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[00:54] <lore> Im trying to get rd in here
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[00:55] <lore> Hey, I need to know the whole deal with Dusty and Snowsong
[00:55] <lore> Because there is something I seem to be missing
[00:56] <Snowsong> What're you missing?
[00:57] <Rainbow_Drop> yeah not sure what you are looking for
[00:59] <lore> Im not sure why but I can't stop thinking about why I feel like destin isn't included anymore. I mean I do try to rp with him and you guys, but I keep thinking that destin is really not with it anymore..
[01:00] <lore> I mean I keep feeling that when he is around snowsong she is more pulled back, yet when dusty has her she is calm
[01:00] <Snowsong> Part of that is because you're not on all that much anymore...
[01:01] <lore> I do try to but when I do I feel I shouldn't ask
[01:01] <lore> Like that above and she is having dusty's foal
[01:02] <lore> I couldnt sleep earlier because my head is so deep in this I can't understand ut
[01:02] <lore> So I had to come out and hop on to try and resolve it
[01:02] <Snowsong> My issue is that Destin's reminding me more and more of my ex, and that's bleeding into my rp-ing without me intending it to.
[01:03] <Rainbow_Drop> well its one of those thing that a lot of times ships have to go where there are active ponies you know?
[01:03] <lore> Even before I became less active Rainbow_Drop I felt this way
[01:04] <Rainbow_Drop> actally i had been meeing to talk to you about that Snowsong
[01:04] <Snowsong> umm... okay?
[01:05] <Rainbow_Drop> its not important..just how you saw destin as your ex thats all
[01:06] <lore> That's where I kinda feel bad rping destin and snowsong. I feel kinda, I guess dirty would describe it
[01:07] <lore> I seriously need some help though..
[01:07] <Rainbow_Drop> i don't understand why do you feel dirty?
[01:08] <lore> Just kinda the fact its her ex
[01:08] <lore> And its my ic son
[01:09] <lore> And the thoughts I have all night don't help much either
[01:09] <Snowsong> It's more that my ex acted like Destin, since Destin's acting like most 13 yr olds....
[01:09] <lore> He is 13
[01:10] <lore> Oh miss read that
[01:10] <Snowsong> Exactly. My ex was an only child, growing up in the middle of the CO mts. So he's rather immature for his age.
[01:11] <lore> I still don't feel good about the rp
[01:11] <Snowsong> sorry... v.v
[01:12] <Snowsong> *sigh* I should never have mentioned that, I guess... :/
[01:12] <lore> Its not just the ex
[01:12] <Rainbow_Drop> ok?
[01:13] <lore> Its also the fact I dug into this rp for so long I have a kind of attachment to it
[01:13] <lore> And now, I feel bad rping it because of where it went between the two kids
[01:13] <Rainbow_Drop> lore maybe you should have said something sooner about your attatment
[01:14] <lore> Haven't you noticed I barely ask to rp snowsong and destin the past few days?
[01:14] <lore> I never knew until I realized earlier
[01:14] <Snowsong> Um, I figured that was because Destin was with Berry and his parents were at the hospital...
[01:15] <Rainbow_Drop> no i have not, i just assomed you wanted to spend more time with Vesper and the new baby
[01:15] <lore> That started two days ago, im talking about further
[01:15] <Snowsong> I guess so...
[01:16] <lore> And I realized the attatchment when my thoughts would wonder into the areas of asking dusky to temp ban my account so I can force a break from irc.
[01:16] <lore> Extreme I know
[01:16] <lore> But I had those thoughts
[01:16] <lore> Because I knew I would just log right back in
[01:17] <Rainbow_Drop> lore this sounds like part of a bigger problem
[01:17] <lore> I know..
[01:18] <lore> Its the fact I deal with so much on irc
[01:18] <Rainbow_Drop> how so?
[01:20] <lore> The crap with citizen and banning, unbanning him from mlps, playing peacemaker all the time, trying to freaking keep mlps alive so we could finush the damn story, and to top it all off all the excessive drama from all my rp's..
[01:20] <Snowsong> Lore, it sounds like you need a break...
[01:20] <lore> I know, which is why I had those thoughts
[01:21] <Rainbow_Drop> just stop, i know you have the will power to do it.
[01:21] <Snowsong> At the very least, you probably need to cut out a few of your rps, at least for a while.
[01:21] <Rainbow_Drop> thats even better idea Snowsong !
[01:22] <lore> I need sleep.. but I can't because I can't stop thinking about all this shit that goes through my life, on and offline
[01:22] <Snowsong> I'd offer to knock you unconscious, but that doesn't work through the internet...
[01:23] <lore> Thanks...
[01:23] <Rainbow_Drop> sorry can't mix up something to ko you either...
[01:23] <lore> ...
[01:23] <Snowsong> Meh. I doubt you'd appreciate the headache when you woke up... >.>
[01:23] <Rainbow_Drop> what I'm a chemist!
[01:23] <lore> Besides the only rooms im active in anymore is ss, mlps, and fluttertreehouse
[01:24] <Snowsong> So drop a few characters.
[01:24] <lore> I did
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[01:24] <lore> I went from 17 in mlps to like 5
[01:25] <Snowsong> wow
[01:25] <Rainbow_Drop> wow that was way too many
[01:25] <lore> You're telling me
[01:27] <lore> I can't help now but feel for my characters because of all the crap they go though, especially lore and destin
[01:27] <Snowsong> Can
[01:27] <lore> ...
[01:27] <Snowsong> Fucking enter key..
