Conversation with Hazim

6:49 PM - NIXON: I mean, oop
Thursday, February 22, 2018
9:35 PM - Hazahar: no
9:35 PM - NIXON: Bye
9:35 PM - NIXON: I kinda had a disccussion with my dad about the real world and relidion
9:35 PM - NIXON: religion*
9:36 PM - NIXON: He figured out that I was atheist
9:36 PM - NIXON: To make my situation not so severe, I said I was agnostic
9:36 PM - NIXON: semi0agnostic
9:36 PM - NIXON: Do you know what Dawa is?
9:37 PM - NIXON: It's a subject of Islamic Culture in my uni
9:37 PM - NIXON: Invitation
9:38 PM - NIXON: Dad believes that my reason for "blasphemy" is enrolling in that subject this semester
9:39 PM - NIXON: Passively tried to enlighten him with small bits on knowledge on Islam and the Sunnah
9:39 PM - NIXON: My dad has his own beliefs of religion
9:40 PM - NIXON: He is also semi-atheistic
9:40 PM - NIXON: He believes in spirituality heavily and less on deities and godly beings
9:40 PM - NIXON: spirituality and religion are different?
9:43 PM - Hazahar is now Away.
9:43 PM - NIXON: Because he is firm on his belief on spirituality, he refuted any sort of information that I said
9:44 PM - NIXON: Since everyone in my familly agree that he is a strong hypocrite, he now believes that I am a "divergent"
9:44 PM - NIXON: Basically, in his eyes, i am recognised as someone who has very different beliefs from him
9:44 PM - NIXON: which he obviously doesn't like
9:45 PM - NIXON: Most likely, he's close to completely hating me
9:45 PM - NIXON: but he can't because I know that he is bound by his morals of being a parent
9:46 PM - Hazahar is now Online.
9:46 PM - Hazahar: youve never gotten a beating?
9:46 PM - NIXON: He once bent an umbrella....
9:46 PM - NIXON: on me*
9:47 PM - Hazahar: broken a belt, spoon, thrown  a phone
9:47 PM - Hazahar: uhhhh
9:47 PM - Hazahar: undo
9:48 PM - Hazahar: thrown a open container of raisins
9:48 PM - Hazahar: for vomiting when i was sick
9:48 PM - Hazahar: in an empty sink
9:48 PM - Hazahar: i had diarrhea then\
9:49 PM - Hazahar: it was closed
9:49 PM - Hazahar: it broke open
9:50 PM - Hazahar: during the throw
9:50 PM - Hazahar: i had to colllect the raisins on the ground
9:50 PM - Hazahar: and throw them away
9:50 PM - Hazahar: continuous shouting from mom
9:50 PM - Hazahar: swole
9:50 PM - Hazahar: from all the beatings
9:50 PM - Hazahar: ez
9:51 PM - Hazahar: 10th
9:51 PM - Hazahar: or 11th
9:52 PM - Hazahar: remember why i say i need to be home by 9
9:52 PM - Hazahar: always
9:52 PM - NIXON: WHen was the last time she beat you up?
9:53 PM - NIXON: 13
9:56 PM - Hazahar: when i was 7?
9:56 PM - Hazahar: wooden spoon
9:56 PM - Hazahar: hit so hard it broke
9:56 PM - Hazahar: wait
9:56 PM - Hazahar: thrown to me before that
9:56 PM - Hazahar: broke,
9:56 PM - Hazahar: GRABS A STEEL SPOON
9:56 PM - Hazahar: :(
9:57 PM - Hazahar: why do you think im so well behaved
9:57 PM - NIXON: *OMAE WA MOU SHINDEIRU*
9:57 PM - Hazahar: okay how about
9:58 PM - Hazahar: throwing out all the clohtes from our almairah
9:58 PM - Hazahar: and throwing the ps4 on the floor
9:59 PM - Hazahar: i came from school
9:59 PM - Hazahar: had to arrange
9:59 PM - Hazahar: arranged
9:59 PM - Hazahar: mom threw down everything again
9:59 PM - Hazahar: :(
9:59 PM - Hazahar: i said malaysia
10:00 PM - Hazahar: for dentistry
10:00 PM - Hazahar: 58k/yr
10:00 PM - Hazahar: but nonononononno
10:00 PM - Hazahar: haffy stenden 58k
10:00 PM - Hazahar: np
10:00 PM - Hazahar: for me full shouting
10:00 PM - Hazahar: for haffy OK BRROOO NP
10:00 PM - NIXON: International Business yes?
