Zeal - 08/12/2017
yeah
anon - 08/12/2017
my parents didn't let me travel alone either
but I just did it
Zeal - 08/12/2017
yeah i should probably just do that
i want to go to amsterdam 25th ish but like im worried about my parents, especially my mother being mad at me when i get back
anon - 08/12/2017
how mad?
would she like disown you
Zeal - 08/12/2017
we've been pretty mad at each other
if she thought i went to amsterdam to fuck a girl then maybe
or like do drugs
idk
anon - 08/12/2017
well
hookers and weeeeedlmao are legal there
Zeal - 08/12/2017
yeah the trick is not to tell her im going to amsterdam
like
the thing is my dad went to amsterdam once and shes really like
this was back in early 2000's but she got really jealous and assumed he went with a girl and cheated on her or like fucked a hooker or something
so she really hates amsterdam
anyways ill probably rebel at one point
i'm just not really uhh
not really independent considering how i've been brought up
not that i dont have an independent personality, i might, but if it's there it's never really been able to grow
i've always like relied on my parents since they've always made me rely on them
anon - 08/12/2017
yeah man your upbringing sounds oppressive as fuck
Zeal - 08/12/2017
pretty much is
anon - 08/12/2017
it's weird cause
you're gonna have to move out and live your own life eventually
Zeal - 08/12/2017
yeah
anon - 08/12/2017
like what do they expect you to do?
be like 35 and not allowed to go out alone or someshit
Zeal - 08/12/2017
they're really endorsed into their own culture that's all
nah they'd expect me to like
marry a girl at 26-28
that's normal
you live with your parents till 23 ish
then you move out but not too far
anon - 08/12/2017
how will you marry a girl if you've never dated or done anything
Zeal - 08/12/2017
and you still live kinda with your parents
le forced marriage meme
its kinda weird
cuz
i have a cousin
who like seemed western as fuck
like me and my siblings
but then he married a girl at 24 and it was really sudden
maybe he couldn't rebel but that's not going to be me
sometimes i just kinda want to wait for them to die so i don't have to let them down
anon - 08/12/2017
yikes(edited)
that's fucking weird man
in >current year and all
and I thought my parents were traditional
Zeal - 08/12/2017
asian parents are usually similar
but to different extents
same ideology
anon - 08/12/2017
yeah mine are like that except not nearly as bad I think
Zeal - 08/12/2017
yeah
i know a chinese girl who has parents just like mine
she doesn't really tell me every single detail and neither do i but i think they're to the same extent
idk it seems normal to me considering my parents are like that
anon - 08/12/2017
yeah if that's all you've ever known I guess it'd feel normal
but isn't it kind of suffocating
Zeal - 08/12/2017
eh
kinda
i got more and more into video games to help myself not think about it i guess
i don't really think about it at all by now
i just look at it as unfortunate and i don't really like conflict so i just leave it be
anon - 08/12/2017
that's healthy
Zeal - 08/12/2017
eh
in a way
used to be a lot of conflict but
idk i just stopped caring about most things nowadays
don't really want to waste energy
anon - 08/12/2017
and by healthy I mean very much not
Zeal - 08/12/2017
kek
anon - 08/12/2017
if you eat more it'll replenish your energy
you twig
Zeal - 08/12/2017
eh
nah i can't eat more
i stopped caring about eating too so my mother just brings me food
to be fair i haven't really mentioned that huh
it's like a cycle really
i stop caring so she starts caring more and then she does more things for me
so im forced to rely on her more and more
anon - 08/12/2017
jesus
move out
also eat
why don't you like food? it tastes good
Zeal - 08/12/2017
need to waste energy
in order to eat
anon - 08/12/2017
the fugg
Zeal - 08/12/2017
can't waste energy if i'm playing vidya all day
moving out is the best situation really
but as i said i don't like conflict
so it's uh
it'd cause conflict if i were to move out
and so yeah
anon - 08/12/2017
yeah but you're a big boy now
Zeal - 08/12/2017
it's just a long and retarded cycle
true
anon - 08/12/2017
they'll just have to deal with it
like what are they gonna do?
disown you?

anon - 08/12/2017
what do you mean violent(edited)
Zeal - 08/12/2017
verbally
abusive?
anon - 08/12/2017
oh whew
Zeal - 08/12/2017
not really abusive but yeah
well actually yes abusive
i guess the normal person would find it pretty abusive lmao
anon - 08/12/2017
thought we were getting into some domestic violence here
Zeal - 08/12/2017
nah
she wouldve
if they were banging
probably(edited)
anon - 08/12/2017
no sex before marriage and 40
do you agree with any of their views at all?
