Isuzu Ren Sidestory

Isuzu Ren Sidestory

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/ Chapter 1 - A nostalgic view
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Ren: This...
Ren: Such a nostalgic view...
Kyubey: Ren! Are you going to let your wish be wasted?
Ren: Kyubey...
Ren: It's fine, whether wishes bear fruit or remain useless is because of life...
Kyubey: Back then you refused to die and yet again you're choosing to walk the same road?
Ren: Yes...
Ren: This is not like last time... my motive is different...
Kyubey: Why?
Kyubey: You said you wanted to realize your ideal world. To live fighting witches.
Ren: "why?". That is because I gave up... I gave up on the world...

**Recollection
Female: Even if you're greeted, It's better to ignore it.
Male: I wish you would quit as soon as possible.
Female: Such flashy clothes... They don't suit you at all.
Male: Is studying the only thing you're good at?
**Recollection

Ren: "They're not words directed at me so "It's fine." even with that excuse, these thoughtless words eat at the person's heart".
Ren: A world like that... I can't live in it...
Kyubey: If you repeat the same thing you did before, your soul gem will be completely destroyed and you won't be able to fight the witches that you hate.
Ren: Yes... I understand...

Rika: Yes! That's one more grief seed.
Rika: ...hm
Rika: (There is a girl standing on the rooftop of that building) ... that girl, no way, what is she trying to do?
Ren: Who is it?
Ren: (A magical girl?)
Ren: (quickly...I must jump...!)
Rika: Stop!

Ren: Again... I failed to die...
Ren: Is it my destiny?...
Rika: Good grief... w-what were you trying to do?... ha...haa
Ren: I'm sorry...!
Ren: Yes... having to carry me... Yes... I must have been heavy...
Rika: No no no...
Rika: That's not what I'm talking about, why were you trying to commit suicide?
Ren: T-thats...
Rika: Un...
Ren: Um..................
Ren: ....................
Ren: "Ever since I was a child, every time I try to speak whatever I'm trying to say won't leave my mouth no matter what.
The more I try, the more cramped my throat seems to get. I was that kind of child.
Naturally, I would get teased for it."

***Recollection
Boy: You really don't say anything! Jizo, look!
***Recollection-end

Ren: Nevertheless, my childhood's teasing was still somewhat endearing, but...
***Recollection
Girl: You don't need your textbook, right? Can I throw it away?
Ren: Eh...
Ren: Um...
Girl: I can throw it away then!
Ren: Ah!...
***Recollection-end

Ren "The closer I get to adulthood the more the innocent teasing, turned into nothing but bullying.
So naturally I became a bullied child. Eventually, I couldn't bear such a life and for the first time, I chose to end my own life."

Ren: e...
Ren: "But after all, I couldn't die.
Facing the ground where I threw myself off, I felt the reality of what death is for the first time.
I was afraid of dying."
Kyubey: I'll grant you your wish.
Ren: I...
Ren: I don't want to die!
Ren: Please, let me live!

Ren: The "Seed of misery"?
Kyubey: Yes.
Kyubey: There are many cases where witches were behind suicide and murder.
Kyubey: It's not only about death either, a witch's curse lurks everywhere.
Ren: Do you mean...
Kyubey: That's right, for example, the bullying you had to go through was also caused by a witch.
Ren: Bullying too ?!...
Kyubey: Bullying, murder, anything that involves hurting others is caused by a witch's curse.
Ren: Hurting... people...
Kyubey: A witch harms a person with a curse. The affected person also hurts another.
Kyubey: The witch is thus causing a chain of negative emotions.
Ren: If that is the case...
If that is the case...I...
As a Magical girl...
I will do my best!
So no-one can hurt another...
For a gentle world...
I...I...
I will live... to fight witches.

"This is how I started my road as a magical girl though I was terrified".


Ren: Haah ... hah ...
Kyubey: As suspected, the witches were the result of your bullying.
Ren: Yes...
Ren: I was able to defeate it...

