Kurrontsuchi Wiggins says
Theron just told me the news. So you're just going to quit hm? Use me and all this pain that you supposedly care about putting me through as a scapegoat? "I act the way I do here as I do in RL" where do the lies end then Nyan? So caring about me and all your friends must have been one from the start too then. Cause if you CARED you'd be a big boy and face up to things. Not skip out and me and others. Do you realize how SELFISH that is?
*on
Nyan Kolaris says
I am being a big boy Seance. I'm looking inside of myself, seeing that there's something that's poisonous in me, and getting rid of it.
Kurrontsuchi Wiggins says
By running?
Nyan Kolaris says
By changing
Kurrontsuchi Wiggins says
By hurting me and others and running
No cut the crap
There is nothing to change, no darkness, nothing
There are facts. You messed up, so what?
There is nothing to change
Running away would make things worse anyway. If you did care about me Nyan if you cared about all the friends you made
You wouldnt quit, cause honestly you quitting is making me resent you. Im losing every little shred of hope, light, and everything else I saw about and in you over this
And that is NOT fair
Nyan Kolaris says
From how you ended our last conversation Seance, I was under the impression I had already done that. I weeped when you logged out like that. I felt like I had just commited a capital sin. But, I realized something, there was no commitments Seance. Yeah, iit was probably not my best move to pretend fuck someone I had just met, but I'm not going to beat myself up over that. In the grand scheme it, I
Kurrontsuchi Wiggins says
Problems come and you can either run or fight. I just thought you'd be too stubborn to fall out like this. No goodbye, no nothing...just Theron having to tell me "oh he's leaving"
Nyan Kolaris says
tried /really/ hard to tell you that it was a mistake I had made, but you ahd found your excuse. You're afraid of yourself Seance
you don't want to let people in because you're scared that the same thing will happen that happened with your ex
Kurrontsuchi Wiggins says
If I am afraid Nyan
Then why am I still here hm?
Talking to you
Talking to others who HURT me?
Im not the one running here
Cause as I said I got back on to talk to YOU and others
Set things  straight, put things back on the right path
Only reason I left is cause I got pissed
And me being angry as I was would do no good for no one because I know myself
Nyan Kolaris says
You could have told me that
Kurrontsuchi Wiggins says
So thats why I logged
I did
I told you about how I am
Anger issues, etc
Nyan Kolaris says
Yeah, you did, but you just logged, you never said "I can't talk to you right now, I need to calm down"
Kurrontsuchi Wiggins says
"Nyan when I get really mad I just go silent or leave because I dont want things to get out of hand and I dont want to push people away or snap on those that are undeserving"
That may not be word for word but I've told you that I will leave if I get really upset
Thats the only thing I can do to protect others and myself
2011/11/18 17:52]  Nyanners Resident: I never lied to you about my past, about who I am
[2011/11/18 17:52]  Nyanners Resident: Seance please
Thats the only thing I got
Then there was nothing. So I talked to Theron and he told me more things, which ended up making me go from...not so much sad but emotionless sorta down to disgusted, then enraged. So thats when I left, and excused myself to everyone in the room. Thats the best I could muster.