Princess Luna(08/31/2011 8:59:30 PM) : Feel up to double-teaming as Typhoon and Twilight?

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 8:59:52 PM) : Why?

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 9:00:26 PM) : -shrug- Just curious. I could be Rainbow. But if you don't feel like multitasking so much, I can stick with entertaining myself as Luna alone~

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 9:03:30 PM) : Better stick to Luna.

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 9:04:02 PM) : kay xD why, if I may ask? You seem so firm in that decision. o:

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 9:04:41 PM) : Not in the mood.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 9:04:48 PM) : I'm only on typhoon cuz of request.

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 9:05:21 PM) : awh. Is everything okay?

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 9:05:47 PM) : Irked mainly by several things, but I'll survive.

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 9:06:38 PM) : My ear is open if you want to talk about it. ^w^

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 9:14:11 PM) : I'm just .. Ugh. I'll be frank. THe entire fascination with always wanting to RP with Twilight creeps me out. I mean, you go from one character, to another, and it's TWILIGHT TWILIGHT TWILIGHT. Is there some particular reason why you're so fixated on that one character or am I missing something? I mean, it's.. It's just irksome and creepy. Like, I can't post without one of your characters jumping out and all 'TWILIGHT OMG'. You hop from one to another to another. And it's like.. I know Celestia asked you to give me and Macho space, but that didn't just mean on Merry Belle. I totally don't mean to be hurtful or anything, but like.. Yeah. >>;

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 9:18:10 PM) : Oh. o-o Sorry. I've only had two characters be all 'TWILIGHT OMG' and that's Merry and Rainbow. I figured... y'know, Rainbow made sense, considering... they're friends and stuff, and haven't seen one another in a month or so. Merry I understand... which is why I'm putting her away for now. I'm not trying to bother you, I just think you're a cool person, and I like playing with you. Alot. Because you're really fun. I'm not trying to be creepy and stalkery. I just consider you one of my best friends around here. Do I need to re-evaluate that or something?
kururi_ale(08/31/2011 9:31:30 PM) : We weren't really good friends to start with. First time I met you, in all honesty, I wanted to strangle both you and Lethal. And as of late, due to the entire mess with Merry, and this.. I just. I don't know anymore. Like, I mean, outside of MLP? The only thing I know about you is what I hear on the grapevine. That's it. We're not really friends at all, more like friendly aquaintances. But Besties? No, I have two best friends, and only one of them is in mlp. I'm afraid it isn't you. I'm very very paranoid about who I call friend, and with the impressions I get from how you react / act toward things, especially the mess with Lethal, and then with NMM, and such just.. - head shake- I'm sorry, but we're not best friends. If you want to call me that, th

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 9:32:00 PM) : the sentiment. I mean nothing to be hurtful in any way, but tha'ts just how I am. I've had too many friends BETRAY ME this year alone, that or abandon me. Two suicides. TWO. And then one died in the car crash. Then Lethal literally turned RABID ANIMAL on me.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 9:32:07 PM) : Charmen, whom I thought was a friend REPORTED ME.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 9:32:14 PM) : And turned PSYCHO RAPIST.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 9:32:50 PM) : I don't have best friends in this chat, no, I'm afraid not. Just one, because they have stuck with me through everything, defended me through everything, and helped me FIGHT the battles that I had to deal with.

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 9:35:43 PM) : I may not be your best friend, but I looked at you as one for me. I'm really a nice person. I want only the best for my friends, and I want only to be there for them. I've known Celestia, Spike and Blues for a long time. I've known Glitter Shine for a WAAAAAAAAY longer time, and we're best friends irl. But if I'm not a friend to you, that's okay. I honestly can't blame you because of how things have looked lately. I'll stop RPing with you, if I'm becoming bothersome. All I needed was to be told.

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 9:48:20 PM) : By the way. I would never punish you for speaking your mind twords me; especially when I am in the wrong. So please, never be afraid to open up to me.

