Hello, after being banned ive decided to change my attitude. I understand that in the past I have been acting immature and posting inappropriate images, this needs to stop. I am now realizing the importance of this club in my future and how it may impact my success in life. I need to stay in this club and do well so colleges like me, and so I become friends with you guys. So the main reasons im changing my actions are because I want to learn, I dont want to seem like an immature freshie, and I want to be friends with you all. These reasons are all really important to me and I hope you guys (and jess)  understand this. It may be hard, but I want you guys to forgive me. No matter how long it takes im willing to stay dedicated to hanging out with you guys until you forgive me. I will no longer be acting so immature. So again, I ask to please forgive me and once again accept me as one of your own. I really enjoy participating in this club and being in this discord because I get to communicate with you guys. Im really sorry. Yes, in the past I have been doing what you call “shit-posting”. From what I understand this is posting immature and crude images in the chat, along with messages. I have only been doing this because you guys are all older than me and I want to seem cool and funny around you guys. I truly do look up to you all and I see now that my humor is not making you guys like me. Instead of changing my humor I think I will likely change to have a strictly professional attitude around everyone. I will keep my photos and jokes to myself, unless you guys really want me to share them with you. Respecting each others boundaries is very important in life and you guys have been respecting mine but I havent been respecting yours. I think that most of my actions are caused by me still being in early stages of puberty- which comes with some immaturity due to hormonal changes. I might even consider going to a doctor to see if he can balance out my hormones. I dont want these imbalances to cause any problems with my social and personal life. Thanks again and I really hope you guys understand. < 3 . No Marwan, this is very serious to me. It is possible that when I went into the boys bathroom today, after italian class I inhaled some fog from that Juul Pod in the Urinal. I think that this may have been causing me to act even crazier, and it is possible that I ingested Vape Juice a while ago which caused my actions. I am going to have a discussion with my parents about this Vape addiction tomorrow, even though I have never vaped. Who knows how much Juul is in my blood right now, I might die next week because of it. Hopefully the doctor will be able to test my semen tomorrow for Vape. If the tests cum out positive, then we will understand why i am acting so immature. If they cum out negative then I will have to reconsider why I am acting this way. I will also contact school faculty to have them test the air around the school for possible chemical outbreaks that are directly affecting me. Since I started high school, I have been acting rather strange so it is likely from chemicals. I think that it may be important for you guys to test yourselves too even though you are acting perfectly normal. I only think that because I care about your health as you are my friends and want you to stay safe. Guys (and jess), Please help me through this sad time of addiction and sickness while I figure out the problem. I would never want to die without telling you guys how much I love you even though we dont know eachother that well. Being friends, (and more than friends-wink wink marwan) has made me truly happy and satisfied. You guys mean everything to me. < 3. Marwan, today in school you slapped me. This happened because I said something immature. When you grabbed my face with your hand and used that other hand to slap me in the cheek, it was exhilarating. The pain that rushed through my whole body made me feel so warm inside. I think I may have a fetish for marwans hands slapping me. I am definitely not a homosexual but, those hands... they.. were...  so nice. Its like I got this tingling feeling. I think that I may have enjoyed that slap so much because of all the vape juice i had in my body that i breathed in while using the restroom. That moment, i will never forget. Marwan, I really hope you understand how good that slap made me feel. I think it really brought us closer together as friends, and community. I think that other people, like Jessica should slap me so that we become closed friends. Thank you all.