DYNASTY [ @LOVEKMJ ]

| BASICS |


Name : li jiahao
Alternate Names :
 * korean; lee jiyeong
Nicknames : angel, jiji, odd ball, yeongie

Date of Birth : december 31, 1992
Age : 24 INT

Height : 161 cm / 5 feet, 3 inches
Weight : 100 lbs / 45 kg

Birthplace : hong kong, hong kong
Hometown : hong kong, hong kong

Ethnicity : chinese
Nationality : chinese

Gender : male
Gender Identity : gender-fluid (he isn't entirely sure nor has he discussed it with anyone other than his li)

Sexuality : pansexual

Slot : half-light
Back-Up Slot : --

Face Claim : uniq; wenhan
Back-Up Face Claim : uniq; seungyeon


| ABOUT |


Background :
	no matter what jiahao did or where he was, he never felt like he mattered or that he was even seen as a person. his parents never paid him any attention, all the kids in the area hated him and bullied him due to who his parents were and he didn't have a single person to show him what love or affection was. his mother was a prostitute and his father was her pimp, to put it the harshest way possible. the woman wasn't even supposed to have the baby but couldn't bring herself to abort it which led to a spiral of unfortunate events. from the moment the baby was born, all he ever saw was his father beating his mother, women with barely any clothing on at all and lots of alcohol and drugs. he never thought twice about it, it was all he knew so he had no reason to. even when he was older and able to go to school, he didn't question the looks his mother got when dropping him off with eyes puffy from crying and bruises everywhere visible to the eye giving her revealing outfit. he didn't even question the way that the kids would beat him until he couldn't move on his own. he didn't ask questions because he was afraid of what the answer might turn out to be. he was always focused entirely on school and making it seem like he wasn't just a wasted seat in a classroom. he had to have something that kept his mind off the yelling and screaming his parents did or the way they looked at him like he was disgusting to them. when the beating came, he was 10 and already suffering from a depression worse than anything that an adult could imagine. he never ate, he never slept, he never even got up unless it was to go to school. his mouth never uttered a word even when his father yelled slurred swears at him, even when he was hit repeatedly, even when his mother would weep over him in the dead of night when she thought he was asleep, crying that she wished he had better and how she wished she was a better mother to him before his father would come and hit her so hard that even jiahao would flinch and reveal he was awake.

	he was no longer allowed to go to school when he was 14, his father forcing him to no longer attend and instead help out in his 'business'. it was no secret that the women his parents worked with and even the men that would come by with his mother even looked at him with hunger in their eyes on the way in and out. he tried so hard to ignore them, focusing on the problems the girl next door would give him every once in awhile to keep him in the loop of the school work even if he was just doing her homework. she was the only person to give him any positive attention and would wave to him from her window with a big smile and jiahao would, surprisingly, wave back while returning the smile before he was yelled at to go to bed. one day, they had a 'special' visitor, one that never looked at his mother who was practically naked but stared at jia like he was a buffet. the young boy didn't think anything of it until he felt his thigh being rubbed, looking to his mother with a desperate expression but even the woman was afraid to do anything about it. he still remembers the touches all over him, the way the disgusting tongue roamed over his entire body that was smaller than anyone his age, the way the man whispered into his ear like the young boy even gave his consent. he even remembers the way he cried and screamed for his mother who was in the other room, covering her ears and praying that it would end and she'd still have her baby boy afterwards. she didn't. jiahao was a different person after that. he never left his room and he never even looked out the window to the girl who still tried to be his friend. he would sit in the dark and cry every minute of everyday. he wouldn't turn on the lights or open his eyes because he was disgusted with himself. he felt dirty no matter how much he washed which made his sobs even more painful. that didn't stop the visits. more and more men and women came for him and as the years passed, he stopped feeling. there was nothing there but pain and he didn't even react when his father came in and beat him when he was high off his ass. the beatings got worse and so did the bullying whenever he left the house, if ever. at age 16, he wanted to end it all. the girl next door still was his only source of comfort and they weren't even allowed to see each other.

