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- Ren Dramatical Murder Re:connect Good End(s) (choice 1):
- CHOICE:
- 1) Watch the official works of “Dawning Sky”
- 2) See a new story
- 1) Watch the official works of “Dawning Sky”:
- After Platinum Jail’s Oval Tower collapsed.
- It had been have a year after thatI learned about and went to see Ren… Sei in Kyuujuuminku’s hospital.
- When I saw Ren sleeping in the hospital bed a lot of unbelievable things clouded my mind.
- He looked exactly like Sei, but if I looked carefully, his atmosphere and the color of his eyes were Ren’s and I understood immediately what had happened.
- But as I slowly came to understand that Ren had returned, I was overcome with feelings of happiness, but also the desire to bawl.
- I tried frantically to bear my emotions, and talked to Ren while holding back the urge to cry.
- A: …Welcome back.
- Since then Ren has been hospitalized for a while.
- It seems that he can’t move well in Sei’s body and while he was hospitalized he went through rehabilitation.
- At first it was just hard for him to walk and he would screw up his face in pain as he did his best.
- I encouraged him and did the best I could to help.
- He got used to rehabilitation eventually, and was soon able to walk on his own.
- I was told by his doctor that Ren’s recovery was rather fast, and if it kept going on like this he would be able to return home in just about a week’s time.
- He would still have to go through rehabilitation when he was released, but I was extremely excited just by the fact that his release date had been decided.
- A: Now, let’s go home.
- R: Yes
- The day he was released…
- While holding Ren’s hand tightly in mine, we left the hospital and walked home slowly.
- Along the way Ren looked at his legs. It seemed that to be able to walk well he had to concentrate really hard.
- Because Kyuujuuminku’s streets aren’t really pretty, empty cans, plastic bags, and large pieces of trash are everywhere.
- He was concentrating really hard to avoid those and not to step on them.
- I held his hand loosely and didn’t help him any more than I needed too.
- I think Ren appreciated that.
- It took twice as long as usual to reach home, and as we did, Ren stared up at the house as if embracing it.
- R: …
- Looking at that face, something sad rose in my chest.
- It’s been a while for Ren… and it’s the first time he’s been to the house in his newly acquired body.
- I wonder what he was feeling.
- I didn’t ask him, but instead I pushed on his back, urging him to go inside.
- After leaving the hospital and returning home, we continued to do the easiest rehabilitation we could inside the house.
- If Ren had been improving as fast as the doctor had said, then soon he would be able to move around freely and easily.
- Though while he may be able to move around easily in the house, he never missed rehabilitation.
- That way of doing things was is so like Ren; he attacked each day seriously and I helped him.
- However, even though I say he worked as hard as he could, it wasn’t good for him to pressure his body so much.
- Because of that if I wasn’t watching him an accident or something may have happened.
- Like that, the days that followed Ren returning home with me passed quickly.
- One day about a month after he was released from the hospital.
- I’m on a break from work today so I can be as relaxed as I want.
- Ren and I have a late lunch and relax in my room.
- Grandma has been out with a friend since the morning, but made breakfast and left it for us.
- For lunch I made eggplant miso.
- I had the feeling that I’d made it a little bit spicy but Ren said it was delicious and ate it for me.
- However, it’s still hard for him to use chopsticks so he ate well using a spoon.
- It seems that holding a fork or a spoon is much easier.
- After doing a slight rehabilitation on the stairs, we returned to the room.
- Now, Ren is sitting on the bed with a magazine in his lap and is alternating gripping his hands into fists.
- This, too, is rehabilitation.
- I’m sure he’s not really interested in what’s going on in the magazine.
- But, just seeing Ren “reading a magazine” is refreshing.
- It might be more real than I thought, that Ren is now living as a human.
- A: …there. Ah, I see.
- As I’m looking at the web, I decide to try to put my hair up with a hair band, but I realize what I’m doing and stop.
- A: I don’t need this today, huh.
- I place the hair band on the desk where it always is for me to use when I go out.
- Because I didn’t want people to touch my hair when it had feeling in it, I would put it up.
- I could measure how much I could touch my own hair and because of that I was able to put it up. The band isn’t rubber so it never hurt that much.
- I don’t have much feeling left in my hair any more, but my old habits still linger.
- There isn’t really any meaning, I just end up doing it.
- Well, it feels nice to have my hair off my neck so when I go out I still pull it up sometimes.
- Today is a holiday so I don’t really have to. I look back to my computer screen.
- An ad for new all-mate parts on the top of the screen catches my eyes.
- A: All-mate huh…
- I mutter and look at the coil on my wrist.
- I parted with the all-mate Ren so I added an app to my coil to make things easier for me.
- Things like maps, and things to help me clear confusion over things, mail and phone functions, things like that.
- I don’t do Rhyme anymore, so I don’t really have a need for an all-mate anymore anyway.
- It’s just annoying to have to find something else, and honestly I’m fine with my coil.
- But, the all-mate Ren was always with me, everything he did was important to me.
- Though I haven’t really thought about it much until now.
- The all-mate Ren is off, and sleeping in my room.
- He’s lying on the cushion that he always slept on so it looks just like he’s actually asleep.
- I have thought of repairing Ren so I could use him instead of the coil, but I gave up the idea.
- Because Ren is sitting on my bed reading a magazine.
- Besides, I’m still really attached to Ren’s all-mate body.
- I don’t want it to come to the point where I call him by a name other than Ren.
- It’s different now, but that machine is still “Ren”.
- Therefore, I think it’s also important to not start him up.
- I think that if I tried to talk to Ren he wouldn’t really refuse.
- It would be complicated, but he might even be happy.
- That machine is probably also important to Ren.
- I mean, really. It was the body that he had been used to for a long time.
- Ren has been able to get used to a human body, but that’s thanks to Sei. In reality, it’s not really Ren’s body.
- Because of that, he couldn’t move immediately after awakening in the hospital.
- I think that always been asleep and unmoving is a part of it too but, even so, the doctor said that he was weaker than a normal human would be.
- At the beginning he not only couldn’t use his legs and arms well, but also his voice, and it seemed like it was hard for him to talk.
