth?

906
00:56:02,612 --> 00:56:04,411
Cam?

907
00:56:04,413 --> 00:56:06,347
Hey.

908
00:56:06,349 --> 00:56:10,083
What a nice surprise!
How are you?

909
00:56:10,085 --> 00:56:12,987
[VOICE BREAKING]
I miss you.

910
00:56:12,989 --> 00:56:15,092
Are you okay?

911
00:56:16,659 --> 00:56:18,726
[SIGHS]

912
00:56:18,728 --> 00:56:22,996
If I told you
I was unhappy...

913
00:56:22,998 --> 00:56:27,635
and that I wanted
to come home...

914
00:56:27,637 --> 00:56:29,637
would you let me?

915
00:56:29,639 --> 00:56:31,706
Cam, come on.

916
00:56:31,708 --> 00:56:34,577
You have to give it a chance.

917
00:56:36,746 --> 00:56:40,183
You know I'm doing this
because I love you.

918
00:56:47,690 --> 00:56:50,527
Don't you want to have
a family someday?

919
00:56:54,597 --> 00:56:56,496
[CRYING]

920
00:56:56,498 --> 00:56:58,699
I love you, Cammie.

921
00:56:58,701 --> 00:57:02,135
[CRYING]
I love you, too.

922
00:57:02,137 --> 00:57:04,005
[BOTH CRYING]

923
00:57:04,007 --> 00:57:05,943
Bye, Ruth.

924
00:57:13,782 --> 00:57:17,020
[CRYING]

925
00:57:35,338 --> 00:57:38,338
♪♪

926
00:57:38,340 --> 00:57:40,074
[DOOR OPENS]

927
00:57:40,076 --> 00:57:46,179
How are you feeling,
Cameron?

928
00:57:46,181 --> 00:57:49,650
Um...

929
00:57:49,652 --> 00:57:52,452
I'm okay.

930
00:57:52,454 --> 00:57:54,454
You don't seem okay.

931
00:57:54,456 --> 00:57:58,492
♪♪

932
00:57:58,494 --> 00:58:00,360
I've been better.

933
00:58:00,362 --> 00:58:05,335
You're facing the consequences
of your actions, and it's ugly.

934
00:58:08,670 --> 00:58:11,237
Now what?

935
00:58:11,239 --> 00:58:15,342
Now you stop fighting
the process.

936
00:58:15,344 --> 00:58:21,751
♪♪

937
00:58:25,788 --> 00:58:27,621
Are you ready?

938
00:58:27,623 --> 00:58:30,257
You know it's God who created
these bodies of ours

939
00:58:30,259 --> 00:58:32,592
and it's God who blesses them.

940
00:58:32,594 --> 00:58:37,565
And with His help, we can keep these
bodies working in optimum condition.

941
00:58:37,567 --> 00:58:40,568
Are you ready to start your "Fun
to Be Fit" Blessercize program?

942
00:58:40,570 --> 00:58:42,570
Huh? Come on, everybody!

943
00:58:42,572 --> 00:58:44,271
All right!

944
00:58:44,273 --> 00:58:46,606
Let's engage in some
cardiovascular fitness

945
00:58:46,608 --> 00:58:48,608
unto the Lord. Ready?

946
00:58:48,610 --> 00:58:52,213
♪ It's gonna be fun
to Blessercize with Jesus ♪

947
00:58:52,215 --> 00:58:55,615
♪ To be fit for Him
in every way ♪

948
00:58:55,617 --> 00:58:58,619
♪ He will bless my body,
soul, and spirit ♪

949
00:58:58,621 --> 00:59:01,322
♪ And keep me with Him
every day ♪

950
00:59:01,324 --> 00:59:03,891
♪ I'm gonna sing praise,
hallelujah! ♪

951
00:59:03,893 --> 00:59:07,494
♪ 'Cause my body's
growing firm and strong ♪

952
00:59:07,496 --> 00:59:08,795
You know what we're doing here?

953
00:59:08,797 --> 00:59:10,898
We're developing
our inner person.

954
00:59:10,900 --> 00:59:13,666
You are heading toward
godliness, you see,

955
00:59:13,668 --> 00:59:15,402
in every area of your life,

956
00:59:15,404 --> 00:59:17,704
and that takes some work.

