crazyclown94

Spirit SlicerYesterday at 11:56 PM
I’ve been kind of
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Regressing recently..

KranzyYesterday at 11:57 PM
yeah that's definitely regressive behavior I can't lie
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that's like one of the worst things you've ever shown me

Spirit SlicerYesterday at 11:57 PM
I’m actually scared to talk to alaina because she’s real
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And ive been with four girls
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In the last week
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And not given a single fuck about them

KranzyYesterday at 11:58 PM
You have to get out of your comfort zone man

Spirit SlicerYesterday at 11:58 PM
ive returned to it

KranzyYesterday at 11:58 PM
your comfort zone is either

Spirit SlicerYesterday at 11:58 PM
I know@i have

KranzyYesterday at 11:58 PM
alaina, or this shitty schtick of hiding behind a bunch of gimmicks and getting short term dopamine boosts out of it but trying to see some sort of bright side
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but there really is no bright side
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you're too scared to date seriously because you don't want to return to where you were with alaina
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you don't want another her
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but at the same time you're cripplingly lonely and superego starved
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and you want people to validate you and make you feel comfortable
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there IS a middle ground there
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that you can find
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but this shit right here is not working
November 10, 2020

KranzyToday at 12:00 AM
you can't treat other people like toys as a joke
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that's just not something that I can condone
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especially not good people
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really you shouldn't do it to anyone but this shit is just reprehensible
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Like the fact that she was even still talking to you after that dumbass shit you opened with
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and then took the time to write an entire heartfelt spiel
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and then you do that at the end
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absolutely disgusting to be quite frank
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like you know I love you and that's why I'm telling you these things
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I don't want you to think that I think any less of you
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or that I don't like you or something because you did this

Spirit SlicerToday at 12:01 AM
Is it wrong I thought that the heartfelt spiel was sarcastic and disingenuous because its what i would have done?

KranzyToday at 12:01 AM
yes it is because it's not what you would have done
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if someone said that shit to you
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something that
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mindblowingly fucking obviously facetious bullshit
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you would play along with it
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or something along those lines
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you would not try that hard
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also her first paragraph
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CLEARLY is not sarcastic
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because like she said originally, she thought you were so sarcastic
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I don't know how long you dragged it on for but clearly long enough to where she thought you were serious
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either way, this random ugly girl isn't the problem
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the problem is you regressing to this level of behavior our of utter desperation
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because you CAN do better than this
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I know how fucking scary it is
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to make yourself vulnerable to be hurt again
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I know how devastating it is to actually be in love or to actually be infatuated with someone
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and swing back and forth and back and forth and go back into that shadowy ocean of feeling
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but there's a middle ground
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you can wafe in the water a bit

Spirit SlicerToday at 12:04 AM
And have them actually love you back
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And u kept ruining it

KranzyToday at 12:04 AM
the problem we're having here is
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well I don't think you ruined anything perosnally
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I don't think she ever loved you but that's beside the point
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I personally think the problem is you're trying too hard, and you're going to fast
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we talked about this before
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you're trying to brute force your way through things
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instead of slowly trying to listen and understand everything about a person
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keep giving them chances
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I get the feeling of like
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well how long is long enough
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might as well go fast and if i don't see anything then move on
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but you're at a point now where that is not working for you
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if anything you just need to be around with people and give them more chances as an experiment
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and for practice
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because this shit right here ain't it
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the whole bitch of the week thing
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being so bored, so deprived of feeling
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that you go online and troll people that don't deserve it and make them feel like shit
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it's not working man and you have to try to be more genuine and you have to try to slow down