thoughts

Lying beneath a hundred eyes
 i tried to speak
 my lips paralyzed
i dreamt of you and wokewith a start
i tried to go back to hear what you said
 but as my finger brushed the surface of the book of memories
 it fell apart
and washe d away down a stream
of
blood where my thoughts leaked out and tore through a city that had flooded with sadnes s
i couldn't even see the words anymore only feel the emptiness that clung to the air like a child clinging to a mother
my mother
i think i saw her the re
she didnt even look at me as i passed through this sea of hopelessness and desp air
i couldnt he lp but cry out and swallow ever demon here
 i felt them pass though my vains
they took everything and left nothing
i tried to reach inside the abyss that i had become
 my arm reached into the darkest corners of my mind
ive lost sight of what i had come here to find
   i cant remember why im here
why am i here ?