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 9:49:47 PM) : I'll leave you alone, until you feel our differences have settled. Again, I'm really really sorry. I never meant for things to turn out this way, and it really hurts me to know it's led to all of this. You're one of the greatest things to happen to this room, and I would hate to drive you away.
Princess Luna(08/31/2011 11:01:31 PM) : Wait. I know I said I wouldn't IM you again, but I wanted to know something only you can tell me.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:03:12 PM) : Sorry, been discussing equastone stuff and other things with folks. 'sup?

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 11:04:08 PM) : The rumors you heard about me through the grapevine... I don't want to know who said them, but I want to know what they are.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:04:25 PM) : Just that you're a guy, you worked as a medic but was discharged and.. That's about it.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:04:43 PM) : Anything else I came to my own conclusions by observing behaviors and procedures.

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 11:04:52 PM) : ...holy shit, that's so far off in the wrong direction it's not even funny.

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 11:06:26 PM) : Well, yes I'm a guy: But it's not a secret, honestly. Noone bothered to ask. I just prefer to be called whatever gender of character I'm on, to make things easier. I was a Financial Management Technician for the Army, but I was recently HONORABLY DISCHARGED.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:06:56 PM) : I never said it was dishonorable or honorable. - shrug - I heard honorably, I was just lazy in typing.

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 11:07:07 PM) : Oh.

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 11:07:32 PM) : Well, a discharged medic sounds baaad. Lol.

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 11:08:30 PM) : Okay. I guess it's not so bad.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:08:36 PM) : That's about all I've heard.

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 11:08:36 PM) : I mean. The rumors.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:08:52 PM) : Rumor wise, no one's said anything to me about you other than those two tidbits that were completely in passing.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:08:59 PM) : Mainly because I mentioned I had military family.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:09:16 PM) : Anything else that I have come to a conclusion about, it was with my own eyes, not through others.

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 11:09:21 PM) : It must have been mentioned in Blues over Skype. :v

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 11:09:35 PM) : What conclusions have you come to, if I may ask?

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:10:11 PM) : No, it wasn't Blues. He doesn't talk junk about anything other than Charmen.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:12:04 PM) : Well, that as a professional administrator, you're lacking. A lot. You get angry way too easily, and instead of letting it out in private, you let it out on the person you're talking to. I vent. A lot when I'm angry at someone at my friends to get that rage and anger out to act as a responsibile moderator toward whomever the issue is about. You also have shown favoritism from the mod teams, and from what I have seen -- some hammers, if not most were given out for show, as the mods don't actually do their positions as moderation. You dislike drama, yet you rp it a lot, which contradicts what you said. You don't want ot be the center of attention, but you create characters that act in a way that make it so, another contradiction. You dislike conflict,

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:13:27 PM) : you have to deal with this, but decide mostly to let outside forces decide for you. Such as with Celestia -- though when issues are handled as you wanted them to be -- taking a break means that if she decides how a situation is handled, you put a button to your lip and accept it. She's a sound administrator and does eveyrthing she is supposed to ASAP. The entire situation with Lethal, even before she was backstabbing me left a bad taste in my mouth for the administration team except with Celestia, who took a proactive approach and handled it.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:15:56 PM) : If you're too busy to listen to ponies, especially with Charmen who seems to always catch you off guard with her ponies that are always breaking rules in some way or another unless caught red handed, you brush aside with 'yeah whatever' type attitude. Such as with Night Mare Moon and all that mess. You get distracted very easily, and you won't interact with the chat unless it can directly benefit you each post. I'm not saying your bad for this, I'm just saying that's why when you don't participate in certain plots people aren't biting their hankies and crying "WHY". You want to participate how you want to particpiate, and you want to control the situation without having the responsbilities that come with it for the most part. You've been handling one

