TowelToday at 21:22
I'm sorry that I screwed up
I didn't think I'd be too bothered by this, but I'm fucking killing myself over how I fucked up now.
I just want to talk and play games with you guys.
It was never my intention to make the experience hell.
Why would that be my goal?
Why don't you want me back?
Even after trying to change so much but to no avail.
I'm sorry.
TowelToday at 22:08
@Mattheous @Dragon269259 Why?
I've tried and tried to change, and yet the opinion is the same as before
As if you were never considering letting me back in the first place.
Can't wait to get ignored again by my good friends who definitely don't hate me.
Nah, we're just annoyed.
We would never hate the person we stopped talking to
Thanks for giving me false hope only to make me shut up for the time being.
It's clear this whole friendship is tainted beyond any chance of redemption.
I guess that saying is true. Friends who get together and break up fall apart.
Dragon269259Today at 22:19
we watched the e3 thing with you didnt we, yet youre still bitching about this
if anything this shows you havent changed lel
also its a group chat of 9 peeps and we decide on stuff democratically
theres 7 ppl other than me and matt you need to consider
TowelToday at 22:23
Amanda and Phin said they were staying out of it.
Tweeno was voicing for me iirc
Dragon269259Today at 22:24
everyone is staying out of it until its time to decide xd
also since when was tweeno on youre side lel
TowelToday at 22:28
Not anymore.
Dragon269259Today at 22:29
ye see, if ppl are on your side, and then you bitch to them/about them, ya know they probs wont stay on your side for very long
TowelToday at 22:30
Whatever, I'm done with this whole thing. It's all fucked and there's no possible way I can fuck this up any further.
Dragon269259Today at 22:32
well
pretty sure you said that like a month ago
but here we are
TowelToday at 22:32
Here's a question for both of you
Do you still consider me a friend?
Would your life be better off if i wasn't a part of it?
Honest answer
Dragon269259Today at 22:35
1. youre a person i know and sometimes talk to
2. thats a question thats impossible to answer as small changes can have large and unforeseen consequences down the line
tho if you do wanna change and make things right with everyone, heres the thing i was most pissed off about
you left me and matt 2 days before an awesomo deadline, and created more work for us cos new admin stuff and whatnot
and we had A LOT of work to do
*left with 0 notice
also i suggest you dont take you being added back to the group eventually as granted or something that will happen if you dont piss anyone off for a while
if ppl see you change, theyll want you back
also being pissy with everyone every few months (like now) def wont help
TowelToday at 22:38
and how do people see that change if they aren't even in the server?
Dragon269259Today at 22:39
fortunately thats not for me to figure out
tho ppl to tend to talk to other ppl about ppl they know
also about stuff other ppl do
and say
so a part of us not wanting you back is cos of how you talked to ppl in dms
and acted like an entitled piece of shit
now if you do something genuinely good, im sure ppl will find out about it
now, i can give you some tips based on what weve been saying in the group chat and whatnot tho i have a suspicion you wont wanna hear half the stuff lel
TowelToday at 22:47
id rather just be left alone rn
spread the depression out rather than have it all at once
Dragon269259Today at 22:58
well if you ever feel up to the task, just ping
tho ill warn you now that many of the things may will cause inconveniences to your current way of doing stuff
TowelToday at 23:02
are they realistic for me?
because i would rather not be doing this entire thing again in a months time.
Dragon269259Today at 23:03
if you can be more like you were 2 years ago then yes
TowelToday at 23:03
that was the not caring version of me, right?
like, regardless of what people said
Dragon269259Today at 23:03
that was the nicer version as far as i remember
the non twitter nazi version
TowelToday at 23:04
i've just become so defensive for no reason
and i don't know why i've become this defensive
Dragon269259Today at 23:05
well thats for you to figure out
if you dont know why we def wont either
tho me and matt have thrown around the theory that you spend waay too much time on twitter
and so are influenced by all the trash on there
TowelToday at 23:07
just from what i know of myself, i started getting defensive when i started to draw
being defensive over something no one gives a shit about
needlessly justifying why i drew something
Dragon269259Today at 23:10
also another tip, no matter how accepting ppl are, if you try to shove fetish stuff in their faces, theyre not gonna like it lol
basically keep sex/even stuff that could remotely be thought of as fetishistic to yourself and ppl wont complain
or share it with ppl that do wanna see it
TowelToday at 23:11
I'm not trying to.
At least, purposefully
Dragon269259Today at 23:12
basically any inflation/flattening or similar is a no no
at least in a public place thats not designed expressly for that stuff
TowelToday at 23:14
Yeah, that's what got be banned from Cute Crew...
well, and the fact i was a cunt but
what else is new
Dragon269259Today at 23:14
right ill give an example
this is ok: https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/449649734039109642/585194310757253120/PlushCommission3619.png

TowelToday at 23:15
So, I'm just gonna make a list of the things im doing wrong and want to change
i hate how i did the expression on that lol
Dragon269259Today at 23:15
but this is probably a no no: https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/449649734039109642/589881924319838362/ArtTradeOutline.png

TowelToday at 23:15
understandable
That should stay in the respective server
Dragon269259Today at 23:16
yes
TowelToday at 23:16
Okay, that's something I can work on.
Keep things seperated
Dragon269259Today at 23:16
and believe me, posting that and saying its 'not sex related and not fetishistic' didnt earn you any favour with the group chat that you wanna get back into
id say keeping that seperate and staying off of twitter more is a good first step
also a word of warning, dont get pissy in this group chat, and dont bitch about/to me and matt cos i wont be helping you again if you do
also good god, assume ppl are afk and wont respond immediately
TowelToday at 23:18
I'll try not to. I wasn't thinking at the time.
Dragon269259Today at 23:18
aight, just warning now
so you cant complain later
last chance from me
if you fuck this up
dont even bother complaining to anyone
TowelToday at 23:19

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/430447280932388865/591391774904156170/unknown.png
This is what I have so far
Dragon269259Today at 23:20
yes good
TowelToday at 23:20
what else would you say?
Dragon269259Today at 23:20
once you accomplish that youll be well on your way to becoming a better person
just keep it to that for now
and come back for more stuff once you feel like youre ready
TowelToday at 23:20
Okay, that's fair.
I think i was trying to manage too much at once that nothing really changed for the better
changing things one at a time will hopefully actually make an impact.
Dragon269259Today at 23:21
aye hopefully
as i said, last chance from me
if i see a change
ill vouch for you in the group chat
TowelToday at 23:22
I will try not to fuck this up.
I'm really sorry about my great wall of bullshit
Dragon269259Today at 23:22
aye, if you do, thats like cutting your last emergency lifeline
and good luck finding another one
also as you know, i can make things happen
if i vouch for you, chances are, people might listen
so dont disappoint me
TowelToday at 23:23
Thanks dude.
https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/430447280932388865/591392754450432050/unknown.png

Dragon269259Today at 23:23
np lol
TowelToday at 23:24
That is the only document that stays on my desktop