AIM IM with ekatharsis@gmail.com4/13/10 8:18 AM
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sir
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im sorry im bored
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been awake since forever
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Ok.
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Who is this?
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el_p
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Ah, how is your time in the States?
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Are you still in virginia?
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yeah
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for now
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we're leaving soon
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Where are you staying now?
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hotel
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You can afford it?
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we're shitting money dude
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That's impressive.
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Who is we?
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me and my gf
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Clovis didn't tell me you had a gf.
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When did this happen?
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hmm
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around xtmas
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So i assume she's loaded?
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she's just as homeless as i am
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it's just she got 900 from her tax return
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i got 1000 from my parents
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she got a job
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im selling bud
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and she still does some gigs that pay a ton of cash
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You selling headies?
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pffft
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no
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So you scam the high schoolers with mids?
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just like mexican dirt
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pretty much
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they cant get much better around here anyway
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and cos i look like a college kid instead of a gangsta they trust me
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lol, this room is full of forensic science students
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You're in someone apartment?
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nah
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i woke up at 6am
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had nothing to do
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went downstairs and have since been using the hotel's computer
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"15 minutes time limit, please!"
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Don't spend too  much on the hotel.
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It's getting warmer out now, you guys can start camping.
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usually thats what we do
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we just felt like taking a one-week vacation
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there's not much else to spend the money on
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we already have everything else we wanted
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Save up the money.
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and travel?
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Did you go to California
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?
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nah
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Try saving up some more money and go traveling.
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too  much trouble
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i'm going back to europe this summer
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Ah, so  you're done traveling in the States?
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for now
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i miss home
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 might come back one day :P
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Yeah, America is shit.
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I don't blame you for leaving.
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not really
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Well, you've seen the shit side of America.
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Wait until you get out further south and west.
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Everything is more slower and relaxed.
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NorthEast and the cities are all hectic and fast paced.
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true
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it was always more about discovering myself than the world, anyway
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and i think i've done a pretty good job :)
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and to think it all began with an internet crush
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ive come a long way from my tinychat/trap days :)
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sniff sniff, i'm so proud of myself :')
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That's good.
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btw is she dead?
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Before ,we were really worried about you.
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I have no idea.
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I never see her anymore.
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probably dead
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either that or she ran away like she wanted to
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bummer
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I wouldn't worry about her.
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why not?
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Because you seem better off without her.
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oh i am
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but she's not
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if i hadnt fucked up she wouldnt have ended up in the asylum
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or with scars all over her body
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or potentially dead or homeless
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She was in the asylum?
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And she has scars?
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she was in the hospice for about one month
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and then kept going in and out a few more times
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tried to kill herself a few times
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according to who saw them she has pretty deep scars
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not scars from someone who's looking for attention
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I don't think that's your fault.
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or just for attention
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Ontop of that you have a gf.
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And apparently that's going good for you.
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ok
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now's when i need help
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i dont know what to do
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i think i love her
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So what's the problem?
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and she loves me a loooooooooot
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like you wouldnt believe
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and i know she'd die for me
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and ive never been happier
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but
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there's not one day i dont think of elinor
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and what it could have been with her
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my gf wants to marry me
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and have kids
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and so do i
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but
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I don
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t
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Wait, elinor is?
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trap
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Ok but
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Trap is gone.
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Out of your life.
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Time to let her go.
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you think i dont want to, old e-friend?
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i keep trying to convince my soul to think logically
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but to no avail so far
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its been 8 months
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Ok.
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Think of it like this.
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and there's still not a single day i dont think about her
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Do you think you would ever be or meet someone
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like your current gf
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and be happy?
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yes
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Ok.
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But do you like the situation you're in?
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i'm pretty content
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Then why do you want to mess it up?
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i don't
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i really don't
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and i dont think i will
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I dunno.
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Do what you think is right.
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That's the only thing you can go by in life.
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it's an achille's dillemma
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he had to choose between happiness, wealth and prosperity or death and glory
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sometimes you're happy
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but you know that you could be living a dream instead
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and some people would risk everything for it
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