957
00:59:17,706 --> 00:59:19,173
♪ The Lord
is gonna Blessercize ♪

958
00:59:19,175 --> 00:59:20,673
♪ Blessercize ♪

959
00:59:20,675 --> 00:59:23,376
♪ I'm growing stronger
every day ♪

960
00:59:23,378 --> 00:59:24,811
♪ I'm gonna make a new start ♪

961
00:59:24,813 --> 00:59:29,516
And that is your stomach
workout. Terrific!

962
00:59:29,518 --> 00:59:31,818
♪ Blessercize ♪

963
00:59:31,820 --> 00:59:33,387
[CHUCKLES SOFTLY]

964
00:59:33,389 --> 00:59:36,093
♪♪

965
00:59:43,666 --> 00:59:46,635
Is there anything
I can help you with?

966
00:59:55,911 --> 00:59:57,911
- Cameron.
- [GASPS]

967
00:59:57,913 --> 00:59:59,612
Shh, shh. No. I'm sorry.
It's just me.

968
00:59:59,614 --> 01:00:00,813
What the fuck?

969
01:00:00,815 --> 01:00:02,650
You were making
a lot of noise.

970
01:00:02,652 --> 01:00:05,219
I'm sorry. I'm fine.

971
01:00:05,221 --> 01:00:07,720
What were you
dreaming about?

972
01:00:07,722 --> 01:00:09,722
I don't remember, okay?
It was scary.

973
01:00:09,724 --> 01:00:11,358
- No, it wasn't.
- Yeah, it was.

974
01:00:11,360 --> 01:00:13,427
How would you know?
You weren't dreaming with me.

975
01:00:13,429 --> 01:00:15,496
I was listening to you,
and those weren't scared noises.

976
01:00:15,498 --> 01:00:17,634
It was. This is ridiculous.
Go back to bed.

977
01:00:19,969 --> 01:00:21,568
I heard you.

978
01:00:21,570 --> 01:00:23,206
I don't give two...

979
01:00:35,784 --> 01:00:38,521
Let me do this.

980
01:00:46,963 --> 01:00:50,200
[BREATHING HEAVILY]

981
01:01:01,978 --> 01:01:04,978
[Breathing intensifies [

982
01:01:04,980 --> 01:01:08,217
[MOANING SOFTLY]

983
01:01:18,628 --> 01:01:22,329
[MOANING SOFTLY]

984
01:01:22,331 --> 01:01:23,963
[GASPS SOFTLY]

985
01:01:23,965 --> 01:01:25,565
[BREATHING HEAVILY]

986
01:01:25,567 --> 01:01:29,605
[BREATHING SLOWS]

987
01:01:40,048 --> 01:01:43,284
No. I-It's okay.
I'm good.

988
01:01:43,286 --> 01:01:46,987
What?

989
01:01:46,989 --> 01:01:49,490
Get off.

990
01:01:49,492 --> 01:01:52,592
Are you serious?

991
01:01:52,594 --> 01:01:55,598
I should go back
to my own bed now.

992
01:01:58,501 --> 01:02:00,034
Right now?

993
01:02:00,036 --> 01:02:02,405
They could do a pop-in
at any minute.

994
01:02:05,708 --> 01:02:07,744
[SIGHS]

995
01:02:10,445 --> 01:02:14,347
[BREATHING HEAVILY]

996
01:02:14,349 --> 01:02:16,585
[EXHALES SHARPLY]

997
01:02:18,621 --> 01:02:21,421
You can't tell anyone, Cam.

998
01:02:21,423 --> 01:02:24,057
I won't.

999
01:02:24,059 --> 01:02:28,595
I really do want
to get past this.

1000
01:02:28,597 --> 01:02:30,063
Yeah. I believe you.

1001
01:02:30,065 --> 01:02:32,301
I don't care if you
believe me or not.

1002
01:02:36,038 --> 01:02:38,604
I knew this would happen.

1003
01:02:38,606 --> 01:02:40,976
[CHUCKLING] I didn't.

1004
01:02:43,646 --> 01:02:46,516
Because you don't
think of me that way.

1005
01:03:00,396 --> 01:03:03,530
Is part of the reason why you
watch those Tandy Campbell videos

1006
01:03:03,532 --> 01:03:06,400
'cause she's kind of hot,
huh?

1007
01:03:06,402 --> 01:03:09,036
We shouldn't encourage each
other's homosexual attractions.

1008
01:03:09,038 --> 01:03:10,938
Are you fucking
serious right now?

1009
01:03:10,940 --> 01:03:12,740
I don't want to talk anymore.
I just want to go to sleep.

1010
01:03:12,742 --> 01:03:17,947
[SCOFFS] Okay. Well, I mean,
you're the one that woke me up.