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:17:26 PM) : aspect of the administrative team, which is the complaints area which I am thankful for, but from what I've seen, that's otherwise it. You don't welcome new ponies when I'm here or in the logs if you're online, you only banned Charmen because she was directly agitating you -- it shows to me that you have a weak character when it comes to showing authority, unless it gets you want you want, such as information about things. Playing a power card is not the same as taking responsibility for your room, and I've seen this happen once or twice. It's not a frequent thing, but again, it leaves a bad taste in my mouth.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:18:18 PM) : Also, I've noticed that you undermind Celestia, and even today, though you didn't think it was as such / didn't mean to, you did the same to me as a moderator. I know you're friends with Celestia, and I know this was addressed already, but it still stuck with me. It's not how a team is run, especially by the ROOM CREATOR to be so flippant and so disrespectful to both users and the moderation team.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:20:32 PM) : We as mods shouldn't have to remind you of the rules ourselves that you and Celestia put into place. You are the administrator, break or not, and should uphold your own rules and not have us have to remind you about them. You're held to a higher standard than the usual users in the room, no matter WHAT character you're on at the time. That means if an issue is happening, you can't turn a blind eye. That's the only reason I've been on Twilight so much -- simply because if Celestia isn't here, it feels like nothing really gets done administrative wise or moderation wise. Spike is a nice guy, I'll give him that, but I have no idea why he is still a moderator in this chat when he knows how to do profiles, but does nothing else of the sort that I have per

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:21:28 PM) : personally seen. I know he has five other groups, but in all honesty, if he has too much on his plate, then he shouldn't have the pressure of being a mod for another group he's not active in. I'm sure he wouldn't mind even being spoken to about it to relieve some of the pressure from his shoulders due to being in charge. Hammers shouldn't be given out to friends, they should be given out to people who actually will and can do a good job as an authoritive figure.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:21:49 PM) : That's my two cents.

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 11:22:39 PM) : Spike is an excellent Mod. He hasn't been active in the room because he hasn't finished season 1. He told me he will be much more active once he's caught up. Just give it awhile.

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 11:22:44 PM) : As for everything else.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:23:05 PM) : That's fine, like I said, I wasn't going to assume he did nothing, but he said he had five other groups. In all honesty, I'd be 'hold up noty'.
kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:25:28 PM) : Now before it gets to this. I didn't tell you this because I wanted you to defend yourself or prove me wrong or anything. You asked me what I thought about it, and this is what I've seen. I really don't want to have a huge discussion about what kind of person you are, because words are words. I rather see things done through action than someone telling me either way. Just so you know.

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 11:26:15 PM) : I'm glad you said it, because I realized I'm a worse Admin than I thought I was. I already told Celestia I was going to step down, but damn... Now I'm just going to do it the express road. I know I was a great Admin. Up until I had to run things on my own. Celestia went on vacation, Applejack and Vinyl vanished into thin air, Spike got busy with IRL stuff... I was the only voice of authority in the room. And it just wore me down and eventually broke me. So I hired Ditzy, Blues and Pinkie to help me. I'm still very broken from that. And I know it.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:26:46 PM) : See, now that Celestia's back, she's taken over admin.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:26:50 PM) : But when Celestia's not here.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:27:20 PM) : I've had to step up as admin in her place because of the fact you don't want to do that work. You said you're stressed, and hay, it's cool. But I've been doing the work of the mods for the past few weeks since I was promoted.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:27:51 PM) : I get tons of pms from hopefuls, and ontop of dealing with drama that happens inside chat, I try to keep peace, ontop of now being in class and school.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:28:42 PM) : I know what it's like to feel like you're completely alone when it comes to this sort of thing.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:28:50 PM) : I know what it's like to feel like you're doing the work of EVERYONE.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:29:04 PM) : I worked for Smuthaven, and I ended up leaving because of that and bad aministration.

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 11:30:05 PM) : Dear, I never made it a public statement that I was taking a break from Admining. I only told certain people. People would rather wait for Celestia to come on to handle it. The only things that come to my attention is stuff I want to talk over with Celestia first, but these fucks run off and get Celestia to handle it before I can. Noone wants my help anymore. And I'm not a good Admin at the moment. Everything I've touched lately, no matter how good my intentions; have crumbled in my hands. So I better just stop while I'm ahead.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:32:27 PM) : You didn't have to make an announcement, hon. It showed. No offense, but Celestia told me that you officially took a break, and the mods pretty much just said 'HERP DERP BORED WITH THIS AFK NAO.' and I took over their jobs, too.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:32:34 PM) : With Smuthaven, I was the only active mod over 80 people.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:32:38 PM) : Sometimes even 100.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:32:56 PM) : SO this shit's not foreign to me. I worked for a private server of Ragnorok Online, too, dealing with all sorts of people.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:33:15 PM) : So I'm used to drama, and whining, and complaining, and putting people in their place when they need to be. When it's a boss, it's an entirely different matter, though.

