Final Stream + 99 Mining [PLEASE READ]

hey,

so i never made an official announcement because i wanted to be silent about it and just let it happen.  but i'm retiring from streaming.  as of like a week and a half ago or whenever.  streaming just turns into a gamble for me and i'm just not interested in taking the risks anymore, and having a chance to get depressed if a stream goes badly.

after my last stream, i fell deep into depression, not because of the stream, but the disappointing stream definitely started my downfall.  i lost two really close friends because i lose control when i fall into such a state.  i managed to get one of them back but the other one is gone forever.  i don't want to risk potentially losing more.

i also don't have a lot of time to dedicate to streaming anymore, so any potential for growth is slipping away.  maintaining a schedule and motivation has always been hard for me, and it's even more difficult when i don't have much time to begin with.

i really want to show my appreciation to everyone who has supported me throughout my journey through streaming.  i want to do one final stream so that i can relive memories and give a real heartfelt thanks and goodbye to everyone.  but i'm not sure if i should do such a stream because if that stream ends up being disappointing for me, it kinda defeats the purpose.

i've been working on 99 mining on runescape for much of the last year, and i'm finally going to achieve that by this weekend if all goes well.  i want to stream it for my final stream, to celebrate the end of 2 journeys at once.  the stream would be sometime on saturday if i end up doing it, but i need to know i'm going to have support during that stream for me to decide to do it.

i don't know what time of day would be good, because i want to be able to get as many people, past and present, to be able to come if they so choose.  i know it's kinda short notice with only 3 days until then, but i would really appreciate it if all of you who have supported me at any time would come and support me then, so i can show you all my thanks for everything during this time.  we'll have a party, we'll play !slots, and i'll bring up good memories i've had with each and every one of you to show just how special you've all been.

i really want to do this stream.  please spread the word if you can.  and again, thank you all~