Avesta 14.5 Summary

- to Sirius, Aka Manah is a “something that might be born” and didn’t thought of it as a realistic threat.
In fact, by recognizing his own inner darkness he thought even he might be Aka Manah.
Its existence seen by Vohu Manah have ambiguous spiritual coordinates that overlap with Vahman Yasht, its name that suggest relationship with Vohu Manah and no activity, could mean it’s Sirius’ other self from the possible world. In a way, that’s true – since Aka Manah embodies Sirius hatred for Divine Sword.
Nahid says that as a Miko she will obey Sirius’ will. And she means that, there are no lies in her words.
This’s the reason why she created Aka Manah – the best way to transcend world of duality is to break antagonism of white and black, in other words, to cooperate with the opposing side, so Aka Manah serves as a replacement for Kaikhosru.
In a twisted way, she wants to fulfill her brother’s wishes, to make him truly worthless.
Akin to machine, she will obey every order from Sirius, even if he were told to hate him and immediately stops when he tells her to shut up. She wouldn’t mind even to be raped by him.
Sirius then asks her what’s true identity of his darkness. Her answer is clear and resounding – Varhram. More specifically, Sirius love for him and his “failure” to make Nahid smile was merely a cover for this.
Sirius in denial says it isn’t true, because he doesn’t love anyone, neither Nahid, nor Varhram. Nahid says it might be true, because Sirius is “worthless”, he has no meaning.
So Nahid has idea for new “script” – he would bear Sirius child and make him the next Varhram, maybe even rape that child too, perform shameless deed and suffer and eventually be saved by his lover’s sword. But she immediately considers this “script” stale…unless this next Varhram would turn out to be girl, in which case, it’s exciting for her.
The point here is that Nahid is completely fucked up and also Muzan Muki Sis.
And with these depraved delusions, Nahid still doesn’t emanate any kind of malice, she exists only to embody darkness of Sirius, mass of fiction so to speak.
On the verge of breaking, Sirius says she isn’t his real sister, because Nahid he knows didn’t had power to create something like Aka Manah.
She says that’s only because he and other Ashavan didn’t had concrete idea of power to compete against Khvarenah and it’s a matter of subjectivity, if the writer’s point of view changes, the script itself will change and the range of performance will expand. And now, this point of view is in the perform form for “everyone” and wants to mess up the world with her brother.
Sirius loses it. He realizes that Nahid still remains isolated, his wish to make her smile and the “legend” started by Varhram is all a farce. He considers madness as the only salvation from this torment, yet he’s denied even that.
Nahid wants to see his gallant figure once more (from the time he felt disgust at Apaosha’s deeds) and decides to prepare suitable stage for him.
She flies out of the room, leaving behind only death screams of Star Spirits and the shell of a man who lost everything.

- Nahid is ascending to stratosphere and overlooks Vahman Yasht
Her gaze is without wickedness and there’s no denying she’s Ashavan, yet, she’s also a heretic among them. That’s because she’s apex of “white”. Ultimate white is void, state of nothingness. There’s no truth in her, or rather, her truth is to have no meaning because she’s embodiment of zero. Sirius’ white flames also represented part of that, but rank between these two was completely different.
Nahid can be anyone, because she’s no one in the first place. She has no limits in the range of desires and depending on prepared script she can do anything. The fact she gave birth to Demon Lord and can use it means her rank is exceptional. Star Spirit constituting this sword are mixed regardless of black and white and it’s proof that current Nahid surpassed famous Star Princess.
That’s why form of her spun song is different. While is still conveys blessing of Star Spirits, it has different effect from the one spun 20 years ago due to different viewpoints.
It’s degeneration. Aka Manah who ignores duality screams in agony. Liberated prayer forces everyone to collapse. Everything is empty, good and evil are nothing more than foam illusions. It’s a tragedy to be trapped by this duality, that’s why it appeals to the soul of “everyone” and that’s why it’s caricature of the Varhram’s end.
In other words, forced Tentsui that makes dualism meaningless. Blessing that turns everything over spreads from all directions around Nahid and swallow the stars of the universe. Everyone idea about good and evil which was believed to be absolute, turned over in a blink of an eye and went crazy as a result.
Amidst this madness Nahid smiles softly. Savoring all that grief and anger with all of her senses. She’s so powerful that it’s no wonder that Kaikhosru wanted to seize Aka Manah on his own.