1011
01:03:26,655 --> 01:03:28,792
Tandy Campbell's
not even my type.

1012
01:03:34,463 --> 01:03:37,965
♪♪

1013
01:03:37,967 --> 01:03:40,967
[BUZZING IN DISTANCE]

1014
01:03:40,969 --> 01:03:47,807
♪♪

1015
01:03:47,809 --> 01:03:54,681
♪♪

1016
01:03:54,683 --> 01:04:01,521
♪♪

1017
01:04:01,523 --> 01:04:08,161
♪♪

1018
01:04:08,163 --> 01:04:16,003
♪♪

1019
01:04:16,005 --> 01:04:20,007
God, please help so that
the pitch and lyrics

1020
01:04:20,009 --> 01:04:21,842
become second nature

1021
01:04:21,844 --> 01:04:27,516
and I can sing in
worship from my heart.

1022
01:04:28,751 --> 01:04:35,456
[MID-TEMPO MUSIC PLAYS]

1023
01:04:35,458 --> 01:04:38,090
♪ So much to believe in ♪

1024
01:04:38,092 --> 01:04:41,994
♪ We were lost in time ♪

1025
01:04:41,996 --> 01:04:44,063
♪ Always thought of keeping ♪

1026
01:04:44,065 --> 01:04:48,902
♪ Your heart next to mine ♪

1027
01:04:48,904 --> 01:04:55,876
♪ But now that seems
so far away ♪

1028
01:04:55,878 --> 01:05:01,914
♪ Don't know how love
can leave without a trace ♪

1029
01:05:01,916 --> 01:05:04,818
♪ Where do silent hearts go? ♪

1030
01:05:04,820 --> 01:05:09,655
♪ Where does
my heart beat now? ♪

1031
01:05:09,657 --> 01:05:13,894
♪ Where is the sound ♪

1032
01:05:13,896 --> 01:05:17,931
♪ That only echoes through
through the night? ♪

1033
01:05:17,933 --> 01:05:20,570
♪ Where do all
the lonely hearts go? ♪

1034
01:05:24,206 --> 01:05:27,043
♪ Where do all
the lonely hearts go? ♪

1035
01:05:29,277 --> 01:05:31,211
Change will come through

1036
01:05:31,213 --> 01:05:36,952
God, but within me,
I must be the change.

1037
01:05:45,760 --> 01:05:47,831
Mark, why don't
you start us off?

1038
01:05:51,934 --> 01:05:55,235
I know you've had
an especially hard week.

1039
01:05:55,237 --> 01:05:57,537
No. I...

1040
01:05:57,539 --> 01:05:59,572
Every week
is especially hard.

1041
01:05:59,574 --> 01:06:00,974
Is there something...

1042
01:06:00,976 --> 01:06:04,077
Look, if you want me
to talk about my father,

1043
01:06:04,079 --> 01:06:07,981
then I'd prefer
if you just ask.

1044
01:06:07,983 --> 01:06:10,684
Sounds like you want to talk
about your father's decision.

1045
01:06:10,686 --> 01:06:13,786
I don't see what
there is to talk about.

1046
01:06:13,788 --> 01:06:16,225
I mean,
you've read his letter.

1047
01:06:22,697 --> 01:06:23,996
"I am denying your request

1048
01:06:23,998 --> 01:06:27,099
to return home at the end
of the semester.

1049
01:06:27,101 --> 01:06:29,970
You are still
very effeminate...

1050
01:06:29,972 --> 01:06:33,877
and this is a weakness
I cannot have in my home."

1051
01:06:36,177 --> 01:06:37,980
How did that make you feel?

1052
01:06:40,282 --> 01:06:43,717
I'd like to read a passage.

1053
01:06:43,719 --> 01:06:45,652
It's one of my
father's favorites.

1054
01:06:45,654 --> 01:06:48,090
Please do.

1055
01:07:00,034 --> 01:07:02,771
"There was given to me
a thorn in the flesh..."

1056
01:07:05,840 --> 01:07:10,210
"...the messenger of Satan
to buffet me,

1057
01:07:10,212 --> 01:07:12,648
lest I should be
exalted above measure."

1058
01:07:17,018 --> 01:07:19,920
"And for this thing,

1059
01:07:19,922 --> 01:07:21,858
I besought the Lord
thrice..."

1060
01:07:24,159 --> 01:07:26,796
"...that it might depart
from me."

1061
01:07:30,298 --> 01:07:32,134
[VOICE BREAKING]
"And unto me he said..."