	the girl was named zhou shufen and she was the most beautiful girl he'd ever met. the two were the oddballs of the neighborhood and even as kids had broken gender roles because shufen protected him. when he was beat up, shufen helped him home. when he was crying that he didn't want to go home, shufen would take him where ever he wanted to go instead. even if they didn't attend school together and her parents hated jiahao, the two were best friends. shufen was a horrible nurse however, making it so that jiahao had to learn to patch himself up with the girl there was strictly emotional support. they were basically dating, sharing shy kisses and secret declarations of love up until the girl's parents found out and to prevent the two from seeing each other even moved away. without his anchor and his first taste of what love was, jiahao wanted to end it all. end the abuse, end the crying and end the constant rape from people who saw him as nothing but an outlet for sexual fantasies. he tried to overdose on diet pills but was saved by an emergency trip to the hospital that turned into him being placed under suicide watch, making it impossible to do what he wanted to. he was still underweight and light as a feather, hoping he'd starve himself to death before he was beat to death when he got home. he was tired at this point. he was 17 with the education of an advanced 11 year old and he was tired of living the way he was. he just couldn't take it anymore.

	having given up on life, he didn't even bat an eye when he was sold away by his father a plaything to the chinese/hong kong mafia to pay off a large debt. day after day, everything was the same as it always was. he'd be beat on by one person or another then get passed around as some kind of trash. he never once felt like he mattered or that someone was looking out for him up until the point where he ended up getting sold yet again but this time to the south korean mafia, meaning he had to pack up his one little outfit and move to a whole other country. he even stopped seeing himself as a person, more as an empty husk. even if his korean was rough or he just didnt understand customs, he still felt more at home in a foreign country with people he'd never seen before. no one ever hit him but that didnt stop him from flinching when someone stood too close and no one ever yelled at him. he worked as their medic even if he didn't have a license in anything nor was he very good at it (literally everyone would disagree) and even if they all were nice to him, he never talked or did anything other than stare at the ground unless he had to. as time passed, he eventually grew out of it and engaged with the members but he still didn't stop feeling like little jiahao who cried himself to sleep, little jiahao who starved himself, little jiahao who lost shufen. little jiahao who was a mistake. even if he wasn't a bad person, he was always surrounded by violence and death so it wasn't a surprise he ended up a murderer himself though not like others. if he was really needed, he'd make things to torture patients, supply drugs, or just give injections for silent deaths. it was pretty standard and even though he was a sweet boy, he never batted an eye at seeing the life drain from someone's eyes. now, he's smart and all but he couldn't tell you how or why he ended up a trainee or why he was even considered given how he was so reserved and awkward but it wasn't like he could complain, he was still their property technically so he didn't have a choice in anything, following the leader wherever as a loyal toy, he supposed.

Personality :
  jiahao is dead on the inside and there is no other way to put it. he hardly ever gets any satisfaction from anything and just acts as if he isn't slowly dying everyday from the inside out. he does what's expected of him which is to put on a mask of his true self that's a awkward and shy kid that is the definition of innocent which he's far from. parts of him are genuine and stem from the lack of stability and care in his life: the way he's always nervous and the way he flinches away from contact. his true self and fake self are so merged he can't tell what he really feels a good portion of the time. he stutters due to his lack of knowledge in the Korean language and on top of his nervousness around the others but he will ramble on and on if you get him to talk about the few things that interest him with genuine interest oozing from him. his vulnerability is far from fake and he wishes it was so it wouldn't hurt so much when someone did something like yell at him to make him cry. it takes him back to his father yelling and hitting him or his mother night after night and takes him back to little jiahao who was so broken that he couldn't even stand to look at himself in the mirror. he hates himself for that and gets so angry that he isn't like the others and can stand up for himself or use big guns. he is always belittling himself in everything. he's nothing more than a clumsy slut that cant even stand up for himself. he beats himself up more than any fist could and it only makes his mental stability worse than it already is. he often just sits and crys in the bathroom when he looks at himself and can only see a boy that's afraid of the entire world and lost the one person that brought him happiness  because he didn't fight for her. he tries so hard to pretend like he isn't hurting because he's convinced himself that no one's care is genuine towards him and he doesn't want pity.

