Firstly I want to say that I’m not here to admit to you that everything I did was wrong. Because I know it, and you know it and we both know I can stand here and apologize. When I lied to you about how far I went with my ex, I did it out of panic, forgetting that you had wanted me to be open and honest with you. And once i had calmed down, I knew I should have come clean to you, but I didn’t want you to be upset that I had lied that first time. So I stayed silent, thinking it wouldn’t come back up again, when in reality I should have told you the moment you had asked. I know I don’t deserve another chance. I know odds are in the next ten minutes you’re probably going to tell me that you can’t deal with me anymore. I know that you’re likely going to tell me to screw off and that its over. I know your friends don’t approve of me, and that they feel like you can do better. I know my words might not mean much, and that I’ve broken your trust. But I’m not ready to say goodbye, and honestly I don’t think I’ll ever be. Because while it is true I did hide things from you, I did it because I panicked and was afraid. And I know you value honesty and truth over anything, and I agree that I am at fault here; but without you in my life this past week has been awful. I love you and I never meant to hurt you or lose your trust; and if you give me the opportunity, I promise I’ll earn your trust, and never give you reason to doubt me again. I know you feel like you’re a secondhand girl. I’ll be honest; the first time we broke up I tried to treat you like you were one, and jumped into the first possible relationship that I could. And I realized just as fast that there was no one who would ever be able to replace you, and that still hasn’t changed.