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 11:34:09 PM) : It just really hurts. I bought this group, I built it up, I gave it the best care possible, I've been here every single day since I created the group, and it really really hurts to know you're the worst thing to happen to it.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:34:24 PM) : You're not the worst thing that has happened to this group.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:34:36 PM) : You're just.. Not necessarily administrative professional material yet.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:35:03 PM) : Being an administrator requires a lot of work, more so than you can currently handle, and that's not a bad thing. Some people just don't really deal well with stress.

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 11:37:03 PM) : As an admin, I'm held to a higher standard than everyone else. And right now, I haven't been a good one. Noone wants to talk to me, noone wants to interact with me, noone wants to bring their problems to me, I've got nothing but rumors spread about me...

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:37:30 PM) : I haven't heard anything but the military thing and you're a guy. Guy thing I already knew, but still.

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 11:38:47 PM) : I'm sure there are other, legitimate rumors.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:39:09 PM) : Well, they don't reach me, so. I mean, Charmen's complained about you, but I hardly take anything to heart of what she says.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:39:16 PM) : And she only complained about the Nightmare Moon shit.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:39:29 PM) : It was a matter of "Mommy won't let me play with my dollie! WAH WAH WAH"

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 11:44:40 PM) : If I'm more proactive in mod activities, do you think I have what it takes to atleast remain a Mod?

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:46:18 PM) : I don't know, I mean, the only mod situations that happen are usually handled with asap by myself, Blues (rarely, though, as he's never on his actual Blues account) or Celestia. I mean, as owner of the room, you still have the right to be in a level of authority for respect, but I don't know if you can handle some of the inner deep crap that goes on behind the scenes. I think maybe going through as a user, and seeing how people act as a regular, unpowered person might help you better see how things should be dealt with and are dealt with first.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:46:54 PM) : It's sort of like with Gothic Lace. Nowhere near as bad, but, she had all of her magic removed to see how she was supposed to act in a group setting.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:47:25 PM) : Maybe as a regular user, you might be able to see better how to handle your stress IRL before you start handling stress inside the chat first. No responsibilities, but still having a say still on things such as plot or character changes like that are fine.
kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:48:04 PM) : But you said you hated dealing with drama, and it was obvious how you acted with Gothic Lace / Lethal that as an authoritive figure you're a bit .. Uhm, I don't know how to put it, uh, confused, perhaps?

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:49:02 PM) : You see one side, especially if it only involves yourself, and don't really take into consideration the thoughts of the other pony -- WHY are they doing this? What made them say that? - When you ask yourself these questions, if 9/10 of them are self loathing or some sort of negative aspect of your own judgement, you act on it, even if it isn't true.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:49:51 PM) : The issue with Charmen? I knew for a fact I wouldn't be able to handle that -- I was in too deep with the situation, that's why I told you and Celestia about it. Celestia took care of it, and even when Charmen started up again, you handled that mess as well.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:50:08 PM) : It's knowing when you can handle it, and when you need to get someone else to handle it. But that doesn't mean that someone else should handle ALL of your problems.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:51:22 PM) : Some issues you will have to force your personal bias aside and really take a neutral, blank tone toward people. Especially when it comes to friends. The issue with Luna, you remember that? When I had to royally tear apart the entire situation of what I saw? That is what you call a neutral standpoint - both sides of the equation were evaluated equally to the knowledge of the evaluator. That's what admins have to do at ALL TIMES. You can't be biased in any way, shape, or form toward or against any particular pony.