1062
01:07:34,902 --> 01:07:37,806
"...'My grace is sufficient
for thee...'"

1063
01:07:42,710 --> 01:07:47,282
"'...for my strength is made
perfect in weakness.'"

1064
01:07:53,755 --> 01:07:57,324
"Most gladly, therefore,
will I rather...

1065
01:07:57,326 --> 01:08:00,427
will I rather glory
in infirmities,

1066
01:08:00,429 --> 01:08:04,798
that the power of Christ
may rest upon me.

1067
01:08:04,800 --> 01:08:07,934
Therefore, I-I take...
I take pleasure in... in...

1068
01:08:07,936 --> 01:08:09,235
in infirmities, in...

1069
01:08:09,237 --> 01:08:10,436
in reproaches,

1070
01:08:10,438 --> 01:08:12,773
in necessities,
in persecutions,

1071
01:08:12,775 --> 01:08:14,775
in distresses,
for Christ's sake,

1072
01:08:14,777 --> 01:08:17,444
for when I am weak,
then am I strong!

1073
01:08:17,446 --> 01:08:19,315
For when I am weak..."

1074
01:08:22,884 --> 01:08:24,654
"...then am I strong."

1075
01:08:29,958 --> 01:08:33,092
"When I am weak...

1076
01:08:33,094 --> 01:08:34,664
then am I strong."

1077
01:08:39,168 --> 01:08:45,971
♪♪

1078
01:08:45,973 --> 01:08:48,274
[SHOUTING IN DISTANCE]

1079
01:08:48,276 --> 01:08:51,310
[VEHICLE DOORS CLOSE]

1080
01:08:51,312 --> 01:08:54,747
♪♪

1081
01:08:54,749 --> 01:08:57,417
[VEHICLE DEPARTS]

1082
01:08:57,419 --> 01:09:01,288
♪♪

1083
01:09:01,290 --> 01:09:03,756
There is no need for theatrics.

1084
01:09:03,758 --> 01:09:05,725
No, I've got this weakness,
but this weakness...

1085
01:09:05,727 --> 01:09:07,027
- If weakness equals strength...
- Please sit down.

1086
01:09:07,029 --> 01:09:08,462
...then this weakness
makes me strong, right?

1087
01:09:08,464 --> 01:09:09,962
Discuss the passage
you have selected.

1088
01:09:09,964 --> 01:09:11,430
Give me the strength
of 10 Marks, of 20 Marks!

1089
01:09:11,432 --> 01:09:13,999
When I am weak, I am strong!
When I am weak, I am strong!

1090
01:09:14,001 --> 01:09:16,837
- Mark, stop it!
- When I am weak, I am strong!

1091
01:09:16,839 --> 01:09:18,137
When I am weak, I am strong!

1092
01:09:18,139 --> 01:09:19,405
- Mark!
- When I am weak, I am strong!

1093
01:09:19,407 --> 01:09:21,341
- Stop it right now!
- Strong, strong!

1094
01:09:21,343 --> 01:09:28,014
♪♪

1095
01:09:28,016 --> 01:09:35,422
♪♪

1096
01:09:35,424 --> 01:09:36,756
I am strong!

1097
01:09:36,758 --> 01:09:37,990
[CRYING] I am strong!

1098
01:09:37,992 --> 01:09:40,860
- I am strong! I am weak!
- Stop it!

1099
01:09:40,862 --> 01:09:43,997
I will remove my foot

1100
01:09:43,999 --> 01:09:46,999
when you are ready to
get control of yourself.

1101
01:09:47,001 --> 01:09:54,975
♪♪

1102
01:09:54,977 --> 01:10:04,050
♪♪

1103
01:10:04,052 --> 01:10:09,956
[SOBBING]

1104
01:10:09,958 --> 01:10:15,060
♪♪

1105
01:10:15,062 --> 01:10:20,167
♪♪

1106
01:10:20,169 --> 01:10:25,271
♪♪

1107
01:10:25,273 --> 01:10:31,213
♪♪

1108
01:10:41,889 --> 01:10:43,289
RICK: I know
that some of you are aware

1109
01:10:43,291 --> 01:10:48,528
that Mark had a little bit
of an accident last night.

1110
01:10:48,530 --> 01:10:50,329
Adam found him in the bathroom,

1111
01:10:50,331 --> 01:10:52,367
and we rushed him
to the hospital.

1112
01:10:54,937 --> 01:10:56,235
His dad's already flown out.

