[M4F] I'm Falling In Love With You... So We Need To Break Up

I'm Falling In Love With You... So We Need To Break Up
written by Cardlin
Synopsis: A nervous boyfriend who's been burned before realizes he's getting too attached, too quickly, and decides to break things off, only to be surprised by her response.
Tags: M4F, Romantic, L-Bombs, Introspection

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H-hey, sweetheart. Thanks for coming over, I just… well, anyway, how’s your day so far? I mean, yeah, we’ve been texting all day, haha, so of course I know, I just… I mean, how was the drive here? N-not too bad I hope? Traffic’s been pretty crazy la-what? No, I’m not; I-I am looking at you! See? I’m… looking at you, and you’re beautiful as ever. As beautiful as the day we met… even moreso now, actually, now that I’ve gotten to know you for a bit. It’s been a fun trip, right? Short, exciting, brusque and… fast, but fun. I mean, from the very first night, things were explosive, right? We went off like firecrackers and… well, I don’t know about you… but I feel like we never really stopped booming. Things just seem to keep getting better somehow, and it’s… amazing. Truly unlike anything else I’ve ever experienced before.

Am I acting weird? I… I guess so. Y-yea, well, this is kind of what I called you over to talk about, but not really. I, ah.. here, sit. No, haha, baby no, not on me… sit.. here. With me. I just… there’s been something I’ve been needing to say. I am! I am, I am, it’s just that it’s… difficult to say. So much more difficult with you here, with your smile and those… those worried eyes.Yes.. I am… I will say it. Give me a moment or two, okay? I… I mean, you know me, I’m not… not very good at… -silence- Yes, yes, yes, I’m… i’m here. I will. I… -silence- Sorry… shit! I… no, I need to say it.

Is it bad? I… well, I mean, I guess… I guess it kinda depends on how you look at it. In the long-term… no, probably not, but… but right now? I- f-fine! I’ll… I’ll say it. I’m saying it. I’m…. here I go.

I think I… we… I… we need to b-... I think it would be best if we went our separate ways. It’s just, I know that when we started this, we didn’t want anything serious, you made that painstakingly clear, and i said yes but as things progressed and I got to know you I began to realize that I didn’t really mean it, and… and you’ve been so… I mean, before you, I was such a… and now, with you, I mean… I’ve done things I’ve never done before, felt ways I’ve never felt before and… and I… I’m… I’m falling in love with you and we need to break up.

You… you understand why though, right? We… I… you said we were having fun, and the few times it’s kind of come up before, you… you wanted to keep things where they are and I just… I just can’t anymore, I’m… you’re too… you’re so fucking amazing, and… no, no no, I… let me finish. You’re so naturally and effortlessly cool, so perfectly beautiful, so hilarious, and all this time together, I… I just feel like if we don’t cut it off now, soon it’ll get to a point where I can’t step away from it and you, of course, could at any time, and… I’m… I’m sorry, but we need to…. break up.
Wh-what? What do you mean you-.... what, but.. for how long… I… I didn’t think you were the type to. I… I love you too, of course. Jesus Christ, baby, it’s all I’ve been able to think about, it’s the first thing on my mind in the morning and that last, haunting thought before I fall asleep at night. I… it seems like all I do is love you. But… I don’t get it. You were so staunchly against it, and now… this?

Hmm… no, no, I understand. It is very important that we retain our individuality… I’m not the type to quit being who I am to be your full-time idolizer, and I hope you’re the same way. I mean, I fell in love with you for who you are, now who I want you to become… and yes, sure, while I have been fantasizing about our lives together, perhaps more often than I should, I… I would want any changes we make to be changes we make together. Growing and evolving together, while remaining ourselves… I wouldn’t want you to ever lose what makes you… well, you.

Moot point? Why? I… oh. I’m… I’m not asking you to leave. No, I… I won’t tell you to go. Sweetheart, look at me… I’m… I’m not breaking up with you. Not anymore. I just… I need to know that this is going somewhere, you know? I need to know that we’re both headed down the same road, and that we’re doing it together, and that… we’re committed to this. To us. -chuckle- I am, too.

Hmm? Yeah, babydoll? -soft laugh- I… I would love to be your boyfriend. Jesus, Christ, I’ve… I’ve gone and fucked this all up, haven’t I? We’ve got it all backwards. I… well, no, I wasn’t expecting to cry… but I also didn’t expect you to just tell me No when I broke up with you. Who does that? is that even a thing you can do? I… that’s got to be against some kind of rule, somewhere. There’s no way that’s a legal play.

Hey. Now you can sit on me. Mmn… one more time… hey. Hey. -chuckle- Hey. I fucking love you. If I’m a jerk, you’re a brat. Well, then I fucking love you, brat… -kiss- I fucking love you, spoiled princess… -kiss- I fucking love you… for pulling me back from the brink, and not letting me leave you… or give up on us. Now then… -grunts- Let’s go about making this official, hmm? We’ve plenty more fireworks to explode. Mm-mm… no. I’m carrying you to the bedroom. I’m not letting go… not this time.