the ward

21ST CENTURY GIRLS

↪username: estaella

↪full name: Chae Siyeon
↪ nickname/s:
+ siya , used by her close friend who tends to visit her
+ shy noodle , used by hoseok because of her thin stature and how she often tends to be bashful when around people
+ yeollie, just by her mother, its a pet name and a name which she cherishes a lot and at times when she craves comfort she would go to the person who shes closest tp and ask them whether they can rake their fingers through her hair and calling her yeollie
↪ age & birthdate: 22 + APril 29th 1995
↪ weight & height: 157 cm & 43 kg
↪ hometown: jeonju, korea
↪ birthplace: jeonju, korea
↪ ethnicity: korean
↪ nationality: korean

2! 3!

↪slot: mrs. potato head
    ╰back up: mad hatter
↪faceclaim: sojung of ladies code (I thought she would suit this slot considering she confessed that she was anorexic)
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      ╰backup: hyerin of exid (LIE era)
↪personality:
 Shes a self conscious person. Often thinking about what she should do or if shes doing it wrong, whether she tries to achieve perfect and fails but still keeps on working on it. shes naïve towards everyone and her feelings. Shes usually seen with a frown on her face or a lost gaze. Shes a dancer at heart and loves to express how she feels like that, yet she really cant often put it to her true extent which results her to be frustrated with herself which tends to result with her crying. Shes a liar as well and can lie and manipulate her way to get something she wants, such as getting those away from her or just using her plain . She prefers to be alone, rather shy about those in the ward with her. Only several people seen her and usually tends to call her the ghost, because she lurks in the halls during the depths of the night. Shes quiet, she doesn't talk much unless you are her doctor or a close friend. Shes often insecure about her body, and wishes that she had was like those girls in the magazines, just really pretty. Shes envious, envious of others but shes envious of couples, often thinking if she was in a relationship, but only if shes beautiful. You feel pity towards her. WIth her lost gaze ad her cloudy eyes you just didn't know which direction she goes. Shes impulsive no doubt, shes willing to do something without thinking. If she sees anything full of calories she does throw it away right away. Shes cautious around the food she eats as well, often looking at the labels and making sure they don't have much fat. If you are one of the people who are close to her, you should know that shes a clingy person, often holding onto a person and asking for comfort. She wants to feel acceptance, shes just used to being a failure that she just wants comfort. Shes hot tempered, lashing out at those who push her, who try to help her for her good, yet she cnt accept their kindness due to all the self hate, why should someone love her if she cant love her. Shes a dancer and poet by heart, often comparing herself to Icarus who strives for the sun but only to fall into despair. Shes a shy bun, often rather shocked when someone talks to her. Shes a person who doesn't trust people she cant really take compliments without thinking about those people who bullied her before. She just cant bring herself to eat more, nor even eat properly without thinking about her young days. Shes often discouraged by herself. Shes naïve and gullible and always looks in the past. SHe just wants to do something right yet she cant let go of somethings. Shes a person who gets rather shy, and bashfully when someone genuinely compliments her because its something she likes. In the end she just wants to seek for comfort. She feels tired and drained everyday. She craves to be with someone by her side, she just wants someone to make her feel accepted. However if talk to her about dance her eyes will brighten up and would often talk about the recitals that e=her friend shows and would comment on how her form was too good to be true. At times siyeon often wishes to be apart of those girls, in flowy dresses, bandaged legs from the blisters, being on stage yet she knows shes far from that with her ankle aching with every sharp movement and her rotting body. Shes usually anvxious, with her fingers tapping against the railing and her eyes flicking everywhere. She feels like anything she does people will be out to get her, comment her , mock her.

 ↪background:
- She grew up in a rather good household. Yet, from a young age her parents expected a lot from her. They wanted her to excel in ther arts as well as the studies. she became a ballet dancer from a young age always working hard. It was hard for her with her sore soles and blisters popping here an there. But all she wanted them is to be happy. She was a stressed out kid, always crying when she got a bad grade because she knew what would come after that, disdain, disappointment from her parents. She didnt want that, she wanted to be that perfect child that is talented and loved by many. She didnt make as much as friends in elementary school because how introverted she is, but she didnt want to makes but was too shy. Her parents werent so helpful as well, she felt as if she cant say anything thats why she would start a journal.. When she was 14 she got injured from ballet which caused her not to dance for a long time and maybe no be able to get it's points through. She cried her eyes out, not being able to dance, not being able to create art she was a wreck. She felt like trash,  a fourteen year old shouldn't feel this way. With the world hanging on her shoulders, she felt it crumble apart. Even then she kept on trying to dance, but it wouldn't work. She actually got an ankle sprain but she kept on overdoing it that she can no longer dance, well dance to that extent. She had a dream be a dancer and perform on stage like the little mermaid in france however with that injury it really cant be the same. however she wanted to continue to dance and she figure out how to incorporate dance. She kept working hard and strived to be a dancer. However after realizing that she couldn't dance, she had simply given up, she gave on maintaining her body and just craved food. she ate and ate and it was all out of stress and frustration but also despair that she really couldn't do something that she loved. So by the time she entered highschool she had certainly gained weight. She was known for her petite figure, in her old school days and everyone began commenting about. The commented how much weight she gained, they would ask her about what did she do in order to become fat. And it continued, most people weren't really associated her but she was the topic, on how a former ballet dancer can gain weight, to the fact they  began bullying her, but only with words. Often commenting on her size and how she cant do much with that size. she lost her body confidence, considering when she was doing ballet, everyone called her stick thin but now they are calling her elephant. She struggled in highschool, always being commented on size regardless. That's why she began losing weight, "a fool proof" plan she thought. The reoccurring thought of being thin and perfect came into her mind, being the reason why people liked her and commented on how her body looked. She began doing too much diets, and reducing her portion and even trying the runny poop diet. She eventually lost weight by the end of highschool, people began saying it was a good change and how she looks way better. However even after highschool =, she still finds herself fat and has to maintain and still eat at lower portion till the fact that she became stick thin. She is a malnourished child, in a sense, her limps sharp and her face showed their gauntness. Yet she felt full, she just wanted to be hollowed out, taking away all the grime till she was finally thin. Her parents would often worry about her, they weren't even sure for letting her go for university with such mentality, considering that shes that thin. Howevr she did go, and she really kept her ways, till one day her roommate found her passed out on the floor of their dorms. And then she found herself at the ward, being diagnosed anorexia nervosia, and really having no way out of it. Her physician had told her, from looking at her medical history that she showed signs of having a eating disorder in highschool with her fluctuating weight yet she still ignores the fact. Yet when shes in the ward, she really cant bring her self out, considering her parents face when they told her that she has to be hospitalized till she gets her weight n control. she felt like a failure and it would be the same with other ward members with the thoughts of them saying "you are here for weight problems, wow".