- Therefore he used his voice in asking for help to eat, go to the toilet, have help walking, and a lot of other things to practice.
- Certainly it wasn’t easy but, Ren really did his absolute best so I didn’t dislike helping him.
- I also felt really happy watching Ren gain his vigor back.
- When we returned home after Ren had gotten really good at his rehabilitation, Grandma was making dinner in the kitchen.
- Beforehand I had told Grandma… I told her how Sei had given Ren his body.
- Therefore she had an idea about it, but when she saw Ren for the first time it looked like she was actually really surprised.
- A: Grandma
- T: What is it…!
- Grandma was surprised when she saw Ren and became stiff with her knife in her hand.
- A: Uhm… Well, that is
- A: You may not believe it but… We talked about it before right? This is Ren.
- T: ….
- Grandma was dumbfounded and just blinked and nodded when I asked.
- But the surprise left her face little by little and Grandma started to show an apologetic expression.
- Then she walked up to Ren and said.
- T: …Welcome home.
- R: …
- A: Grandma….
- I heard those words as though they were being said to both Ren and Sei.
- Compared to the time he was hospitalized, Ren can talk a lot better now.
- At first he had awkward expressions and moved with difficulty.
- Now that he’s able to move more freely I feel that his expressions are a lot closer to how Ren’s used to e.
- Right now Ren is also Sei but he is Ren, I mean basically it’s a little different than saying Ren is Sei.
- From the time Ren was an all-mate he was a little bit more muscly and if I remember correctly Sei was rather thin.
- The skin, hair, eyes, and voice seem like they have changed to Ren’s.
- Therefore I can clearly realize right now that he is Ren.
- Now that I think about it his height… before Ren was bigger than me, right.
- What is it now?
- A: Hey, Ren. Come here for a second.
- Ren lifts his head, buts the magazine on the bed and stands.
- R: What’s wrong, Aoba?
- Ren rubs his eyes. When I see that behavior I think, ah.
- This is a habit from when Ren was hospitalized. Recently there are times when he rubs his eyes without thinking.
- When I asked him why he does that he said he didn’t know, but that he was doing it unconsciously.
- Hearing that I somehow think… that this must have been one of Sei’s habits.
- I don’t know much about Sei.
- Therefore I don’t know if it’s true or not and there may be a chance that the habit just appeared for Ren.
- But I still feel like it must have been a habit of Sei’s.
- A: Stand straight just like that. Just like that.
- I walk up to Ren, chest to chest, and place my hand atop my head to measure our height.
- I slide my hand from my head to Ren and it meets about Ren’s lips.
- A: …This is the real world but you’re still taller than me after all.
- I say the words sulkily and Ren blinks in surprise.
- R: This is not my fault. Originally Sei was one centimeter taller than you, Aoba.
- A: This height isn’t just one centimeter~
- I rub my slanted hand against Ren’s lips who shows a troubled expression.
- Seeing that gives me satisfactions and I laugh and pat Ren’s head.
- A: Well. It doesn’t really matter, anyway.
- R: Is that so…?
- I pat Ren’s head once more cause he still looks worried, and suddenly the all-mate Ren flashes before my eyes.
- The lump of blue full that’s curled up in a ball on the cushion.
- A: When I look at him like this it really does just look like he’s sleeping.
- I walk towards the cushion and squat to look at Ren.
- Doing that suddenly makes me want to embrace him and I close my eyes to brush that head gently.
- I did this in the past a lot, huh…
- R: …Aoba.
- As I pat the all-mate’s head remembering things of the past, Ren comes to peer at me from the side.
- R: Aoba, that dog…. Saying it that way is a little strange but, is that all-mate important to you?
- A: Of coure.
- A: It’s important to me. After all this guy it you, to me. More than anything we were always together. And…
- A: He’s puffy?
- I laugh as I say the words and rub the all-mat’s body.
- In that instant Ren looks disheartened.
- R: …I’m sorry, Aoba. The me right now has no fur.
- Looking at that I feel like I’ll end up laughing.
- Because he looks just like the all-mate Ren when he’s sad and has his ears folded down.
- Unintentionally I reach out a hand to ruffle Ren’s hair.
- A: Sorry, sorry. I said something strange.
- A: Even if you don’t make that face it’s okay. I can ruffle you like this still. See?
- R: I think this is different from being puffy though.
- A: It’s okay, it’s okay. It’s puffy to me.
- R: …If Aoba says it’s all right then.
- After showing a small smile of relief, Ren suddenly drops his hand into his line of vision.
- Looking at it, he opens and closes his left hand.
- Come to think of it, he said he was having a little bit of a hard time moving his hand this morning too.
- A: How’s your hand?
- R: It still feels a little strange. However, if I do this repeatedly that feeling should go away soon.
- A: Should I take a look at it?
- I take his hand as I say the words… and come to a realization.
- What am I going to examine?
- Ren’s not an all-mate anymore.
- Therefore I have no reason to take tools out to do maintenance on him anymore.
- I understand that but when I hear that there’s something wrong with Ren’s body it’s my automatic response.
- Because it’s something I’ve always done in the past…
- Thinking that I become just a little sad.
- I notice that Ren is looked at me in silence and I drop his hand in embarrassment.
- A: Sorry, it’s a habit.
- R: No, it’s okay. I was also told by that doctor that it’s not good to move it too much.
- R: Let’s end rehabilitation here for today.
- A: Okay, then, we have to do this~
- I push my face closer to Ren’s, bumping our foreheads together.
- It’s a charm that I would do after performing maintenance on him but now it’s turned into a charm that I always do after he does rehabilitation.
- As I do this charm I breathe a secret sigh of happiness mixed with relief.
- A: …It’s an experience doing this with you all the time.
- R: What is?
- A: Knowing that you’re here. The fact that I can touch you makes me really happy.
- R: Aoba…
- I was thinking about things a little more than usual before so now it seems like I’m getting a little more sentimental than usual.
- A lot of things have happened up until now… But because those days happened we are where we are now.
- Thinking that I can’t help but bite my teeth and chew threw my happiness that Ren is here.
- A: When the tower collapsed you disappeared from inside of me, right?
