How's it going

Hey dudes haven't made a pastebin thingo in a while so thought i'd drop some updates and just talk a lil.

Streaming:
Regards to my streaming I am let down with my production quality of my streams and also the statistics coming from that. Before moving out of home I anticipated a massive spike considering the fact I would have NBN so I could max out my stream quality, and also KH1.5+2.5 was coming out and planned on running it alot. I made a new stream layout too to adapt to 16:9 style but things were progressively dying down, when first running the game I felt my mentality was okay since I had a dont give a fuck what pace it is type attitude but as my viewers declined my attitude became worse and honestly I just felt bored speedrunning games but at the same time was motivated when not doing it, rather weird mix I know. I plan to work on this, I wish I could go back in time sometimes and just fix how my old attitude was, its effected my growth and how people perceive me but thats what life is about is progress and improvement. But I do vouch to work on how I go about streaming I was going with the more quite focused on the run type stream and casually getting involved with conversation its quite an easy comfort zone to get into but I doubt very entertaining, I have to remember I am trying to entertain and audience and get people interested to return to my stream. I believe I use to be more entertaining and funny with my old streams maybe due to being more motivated and entertained with what I was doing. I just tend to doubt myself far too soon and thats what effects my downfall with speedruns and streaming which also brings the lack of motivation.

Work:
Work has been picking up a lot lately and I have done well with my job, my games co-ordinator (manager) is taking a months leave and I will be covering her position for the month so that means I will be working Full Time throughout the entirety of May. I want to do well with this opportunity I've been given so as sad as it is to say May will not be a strong month for me with streaming, I am more than likely going to take the entirety of May off KH and work on some shorter fun games, as some may know i'm currently learning The Grinch and plan on running that, regardless if I don't do as well for views I enjoy the game and plan on investing my main time into it. I wont only run The Grinch however I may pick up some Dragon Ball games again for fun as something to take not to seriously on the side. But as soon as May is done I will be more than likely back to Kingdom Hearts and doing it properly this time, I will do practice streams and all I want to come back with the right attitude when running the game I love, apologies for the let down streams regarding the new exciting KH Game which I anticipated a stronger more exciting start with.

Other:
Currently I have been accepted into ASM to do Lego Star Wars, and as glad as I am, I may potentially not be going this year. Alot of this is due to Financial and interest reasons. Sadly my dear friend Washeyy isn't going who was someone I was keen on seeing and plus if I wanted to go to Adelaide i'd want my Girlfriend to accompany me and I don't know how we will be for money by that time considering I will be getting a loan out soon and want to invest into a new microphone for streaming and Youtube purposes. Speaking of Youtube that's another area I've been let down in, I do have the excuse of moving out of home has occupied my time and working 30 hour weeks and still trying to stream but still I always feel guilty looking at my channel, I had so many ideas and plans and didn't take enough action upon them. I am working on my Dragon Ball Series Review Video and will be potentially making some other DB Videos, I've debated going into speedrun content more but that's iffy considering the debate and drama that goes on twitter a lot about it.

Fuck this was longer than I planned, peace homies

TLDR;
- Dissapointed with my stream vibe plan on working on it
- Working Full Time in May expect less streams and no KH
- May not be going to ASM
- Working on DB Videos and others to come