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- I'm cleaning my boyfriend's pistol when he says something that pisses me off.
- Again.
- Perhaps it was trans rights, socialism, or homelessness -
- about the only thing we agree on is gun ownership.
- So when I say pistol, I mean it literally.
- In my lap rests a Magnum Revolver, a field-stripped
- Smith & Wesson 686 .357
- On either side, a pair of loaded Sig Sauers are lying,
- patiently waiting their hour.
- Proper firearm safety dictates that I keep the barrel firmly down,
- away from other people,
- no matter how much they're angering me,
- or how many bullets lie waiting.
- So I raise only my voice, not my hands.
- Nonetheless, his stance becomes a little defensive,
- and he tells me about the time his friend went ballistic,
- so he locked the latter out to avoid a more literal incident,
- possibly involving ballistic forensics.
- And I think to myself... god!
- Dating dudes sucks!
- Cuz Twenty One Pilots and my ex girl both underestimated us,
- it's not just our hands, it's our tongues!
- If I said "domestic" ----
- and let if hang in the air,
- what springs to mind?
- Does it rhyme with ----
- silence, the same that stymies solving the crime?
- I paused for a beat there,
- but what beat cop cares if they hear reports of a beating?
- Now I'm tryna explain all this to him,
- and I feel some kinship with my ex cuz when I was filled with ignorance
- she had to slow it down, rehash, expound upon
- but then,
- she'd probably feel much more like him
- to see me lose my temper again
- blast off thoughts I ought to lock within
- what can I say, I'm obstinate
- so I insist he pass back the cleaning kit
- On one hand, I know I would never
- unload on him like I did with my brother or my mother
- or the cops that I fought when I thought that a taser wasn't major
- But on the other hand...
- I'm clutching a fucking gun
- and doing a good impersonation
- of a bad person.
- But it's ok, I promised I'd never shoot him and we're still friends.
- He apologized for being douchey -
- at least in my head -
- and we may start a punk rock band.
- When I told him that I'd penned this,
- he asked if I referenced
- the moment I recollected
- a time scars on my arms marked my record
- before requesting a loaded weapon, but
- honestly I don't remember
- I've held my life in my hands more times than a gun
- the former is boring while the latter is fun
- and when all's said and done,
- he left early for work,
- me curled in the mid-morning sun.
- I awaken incredulous - he was content
- with just two guns from his under-the-pillow cache.
- And I wonder which would make her more uncomfortable -
- being alone with me, or knowing I was alone with even one slug.
- But, as crazy as it sounds, I'm doing better.
- So, for just a moment, I hold it in my grip,
- but not between my lips.
- That isn't how you clean a pistol.
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