- R: Yes.
- A: I was really lonely because you weren’t there. I really thought that now, everyone has left me.
- I actually haven’t had this talk once since Ren and I met again when he was hospitalized.
- Of course I was really preoccupied with his rehabilitation, but in actuality in my heart I just didn’t feel like I should tell him.
- I thought that I shouldn’t complain to Ren.
- But I feel like it’s okay to talk about it now.
- It’s not complains anymore, it’s my true feelings.
- Hearing my words Ren removes his head from mine and lowers his eyes.
- R: …I truly apologize for that time.
- R: At that time, my consciousness should have been erased. I truly thought that.
- A: Is that right?
- R: Yes. However, when I returned to the real world I heard a voice.
- R: …It was Sei’s voice.
- A: …Sei’s?
- R: Sei said, “come” and I felt him pulling at my consciousness.
- R: Then, when I realized it, I was in Sei’s body.
- A: You were called by Sei… but is it really so easy for you to enter? Entering your consciousness into someone’s body.
- R: Aoba and Sei were originally one life-form, but you were separated and born as twins.
- R: Furthermore, I was originally part of Aoba.
- R: I may have been able to enter easily because you could say that Sei was a part of Aoba once.
- R: I think that Sei must have thought of that, too.
- …When I got the call that Ren was in Kyuujuuminku’s hospital, I also got the game delivery (that princess game)
- A present from the princess who had always guided me.
- Could it be…
- that at that time, Sei’s consciousness hadn’t completely been erased?
- Maybe his scattered consciousness still remained somewhere.
- And maybe it came as something Sei wanted to tell me as parting words.
- The fact that him giving Ren his body was really the last present.
- R: When I entered Sei’s body, I felt nostalgic.
- A: Nostalgic?
- R: Yes. It was similar to when I was in Aoba’s body… I felt like I had returned to the same place in Aoba and I felt relieved.
- R: That must have been because you and Sei are twins.
- A: I see…
- R: However, there was nothing inside Sei. There was nothing left of Sei’s consciousness at all.
- R: That’s why the body that I am in now has more or less conformed and changed to who I am.
- A: …
- There was nothing inside Sei.
- Ren’s words make my heart hurt.
- I know that that’s the truth but it’s still hard to accept that Sei’s whole self has been completely erased from existence.
- Sei and I.
- We were originally one life-form and were split when it was decided we were going to live in this world.
- We couldn’t change it or fight against it. I understand that but it’s still painful.
- There isn’t any other option any more.
- Even if I think of things to do now, there’s nothing I can do anymore.
- R: This body in reality was completely different up until now. That’s why I couldn’t move after the tower collapsed.
- R: I was struggling in the rubble when I was saved by someone.
- A: Saved? By who?
- R: Those two men. They have said often that they are your fans.
- Virus and Trip…
- The two who were in Morphine, and when I realized it, it was a shock and a terrible feeling.
- …Wait.
- Virus and Trip?
- A: Was it those guys who transferred you to Midorijima hospital and looked after you?
- R: Yes. While I was hospitalized I barely opened my eyes, rather, my consciousness had fallen into a lethargic state.
- R: However, my consciousness was surfacing slowly. That’s why sometimes I could hear the two of them talking.
- I heard from the nurse that Ren had been transferred there from a foreign hospital.
- But if what Ren is saying right now is true, it would turn out that it was Virus and Trip who took him to Kyuujuuminku.
- That means, that the one who called me was…
- V: If it’s possible, could I bother you to meet with him when you are free?
- V: That’s good to hear. We will be waiting. Please do come. Until then.
- A: …I see.
- R: What is it?
- A: Nah, I just had a feeling when I received the call that it was a voice I had heard before.
- A: That call was probably from Virus. But I never thought that he would be the one to call me.
- A: ….Haaa. I can’t really understand those guys. I can’t tell if they’re my allies or enemies.
- R: They’re probably neither. They just follow their hearts and do whatever they want to do.
- A: Does that mean that they saved you on a whim?
- R: Perhaps but… At first they thought I was Sei. They must have realized halfway that I wasn’t though.
- R: “I don’t know what’s happening right now but, isn’t it more interesting for him to live than to die in vain?
- R: I remember one of them saying that.
- A: What the hell is that… Those guys, are they still scheming something?
- R: No, I didn’t hear it said with that kind of intention.
- R: I heard it as just plain curiosity.
- A: Plain curiosity, huh.
- A: …Well, it is kind of rather like them after all.
- I feel a well of complicated emotions when I think about them and I nod.
- Truthfully, I’m not happy that they came back.
- But no matter the reason it’s true that they saved Ren and I have to be honestly thankful for that.
- A: Those guys, were actually part of Morphine and a lot of other things…
- A: But because they were there, you can be energetic like this now.
- R: Yes.
- Ren pulls himself together and smiles.
- Ren gives me a smile, but his lips immediately turn down.
- A: Ren?
- R: …
- As though he’s thinking about something, he looks straight at me earnestly.
- R: I said that I still had some consciousness in this body when I was hospitalized, right?
- R: …I always, always heard Aoba’s sad voice.
- A: …!
- R: ….That, when? When you were in the foreign hospital too?
- R: Yes. Constantly since I was taken from Midorijima.
- R: Rather than hearing it with my ears, I felt Aoba’s voice echoing deep inside my head.
- …My voice, reached him. I can’t believe it.
- Of course I called for him over and over, but it’s not just that.
- I always, always thought about it when Ren wasn’t here.
- That Ren really hasn’t disappeared. That we would surely be able to meet again.
- Rather than a hope or a wish, it was more like a prayer.
- I want to see Ren.
- Maybe that thought reverberated in my heart unconsciously over and over again.
- That’s the only reason for me to think that my voice may have reached Ren.
- Thinking that Sei and I were once one being, it isn’t impossible.
- R: Really, I wanted to answer but I couldn’t do anything.
- R: I wanted to open my eyes right away, so that I could see Aoba… I couldn’t stand it.
- A: Ren…
- Ren looks at me and reaches out a hand to touch my face.
- He touches me with only his fingers tips…
- and looks away with a troubled expression.