"But..."

***Recollection
Female: Really, so annoying. I wish you would disappear.
Male: She's kinda gross, what an eyesore.
***Recollection-end

Ren: Even though I defeated the witch that was the cause of the bullying it's still...
Kyubey: That's right, because there are so many other witches.
Ren: Then...
Then...
If I destroy all the witches,
People will not hurt each other anymore.
Kyubey: I don't know about that...
Kyubey: Certainly a witch only exists because people hurt each other but having no witches would require people without malice.
Kyubey: I can't say that's possible.
Ren: No way...
(If this unreasonable pain can't disappear from this world...)
I don't want to live in it anymore...

Ren: "That's how I came to commit suicide.
To the girl that sincerely wanted to help me, I wished I could explain that to her".

Rika: ...................................
Ren: .....................................
Rika: ...................................
Ren: .....................................
Rika: Duaaah! I thought time stopped!
Ren: S-sorry... Yes...
Rika: Hm...
Rika: Well, there is no doubt that there is something troubling you
Ren: .....................................
Rika: Alright!
Let 's go to see our companions!
I happen to know a lot of interesting people.
Ren: Eh... um... "Companion"?
Rika: A Magical girl!
You're a magical girl aren't you?
Ren: !
Rika: You don't seem surprised by my magical girl attire and that ring... It's a soul gem, right?
Ren: a...
Rika: C'mon, let's go. I'll introduce you to our magical girl friends.
Ren: Eh...
Ren: um...
Rika: "How can I explain...finding nothing but despair in this world?"


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/ Chapter 2 - A light that I never knew
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Rika: Well, I guess it feels a bit like a magical girl hangout...
Ren: "Ayano Rika, the girl that saved me. She introduced herself on the way".
Rika: Ah... this next corner, on the left?
Ren: Ah ... Yes...!
"At first glance, she comes accross as very pushy,
occasionally, she would look over her shoulder at my slow way of walking.
She gave me a sense of security as someone who nearly died only moments before."
Rika: Yes, we're here!
Rika: Wait, is it really here?...
Ren: ("Emily's"
..."Trouble consultation office")
Rika: Hi~! Emily, are you free right now?
Akira: oh, rika-chan?
I was just about to take a break.
Oh, This girl?
Ren: a...um....
Rika: A fellow magical girl, Isuzu Ren.
Akira: Is that so, Ren-chan? Welcome!
Ren: H...ello... Yes...

"Though I was told later,
Her name is Shinobu Akira,
Even though I can't even do a proper self-introduction,
She didn't show me a single look of displeasure,
I felt like crying for the kindness that she showed me".

Rika: Emily~ I brought snacks.
Emily: Oh! Rikkape~
Sankyou~
Oh!
This girl, a friend?
Rika: Yep, Isuzu Ren.
Emily: "Ren"?
My name is Kisaki Emily, charmed!
Ren: Ah...Yes...
(Ah... What a dazzling  girl)
Rika: This here is the trouble consultation office.
And Emily is the one in charge of counselling.
Rika: If you've got any worries or problems, this is the best place to be.
"Talk to Emily and you'll feel better!", this place has that kind of reputation.
Ren: (Is that why...)
Emily: What?!!
Something is troubling you, renpas?
Ren: Eh...Ren...Pas?
Akira: Pas? What's this "Pas" thing?
Emily: Huh, it's meaningless! It means nothing.
That's because the sense of the word is everything for a nickname.
Um, what's it called... the featuring of the word!
Akira: Featu... It's feeling.
Emily: Wait! Why are we still standing around talking? Let's sit down first.
Ren: Oh...Yes...

Emily: Yes, yes... I got it! I definitely got it!
Akira: Ren-chan, you haven't said anything so far.
Emily: oh, you're right!
Ren: (...u...a.........)
"Why?...like this...
My mouth feels so heavy...But..."