But this power isn’t perfect. The range of forced Tentsui is limited to the star that became material of Aka Manah. Although it’s increasing, it hasn’t reached territory of universal Tentsui. In addition it isn’t useful against those who have the same perspective of “everyone” as her and it doesn’t apply to those who aren’t under patronage of Star Spirit in the first place.
For these reasons, Nahid is not a vessel for Hadou. She’s merely a performer, one who is unable to do anything without script. However, if requested even above problems can be easily overcome by her, so she’s close to being tool. She’s more of a puppet than anyone else in this world. In other words, “Emptiness” is a top seat’s title under law of Avesta.
However, here’s the problem.
A person who realizes miracles as the ultimate white to fulfill all prayers.
A person who has unrivaled power in the world, but is basically idol slave with no free will.
Isn’t this “Everyone’s Hero”?
If that’s a case, what on earth is Varhram?
True Hero of this age is Nahid. She’s aware of that and previous dialogue with Sirius proves that. The defeat 20 years ago was due to the fact no one could imagine the power to oppose Khvarenah.
And Varhram isn’t included in this category of “no one”. Nahid played part of his lover, because she was asked to, but even she didn’t understand him. Or rather, couldn’t do so. She recognized him only as something that’s outside of reason and since it’s outside of her specialty, she left it without investigating. She only took off her “lover’s costume” when she was alone with him, at that time she almost back to her original self. It’s not a sign of trust, but the fact she doesn’t have to “act” in front of him. That’s because Varhram is outsider different from “everyone”.
It can be said that Nahid awakened when he disappeared and viewpoint that Sirius avoided contact with Nahid after he lost his friend is correct.
Once she woke up, she started to set out. The greatest and last miracle of the Hero, Great Tentsui – the end, or beginning, of that stupid and meaningless battle between good and evil.
At the same time Nahid noticed a minor abnormality, Acchan, whom she recognized as kenzoku of Ahura Mazda (Nahid calls her comrade that should follow the same path as her, but she abandoned her duty which she considers betrayal and says that tools shouldn’t have their own goals). Even after she was absorbed by Aka Manah she kept her will and tried to resist it, but Nahid crushed her and Acchan vanished in the twister of daemon sword.

- cut to Quinn and others
Quinn reached royal palace in about 10 minutes under blessing of Acchan, which is super-high speed flight blessing. She governs Druj Nasu and there’s no one who surpasses her in the act of flying, if Acchan wishes she could fly at the speed of light. However, it’s difficult to control and under Vohu Manah’s jurisdiction she can only move in “blindfolded” state so it’s risky.
She sees all Ashavan around them turn into Dragvant and remember final moments of Varhram. Turmoil caused by this sudden Tentsui caused everyone to fight against each other, since Dragvant don’t have strong companionship. Since the major Yazata and Lords are on the New Continent they were spared from this effect and Quinn herself escaped from the wave of Tentsui.
Quinn has finally reached Sirius and has talk with him. Sirius is in sorry state to say the least. Completely broken and with no light in his eyes.
Yet, Quinn is forced to shower him with even more misery, about Mama Quinn’s feelings.
And so she talks.
Sirius often said that he doesn’t have love in him and that’s he’s not a vessel capable of loving either. This’s truth in literal sense, because when he met Varhram he was robbed of his love. Immeasurable Muzan Muki.
Varhram’s Commandment, Saoshyant Desatir, grants him the privilege of the winner and steals the greatest weapon of the loser. It can be simple power or ability, but Sirius was deprived of love – Sirius’ irreplaceable sword.
In that way, their relationship has been decided. Sirius will keep chasing after Varhram even if countless tragedies will befall him. He was the one who suffered from belief of friendship, affection and love. Without hating cause of that suffering he wanted to regain his love. He couldn’t forget this treasure in Varhram.
And yet Sirius, kinder and stronger than anyone, created miracle on his own – he remembered love he has lost and reignited it from the scratch – he fell in love with Mama Quinn. Something he denies.
Even if their relationship was cultivated through toxic circumstances they were definitely trying to move forward, this prayer that shines brightly that even Varhram couldn’t steal it is the true Hadou.
Quinn says that he’s a savior born to create new world, one that surpasses even Hero (Varhram).
Yet, Sirius denies it once again.
He says that if he had that kind of power then Nahid wouldn’t be isolated from outside world. Quinn asks why he believed he can’t save her. To which Sirius answers that he was intoxicated with the good story of older brother taking care of his younger sister and that he wasn’t doing this for Nahid, but merely feel like childish hero.
