Soraka - Today at 8:21 PM
noah
Newfiero - Today at 8:22 PM
yeah..?
Soraka - Today at 8:22 PM
are you serious about wanting me?
Newfiero - Today at 8:22 PM
What do you mean?
Soraka - Today at 8:22 PM
what do you think i mean?
Newfiero - Today at 8:22 PM
Like am I just saying it?
Or do i mean it sincerely?
Soraka - Today at 8:24 PM
what
Newfiero - Today at 8:25 PM
When I say i want you, I do mean it, I don't say things I don't mean
But eveything hurts
Maybe I'm trying to move it forward too fast or maybe I wont move it fast enough out of fear
But either way
I'm just not ready yet
But I feel like we can't go backwards because I'm scared of losing someone else
Even though if you wanted to find someone else I'd understand, it'd just suck I guess cause I can't provide what you need rn
and idk
Maybe I'm overthinking it?
Like... I can't even keep my friend group happy, how tf am I going to handle a relationship?
We had another huge incident today in the group
and its a mess now
and I just
idk
I'm sorry this isn't helping
It doesnt help that I'm sick
Soraka - Today at 8:30 PM
I'm not going anywhere Noah
Newfiero - Today at 8:30 PM
I just need a friend
Soraka - Today at 8:30 PM
us not talking is what is hurting the most
Newfiero - Today at 8:30 PM
I'm sorry
I'm already spread out so thin
it'd just be easier to be dead honestly
But thats always easier
Soraka - Today at 8:31 PM
yea it would be but you can\t
can't*
Newfiero - Today at 8:31 PM
:///
Soraka - Today at 8:36 PM
idk this is just funny to me
honestly
Newfiero - Today at 8:36 PM
why?
Soraka - Today at 8:36 PM
it's like something new everyday do you not understand where a lot of my doubts are coming from
Newfiero - Today at 8:37 PM
Its the same thing? I told you a week ago that theres so much I have to deal with
You jsut chose to ignore it and try and force your ideals on my reality
If you have a problem with who I am and what I'm going through
Then you don't have to speak to me. I get it.
Soraka - Today at 8:38 PM
I'm not saying that, love
Newfiero - Today at 8:38 PM
Fuck yes you are.
You don't believe me, whats the point in even taling to you about my feelings?
Soraka - Today at 8:39 PM
I'm saying that if you keep promising to spend time with me and talk to me and not follow through I'm obviously gonna be upset
I'm sorry for wanting to fucking talk to you. My bad
I'll fuck off
Newfiero - Today at 8:41 PM
Thats not what I meant omg
I am awful at following through
Especially when I'm upset
I'm sorry that I'm like that
Soraka - Today at 8:42 PM
i just don't understand it like I'm so confused Noah
you keep saying that talking to me makes you happy yet you don't talk to me
and then you tell me about how upset you are
I just want to fucking help
Newfiero - Today at 8:46 PM
I don't want you to see me like this
Or hear me
tbh
I don't want to look vulnerable and broken
Soraka - Today at 8:47 PM
that's what i'm here for..
to be here when your like this
Newfiero - Today at 8:48 PM
I just have trouble talking to someone I coudl consider an SO about my problems
It makes me feel bad
Thats why I need a friend
But all my friends are part of this mess rn
and Alison is too busy for me
Soraka - Today at 8:49 PM
that's what a significant other is forrrrrrr
i'm supposed to be your partner we're a fucking team