↪likes:
+ ballad music
+ low calories
+ feeling accepted
+ old literature, such as Icarus or Antigone
+ ballet
↪dislikes:
+ being scolded
+ being fat
+ carbs
+ being called a stick
+ loud places
↪trivias:
+ calorie cautious
+ shes always throws her food away or gives it to someone else
+ tends to make a reference towards Icarus
+ often asks her mother to buy her succulents and naming them for her
+ often tries to go for a run in order to reduce the calories she has eaten
+ had a turtle named riko who stays in her mothers care
+ watches dance recitals for fun


↪habits:
+ biting her lips till they bleed
+ picking the skin near her nails
+ her eyes constantly flickering over everything when shes feeling anxious
+ picking up a can and reading the labels


↪which of the slots you wanna be close to?: toxic or dollhouse

LOST

↪love interest: jung hoseok
      ╰back up: kim namjoon
relationship in the beginning to end:
how did they meet: He was a friend of her roommate, who  was a dance major. He had met her when her roommate had invited him over dinner, he had noticed the thin girl often going to her room with a yogurt but it never really never seemed enough. he asked her roomates, "sint she going to have dinner with us" but her roommate replies, "Nah shes always like that". After those words were said, siyeon came out from her room with her lost gaze when her eyes scan over the new faces and hoseok decided to introduce himself with his bright smile and she just nodded and muttered her name. Hoseok knew the roommate because they are in the sme dance group, in which hoseok works parttime in classes other than his psychiatry stuff.

their relationship:
beg: acquaintances
+ before the ward he would often comeover to her place because of her roommate
+ often noticed how she was enticed by their recitals
+ often bothers her, telling her to eat more
+ he and her roommate were the ones who caught her limp in their dorms
+ he would often visit her in hospitals, but she would deny him access for him to come over

middle: friends
+ little bit after, he would still try to visit later being one of the students who gets to work in her ward
+ he would try to be er side
+ often sends positive messages
+ "holding hands" is good for the heart
+ tries to give her comfort
+ talks to the other girls to know how shes like here

end: platonically dating
+ back hugs
+ him feeding her
+ "you don't need anyones approval"
+ showing her recital videos
+ mild bickering
+"you can do this!?"

↪suggested scenes with your l/i:
"yeollie don't cry"
"Do you know how sad it is, not being able to something because of a fucked ankle and a fucked up body"
"No-"
"Then don't retaliate. you don't understand"
He put his hands on her cheeks, "Don't say that"
"I'm a reject"
"no you are not"\
"yes I am"
"Other's opinions never mattered, please, please don't say those words"
"they always comeback"
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"Hobiiii, look at the form that ahyoung did, the way her dress flows, and the ribbions"
"Siyeon"
"Yeah" she looks up from the screen.
"do you want to dance again"
"That sounds lovely" she sighed "But I'm fucked" she tilts her ankle.
"As an instructor, after you get out the ward, both of us"
"That's too idealistic"
"Its possible"
-
"Did you bring the shoes"
"Yeah?? hopefully they are your size" He brings out  pair of ballet slippers from his bag.
"I think they are"
"Good, wear them!"


WINGS

↪other suggested scenes:
+ the mystery of the dead girl in the halls
+ "please stay with me tonight"
+ "siya, ya gotta eat"
"how many calories?"
"Like 60"
"That means I have to reduce -"
"Just eat"
"hhhh"
-
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↪message to me: I'm sorry for being a little shit, this is so late bro, but I hope this form is alright, kinda sucky but yeah. but bro you are so close1111 hhhh I'm excited!1 I need to catch up with it because school kept me busy and I'm like flowed with everything but I'm going to read everything tonight and be caught up. ill be active for sure ahah! good luck with this af and  ba bing ba boom
↪anything else to add?: nope mah love but she majored in literature
↪password: in the rules. milky way