- R: …
- …I understand.
- The reason why Ren looks away when he touches me.
- This has happened like this many times.
- Ren is hesitating.
- He’s hesitating about whether he can touch me or not.
- Because his body was once my twin brother’s body.
- Ren was led into Sei’s body by Sei himself. That’s what Sei wished for.
- Therefore Ren has no need to feel indebted to Sei in anyway.
- …Even so.
- I really understand Ren’s reasons for hesitating well.
- And I clearly recognize the being in front of me as Ren.However, at the same time…
- he’s my brother.
- Therefore we’re confused about whether it’s okay to touch under these circumstances or not.
- We both understand what we’re thinking without saying anything, so since he was released from the hospital we haven’t connected at all.
- The time I used scrap on him was the last time.
- We hold hands but we don’t do anything like kissing.
- Rather, we can’t. Even if we want to we end up thinking about it.
- About Sei.
- In reality I want to touch him. I’m sure Ren feels the same way.
- But…
- As though noticing my hesitation, Ren smiles and drops the hand he sued to touch me.
- R: I understand Aoba’s feelings. You understand my feelings as well, right?
- A: …
- R: Therefore let’s stop. In the time we hesitate it may become more probable that we will regret it.
- Ren separates from me and sits on the bed.
- I follow that movement with my eyes and think.
- …Is it really okay to stop here?
- I think that Sei really knew how Ren and I felt towards each other.
- He understood, and that’s why he gave Ren a real body.
- Both Ren and I, in this reality, wanted to touch each other.
- That’s why this was Sei’s last wish.
- Even so, is it okay to stay like this forever?
- I really want to touch Ren. I want to touch him so much it hurts.
- I’m sure that Ren feels the same way… I think.
- However, we can’t say it.
- Is it really okay to do that sort of thing to Sei’s body? Is it really okay to do that sort of thing to Sei’s body?
- I gave up after being attacked by that question many times.
- The more I think about it the more I think that it’s a bad thing…
- …But.
- But I really hate it like this after all.
- The fact that I can now touch Ren in this reality. I don’t want to give up now that that wish has come true
- There are times that I think this is just me being incredibly and terribly selfish.
- I should be satisfied with just this situation alone.
- Because Sei went this far and made this much of a miracle happen.
- If he hadn’t made this happen, then I’m sure it would have returned to the days before we went to Platinum Jail, the same never changing days.
- It should be enough that it hasn’t.
- It’s just that we’ve returned to a place in our lives that’s a little different than before, I shouldn’t be afraid to hold him.
- Even so I’m… greedy.
- I think I’m disagreeable.
- I want to touch Ren more. I want to touch Ren.
- I love Ren.
- That’s why I can’t hold back this desire. I want to hold Ren.
- Is it wrong for me to think that?
- Maybe I’ve mistaken what Sei really wanted.
- The fact that I’m thinking these things, would it actually make Sei sad?
- I feel guilty and think of that a lot.
- But, in the end I always come to the conclusion that “that’s wrong.”
- I can’t talk to Sei anymore, so maybe I’m just thinking those things on my own.
- There’s no foundation or anything. But I always end up thinking it.
- That Sei would find fault in mine and Ren’s decision.
- I still don’t know how to receive Sei’s consciousness.
- Maybe the way I’m thinking about him is wrong.
- There are a lot of worries for me. But, in the end I still want to do what I want to do.
- Because I don’t think it’s wrong for me to love Ren and to want to touch him.
- That’s why it’s surely…
- okay right?
- Sei…
- A: …Ren
- I walk to the bed and sit next to Ren.
- I touch the back of his hand softly.
- R: …Aoba?
- Ren’s eyes glitter in bewilderment as he looks at me.
- I rub the back of his hand silently and then reach a finger to touch his lips.
- Ren’s lips. But Sei’s lips.
- I want to love them no matter what.
- I don’t have any memories with Sei, and I never touched him.
- Therefore, is it strange… for me to want to also pour into Ren the feelings that I have for Sei?
- I don’t mean it in a strange way, but it may just be an excuse that I want to hold him in order to convey all my feelings.
- It may just be me conveniently thinking it but, there was a feeling born into me a little bit differently than just being sentimental.
- A: Ren. I love you.
- R: …Aoba.
- A: I love you so I want to touch you, I want to be touched by you. Is thinking that wrong?
- R: …
- Ren drops his eyes as though he’s confused about how to answer.
- This is the first time I’ve clearly relayed my feelings.
- Before this somehow the both of us have avoided the topic.
- We turned our eyes away from the problem of wanting to touch each other.
- But I want to stop that now.
- If I don’t, we’ll always be at a stand still.
- I look straight into Ren’s face.
- A: If you’re really worried about you being in Sei’s body…
- A: To me, though I may be wrong, both of those existences are important to me. Ren and Sei.
- A: But the one in front of me right now is Ren.
- I stop talking and let out a sigh full of my swelling emotions.
- A: I always, always wanted to see you. I was always waiting for the day I could meet you.
- A: Always, since you disappeared from in front of me.
- R: …
- A: Have you thought of the reason why Sei gave you his body?
- A: Surely, he gave it to you because he wished for your happiness.
- R: ….However.
- Ren scowls like he’s in pain and looks towards me.
- R: Even if you say that….. I can’t think that using Sei’s body for my own pleasure is something right.
- R: In that case I can’t stand feeling apologetic towards him.
- Desire.
- When I hear that word my heart skips a beat and starts pounding.
- Finally we’ve come to an understanding for why we’ve been hesitating.
- Both Ren and I feel like we’ll trample over Sei’s feelings with this unsightly lust.
- There are severe feelings of guilt
- But, we both want to touch each other.
- R: I fully know that Sei’s kindness to me is a miracle.
- R: That’s why, that’s exactly why… I feel like I should not use it for my selfish feelings.
- R: Besides, Aoba, you’re perplexed right?
- R: We were always separated… and now my body is your brother’s.
- A: ….That is….
- I can’t deny it.
- No matter how many times I think it over, that is like a wall standing right before me, blocking my path.
- A: But, after all these feelings… are they just my self-centeredness?