1113
01:10:56,237 --> 01:11:00,006
He is stable, and he's
going to be okay.

1114
01:11:00,008 --> 01:11:01,975
DANE: Fuck this.

1115
01:11:01,977 --> 01:11:03,510
You guys are talking
in circles.

1116
01:11:03,512 --> 01:11:05,846
If he didn't kill himself,
then what did he do?

1117
01:11:05,848 --> 01:11:07,346
Dane, yelling and swearing

1118
01:11:07,348 --> 01:11:09,282
won't help you feel better
about what happened to Mark.

1119
01:11:09,284 --> 01:11:11,518
See, that's where you're wrong,
'cause it does, actually.

1120
01:11:11,520 --> 01:11:13,520
It makes me feel
a fuck of a lot better.

1121
01:11:13,522 --> 01:11:16,559
[HELEN LAUGHING]

1122
01:11:20,395 --> 01:11:22,596
What the fuck is wrong
with you, Helen?

1123
01:11:22,598 --> 01:11:24,130
I'm sorry.

1124
01:11:24,132 --> 01:11:27,234
[LAUGHING CONTINUES]
I can't stop.

1125
01:11:27,236 --> 01:11:28,868
Okay. Everybody go
to your rooms.

1126
01:11:28,870 --> 01:11:31,637
We're going to have
individual one-on-ones.

1127
01:11:31,639 --> 01:11:34,240
[LAUGHING CONTINUES]

1128
01:11:34,242 --> 01:11:36,379
Go to your rooms
until we call you!

1129
01:11:38,379 --> 01:11:40,413
Helen and Dane, stay.

1130
01:11:40,415 --> 01:11:44,885
[LAUGHING CONTINUES]

1131
01:11:44,887 --> 01:11:47,420
Is he going to be all right?

1132
01:11:47,422 --> 01:11:50,957
I think so.

1133
01:11:50,959 --> 01:11:54,994
It is a serious injury.

1134
01:11:54,996 --> 01:11:57,564
This is
completely pointless

1135
01:11:57,566 --> 01:11:59,434
if you don't tell me
what's happened.

1136
01:12:02,504 --> 01:12:07,506
I can tell you what happened,
if that's what you want.

1137
01:12:07,508 --> 01:12:09,341
But it's... It's, uh...

1138
01:12:09,343 --> 01:12:10,946
I can handle ugly.

1139
01:12:17,585 --> 01:12:23,489
Last night, Mark used a razor to
cut his genitals several times.

1140
01:12:23,491 --> 01:12:25,895
Then he poured bleach
over the wounds.

1141
01:12:33,501 --> 01:12:36,138
Adam found him.

1142
01:12:42,611 --> 01:12:45,248
If you were worried about him,
why did you leave him alone?

1143
01:12:54,723 --> 01:12:56,993
I don't have a very
good answer for you.

1144
01:13:02,496 --> 01:13:04,596
Is Adam okay?

1145
01:13:04,598 --> 01:13:09,569
I think so,
all things considered.

1146
01:13:09,571 --> 01:13:12,909
It is going to take him
some time to process.

1147
01:13:17,745 --> 01:13:19,412
How the fuck do you process

1148
01:13:19,414 --> 01:13:22,050
watching your roommate try
and cut his dick off?

1149
01:13:25,120 --> 01:13:27,456
What's he going to do,
put it on his iceberg?

1150
01:13:34,730 --> 01:13:37,098
You people have no idea
what you're doing, do you?

1151
01:13:41,635 --> 01:13:44,040
You're just making it up
as you go along.

1152
01:13:51,112 --> 01:13:54,182
[CRYING]

1153
01:14:00,288 --> 01:14:02,055
I don't know how
to answer you right now.

1154
01:14:02,057 --> 01:14:05,124
I...

1155
01:14:05,126 --> 01:14:07,562
I'm so sorry.

1156
01:14:10,531 --> 01:14:13,401
I'm so sorry.

1157
01:14:21,742 --> 01:14:26,279
[CRYING CONTINUES]

1158
01:14:26,281 --> 01:14:34,654
♪♪

1159
01:14:34,656 --> 01:14:43,195
♪♪

1160
01:14:43,197 --> 01:14:51,570
♪♪

1161
01:14:51,572 --> 01:15:01,280
♪♪

1162
01:15:01,282 --> 01:15:04,117
[BREATHING HEAVILY]

1163
01:15:04,119 --> 01:15:09,088
♪♪

1164
01:15:09,090 --> 01:15:14,594
♪♪

1165
01:15:14,596 --> 01:15:18,797
Um, mostly
independent study.