[01:27] <lore> K
[01:27] <Snowsong> Can't say I've ever had that problem... One of the reasons I write is to take my emotional shit out on my characters. :/
[01:28] <Rainbow_Drop> well its one thing to empithise with them but when you get obsessed with them then you have a big problem
[01:28] <lore> I don't obsess
[01:28] <Snowsong> Lore, if it's keeping you up at night, you're obessessing.
[01:28] <lore> I mainly what I rp, I rp with ferling
[01:28] <lore> Feeling*
[01:29] <lore> Like when I rp happy scenes, I pour happyness into my words
[01:29] <lore> Same with everything else
[01:30] <lore> And when things go bad, well, yea
[01:30] <lore> This is kinda the outcome
[01:30] <lore> I feel bad
[01:32] <Snowsong> If I did that, I wouldn't be doing happy, or anything close, for a few days at least...
[01:32] <Rainbow_Drop> do what? lore let your emotions dictate the rp not the other way around, i really think its time you relax and foucs your thoughts
[01:33] <lore> Ok, let me rephrase that
[01:34] <lore> When im happy I do happy rp's, which is just about the start of each rp, my characters are smiling, or prancing into the room
[01:34] <lore> I feel a connection with the rp and play like how I would if I was there
[01:35] <lore> Then if things go bad, I start feeling down, and vice versa
[01:35] <Rainbow_Drop> dude don't do it that way thats why you are so attached
[01:36] <lore> Well not connection persé, just I think, what would I do in this situation
[01:36] <lore> And I rp what I think
[01:38] <lore> And that isn't even the thing I feel I wrong
[01:38] <Rainbow_Drop> i mean don't get me wrong i do like drop alot but i have limits on feeling for her
[01:38] <lore> Just the collective bs I deal with both ic, ooc, and irl
[01:40] <lore> Those three things I do know are what causing me a lot of grief
[01:40] <lore> The bs from those
[01:43] <Rainbow_Drop> well you need to get some of that shit in order, you might want to work on some IRL problems first
[01:44] <lore> Already am
[01:44] <lore> Hence why I moved
[01:45] <Rainbow_Drop> wait what?
[01:45] <lore> I was in an apartment back in christmas
[01:46] <lore> I had a job but didn't realize it was seasonal
[01:46] <Rainbow_Drop> oh i see that is a problem.
[01:46] <lore> So, no job, no apartment, move in with relative
[01:46] <Rainbow_Drop> O_O holy crap lore you and i got something in common!
[01:47] <lore> The stress that move put me under.. I never thought I would be happy saying screw you quail corners and Joanns fabric
[01:47] <lore> We do?
[01:49] <Rainbow_Drop> yeah I had a job and a life and i was out of my parents house for nearly a year till i got layed off in the summer after working there for a year now I'm back at home
[01:49] <lore> Yup a year I was in that apartment
[01:50] <lore> Now im in my grandmother's finished attic
[01:50] <lore> Sad I know
[01:51] <Rainbow_Drop> looking for work?
[01:51] <lore> But, thanks to fuck-you-anns I had no choice
[01:51] <Rainbow_Drop> do what?
[01:51] <lore> Oh yea! 5damn months, not one interview
[01:51] <lore> Joanns
[01:51] <lore> My job I had
[01:52] <Rainbow_Drop> oh i see, I worked for coldwater creek
[01:52] <lore> Well now you see why I try and escape reality and try to find comfort in rp
[01:52] <lore> My life sucks
[01:55] <lore> Sometimes I find more joy with internet bs than real life bs
[01:55] <Rainbow_Drop> oh i see i didn't know, I'm here to escape my friendless existence. i understand what you mean too, can you tell me what area of the country are you from?
[01:56] <lore> I am east coast
[01:56] <lore> And I do have friends irl, just they suck too
[01:57] <Rainbow_Drop> i understand that, you do realise that almost one in three of the bronies that i talk to or read about have the same problem?
[01:58] <Rainbow_Drop> bad local friends, cant find a job and stuck at home
[01:58] <lore> Seriously, how bad off do you have to be to find better friends who you don't even know what they look like, than shit friends I see every week
[01:59] <lore> Shit, myspace doesn't sound so bad now
[02:00] <Rainbow_Drop> yeah that and face book
[02:00] <lore> Heh
[02:00] <lore> What a fucked up world we live in
[02:01] <Rainbow_Drop> well honestly its the anonymity that i like getting to know some one with out judging them or being judged, i mean hell i can be who i feel i shoud be
[02:02] <lore> You know I had that hapen to me literally the first week I jouned irc
[02:02] <lore> Joined*
[02:02] <Rainbow_Drop> do what?
[02:02] <lore> An anon pmed me asking for advice
[02:02] <lore> At first I thought it was rin
[02:03] <lore> or someone in the barn
[02:03] <lore> Comes to find out it was true indeed someone using anonymous to ask for unjudged help
[02:05] <lore> I just realized I'm still keeping my word to him about not telling what we talked about... huh
[02:05] <lore> Mostly because I forgot
[02:06] <Rainbow_Drop> but see it alows for stronger connections when you get to interact with them personality to personality
[02:06] <lore> I honestly thought at first it was rin or who ever pulling my leg
[02:07] <lore> Then I found out it was serious.
[02:08] <lore> Well, I need to head off, try and get some sleep since I wake up in 5 and a half hours.. if you want to talk with the others about me feel free, I don't mind the others knowing. In fact I kinda want them to at least be able to put their two cents in on this. As you two can tell I need all the help I can get
[02:09] <Snowsong> Sweet dreams, Lore
[02:09] * Rainbow_Drop hugs lore sleep well my friend, and i will if you want me to.
[02:09] <lore> Thanks Snowsong, Rainbow_Drop. Go ahead
[02:10] <lore> In fact, pastebin can help if you want.
[02:11] <lore> Night
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