- A: Is me wanting to touch you just because of my greed…?
- R: …Aoba
- A: I know that I should just be satisfied being here with you.
- A: But in reality… I’m so close to you. Even though we’re so close that we could touch….
- I feel my throat tighten up in the middle of my words and I stop talking to swallow.
- I’m muddled about what I should say, how I should say it…
- What spills out next is a question I can’t help but ask.
- A: …What should we do?
- I’m completely complaining.
- So not cool…
- But, it’s my true feelings.
- It was my determination to talk to Ren like this, because I feel like we can’t go on like this anymore.
- Exactly because I understand Ren’s words, I’m anxious.
- Maybe it’s better to give up after all….
- If I give up, I’ll be released from this dissatisfaction, but thrown into regret.
- ….Regret.
- If we continue like this, I’ll regret it.
- I definitely think I shouldn’t give this up/
- What about Ren?
- When I look at Ren with questioning in my eyes, he shows me a complex expression and holds my hed in his arms.
- A: …!
- It’s something sudden, but I don’t move away.
- Ren’s body heat is flowing into me.
- R: I’m sorry. I didn’t intend to trouble you, Aoba.
- R: I’m extremely happy that I can be with Aoba like this in reality, and my thanks to Sei knows no bounds.
- R: But, I’m hesitating about whether it’s really okay for me to use this body as my own. And…
- R: …I also want to touch Aoba.
- R: I’m troubled that those feelings keep growing every day.
- A: Ren…
- R: I want to be able to treasure both Sei and Aoba, both of you are important to me.
- R: That’s why I feel like this is something I have to protect.
- R: Along with that, like I said before I think it’s not good to use Sei’s body for my desires, and if Aoba is troubled I think so all the more.
- Ren strokes my head slowly.
- The feeling in my hair has already disappeared so Ren’s hand right now is really comfortable.
- R: But if doing that makes Aoba sad then there is no meaning in it.
- R: Sei especially made this miracle happen, but everyone will just be sad.
- R: That conclusion… Is surely not what Sei wished for. I can say that much at least.
- A: …
- R: …That’s why, Aoba.
- Ren peers into my face. There’s no hesitation in his eyes this time.
- We’re so close that our noses could touch and his eyes are earnest.
- R: Say it once more, that you love me.
- A: …
- I swallow the feeling of my heart rising into my throat.
- Suddenly I can’t speak.
- But right now has a different meaning than before.
- I open my mouth slowly under the conviction that these words will change our circumstances.
- A: I love you, Ren.
- R: …
- Ren pulls back his lips and lets out a deep sigh.
- The hand patting my head moves to my back and he embraces me hard.
- R: I too… love you, Aoba.
- Ren burries his head into my shoulder and tells me in a voice blurred by emotion.
- R: …Aoba.
- R: I want to… Hold Aoba
- A: …
- A: ...Yeah
- I nod as the words make my heart speed up in my chest.
- Before, we were normally very far apart.
- Ren was a piece of personality inside of me, and wasn’t an existence living in reality.
- Because he had that consciousness, he was able to be in Sei’s body.
- Everything is just impossible.
- I don’t know what’s right, and in the first place I feel like our state of affairs is completely strange.
- This unbearable feeling of stumbling and fumbling can’t help but make us suffer and be conflicted.
- And from now on we will still have our troubles.
- Even so I still believe… in the feelings that we have for each other.
- I love Ren and Ren loves me.
- That’s why we can be here now.
- Even if our choice is wrong, my feelings can’t change.
- The fact that we’re choosing to continue on from here means that we’ll run into many walls and complications.
- But we have to continue on anyway.
- That’d probably fine.
- Because I decided to continue on with Ren. There’s no other path I could take.
- That might mean that I’m walking barefoot into harsh grounds. But…
- Even if the sole of my feet become bloody and my skin is torn to pieces, I don’t care.
- Because that’s the path that we chose.
- R: …
- Like I did before, Ren touches my lips softly.
- He looks at me for a little after that…
- and like the time I used scrap on him, he kisses me.
- A: N…
- While kissing with just our lips, I take Ren’s hand and press it to my chest.
- I want to show Ren how hard my heart is pounding in my chest.
- We separate from our kiss and this time Ren takes my hand to his chest.
- It’s not as much as mine, but his heart is beating pretty fast too.
- R: My feelings aren’t joint with Aoba’s like they were before.
- R: That’s why touching like this, I understood that your heart is beating fast. That makes me happy.
- Those words make me happy and I hold the hand to my chest tighter.
- A: Me too. I mean you, never really showed your face so I never knew.
- A: I never knew that your heart… was pounding this much.
- R: Yeah.
- Ren smiles softly and takes my hand to his mouth and licks my fingers.
- A: …
- Faint pleasure makes me shiver.
- Ren takes one of my fingers all the way into his mouth and then one at a time, all the way to my thumb, licks each one.
- Doing that is erotic and makes my heart pound, and his lips are emitting more heat than I would have thought.
- A: Ha…
- R: Aoba…
- Ren holds the back of my neck and kisses my nose before leading me to the bed.
- …And, even though it’s this situation, I have a question.
- A: W-wait
- R: …?
- Ren stops his movements and looks at me with worry.
- R: You don’t like it after all? If you don’t…
- A: Ah, sorry no, that’s not it…
- A: …U-uhm
- What should I do. I sudden’y wanted to say it but I don’t know how.
- Ren scowls and waits patiently for my next words.
- If he gives me that face it will be harder for me to say it…
- …But, whatever. We’ve come this far so there’s nothing to hide.
- I shake off my embarrassment and open my mouth decidedly.
- A: Uhm you know. It was like that before but… Am I always on the bottom?
- R: Bottom?
- A: Um that… what is it… I don’t really like taking what you call the woman’s role…
- A: …How should I say it… the one being thrust into?
- R: ….Oh
- R: I understand what you want to say, Aoba.
- Ren’s eyes twinkle like he’s troubled.
- R: That is, basically, you don’t like being entered?
- A: E-Entered… It’s kind of embarrassing when you say it like that
- A; But, basically? I can’t help but think about it
- This is something I realized about myself a while ago but…
- Do I have a stronger sense of virtue than most people?