1166
01:15:18,799 --> 01:15:22,135
Do you have access to the
outdoors on a regular basis?

1167
01:15:22,137 --> 01:15:23,470
Yeah.

1168
01:15:23,472 --> 01:15:25,738
Do you feel safe
in your dorm rooms at night?

1169
01:15:25,740 --> 01:15:28,240
Yeah.

1170
01:15:28,242 --> 01:15:31,743
Do you feel threatened by staff
members or fellow students?

1171
01:15:31,745 --> 01:15:34,213
No.

1172
01:15:34,215 --> 01:15:36,084
Do you trust those
in charge here?

1173
01:15:39,855 --> 01:15:42,454
Not really.

1174
01:15:42,456 --> 01:15:45,859
You don't trust
the staff here?

1175
01:15:45,861 --> 01:15:50,896
Well, what do you...
I mean, trust them how?

1176
01:15:50,898 --> 01:15:53,302
Do you think they have
your best interests in mind?

1177
01:15:56,338 --> 01:15:59,541
No one's, you know,
beating us.

1178
01:16:01,742 --> 01:16:03,846
But you asked me
if I trust them.

1179
01:16:05,847 --> 01:16:07,547
And, sure, yeah.

1180
01:16:07,549 --> 01:16:09,448
I trust them to drive
the van safely,

1181
01:16:09,450 --> 01:16:11,587
and I trust them
to buy food, but...

1182
01:16:16,825 --> 01:16:20,659
Look, I know you're here because
of what happened to Mark.

1183
01:16:20,661 --> 01:16:23,395
Something didn't
just happen to him.

1184
01:16:23,397 --> 01:16:26,498
He injured himself.

1185
01:16:26,500 --> 01:16:29,202
While under the care
of this facility.

1186
01:16:29,204 --> 01:16:31,703
Correct, and that's
why I'm here,

1187
01:16:31,705 --> 01:16:33,840
to investigate the care
that is given

1188
01:16:33,842 --> 01:16:36,408
by those
who run this facility,

1189
01:16:36,410 --> 01:16:39,378
not to investigate
the mission of this facility,

1190
01:16:39,380 --> 01:16:43,382
unless that includes
abuse or neglect.

1191
01:16:43,384 --> 01:16:46,485
Yeah, but what about
emotional abuse?

1192
01:16:46,487 --> 01:16:48,221
Are you saying you're
being emotionally abused

1193
01:16:48,223 --> 01:16:52,225
by the staff here?

1194
01:16:52,227 --> 01:16:55,228
How is programming people
to hate themselves

1195
01:16:55,230 --> 01:16:57,266
not emotional abuse?

1196
01:17:00,201 --> 01:17:01,801
I've made note
of what you said,

1197
01:17:01,803 --> 01:17:03,873
and it will be
in the official file.

1198
01:17:09,910 --> 01:17:12,547
Thank you.

1199
01:17:21,822 --> 01:17:29,596
♪♪

1200
01:17:29,598 --> 01:17:31,700
I didn't even know
Mark shaved.

1201
01:17:33,567 --> 01:17:35,768
He doesn't.

1202
01:17:35,770 --> 01:17:39,404
It was my razor.

1203
01:17:39,406 --> 01:17:45,778
♪♪

1204
01:17:45,780 --> 01:17:48,480
I thought he was dead.

1205
01:17:48,482 --> 01:17:54,886
♪♪

1206
01:17:54,888 --> 01:18:01,493
♪♪

1207
01:18:01,495 --> 01:18:08,835
♪♪

1208
01:18:08,837 --> 01:18:11,738
Fuck this place.

1209
01:18:11,740 --> 01:18:18,344
♪♪

1210
01:18:18,346 --> 01:18:20,313
I'll steal the keys to the van.

1211
01:18:20,315 --> 01:18:22,782
We'll be in Canada by morning.

1212
01:18:22,784 --> 01:18:25,952
- [CHUCKLES]
- [CHUCKLES]

1213
01:18:25,954 --> 01:18:32,024
♪♪

1214
01:18:32,026 --> 01:18:38,064
♪♪

1215
01:18:38,066 --> 01:18:45,038
♪♪

1216
01:18:45,040 --> 01:18:47,606
I'm going to turn
the light off.

1217
01:18:47,608 --> 01:18:49,809
Okay.