 he has a good heart, he could be such an amazing person but he's held back by the constant fear that he will go through even more traumatic experiences by allowing himself to trust another person. he has such deeply rooted fear and pain that he can't trust those that he's with all the time. he craves love and affection but he's afraid that it just will be more pain like shufen. he isn't sire why he hasn't tried to end his life again, now was a time he could probably do it with all the drugs he has access to, but something keeps him away from that ledge. a part of him doesn't want to die. he wants to live like all the other people that get to be happy and have families that love them. he has so many anxieties and insecurities that being an idol is the ultimate challange. he has be that confident, sexy beast the fans expect when that isn't him, the exact opposite. it doesn't help that he has trash people skills, not sure how a flow of conversation is supposed to be so he mostly listens rather than speaks because it's much easier that way. in truth, he loves all the members to some extent. maybe it's because of how long they've known each other or maybe it's because of how they treat him or he just has stockholm syndrome but he loves them and its what scares him. they kill people so what's to say they won't hurt him if it comes to it? that's what he has to tell himself because if he doesnt, he'll wind up dead or wishing he was even more than now.

Family :
 * [ li huang ] 44 / mother / prostitute / 1 out of 5 closeness
 * [ chen gang ] 50 / father / 'pimp' / -5 out of 5 closeness

Likes :
 * birds, he loves how free they are
 * scented candles
 * alone time
 * flavored gum
 * ramen
 * traditional Japanese food
 * animals, they are far more
 * cute things, they remind him of shufen and keep him happy
 * helping people, just not the mafia
 * marine life
 * learning
 * fruit
 * Pokemon
 * coffee art
 * caffeine
 * desserts
 * sudoku
 * puzzles
 * board games
 * mathematics
 * reading

Dislikes :
 * physical contact
 * confrontation
 * hurting others
 * sports
 * large groups
 * hostility
 * horror movies
 * loud music
 * meaningless sex
 * being yelled at
 * lots of attention
 * spicy food
 * dairy
 * himself/his appearance

Habits :
 * he pinches himself to keep from having panic attacks at fanmeets or just social gatherings
 * he taps his finger on things when he's bored
 * he hums to himself when he's really stressed because it calms him down
 * he literally shuts down emotionally when he's involved in 'activitites'

Hobbies :
 * knitting
 * baking
 * birdwatching
 * solving crossword puzzles
 * solving animal puzzles

Talents :
 * he can touch his nose with his tongue
 * he's double jointed so he do those tricks with his body which comes in handy ( if you know what I'm talking about )
 * he can actually rap in chinese

Trivia :
 * he's slept with all the members that are in the mafia at least once
 * he likes it knit most nights since he has insomnia
 * he's still looking to find shufen to properly tell how much he loves her
 * he is absolute trash with his english
 * he wishes he could finish his schooling
 * he has 3 special items: a cute polar bear pen that shufen gave him, the only photo he has with his first love and a letter his mother gave him before he was sold that he never even opened
 * he cooks at night sometimes then puts it in the fridge for later when they don't have time to cook
 * he's the leader's lap dog really, always following him and doing what he asks
 * he hates all kinks really, mostly because he's been forced to take part in all of them for the most part
 * he hates his appearance with a passion for so many reasons he couldn't even start to explain
 * he only enjoys being an idol because he wants shufen to see him and because she always loved music
 * he sometimes has panic attacks when people surround him
 * he has nightmares the few times he can sleep
 * he's hoping one day an std kills him
 * he also hopes that justice, no matter who it's in favor for, will be served when it comes to the mafia


| IDOL STUFF |


Stage Name : hanuel

Group Position : lead dancer, vocalist, sub-rapper

Social Media :
 * instagram: @lijiahao.1231
 * snapchat: @angel.hanuel

Fan Service :
* handwritten letters
* hair clips/accessories
* live videos on instagram
* frequent snapchat posts
* dance covers
* occasional hand holding