Amiria: Undoubtedly, to untangle the heart, a fine fragrance is needed.   **T/N: Ami Ria is the supermodel idol
Here! I'll give you my favorite hand cream!
Rika: Nah, that's useless.
Amiria: What, you used Amiria? It's rather expensive!                     **T/N: She named it after herself?
Akira: Ren-chan, if you don't have any use for it you can just leave it.
Amiria: Hey!

Konomi: Here you go!
Konomi: It's Chamomile tea. It will help calm you down.
Konomi: Hm, did it work?
Ren: Thank you very much...Yes...

"No one blames me for not saying anything,
what's more, with everyone caring for me, I find it easier to talk."

Rika: I've had a really good idea,
Emily~, let's close up and go to the chemistry club!
Ren: Ch-chemistry...

Rika: Senpai! I'm here!
Emily: Osu!
Hinano: What, you guys again?
Rika: waa, so frowny.
Hinano: Don't you guys have anyone else to bother?
Rika: Buu! even though we had such a serious job for you today.
Hinano: Job?... And this girl is?
Ren: H...H-hello...
Emily: A magical girl friend! We've met today by chance.
Emily: Renpas!
Hinano: Renpa...what? ... Rika?
Rika: Isuzu Ren.
Emily: Uwa, I feel so ignored.
Hinano: Isuzu-chan? I'm Miyako Hinano.
Hinano: And this is the chemistry club. Pleased to meet you.
Ren: Y-yes...!
Hinano: That's right, you said something about a job?
Rika: Yes! You see, Ren-chan is feeling troubled.
Hinano: Hm...
Rika: Mix a bunch of chemicals and make her some medicine!
Hinano: Huuh...
Emily: Yeah, yeah! Put your head in it and bang! All cleard up!
Hinano: Head?...Bang?...
Hinano: (Dear me, such awful stupidity... I better reply calmly)
Hinano: You stupid? I refuse! I'm not a pharmacist.
Rika: Uh! stingy demon king~
Hinano: Stop giving me weird nicknames!
But...
She's troubled about something? What kind of trouble?
Ren: oh.....!
....um...........Yes.......
....................
Hinano: ...................
I guess we all get times like this
Well, it might not be medicine but I'll give you something effective for your problem.
Emily: What is it?! What is it?!
Hinano: Here
Ren: (.......candy......?)
Hinano: You should eat it, once the sweetness spreads all over your mouth, it will help you feel better if only just a bit.
Ren: ................
Emily: It's just candy! she's not a kid
Hinano: Shaddup!
In fact, Glucose helps Tryptophan in the brain to--
Emily: Ah, yeah, yeah, I got it.
Hinano: Don't interrupt people when they're talking!
Rika: Ren-chan, did you know about our senpai here?
Ren: ?
Rika: Even though she's so tiny she's still aiming to be sexy!
Hinano: Huh?
Emily: Yep! Yep! Even though no way that could be possible!
Hinano: Na!
Rika: So even then she keeps on living without losing hope, I guess
Hinano: Hey!
Rika: So, Ren-chan, let's all be more positive!
Ren: ah............Yes...............
Hinano: Hey! don't encourage her to be mean!
Rika: Ah, I just got a great idea!
Hinano: Eh
Rika: Let's go see someone who is said to be the most positive person from school!
Ren: ....?

Emily: It's here!
Ren: (A factory...?)
Rika: Yayoi...metal...
Ah!
The girl you told me about before?
Emily: Yep, yep! I got in touch with her a while ago. She should be here.