This time, it’s Quinn who denies that.
Nahid is a systemic existence that acts on behalf of “everyone” feelings, so in terms of structure, she’s isn’t compatible with the bearers of the new world (Hadou candidates) trying to break existing laws.
When Sirius was still young, “everyone” feared his kindness. It’s almost like Avesta’s defense instinct. The will not to overlook this kindness strongly flowed into Nahid and as a result she locked herself as a countermeasure or she may have fallen into some kind of outage due to resisting that will.
Nahid awakened due to Varhram’s advent, because Sirius love was stolen and thus, script has changed. Subsequently, Nahid regained her normal function and started playing the role she desired.
From this point, story will contain subjectivity of Quinn, but she’s certain of it and there’s no hesitation in her voice.
Varhram is an unidentified heretic. He’s neither Hero, nor Hadou Candidate. Just as he robbed Sirius of love, he also deprived Nahid of her position as a “representative of everyone”. Together with Divine Sword, he still has plan that’s completely incomprehensible.
So Nahid had nowhere to go, but to obey love of Sirius after she lost that qualification. No matter how distorted she is, to Nahid “everyone” is based on Sirius’ viewpoint.
Originally her enemy, Nahid is acting only towards her brother. There’s only one implication of that – Sirius love has reached his sister. He saved blank soul cursed by Avesta. Act comparable to dyeing, changing ultimate white into his “mere sister”.
Quinn conveys Mama Quinn’s love message for him. Sirius wants to hear one last thing.
If he’s such a mediocre man, unworthy of being savior how can she explain his flaws?
Whether it’s Nahid, Varhram, Magsarion, Khvarenah or Kaikhosru they’re all exceptional, with unusual birth and special fate. Then how can he compare to them? He’s ordinary and dull. So how come he’s qualified to change the world?
She answered after hesitating for a bit (we don’t hear this). However, Quinn who lost her memory met with Sirius. It’s related to Ahura Mazda’s Commandment about which she heard from Mama Quinn and the resulting flow of causality.
Sirius stands up. More determined than ever. Quinn believes he returned to his younger self. He tells Quinn to not misunderstand though. As he still cannot forgive her (Divine Sword) and that friends remain friends. Whatever the truth there might be, he will remain himself.
Quinn wishes him good luck and Sirius disappears in white whirlwind. It could be feat of Hadou to teleport through residue of Vohu Manah or perhaps it is inevitable because he’s guided.
Whatever it means, Sirius went to save his sister from darkness and Quinn is also determined to do something.
She hears footsteps and encounters Feldows…who collapsed and is ready to fight Quinn. She vows to prevent him from turning into Nadare.

- it just happens to Friday on signing ceremony, which means Feldows ability changed once again – this one he considers his worst choice, ability related to the Star Spirit from his homeland.
On this day, Feldows integrates with the will of the star so there’s risk factor where he might get swallowed by Nahid’s power.
Quinn says she won’t tell Feldows to become toy of the God. She remembers when he activated Friday once before and she described it as expression of madness.
Feldows’s Star Spirit, Nasatya, has strange characteristic of being dual god. It has day face and night face, Ashavan but also Dragvant-like part and is very old Star Spirit. So by tuning with this being that embodies duality, Feldows will no longer be rational like he usually is.
He attacks Quinn is a blind rage, showing extraordinary power and hatred reminiscent of Magsarion.
Quinn noticed his power is the same or even increased even though his experienced Tentsui. She guesses it’s probably because it forced Tentsui, not the one where individuals break their Commandment voluntarily.
Quinn says he’s still mourning Marika deep inside and in his anger he unleashes Nowruz Nasatya, which converges and then detonates black sun-like light and smashes Quinn directly from above.
Feldows says he doesn’t have qualification to love anyone. Instead, Quinn says she loves him and finally guesses why Feldows was behaving in such a strange way, realizing he established similar Commandment to that of Magsarion.
To prevent him from becoming Nadare she decides to kill him (“gently”).
Even if Quinn will deliberately get herself killed, Feldows will blame himself and approach Nadare even further.
So they decide to fight seriously. Quinn wants to kill him in order to save him and if Feldows exceeds Quinn’s determination miracle should occur.
It seems to work as Feldows will gradually resurfaces.
Quinn says that Mad Mother’s rule will soon end. And new world will soon be born even if she won’t be there to witness it. For all prayers born and dead in this world there’s only one sincerity she can do.