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 11:52:13 PM) : But I don't act biased.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:52:26 PM) : Charmen and Lethal are prime examples that you can be biased, Luna.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:52:34 PM) : For and against.

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 11:53:03 PM) : Nay. And let me explain why.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:53:11 PM) : I don't really need to know why.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:53:22 PM) : I just know what I've seen, and what was said that share my opinion.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:53:32 PM) : You wanted my opinion, and I'm giving it to you. Not for debate, but to inform.

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 11:53:39 PM) : I suppose.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:57:43 PM) : I don't say any of this to tear you down, make you think I hate you, or to drive you away from anything.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:57:54 PM) : I say this because it needs to be said, and because you asked me for my honest to god blunt opinion.

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 11:58:21 PM) : I know, dear.

Princess Luna(08/31/2011 11:59:08 PM) : I just wish, like, I could patch things up with you. It seems my stepping down will fix all but that. But in due time, I suppose.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:59:29 PM) : I hate being a shrink, especially the one that ends up showing folks their faults. As a roleplayer, you have a good eye, and you're very well versed in the word. You're probably a totally awesome guy to hang out with when you're not dealing with a lot of stress and a lot of issues with other people that make you angry and bring out the worst in you.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:59:42 PM) : But you told me a while ago -- Don't ever take anything seriously in this chat.

kururi_ale(08/31/2011 11:59:53 PM) : Yet.. Do you follow that rule yourself? Honestly?

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 12:00:48 AM) : Everyone can eventually be affected by something. I let as much not bother me as I can.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 12:01:34 AM) : But you've told me that even roleplay can make you sick. And then the issue with Charmen had you give her two strikes in one sitting. And even now you're highly effected by the chat -- by the opinion of a STRANGER, no matter how right or wrong it is. - pat -

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 12:03:00 AM) : The opinion of a stranger is bothering me?

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 12:03:21 AM) : You don't know me, hon.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 12:03:38 AM) : You don't know what I look like, what my name is, what I sound like, you know just about nothing about me except I can write, I sing, and I like ponies.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 12:03:46 AM) : You can get that off of looking at me on the bus.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 12:03:51 AM) : So technically.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 12:03:53 AM) : I'm a stranger.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 12:04:42 AM) : But your opinion doesn't bother me.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 12:05:10 AM) : Bother, perhaps not. Effect you, yes. You've said so yourself that it made you realize something about yourself, right?
Princess Luna(09/01/2011 1:34:53 AM) : ...Twi, I'm conflicted.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 1:35:28 AM) : Hm?

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 1:35:46 AM) : I ah... don't know what to do.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 1:36:15 AM) : A part of me wants to step down for awhile, but... another part of me thinks I'm ready to reassume responsibilities.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 1:38:12 AM) : I was confident in myself and ready to fully reassume active duty, but she made me doubt myself again, mainly by saying 1:25:48Lunar Memories: A: I'm not being a hard admin, I'm just straightening up and finally addressing issues brought to my attention. B: Why would I force someone to interact with me? I never do, and I don't punish anyone who does. I have never abused my power. And I won't. I'm not a goddamn tyrant.
1:26:46Princess Celestia: But thats what you are doing indirectly, forcing interaction. Other than with me cause you know I dont mind chatting it up with you all day.
1:27:08Lunar Memories: I don't force anything. I ask first.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 1:39:23 AM) : 1:33:23Lunar Memories: I seriously don't see how you guys think I'm forcing myself onto people. Because. Well. I don't.
1:33:37Princess Celestia: you are the only one that doesnt see it

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 1:39:43 AM) : ... Well, it's sort of true. At least in RP.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 1:40:53 AM) : I just... don't get it. I understand Merry, but I don't understand how I was wrong with Rainbow Dash...