- Like have I been spoiled in the sense of ethics.
- In the past I never thought that being on either end really mattered, but I never thought that I suited the role for being on bottom.
- I participated but I always thought that males liking each other was rather normal.
- I always saw that kind of thing so I guess I got used to it sort of…
- I never really thought about it so deeply before but since it’s happening to me now I guess I kind of should…
- R: If that’s the care then today I will be what Aoba calls “the bottom”
- A: Eh? Really…!?
- R: Yes
- It surprises me and he says it with his normal expression so It makes me a little nervous.
- Does this guy really understand what he’s saying.
- He’s not saying it despite the fact he doesn’t know much about it right…
- While I wallow in my anxiety Ren lays down on the bed.
- S-somehow, is this flow really okay?
- I somehow manage to get myself to climb on top of Ren and look down at him from above.
- The bed creaks holding both our weight.
- A: Then… here I go
- R: Yes
- I jerkily lower my head to Ren’s body.
- First I’ll see what happens when I kiss his neck lightly.
- A: …
- I stroke his abdomen with a sweaty hand and Ren squirms a little.
- R: Ha…
- That sigh spurs my whole body into action, sparking my nerves.
- I lick Ren’s lips and then lick a trail from his neck to his chest.
- As I do so, it becomes hard to breathe and I feel the tension in the room growing.
- My heart is beating a lot.
- I wonder what it is. The fact that I’m doing this myself is making me rather nervous but that’s wrong too.
- I wonder what it is… maybe it’s something like I can’t believe this is really happening.
- Will Ren feel good like this? Is it okay?
- I start thinking a lot of things like that and the pressure starts to build.
- Is it cause I’m falling into the mood? Or is it because Ren is my partner?
- I don’t really understand the reason but I understand that I’m awkward.
- It’s not really my first time but what is this…
- R: …Aoba
- A: …N?
- Just when I think to continue, Ren reaches out a hand to me head.
- He doesn’t feel it after all…
- I become anxious and look into Ren’s eyes.
- A: It doesn’t feel so good?
- R: …No, that’s not it but
- Ren gives a troubled smile… And suddenly grabs my arm. (that didn’t last long /cries forever)
- A: Uwa!!
- My body is flipped over, and in a blink of an eye our positions have changed.
- In front of me, I’m looking up into Ren’s face.
- A: Ren…!?
- Ren looks incredibly apologetic and I think something is wrong.
- Like he’s holding onto some weight of eagerness…
- R: I’m sorry, Aoba. It’s not that it doesn’t feel good… I just impulsively did this.
- R: It seems like Aoba’s actions stirred me up.
- Eh, that means…
- A: You became horny?
- R: …
- R: …I don’t know if that’s the right way of speaking, but probably
- A: …
- Ren’s, horny?
- I stare blankly for a second and then become incredibly happy.
- Ren has always been cool and composed but I guess there are times in situations like this where a fire lights inside of him and he shows a forcible expression.
- But it seems like this isn’t something Ren was expecting and I get the feeling he doesn’t really know what to do.
- I can’t help but think he looks cute, and I’m happy.
- The trial for me to be top failed but I can’t help but think it’s okay when I look at Ren charging forward like this.
- …And in some point of time while I was thinking this Ren started kissing me and is lifting up my shirt.
- One hand brushes gently across my chest and the other starts to unbuckle my belt.
- Ren pulls my shirt over my head and kisses my body and then he puts one hand on top of my underwear.
- A: …? …
- The second Ren’s hand touches me I shudder.
- But more than that I’m interested in Ren’s actions as being on the bottom now.
- A: Ren…?
- What’s he going to do?
- Ren answers with just a gaze and leans down as he spreads my thighs.
- He lowers his head a little to where he’s holding my cock in his hand.
- Eh…?
- Wait, seriously…!
- A: Ren…!
- R: Please, just stay like that
- A: But… ah!
- As soon as I think to move my body to escape, in front of me Ren takes my tip into his mouth.
- First he licks the tip gently and then he takes the rest deep into his mouth little by little
- A: U, wa…!
- Before I realize it my breathing stops and shocks shiver through my veins.
- It sounds like my voice is melting and I cover my mouth with one hand.
- R: …fu…
- A: …
- I become enveloped in warm wetness and my lower body aches sweetly.
- What should I do, this kind of thing…
- Suddenly I start to panic and my mind goes all white.
- I become extremely embarrassed by the wet sounds coming from Ren.
- That Ren is licking my…
- But, I never thought I would dislike it or that it would be impossible.
- I’m extremely surprised and embarrassed but it’s the truth that I actually wanted Ren to do something like this to me…
- Therefore, I don’t think I want to stop Ren from doing this to me…
- A: Ah….
- R: …n…
- Ren swallows me deeply and licks me with a flicking tongue, and he starts to move, drawing my length through his mouth.
- A: Ha, Ren…
- I grab Ren’s hair and pull lightly and Ren stops moving to look at me.
- More than usual those eyes have an urgent heat reflecting in them and it makes my heart skip a beat.
- R: Does it feel good Aoba?
- A: Don’t ask that kind of thing…
- R: It’s important.
- A: …
- A: ..It feels good, if it didn’t I wouldn’t be like this…
- R: I see
- Ren beams a relieved smile and returns to lick me once again.
- Just now was too embarrassing…
- But Ren is working hard to please me. This is the first time doing this…
- Thinking that, my emotions rise again.
- Ren doesn’t really know how to do it so he’s a little awkward.
- Sometimes I can feel his pointy teeth pricking me. But I don’t dislike it.
- I’m fine even if it hurts and I wonder if I’m some kind of masochist…
- R: Ha…
- Ren removes me from his mouth and turns his head to lick my length.
- I open my closed eyes and look down, meeting Ren’s.
- My heart leaps and I close my eyes in a fluster.
- R: …
- Me looking like that is funny, isn’t it. He breathes a sigh on me there.
- After that he takes me deep into his mouth again.
- While licking me adoringly he starts to stroke me at the base.