Trainee Period : 2 years

Stage Persona :
	jiahao is so different on stage that it's sad. he forces those cute little smiles, his face red with determination and embarrassment from doing something he never thought he'd do. he tries his hardest because he's afraid to fall behind and lose the only people who care for him if he isn't good enough. he tries not to seem too shy because the fans want someone sexy from him but that just isn't who he is. he focuses on the choreography to avoid mistakes and keeping his voice steady to avoid stutters but for the most part none of what he does is genuine. he follows the lead of others and hopes it works out in his favor because he can't do anything else without feeling so self-conscious he messes up.


| MAFIA STUFF |


Mafia Position : medic/doctor

How long have they been with the mafia? : 6-7 years

Mafia Persona :
	jiahao is cold and emotionless when it comes to his job, he does what needs to be done and that's all. he doesn't like to think about the people who died by either his hands or by the hands of those around him. he isn't as shy or awkward, actually strangely confident because he knows he has the power there. he is what keeps them from living or dying in most situations and if he decided to kill them right then, they couldn't do a thing about it which may seem out of character for him but he truly loves that power, seeing it as his drug. he takes everything extremely seriously and everything had to be precise. you'd think he was a professional because that's how he carries himself. once he's in the zone, you can't get him out again until he's done with what he need to do. the insecure boy is long gone and he refuses to play games about his craft, getting genuinely upset when people don't take it as seriously as he does even though that's virtually impossible.

Why did they join the mafia? :
	he didn't have much of a choice. he's technically property since his parents sold him to pay a debt so did the mafia in Hong Kong. he feels more at home now but if given the chance, he'd leave in a heartbeat. it isn't like he doesn't love all the guys because he does but he wants to be more than a hot piece of ass that they want to get off to or to be a nurse to murderers.

Preferred Weapon : N/A - he doesn't need one


| LOVE LIFE |

Love Interest : levihation / jacks
Back-Up Love Interest : --

Why should your character and love interest end up together? :
  they shouldn't. they really shouldn't, mostly because of jiahao not being stable enough mentally to handle a relationship with anyone, especially a person who is a lot of what he hates. the two would be mostly sexually attracted to one another and hate sex would dominate. jiahao would cry a lot over him and jacks might want to comfort him but not know how. they'd be the definition of dysfunctional couple and it wouldn't help jiahao's mental state and would make working as a group harder. however, somewhere in their hearts they do care for each other. jiahao loves how jacks is all that he could never be and jacks loves how nice of a person is and doesn't belong in the mafia. being that jiahao is property, he almost doesn't have choice in being with jacks and he sees it as nothing more than that because if he saw it as more it'd kill him on the inside and he can't handle anymore.

| EXTRA STUFF |


Suggested Scenes :
	jiahao opening up about his upbringing and how he's always been nothing but a true 'cum dump' for people to use. maybe he's even slept with a member other than his li or he's been with multiple because technically that's what he's there for. he probably would break down about it or be completely emotionless. another scene that'd be cool would be one where jiahao cry over his first love shufen and whoever his li comforts him and it's just pure fluff. the one member who isn't in the mafia catching the others with shady business and they're like 'we can explain, we swear'.

Album Name Suggestions :
 * new era
 * kings
 * empire
 * inferno
 * infinity
 * immortal

Song Suggestions :
 * history; queen
 * exo; lotto
 * pentagon; gorilla
 * sf9; fanfare
 * sf9; roar
 * up10tion; white night
 * up10tion; attention

Fan Base Name : kingdom

Fan Base Colors : red and black or red and gold

Anything Else? : no????

Note to Satan (me) : my creativity went completely into the bg so if the rest is trash that's why

Password : yakuza