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- Now, too, I had nothing to take my mind off what was happening
- to me. My mother and my father—I was leaving them forever.
- My home on an island—I was leaving it forever. What to make of
- everything? I felt a familiar hollow space inside. I felt I was being held
- down against my will. I felt I was burning up from head to toe. I felt
- that someone was tearing me up into little pieces and soon I would
- be able to see all the little pieces as they f loated out into nothing in
- the deep blue sea. I didn’t know whether to laugh or cry. I could see
- that it would be better not to think too clearly about any one thing.
- The launch was being made ready to take me, along with some other
- passengers, out to the ship that was anchored in the sea. My father
- paid our fares, and we joined a line of people waiting to board. My
- mother checked my bag to make sure that I had my passport, the
- money she had given me, and a sheet of paper placed between some
- pages in my Bible on which were written the names of the relatives—
- people I had not known existed—with whom I would live in England.
- Across from the jetty was a wharf, and some stevedores were loading
- and unloading barges. I don’t know why seeing that struck me so, but
- suddenly a wave of strong feeling came over me, and my heart swelled
- with a great gladness as the words “I shall never see this again” spilled
- out inside me. But then, just as quickly, my heart shriveled up and the
- words “I shall never see this again” stabbed at me. I don’t know what
- stopped me from falling in a heap at my parents’ feet.
- When we were all on board, the launch headed out to sea. Away
- from the jetty, the water became the customary blue, and the launch
- left a wide path in it that looked like a road. I passed by sounds and
- smells that were so familiar that I had long ago stopped paying any
- attention to them. But now here they were, and the ever-present “I
- shall never see this again” bobbed up and down inside me. There was
- the sound of the seagull diving down into the water and coming up
- with something silverish in its mouth. There was the smell of the sea
- and the sight of small pieces of rubbish floating around in it. There
- were boats filled with fishermen coming in early. There was the sound
- of their voices as they shouted greetings to each other. There was the
- hot sun, there was the blue sea, there was the blue sky. Not very far
- away, there was the white sand of the shore, with the run-down houses
- all crowded in next to each other, for in some places only poor people
- lived near the shore.
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