- The sound of wetness starts to become louder and the throbbing in my lower body becomes more intense.
- A: Ah fu ku… ah…
- A: …fu…
- Sometimes Ren slurps up his saliva mixed with the fluid dripping from my tip.
- My cock is straining hard and sometimes I can’t help but jerk my hips to his movements.
- The fluid that Ren doesn’t slurp up drips down my length.
- Ren pulls my legs all the way out of my pants and underwear.
- He hesitates a little but I don’t think he wants to stop there…
- When I raise my legs on my own he pulls them out from under me and throws them to the side.
- Ren scoops up a little liquid dripping from my tip and smears it across my ass.
- A: …
- His fingers knead into me there and a little forcibly, he enters me.
- But, he’s licking me still so I don’t really feel any uncomfortableness or pain.
- A: N a… ha…u…
- His finger enters and exits me as he sucks on me and gradually the pleasure becomes unbearable.
- The pleasure is spreading through my body and I don’t feel like I can contain myself anymore.
- A: Ren… soon…ha….
- R: …
- I’m brought close to the edge by Ren.
- Ren just looks at me silently and starts moving his head and hand more than before.
- At some point the movement of his fingers inside of me has become smooth and he’s moving them violently inside of me.
- A: Ren…!? U ah.. idiot, let g-…!
- At this rate, inside his mouth…!
- I screw my body this way and that but Ren won’t let me go.
- A: …Ah…Aa…!!
- I grab Ren’s hair thinking to stop him but instead I end up coming immediately.
- In the end… I ended up coming in his mouth.
- A: …Idiot…
- Flustered I pull my hips back as I become exhausted in the after effects of coming.
- Even if I do that it’s already too late, and clear liquid stretches between my cock and Ren’s mouth as I pull away.
- Ren’s throat bobs and he licks his lower lip.
- A: Ren, uhm…Did you swallow…?
- R: Yeah
- A: …What the hell are you doing…
- Feeling guilty and sorry and in distress I grab Ren’s face with both of my hands.
- Nothing’s started and he suddenly swallowed…
- No, it’s not like I’m unhappy, and I’m incredibly happy that he went that far for me but…
- It’s okay to spit out a little at least and I rub his libs with my thumb.
- Then he grabs my arm and kisses my wrist.
- A: W- Ren… fu
- Ren kisses me with an open mouth as though he wants to attack something and entangles his tongue ferociously with mine.
- Ren’s intense excitement is transferred to me in that kiss.
- R: N….
- That weird and bitter taste is… Mine, I guess.
- I’m licking my own…
- but whatever.
- Ren continues indulging himself fin the kiss but it becomes hard for me to breathe so I pull away.
- Acting a little spoiled, he rests his forehead on my shoulder.
- R: ….I want to be inside of Aoba.
- A: ….
- He mutters the words in a hot breath and an intense feeling makes me jolt.
- That voice is filled with extreme passion that Ren has never had before.
- Ren’s frankness touches me and I’m happy that I get to learn a little bit about Ren like this.
- Ren takes my hips in his hands like he’s going to change our position.
- I take off my shirt and instead of answering I turn myself face down into the bed.
- I pull my hips close and raise my ass high into the air.
- …This position is a little bit embarrassing.
- R: Aoba…
- Ren, too, takes off all of his clothes and positions himself over me.
- He kisses my back many times and places a large hotness in the spot where his fingers once were.
- A: U n……
- Ren enters me slowly.
- It’s… painful after all. It’s different than being spread by his fingers.
- R: Are you okay, Aoba?
- Ren wraps his arm around me and strokes my chest like he’s worried.
- A: ….
- I sigh and nod.
- It’s painful but not so much that I can’t bear it.
- R: If it’s that painful then maybe it’s better to stop…
- A: …
- I don’t want to stop. I think that immediately.
- A: It’s fine so… don’t stop…
- I say the words as I gasp for air.
- Even if it hurts or is painful I don’t want him to stop.
- I want to go forward with Ren.
- Because of that we made it here together like this.
- It doesn’t matter even if my body hurts.
- Because I’m happy right now.
- A: All the way, properly…
- R: Aoba…
- Ren kisses my back again and carefully presses into me.
- Because I just came I’m completely flat again and, realizing that, Ren starts kneading me with one hand.
- A: N…
- It feels like it tickles a little and a sweet sound comes out of me.
- I breathe shallowly and wait for Ren to come all the way into me.
- R: …
- Ren breathes a deep sigh into my neck and stops moving.
- The place where we’re connected is completely spread and I feel like I can hear a creaking sound.
- But I can also feel Ren’s stomach glued tightly to my back.
- This is actually the first time that Ren’s had a real body...
- and it’s Sei’s.
- That thought flickers in the corner of my mind.
- Truthfully speaking there’s no way that that matter could completely disappear from my concern.
- But right now touching Ren feels really good.
- Of course the place where Ren entered hurts but, the fact that I can touch Ren in reality makes me happy and puts me at ease.
- This is Ren’s heat, and the feel of Ren’s skin.
- The feeling that I imagined over and over again is actually here in reality right now.
- …What about Ren.
- I wonder if he feels good touching me.
- Once before we shared a feeling like this but there’s no way that kind of thing could happen in reality.
- That’s why I wonder how Ren feels now that he has a real body.
- A: Re…..!?
- When I think to ask that Ren suddenly pounds into me.
- He thrusts into me, holding me around the middle with one arm.
- A: A m ha…! R-Ren…!?
- R: …Haa…Aoba…
- I feel his warm breath and a little bit of wetness from his tongue on my ear.
- Ren takes my earlobe into his mouth and I shrug my shoulders when it tickles.
- Surely, Ren feels good too.
- Even if we don’t say it, and we can’t share our feelings silently anymore, I know.
- If not, Ren’s body wouldn’t be this hot.
- I strain myself so I can turn my head back a little and reach back one arm to grab Ren’s head so I can kiss him.
- A: U mu…
- R: Fu….
- Ren moves hotly and entangles our tongues, sucks my lips, and nips at me.
- While I receive that, a sweet pleasure gradually rises up inside of me from him thrusting into me.
- As Ren continues to move inside of me I’m attacked by goosebumps.
