stuff #pastebinmonday

something happened at work last week that really really pissed me off. im not going to indulge details because im hyper careful about what i share about my professional life on social media or with most other people in general and i do that on purpose. but man im still reeling from it. really feels like my work just is not valued when i pour my heart and soul into what i do

yosef is moving out on sunday. our 2 year anniversary would have been on monday. i'm not ready to deal with that adjustment and the reality hasnt sunk in yet. im just sad about it. i dont want to be home when he's moving his stuff out but where do i even have to go

i really miss sean. there have been only a handful of people throughout my life who've just somehow known what to say that actually makes me feel better when im down about things. he was one of them and i really need that right now. i need my best friend back

bc of all this stuff my motivation is shot, i'm falling behind on my language study and have had no energy to do speedruns

on the bright side i spent the weekend cleaning and reorganizing my apartment so that was positive. i hung out w/ flek and his wife at their house and that's always a good time. spent the rest of my time playing video games with the rollin deep crew. all of this at least got my mind off of things for a little bit

money situation is looking more optimistic too and i owe that to the crazy support my stream has gotten lately... i don't know how to thank you all.

i got back up to 50+ subs

i think tonight i just need to chill out and play DKR. maybe ill stream it