1218
01:18:49,811 --> 01:18:57,949
♪♪

1219
01:18:57,951 --> 01:19:00,955
♪♪

1220
01:19:10,031 --> 01:19:12,835
[FOOTSTEPS APPROACH,
FLASHLIGHT CLICKS]

1221
01:19:17,339 --> 01:19:20,843
[FLASHLIGHT CLICKS,
FOOTSTEPS DEPART]

1222
01:19:44,098 --> 01:19:46,099
Early bird
gets the worm, huh?

1223
01:19:46,101 --> 01:19:48,337
You know it.

1224
01:19:51,772 --> 01:19:54,806
What are y'all
doing up so early?

1225
01:19:54,808 --> 01:19:57,542
Um, we went on a hike.

1226
01:19:57,544 --> 01:20:00,913
Sounds fun.

1227
01:20:00,915 --> 01:20:03,018
[CLEARS THROAT]

1228
01:20:11,558 --> 01:20:14,596
- So, how's it going?
- Good. Real good.

1229
01:20:16,731 --> 01:20:20,499
I found out we'll be getting
a new disciple...

1230
01:20:20,501 --> 01:20:23,435
young man from Indiana.

1231
01:20:23,437 --> 01:20:25,704
Looks like you'll be getting
a new roommate on Wednesday.

1232
01:20:25,706 --> 01:20:28,343
Oh, cool. Can't wait.

1233
01:20:43,991 --> 01:20:47,960
So, you seen any
new movies lately?

1234
01:20:47,962 --> 01:20:49,996
I finally watched
"Young Frankenstein"

1235
01:20:49,998 --> 01:20:52,798
on your recommendation.

1236
01:20:52,800 --> 01:20:56,135
[LAUGHING] I haven't laughed
that hard in a long time.

1237
01:20:56,137 --> 01:20:57,869
I figured
you'd like that one.

1238
01:20:57,871 --> 01:21:01,474
Mm. I love that part with
the elbow kiss, you know?

1239
01:21:01,476 --> 01:21:03,042
- Right.
- "Not on the lips!"

1240
01:21:03,044 --> 01:21:05,511
[BOTH LAUGH]

1241
01:21:05,513 --> 01:21:08,550
My dad and I
used to do that.

1242
01:21:17,057 --> 01:21:20,893
We should go, you know,
so we can make our day.

1243
01:21:20,895 --> 01:21:23,962
You guys are serious hikers.
I'm impressed.

1244
01:21:23,964 --> 01:21:27,935
- Maybe next time I'll come.
- Yeah, definitely.

1245
01:21:34,508 --> 01:21:35,675
Have fun.

1246
01:21:35,677 --> 01:21:38,810
You, too.

1247
01:21:38,812 --> 01:21:41,783
- Bye, Rick.
- Bye, Rick.

1248
01:22:22,223 --> 01:22:30,195
♪♪

1249
01:22:30,197 --> 01:22:38,170
♪♪

1250
01:22:38,172 --> 01:22:46,145
♪♪

1251
01:22:46,147 --> 01:22:54,119
♪♪

1252
01:22:54,121 --> 01:23:02,094
♪♪

1253
01:23:02,096 --> 01:23:10,069
♪♪

1254
01:23:10,071 --> 01:23:18,043
♪♪

1255
01:23:18,045 --> 01:23:26,018
♪♪

1256
01:23:26,020 --> 01:23:33,993
♪♪

1257
01:23:33,995 --> 01:23:41,967
♪♪

1258
01:23:41,969 --> 01:23:49,975
♪♪

1259
01:23:49,977 --> 01:23:57,949
♪♪

1260
01:23:57,951 --> 01:24:05,925
♪♪

1261
01:24:05,927 --> 01:24:13,899
♪♪

1262
01:24:13,901 --> 01:24:22,975
♪♪

1263
01:24:22,977 --> 01:24:32,217
♪♪

1264
01:24:32,219 --> 01:24:41,661
♪♪

1265
01:24:41,663 --> 01:24:50,903
♪♪

1266
01:24:50,905 --> 01:25:00,145
♪♪

1267
01:25:00,147 --> 01:25:09,387
♪♪

1268
01:25:09,389 --> 01:25:11,791
♪ Sit around ♪

1269
01:25:11,793 --> 01:25:17,029
♪ Sit around ♪

1270
01:25:17,031 --> 01:25:19,331
Say something to him.

1271
01:25:19,333 --> 01:25:24,737
What kind of a slut
do you think I am?

1272
01:25:24,739 --> 01:25:25,871
My friend
thinks you're hot!