Kanoko: oh, you have some business with me?
Emily: Show me, show me! that thing! it's so cool!
Kanoko: What is it you're talking about?
Emily; That thing, that thing!!... the mushroom thing!!
Ren: (M-mushroom...!?)
Kanoko: Ah~, the mushroom!!
hm...you couldn't have asked for something easier...
Here you go!
"Wild Dress Kanoko Special"!
"In summer of nature" is called!
Rika: wi...eh...
I mean, what is this?!
Emily: Right? Right? It's super cool!
Ren: (T-this....!!)
"Next time I met Yayoi Kanako, I learned that her parents manage the metal sheet factory
and that she's aiming to be a fashion designer."
Kanoko: Yep, yep!
Have you admired it enough?
Taking pictures is also permissable!
Rika: Why does it look like mushrooms?
Kanoko: Just like the title says!
SUMMER OF NATURE!
These Mushrooms represent the grandeur of mother nature!
Rika: Nature...?
Nature...equals, mushrooms...?
Emily: Hey, renpas, it's cool right?
Ren: t...this is........
definitely......Yes.....
Kanoko: Yep, yep!
You too? I also think it's super cool...
Rika: But, Kanoko, even with such weird taste, you still aim to be a super designer?
Kanoko: Eh...Yeah!?
Ren: D...! Designer...?!
Emily: Yep! There's no way that could be possible!
Rika: But you still keep on living without abandoning hope?!
Emily: That's right! this is why renpas--
Kanoko: Hold on, just a moment...
Emily: Eh?
Kanoko: Whaaaaaaaat?!
So you mean to tell me I'm chosen to represent those who live positively even though they're struggling?
Emily: That's right!
Kanoko: haah...no,no...I'm not struggling or anything, my taste is great!
Rika: Uueee...
Kanoko: Don't make such funny noises!
...oh, that's right!
Rika: Eh?
Kanoko: If you're feeling worried or troubled about something, I can give you something nice!
I designed it myself!
Emily: No, please, no...
Kanoko: Accessories made of metal sheets!
Rika: Oh! What's this? It's really cool!
Ren: Metal sheet...accessories...
Emily: Oh, so it's just accessories...
Kanako: It's not "just" accessories!
And the dress too, even if it's not fashionable
I still want to show it other people
Ren: ........................
Rika: fufufu, Ren-chan, you've got lots of gifts today.
Ren: ...Thank you... very much...Yes...

Emily: Uwa, not good! Sasara is calling me non-stop!
Rika: Seriously? You better go, you know that she's really impatient.
Rika: yeah!
Well, I'm heading back.
Renpas, I'll see you later!
Make sure to come by the consultation office!
Ren: ah....Yes...!
Emily: Later!

Rika: ...fu, she's an interesting one isn't she?
Ren: Yes...
Rika: Ah!... in the end, she's didn't listen to your problem...
Ren: erm!!
...Yes...................

"This is the first time...I talked with so many people...Yes".

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/ Chapter 3 - Sunset page
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Ren: "Even though she introduced me to so many kind people
to make it easier for me to confess my problems,
I still couldn't say anything...
I was feeling so guilt".

Ren: .............................................
Rika: hm....
oh........ then, how about this?
Ren: eh...?
Rika: Ren-chan, you don't have to say anything but can you listen to my story?
Ren: ....?
Yes...

"That's what she wanted to tell me, her story of how she became a magical girl".

Rika: You know, I became a magical girl for a really selfish reason.
Ren: .........because your...wish...?
Rika: Well, I thought a wish is something you do for your own sake, but my
wish changed other people's lives.
Ren: People's...lives...
Rika: ... yeah
I wished for the person I love to love me back.

Ren: "To me it seemed like such a lovely wish.
But how come she looks so sad?"

...That's...
How can I put it...bad...I don't think it's bad...Yes...
Rika: ...Ah, thanks
...I only wanted the person to love me back, I didn't think of anything else.
But...That person already liked someone else.
Ren: ..............................
Rika: And the results of my desire...
They were able to love me back and they forgot about the person who they used to love.
I stole that person's love for myself.
Ren: But...You didn't know...
Rika: No...I knew, I knew that person liked someone else. Every little detail of it.
I knew everything, yet I still made that wish.
Ren: ..............................

Ren: "Talking about her wish her face became very sad but
when she finished talking, her expression became very stiff".