Zeal - 08/12/2017
ehh
not really, but i understand why they are the way they are
and i respect it i guess
anon - 08/12/2017
well
that's very understanding of you
when my parents are like that I just think it's so backwards
I keep it to myself though of course
Zeal - 08/12/2017
yeah most people do
anon - 08/12/2017
I wonder how they'd feel if they knew my best gal pal for a while was actually my girlfriend
or maybe they already knew and never said anything lol
Zeal - 08/12/2017
do you have a girlfriend
i dont think they do know honestly
actually
idk about yours cuz they're more western and less extreme than mine
but mine wouldn't know
they encourage same sex friends, not gay shit of course but they'd just think of it as friends
asians are pretty uninformed about gay shit
at least t he ones i know
either that or they don't really like to talk about it
anon - 08/12/2017
yeah it's seen as taboo and like unnatural
and no I don't have a girlfriend
I used to
Zeal - 08/12/2017
ah
anon - 08/12/2017
the first few times I travelled alone were to visit her
Zeal - 08/12/2017
oh
do you miss her
anon - 08/12/2017
well
we broke up ages ago
I try not to think about it lmao
Zeal - 08/12/2017
ah
ic
w-w-was she chinese
anon - 08/12/2017
no lmao
she was white and fat and tattooed
and into like queer tumblr shit
Zeal - 08/12/2017
really
that doesnt match
anon - 08/12/2017
it's no surprise we broke up really
Zeal - 08/12/2017
are you into white fat tattood girls who are into queer tumblr shit
anon - 08/12/2017
not at all
which is why I broke up with her
if anything
it's surprising it lasted so long
it's hard to find normal girls to date honestly
it's so rare to find girls who are into girls to begin with, and most of them are fucking weird
Zeal - 08/12/2017
most people force it
anon - 08/12/2017
would be easier to date dudes but they mostly just wanna fuck
life is hard
Zeal - 08/12/2017
yeah
its a shame most girls havent figured that out
that dudes just want to talk when im horny
ASFD
>im
xD
A<FLOMDSF
i was going to say something else about someone else but yeah
when they're horny*
anon - 08/12/2017
LMFAO
FREUDIAN SLIP??
Zeal - 08/12/2017
k-k-kind of......
i mean
i was going to say that i know a girl that i only talk to when im horny
lmao
anon - 08/12/2017
are you horny is that why you're talking to me :^)
Zeal - 08/12/2017
and she mentioned how she fucked some guys and she didnt really want to
wait let me finish this
uh
and she said how she doesn't really like it but did it anyways because the dudes wanted it
kek
so she was basically a fucksleeve
uhhhhhh
im not going to lie i've been kinda horny but nah thats not why i was talking to you
i enjoy talking to you at any time i guess
in all honesty
cuz you're pretty chill and understanding
anon - 08/12/2017
awww
Zeal - 08/12/2017
>i've been kinda horny
>awwwwwwww
anon - 08/12/2017
go visit the fucksleeve, that'll fix things up :^^^)
Zeal - 08/12/2017
no shes in norway
she was actually my ex
who i was gonna meet
anon - 08/12/2017
LOL
Zeal - 08/12/2017
but then i wasnt rebellious enough
at that age
anon - 08/12/2017
how long ago?
Zeal - 08/12/2017
umm
idk she was an on and off relationship
anon - 08/12/2017
oh huh
you're with someone from the netherlands now, right?
Zeal - 08/12/2017
yeah
kinda
not really
she's not my gf because she doesn't want to get into anything serious over the internet
so she wants to meet irl and then probably take my innocence ;_;
anon - 08/12/2017
HAHA
are you gonna give it to her
;))))))
Zeal - 08/12/2017
kinda scared
honestly sometimes its a forced "relationship"
we're not really in a relationship

anon - 08/12/2017
oh
Zeal - 08/12/2017
yeah
lol
anon - 08/12/2017
hasn't it been like a year now
Zeal - 08/12/2017
i just call her my girlfriend to avoid hassle in discord and shit
yes
anon - 08/12/2017
do you not like her
Zeal - 08/12/2017
most of the time i do but sometimes she can be stupid
her thought process is pretty retarded sometimes