- A: Aa…ku ha…
- R: …Aoba…
- He suddenly thrusts into me hard and before I realize it I’ve broken our iss to gasp.
- Has Ren… figured out the place where I responded from before?
- As if he’s confident in that place, he pounds into it over and over again.
- A: Ha… Ah n…
- While thrusting into me Ren holds my now hot cock in his hand and starts to stroke it.
- R: …Haa….
- A: U ah… Aa…i…
- I close my eyes and concentrate on the place where Ren is spreading me wide.
- I’m feeling it so much it’s hard to breathe and tears prick the corners of my eyes.
- A: Haa Ah… Fu ah….
- I’m covered in sweat and suddenly Ren stops moving.
- A: …?
- I was pushed to the edge and now I feel like I’m waking up from a dream as I turn to look back at Ren.
- Ren breathes hotly against my neck and presses his forehead against my neck.
- R: …I want to properly see Aoba’s face. The face of you feeling me.
- Muttering that, he grabs my shoulders.
- R: Is it okay?
- A: That’s…
- R: If you don’t want it, Aoba, I won’t force it.
- A: …
- If he whispers it in such a sad voice like that… I can’t say that I don’t want it.
- Basically he wants to change positions so he can see my face.
- Letting him see my face while I’m feeling this is a little…
- But I shouldn’t feel embarrassed to show my face now.
- We’ve come this far so…
- A: …
- In resignation I start to turn myself over slowly so that Ren doesn’t come out from inside of me.
- When I finally look at Ren’s face again, his face is flushed and his eyes are wet.
- A: Ren…
- I hug Ren who’s looming over me tightly with both arms and place a kiss on his cheek.
- Ren licks me in an answer and starts moving again.
- R: Aoba…
- A: Fu…… ah…
- It’s different from before, him penetrating me from the front.
- Letting him see my face is embarrassing but right in front of me is Ren’s feverish face…
- Seeing that as I embrace him is an extreme turn on.
- A: Ren… fu ah…
- A: …
- While staring straight into my face Ren picks up his pace.
- I chew on Ren’s lips without realizing it as intensifying pleasure creeps up on me.
- I seriously feel like my face is about to burst into flame.
- But Ren said he wanted to see if so I don’t want to hide it from him.
- My fully hard cock nudges Ren’s stomach and our movements put more and more pressure on it.
- This may be weird to say… But I feel more connected now than when we did it when I used scrap on him.
- Two people have become one. That’s how I feel.
- A: A u… Ku ah…!
- With Ren’s movements my body slides back and forth against the sheets.
- I wrap both arms around Ren’s back so at the same time I can feel Ren deep inside of me.
- A: Haa ah…! Fu… ah
- R: …ha…
- I suddenly feel a large wave spreading inside of me as Ren pounds into me and my whole body is enveloped in numbing pleasure. I’m close to my limit.
- I want to convey that to Ren so I hold him tight and dig my nails into his shoulders.
- In that heat, Ren licks my nose.
- A: Ren, ah… ah u… a…already…
- R: Ah… haa…
- I hug Ren’s head hard and hold myself ready as a huge wave overcomes me.
- A: …Ah..!! Ah…!
- He’s thrusting so deeply inside of me…
- A: …Ua Aaa…!!
- I curve as though I’m releasing myself from holding back that large wave of pleasure.
- R: …
- At nearly the same time as I cum Ren thrusts hard inside of me.
- He holds his breath, holding me so tight it hurts…
- R: U……!
- It seems like Ren came too. I can feel fluid flowing into me.
- A: Haa…haa…
- I fix my breathing by taking deep breaths, and while gasping Ren looks into my eyes.
- R: Ha…..Aoba
- Looking at that face with narrowed eyes I feel like it’s more defenseless like usual and I hug his head in my arms.
- A: Ha…
- A deep sigh spills from my lips.
- Finally, I was connected to Ren.
- Thinking that a strange feeling swells in my heart.
- It feels like we’ve climbed over something… But there still is a little bit of guilt and bitterness mixed with relief.
- I can’t say it’s a great feeling.
- But, that feeling is unbearably dear.
- I think that we finally have come this far.
- R: …
- Ren has been holding me quietly for a while.
- I feel that Ren surely has the same thoughts as me.
- After staying still for a little bit Ren rubs his nose into the hair that’s splayed over my neck.
- R: I can smell Aoba’s scent.
- A: Well of course. Even you have your own scent.
- I press my nose to Ren’s hair and take a deep breath.
- R: What kind of smell?
- A: Hmm… A somehow kind smell?
- R: A kind smell, huh. I can’t imagine it.
- Ren’s body shakes a little has he laughs.
- But I can really smell a kind scent from Ren.
- It’s what you would call a smell that’s close to the sun. A nostalgic, warm scent.
- This scent…
- I feel like I’ve smelled this scent before.
- I have a feeling that Ren smelled like this when he was an all-mate, though I never really paid attention to it.
- But right now Ren’s body is Sei’s.
- Even so he has the same scent as before so I can’t help but think that this is Ren’s scent.
- That makes me feel happy and strange at the same time and I take a deep breath of Ren’s hair.
- R: Aoba, that tickles.
- A: Sorry
- I lift my face from being buried in Ren’s hair and press my forehead against his to stare into his eyes.
- This is always the charm we do after rehabilitation so Ren shows a strange expression.
- R: Aoba?
- A: Because we’ll always be together.
- R: …!
- That’s… my true wish and my pledge to Ren.
- That time when I used scrap we exchanged these words as well.
- But the nuance at that time was a little different.
- It meant that even if we couldn’t hold each other again, I would still have Ren in my heart.
- It’s different now.
- Ren is here, and we’ll be together tomorrow and the day after.
- Of course not only good things will happen and there are still things that we will worry about and that will trouble us.
- Even so I decided that I would be with Ren.
- That’s why I vow it once again.
- I do it with this special ceremony that we’ve done since he was an all-mate.
- And I speak the following words.
- The words that we have always said, mine and Ren’s.
- A: Thank you, always.
- Ren smiles softly as an answer to that.
- R: Same here.
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