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 1:41:07 AM) : Just because you hopped onto another character doesn't change anything.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 1:41:09 AM) : Same goal.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 1:41:10 AM) : TWILIGHT.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 1:41:33 AM) : Twilight wasn't the goddamn goal.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 1:41:41 AM) : Well, you abandoned Fairy.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 1:41:44 AM) : And wanted Twilight.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 1:42:04 AM) : Fairy had Mind.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 1:42:32 AM) : Mind left her.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 1:42:40 AM) : After Rainbow left.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 1:42:42 AM) : And rp'd with me. He'd been waiting for me to get on on Powdered Sugar.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 1:42:55 AM) : No, he left her as soon as I signed in, whlie you and Fairy were still talking.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 1:42:57 AM) : Either way.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 1:43:01 AM) : You did it on sweet tooth.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 1:43:04 AM) : You did it on Rainbow Dash.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 1:43:07 AM) : You did it on Merry.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 1:43:10 AM) : You don't see it.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 1:43:35 AM) : whoa whoa whoa. The Sweet Tooth thing. I went up to everyone. Not just Twilight.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 1:43:41 AM) : Why do you think Cherry's been the one answering the bloody door?

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 1:43:49 AM) : And Twilight's NEVER AT HOME.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 1:48:38 AM) : Because you've given her the OOC knowledge to avoid my characters? The only reason I came to you as Rainbow was to get Rainbow brought up to speed. If there had been another mane 6 in the room, I would have went to them afterwards. But there wasn't. It was just the two of us. And by the time I was ready to return to Fairy, she logged off, so I had to make up a reason to keep RPing at all, and that was hangin' out with Twilight. You need to learn to differinciate between character interactions, than thinking the player is creepy. Just because Merry wants to make things up with Twilight and Macho, doesn't mean if Luna pays them a visit it's a CRAZY FRICKIN' STALKER. I play with you because you're good. You're prompt. And you just happen to be in the right place at the right time. <c>

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 1:51:10 AM) : Y'know, if you didn't start off an RP with Twilight meandering off into the middle of nowhere so she isn't RP'd, then just try... I dunno... NOT making an IC post as her? That just screams 'fair game' for RP. And if you don't make an introduction post, then I would ask you OOCly if you would be interested in doing something. If you say no, then I go and do something else instead. YOU'RE NOT A BIG AWESOME GOAL OF MINE. You're just an RP'er who is bound to the rules of common sense. I realized Merry is a huge problem right now. But my other characters are not. So don't punish them for the bullshit of one.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 1:55:08 AM) : You say you don't want to drive me away, but in all honesty, you're showing me how unproffessional you are. I haven't sworn once this entire conversation, and been NICE and HONEST with you without being confrontational, and yet here you are, being as such. I had Twilight avoid the house because I was tired of it. I was tired of the drama, I was tired of everything. Not once have I said Luna creeped me out, Luna hasn't posted but twice the entire time I've been here other than reaming Gothic lace. No, it's Merry and your fixation on me, and the fact you've been fixated on Macho as well. He doesn't like it anymore than I do, but he's far too nice to go up to you and say 'bug off'. You act like you're ready to take responsibilities, when you can't even
kururi_ale(09/01/2011 1:55:18 AM) : calmly explain something without getting offensive and antagonistic.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 1:55:50 AM) : I've tolerated a lot from the beginning of this, your rudeness, your callous manner, your inability to read a bloody hint, but I'm done with this. I've tried, I honestly have, but you are being stubborn thinking you can't do wrong.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 1:56:13 AM) : You're acting like Lethal to me, just not as severe, so have at it on your own. You want responsibility, take it. I quit the mod team because you drove me to it.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 1:56:21 AM) : Ah... no wait.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 1:57:14 AM) : My apologies. you're right. I was just venting. But still, you are right.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 1:57:53 AM) : Don't quit. I'll watch myself more from now on. This part may sound dumb, but ah... could you teach me?

