talent

id be my best if
i could find my brain
i had it for a second
cuntfaec
that day
peaches
its right there
no
you dont live inside of it
its fog right now
its fog and foghorns
and circus fucking msuic
and potholes
peaches
my head doesnt have the luxury of being foggy
have you ever been on a boat
in the night time
in absolute fog
that you can touch
its absolutely terrifying
no gps
silence
fog
each inch you crawl forward
exactly the same as the last
black inky water lapping on the sides of your boat
and the two people who own the boat
are screaming at each other about which is the right way home
and you're in the bay
and can hear the huge ocean break
not far off
and you know that if you go the wrong way
you'll end up swept out to sea
in a boat far to small to make it through the break
so u break down and cry
with nobody to hold
alone
on a boat that you aren't driving
and you're pretty sure is going to go somewhere u dont want it to
and you can only pray for the fog to clear
and then you hit a dock
and someone lets you off the boat
and wraps you in a blanket
and you sit in front of a fire
and they bring you something hot to drink
and ask if you're ok
and you wonder if they really want to know if you're ok
or just get you ready to leave their house again
but they say you can stay
so you do



help me
you can lead a donkey in a circle around a mill
but i want to be able to learn things for myself
i want to feel like i own myself
like i fill my own body with a person that knows what he's doing
a real person
not some fucking frightened child