nortryptiline

neuroshaman where you gone man
who knows what when you moved on and
everyone confused but I think all along
the despair was hiding, coming on strong
i guess it happens when you don't belong
ain't so wrong, so long as life's movin on
headstrong like the best of em,
can't believe you like the rest of em
no contest again, it happens within
so no judgment, i know the rhythm
inconsistent mixed persistence
this instance is too indifferent
to allow the life to really grow
the less you believe the more you know
and I couldn't believe it for a minute
except every minute i spent with
the belief inside my head in droves
the end really must be the treasure trove
there by the willow tree, is that your abode?
six feet under, a whole world to erode
was that your goal or was it something less
because i certainly couldn't perceive the rest
of the outcome you picture to come next
lying cold dead in a colder world, i guess
but i really can't blame you, to be frank
i sit here wishing daily for the same thing
but i know i can't let that happen,
too many thoughts to be enactin
intent refractin through the times
won't you inform me through my rhymes?
maybe it's just hopeful exacerbation
clinging so closely to the situation
i really couldn't say, no temptation
i just really want to be demonstratin
i miss ya man, but I did see it before
and id not be surprised if others ignored
it's so hard to see the truth from so close
unless you really want to be so morose
but you know I'm opposed
to the falsehoods of hope
id rather be real and cast off the yoke
oh i agree it's a damn travesty
losing someone who is a majesty
but past the scenes of placid dreams
everything comes to an end it seems
as above so below, every soul shall know
the flow and undertow, won't you go?
i don't know, i won't show any more
than I must to be the whore
that i am for hermitage, just
don't forget the words i spin thus:
there's no sense in death and killing yourself
but there's no sense in life and installing good health
everything left is a zero sum game
a moment to forget after the pain
after the relapse, we call it life
the soul might rehash and find new light
but even if that's true i couldn't say
just what light you'll seek the next day
the best way is to just stay within
and realize the answer exists again
inside of the realm inside of the mind
inside of the soul inside of all time
maybe you might inspire my mind
and show me what it's like aligned
in a realm of no chronology
just existence in the topology
of totality, the modality is shifted
no reality will define this instance
existing without the inherit limits
of a meat sack and constituents
or maybe ill just create the thought in my mind
who can tell the difference when it's time?
and there it slips in again, a rhapsody
of memorial invocation, the blasphemy
is that im at a loss for words, for thoughts
im at a loss for concepts, im just straight lost
echoing the constructs that i once believed were true
thinking without thinking, so the act renews
but ive rambled long enough, I really must say
i miss you dawg, i hope you're doing okay
in the afterlife, im after life, to my dismay
but maybe some day ill be able to say
never thought I'd see you again anyways