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 1:58:59 AM) : You're one of the best things to happen to this room. Not only as a member, but as a moderator. You do things for this group that I just cant.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 1:59:13 AM) : So if it will make you stay as a mod, I'll step down as an Admin.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 1:59:48 AM) : Stepping down isn't the bloody issue here.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 1:59:59 AM) : You don't LISTEN. You filter out key points and that's it.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:00:21 AM) : If I'm so right, then why didn't you listen to what I said before? You didn't. You didn't take into account my feelings, and instead threw them right in my face. Venting or not.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:01:34 AM) : Well... do you have a phone I could call or something? Talking about stuff like this will help. I don't learn as well from text as I do from talking.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:02:29 AM) : I don't have the lung power I need to get this through to you. I can only sing an hour a day, this would take well into the early morning.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:04:30 AM) : Alright then....but what can I do to keep you as a mod? The whole group shouldn't suffer because of my incompetence.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:07:59 AM) : I don't even know at this point. Because I have a distinct feeling you'll just do it again. Take what I say, use it against me or throw it in my face. As it is, I know when I need to take a step back, and you've actually brought me to near tears because I feel like I'm once again in another Lethal situation. Where I'm trying to help someone, and they won't listen.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:09:44 AM) : Unlike Lethal, though, I know when I'm wrong, and I'm willing to change and improve. With help. If you'll have the patience to work with me daily, and help me improve... then there will be improvements in no time. But if you leave me to do it myself... I'll get nowhere.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:11:44 AM) : I can't teach you how to feel.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:11:46 AM) : How to act.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:11:47 AM) : How to BE.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:11:50 AM) : No no, wait, I think I've got it.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:12:14 AM) : You've pushed me away to the point I don't want to be around you, to be blunt, and honest to god.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:12:20 AM) : I wouldn't be of help to you, not the proper help.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:12:39 AM) : I offered help plenty of times, and you said no. I finally give you the FULL STORY and you shrug it off.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:13:15 AM) : I was just laying here, staring at the ceiling. And I remembered something I learned in the Army. Give me a chance to put this into effect. I promise there will be improvements.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:15:19 AM) : Loyalty, Duty, Respect, Selfless Service, Honor, Integrity and Personal Courage. It's kind of like Captain Planet. Combine all the traits into one, focus on them, and you create something awesome. Except. This won't create a technicolor, feminine tree hugger in spandex.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:16:01 AM) : If I break any of those seven things, please tell me right away. But I don't think it will happen anymore.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:18:33 AM) : This is my last chance period with this.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:19:17 AM) : I shouldn't have to tell you.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:19:23 AM) : You're 23 years old.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:19:28 AM) : You served in the Army.
kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:19:31 AM) : You KNOW better.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:20:01 AM) : I know, dear. And I'm sorry. But starting as of five minutes ago, improvements will be seen.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:21:18 AM) : I hope so. Because if there isn't - if nothing changes, or if hte only change gets worse, I'm leaving. Pony love aside, I'll take all 13 of my alts and go back to hiding in my artwork away from the world.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:21:45 AM) : How about this:

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:23:25 AM) : If at the end of one week, if I haven't improved, then -I- will quit the group entirely, so you can enjoy the pony group without me. either way, you win.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:24:16 AM) : That is how confident I am in this.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:25:03 AM) : I guess we'll just have to see.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:26:01 AM) : May I spice up the deal a little?

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:26:27 AM) : 's hard to spice it up any higher than that, but go for it.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:27:44 AM) : If I can hold improvements for the week, when it has passed, can we put this Merry and Twilight nonsense behind us? I'd really like to get on the character, and not feel guilty. It's just... one of those things I just want done. The only regret I have, actually.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:28:27 AM) : And by regret, I mean I wish I had never started that bizarre story arc. MAN, it got out of hand way too fast.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:29:28 AM) : - facepalm -

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:29:31 AM) : But ah. The choice is yours to add it in or not. I know it's moreso how you feel than the characters.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:29:57 AM) : Actually. Nevermind. Forget I brought it up.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:30:26 AM) : Lets just aim for one week of not losing any major members.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:32:09 AM) : ...I get the feeling I've screwed up already Oo; both you and Celestia are taking a reeeeeeally long time to type to me, now I'm scared. -whine-

