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- I wanted to eventually wrap everything under one super account. All of what I had to say in one nice little bundle. The thing is, I had so much to say, in so many different places.
- I feel that what I have to say is important, right or wrong it's gravity is in the right direction. It's thinking. It's testing. It's desiring only what is good.
- i've lost motivation recently to do lots of things. I wanted to start my own company. i guess i still do, but now i'm very confused abuot where to start. there is jjust a lot going on.
- i feel very unhappy too. no girlfriend, not even sure how to talk to a damn girl.
- so busy too. can't learn. can't get out
- i'm getting mixed messages about how to get with girls as well. bang one, or friend them first.
- so i've just become very... dry about it.
- I just feel that making an effort is going to make things worse, it always has. no one wants to be alone forever though
- so how does one chagne that?
- i keep coming up with ideas... that i think are easy, but then i hesitate, deadlines are missed and i get behind on the real good ideas
- i've been trying to work on surklr for a bit now. i'm not even sure wer to start with that. i haven't even addressed all the complications.
- i don't even know what i'm missing right now.
- i don't want to give up. i just want things to be easy and promised, as long as they have been, i don't think they will for much long, but that's what i've always said. andi get by somehow.
- it's very easy for me to believe that the entire universe centers around me and that I am the axis of everything.
- i just seem to be in the middle of everything.
- middle class
- average grades
- average income
- average
- average
- average
- despite what I want to become.
- It's like I wont ever find a real moment of happiness.
- It will always be trivial and very mortal. And if I do find someone , it wont be someoen i like. they'll be attractive at first, but then they'll let themselves go.
- i had this thought when i was high once, that the universe is all about me... but it's ALL about keeping me mediocre.
- it has it's benefits I guess. I have never experienced an emotionally upsetting death or tragic loss.
- it just seems like this annoying balance. but things will haev to change soon. because people die. my job wont last forever. i will have to change ...
- i look at a lot of people that work in that office and ... i wonder where they're headed. they seem to lead happy lives. charlette anne probably get plenty of sex, randy is happy with his ... thing, and ... everyone's happy being normal.
- just some random mentions... but still... everyone is happy being mundane and normal.
- People would kill to be in my position. I know... but ... there is so much more that can be done.
- when i was high, and had those thoughts... i promised myself to never let up. to never let it gain truth over me.
- i forgot about that concept... ... and now look where i am... just... doing the same shit... getting by
- my symbol. it's suppose to remind me of always moving forward... but that is so vague... i don't even know what forward is. i dont' knwo right from wrong, i don't know the best way to gain as much knowledge as possible. I just don't know.
- i guess i'll give it a new meaning for now. ... that's if i can remember it...
- something about "don't be average"
- at the moment... that's the most i can ask for. As far as I see it, not even the age of abundance will provide us peace.
- someoen probably already beat us to the punch. the only way to ensure any kind of rise over them is to stay in complete secret...
- i've already fucking ousted myself.
- so I've already failed.
- they're are definitely above us. that is for sure.
- i don't want to be stuck on earth forever
- i dont' want to be average forever
- I want to be great... for myself. no one else but myself. it's selfish, but I need it so bad.
- i guess the rest of the world thinks that too. but the only to even gain a fraction of that is to work together.
- I was so much better when I didn't talk about what I was going to do. I instead just worked on what ever I felt liek working on at the time.
- I need to GENUINELY return to that... really... I need to stop trying to launch these mini projects and just GENUINELY work on what I feel.
- I naturally lean towards innovation... so I can trust that I will definitely become great on a different plane of life.
- funny. I've always had an issue with sincerity... sincere feelings about people.. I bring that up in the mention of being "genuine"...
- That's another issue with girls..
- how can you be sincere?
- with nikita... i was sincere, because i grew into her
- other girls... i'm not.. and I can't bullshit. i'm not a bullshitter
- I either want you as a girlfriend, fuck buddy or nothing.
- I don't have any other aims for you.
- i'm not exactly in the best situation to make friends either. sure... my office has social events. all the girls are 3 years older than me though... that would make a relationship weird and very mortal.
- i wish i coudl find someone just like me that had the exact same "problem"...
- i'm just so cofnused.
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