1273
01:25:25,873 --> 01:25:27,338
Hey, stop it!

1274
01:25:27,340 --> 01:25:29,240
Say something sexy.
Say something sexy.

1275
01:25:29,242 --> 01:25:32,377
Uh... pull my finger.

1276
01:25:32,379 --> 01:25:35,780
[CHUCKLES]

1277
01:25:35,782 --> 01:25:40,752
- [ENGINE REVS]
- Whoa!

1278
01:25:40,754 --> 01:25:42,954
- Shit.
- Dude!

1279
01:25:42,956 --> 01:25:44,155
[LAUGHS]

1280
01:25:44,157 --> 01:25:45,957
"Pull my finger."
"Pull my finger."

1281
01:25:45,959 --> 01:25:47,158
Yes.

1282
01:25:47,160 --> 01:25:48,260
Oh, man.

1283
01:25:48,262 --> 01:25:49,862
[CHUCKLES]

1284
01:25:49,864 --> 01:25:51,363
That is stupid.

1285
01:25:51,365 --> 01:25:53,364
Hey, it worked.

1286
01:25:53,366 --> 01:26:01,873
♪♪

1287
01:26:01,875 --> 01:26:10,181
♪♪

1288
01:26:10,183 --> 01:26:18,524
♪♪

1289
01:26:18,526 --> 01:26:27,032
♪♪

1290
01:26:27,034 --> 01:26:35,376
♪♪

1291
01:26:44,317 --> 01:26:52,257
♪♪

1292
01:26:52,259 --> 01:27:00,166
♪♪

1293
01:27:00,168 --> 01:27:08,106
♪♪

1294
01:27:08,108 --> 01:27:16,015
♪♪

1295
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1297
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1298
01:27:39,607 --> 01:27:47,546
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1299
01:27:47,548 --> 01:27:55,453
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1300
01:27:55,455 --> 01:28:03,395
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1301
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1307
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1308
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[MID-TEMPO MUSIC PLAYS]

1311
01:29:21,976 --> 01:29:24,075
♪ Once upon a time ♪

1312
01:29:24,077 --> 01:29:26,045
♪ I was all alone ♪

1313
01:29:26,047 --> 01:29:30,619
♪ I was scared and I was idle ♪

1314
01:29:33,620 --> 01:29:37,689
♪ I couldn't ask for help
when I needed You ♪

1315
01:29:37,691 --> 01:29:42,396
♪ 'Cause I was too full
of pride ♪

1316
01:29:45,266 --> 01:29:49,534
♪ But I was walking on my own ♪

1317
01:29:49,536 --> 01:29:51,673
♪ Ohhhh ♪

1318
01:29:53,441 --> 01:29:57,275
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

1319
01:29:57,277 --> 01:30:00,412
♪ Your footsteps
right behind mine ♪

1320
01:30:00,414 --> 01:30:08,389
♪ And I am never scared
'cause I... ♪

1321
01:30:11,459 --> 01:30:14,726
♪ I'm never going
to be perfect ♪

1322
01:30:14,728 --> 01:30:19,199
♪ But with your love
I will keep striving ♪

1323
01:30:23,169 --> 01:30:27,105
♪ And I will ask for help
when it all goes wrong ♪

1324
01:30:27,107 --> 01:30:32,212
♪ And I will spread
Your love like fire ♪

1325
01:30:35,182 --> 01:30:37,682
- ♪ Ahhhh ♪
- ♪ And if anyone asks ♪

1326
01:30:37,684 --> 01:30:42,253
- ♪ Ahhhh ♪
- ♪ "Are you alone tonight?" ♪

1327
01:30:42,255 --> 01:30:46,591
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

1328
01:30:46,593 --> 01:30:50,496
♪ Your footsteps
right behind mine ♪

1329
01:30:50,498 --> 01:30:54,600
♪ I'm never scared because ♪

1330
01:30:54,602 --> 01:30:58,337
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

1331
01:30:58,339 --> 01:31:02,640
♪ Your footsteps
right behind mine ♪

1332
01:31:02,642 --> 01:31:06,278
♪ I am never scared 'cause ♪

1333
01:31:06,280 --> 01:31:10,416
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

1334
01:31:10,418 --> 01:31:14,485
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

1335
01:31:14,487 --> 01:31:18,390
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

1336
01:31:18,392 --> 01:31:22,094
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

1337
01:31:22,096 --> 01:31:25,797
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

1338
01:31:25,799 --> 01:31:29,536
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