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:33:17 AM) : Because it.. - face palm - Because I'm actually really frustrated right now. Don't change because you want fucking ponies to be bffls forever. Don't change because you want roleplay and because you feel GUILTY about a character. CHange because YOU want to be a better person for YOU. Not for anyone else. For YOU.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:34:21 AM) : No no, you misunderstand. I am changing to be a better person and a better admin. I just thought I'd be cute and throw that in as a bonus.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:34:36 AM) : And of course I realized after I said it, it wasn't so cute.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:35:55 AM) : -facedesk- Forget I mentioned it. Really.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:36:16 AM) : I shouldn't be your incentive to change into a better person for the group or for yourself to begin with. I'm a random person on the internet that just happened to like ponies enough to put my whole into a story that only about three people acknowledge other than myself anyway.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:36:31 AM) : If you don't want this for the right reasons, you won't get it.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:40:53 AM) : I want to be a better person, because it's come to my attention I'm not very well liked. I also want to be treated as an Admin, so this is to improve that as well. I'm not necessarily doing it for you, to be honest. But my goal is to do what is best for the group. If you leaving the group because of me happens, then I will leave the group so you can enjoy it. If I am able to prove I'm changing, and we can get to know one another and enjoy ponies together; then great. I'm also incredibly impatient, if you couldn't tell. However, I do also know when to admit my faults when I'm able to focus well enough (super uber tired right now), and I know the Merry and Twilight thing was my fault, and if it never gets fixed... well, I had that comin'. All I really care about right now is fixing myself,

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:41:01 AM) : so this doesn't happen to me again.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:42:07 AM) : Or to the group again.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:42:12 AM) : Then we'll see what happens.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:42:25 AM) : We shall c:

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:42:36 AM) : Now, what are my rules/restrictions?

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:43:26 AM) : .. - facepalm - Well, obviously don't just not come in for a week / not do anything for a week. You have to interact with people otherwise you won't learn anything.. Other than that, the rest you have to figure out yourself.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:45:21 AM) : Well, I've been here every single day since I made the group. I don't think I would break that accolade quite yet. Lol. Keep in mind, usually when I'm really quiet in the room, I'm usually doing something else. But aside from that... how am I to interact with the others to learn things? Like... what am I expected to learn?
kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:46:36 AM) : How to interact with other people. Not just the ones you like, either. The ones you DON'T like. You can't just pick and chose favorites and expect it ot be okie dokie. As an administrator, you will have people in your group you hate come to you for help if no one else is there if the situation is dire enough. YOu have to know how to handle it without flying off the handle, or brushing them off. Character creation - same difference.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:46:53 AM) : Following the rules you and Celestia agreed on is the biggest issue in this room, and they're good rules to go by.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:47:01 AM) : If you can follow rules and goals you set for yourself, you can become a better person.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:47:08 AM) : No bending, no loop holes, no pit falls, just DO.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:47:24 AM) : But, to my knowledge, I do follow the rules that the group establishes...

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:47:35 AM) : OOC rules, drama at the door rules, etc etc.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:47:40 AM) : Things you already said you're going to fix.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:47:42 AM) : So just fix them.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:47:59 AM) : Interact with someone you don't know.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:48:03 AM) : Or don't know very well.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:48:30 AM) : MEET people. Don't just stick to your circle. Lately that circle's just been me, Macho, and Fairy.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:48:47 AM) : What you do over pms is your own business, I won't get into that.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:49:17 AM) : May I ask you a question?

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:49:34 AM) : Kinda beat me to it there, hon. lol

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:49:50 AM) : ...wait wut?

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:50:12 AM) : May I ask you a question? < -- Just did. An attempt at humor because I'm dead tired.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:50:18 AM) : Oh.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:50:22 AM) : I'm tired too.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:51:16 AM) : But uhh... my question is... you have said that what goes on in private messages stays there... so... why am I getting chastised by Celestia about stuff happening in our private message? :c

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:51:41 AM) : I mean what you rp and how you interact with others there is none of my business.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:51:51 AM) : Celestia is keeping me from ragequitting right now.

kururi_ale(09/01/2011 2:52:00 AM) : Well, has been, not necessarily right now, now she's keeping me awake.

Princess Luna(09/01/2011 2:52:12 AM) : I guess it's for a good cause, then.