Rika: I'm such a despicable person, aren't I?
You must've hate me now?
Ren: Eh...?
Rika: Before going on about listening to people's problems, you must've thought I was such a nice person, when the truth is I'm not at all.
Ren: ...........
...I....
don't hate you...
...Yes...Your wish....
You regretted it...
It means you're a good person...Yes...
That's why...I don't hate you...
Rika: ..........
Ah, thank you...
I'm glad that Ren-chan didn't come to hate me...

Ren: "She's relieved? She seemed to cry a little bit".

Rika: This is my confession.
Ren: ...........
...Why?.........
Rika: Why I suddenly told you this story?
Ren: ...Yes...
Rika: Because it's a bit unfair.
Ren: Unfair?...
Rika: It's not fair to just keep talking and talking,
If you want others to open their hearts,
You'll have to talk about the secrets keeping the distance between you and them,
Can you feel it? The distance shrinking between our hearts?
Ren: ............
(For my sake....)

"She would tell such a painful story
as a form of sacrifice
just so that the distance between us would get smaller
I'm really glad...

That's why...
I want to tell her what's inside my heart..."

um...I............
I.................
Rika: hm.....?
Ren: I............
I....!

"I want to speak...
I want her to hear me...
yet..."

um...........
(I want to speak, yet......!)
(Stil, why is it...
my mouth feels so heavy)

u.......e.......ie......
ue.....g...............!

Rika: Eh! Ren-chan...?!

Ren: "No matter how hard I try...
I cannot say a thing about myself...
It's so pitiful, so mortifying...I'm terribly sorry...
feeling more and more miserable, I started weeping"

"Naturally, as she watched me burst out crying all of a sudden,
she looked at me, upset..."
Rika: eh...! Ren-chan...!?
Ren-chan...?
Ren: s-s...s-sorry...
Rika: Ah, sorry, sorry... you must have forced yourself....?
Ren: (yes......)
Rika: ah, maybe you misunderstood me, I didn't mean to force you
to tell me your story just because I told mine, it wasn't my intention...
Ren: (yes......)
Rika: ah...but...I messed up...I shouldn't have put it that way...
Ren: s...
Rika: That's right! um, yeah, the most important thing is that you can cheer up!
Ren: u...
Rika: well, I didn't expect to mess up this bad but... here!
Ren: (..............?)
Rika: The gifts you've got from everybody.
Ren: a...........
Rika: "All these gifts are so Ren-chan can cheer-up...
everyone is thinking about you Ren-chan,
if that's the case...don't you think you can continue to live?"
Ren: .................
Rika: There is no doubt this world is filled with bad things,
but there are also beautiful, sparkling things,
even if there is as much as one of such things,
no matter what painful things happen, I think you can live.
Ren: (Sparkling....
beautiful things.......)
Rika: More than having lots of bad things,  I think having nothing
is surely the most painful.
Ren: ............
"The gifts that I was holding in my lap,
they caught my tears and the drops reflected the beams of sunset."

"the gifts looked to me like they were shining and sparkling brightly"

Ren: "My world that I lived in was only made of sad things,
but, in this world there are things that shine brightly too,
and it is "Magical Girls",
that's what my companions taught me".

...I..........
I won't die...

"The gifts everyone gave me, that hope, I can't take my eyes off it..."

I...I will live...yes...
I will live.............

Rika:...!
I'm really glad...

Rika: I guess, this is it...
...Take care
Ren: ah.....!
yes...........

"Before she goes,
I need to tell her...
I have to tell her...".
"Come out, my words,
my voice...!"

um....!!
Rika: ?
Ren: Thank you...Rika...chan.....
Rika: ...!
... it's nothing really...

Ren: (A beautiful...sunset...)

"For the first time in a long time I saw such a beautiful sunset,
if I have the hope everyone gave me, I feel like I can find many, so many
more beautiful things in this world I didn't knew of".

um, you know...
I, that time...

"Someday,
when I confess to her what I couldn't say before,
with the same smile she had,
If she only just smiled back,
I'll be able live forever".

"It's really been so long time...
that I've seen such a beautiful sunset..."

--FIN--