10:00 PM - Hazahar: for a business prog
10:00 PM - Hazahar: :|
10:00 PM - Hazahar: the price of a car
10:00 PM - Hazahar: 6k
10:01 PM - Hazahar: but renting a car for  900/month?
10:01 PM - Hazahar: NONONONONNONON
10:01 PM - Hazahar: fees per sem, 10k
10:01 PM - Hazahar: taxi fees / sem 12k
10:01 PM - Hazahar: ok
10:01 PM - Hazahar: car 20k
10:01 PM - Hazahar: NONOONONONONONONONO
10:01 PM - NIXON: Atleast my mom still loves me
10:02 PM - Hazahar: exactly man
10:02 PM - Hazahar: you john moiz kev all lucky
10:02 PM - Hazahar: mohd okok suffering but now np cuz he earinig
10:02 PM - Hazahar: me de
10:02 PM - Hazahar: d
10:04 PM - NIXON: Remember that time I asked about remedial methods for suicide?
10:04 PM - Hazahar: yuh
10:04 PM - NIXON: Yeah, now I understand youo
10:04 PM - Hazahar: i already was well informed
10:04 PM - Hazahar: this made me a bettter person
10:04 PM - Hazahar: but almost made me keep this shell inside me
10:05 PM - Hazahar: like i have almost 3 or 4 "faces"
10:05 PM - Hazahar: one for fam
10:05 PM - Hazahar: one for friends
10:05 PM - Hazahar: one for new people that i meet
10:05 PM - Hazahar: one for myself
10:05 PM - Hazahar: aint that what the japanese saying says
10:12 PM - Hazahar: the memes save me erredaie
10:14 PM - Hazahar: remember that day i came to school and you saw a belt mark
10:14 PM - Hazahar: was it you or?
10:14 PM - Hazahar: i showed o=someone
10:14 PM - Hazahar: 7th or 10th
10:14 PM - Hazahar: 9th
10:16 PM - Hazahar: when you were 13 it was 8th or 7th?
10:19 PM - NIXON: Have you had a near death experience?
10:19 PM - Hazahar: no
10:20 PM - Hazahar: but my bp did go really frikcing high
10:24 PM - Hazahar: your sister was boutta kill me
10:24 PM - Hazahar: cuz my dad was waiting for 30mins after svchool
10:24 PM - Hazahar: and i said i had your bag
10:24 PM - Hazahar: i was searching for 30min
10:24 PM - Hazahar: for you
10:25 PM - Hazahar: and your sister came
10:25 PM - Hazahar: and was like what are you doing
10:27 PM - Hazahar: my dad was chill
10:27 PM - Hazahar: but when he told mom
10:27 PM - Hazahar: boi oh boiu
10:28 PM - Hazahar: she forced him to get out of the house
10:29 PM - Hazahar: she called the neighbour to loook for him
10:29 PM - Hazahar: that was like 20mins later
10:29 PM - Hazahar: i mean
10:29 PM - Hazahar: FORCED
10:29 PM - Hazahar: one of many dawg
10:30 PM - Hazahar: this was before i got laptop btw
10:30 PM - Hazahar: ccuz then we had to share ps4
10:30 PM - Hazahar: so i didnt get turn
10:30 PM - Hazahar: and well 1 tv
10:30 PM - Hazahar: mom didnt watch tv for 2 days
10:30 PM - Hazahar: i was like lemme play?
10:30 PM - Hazahar: o
10:30 PM - Hazahar: mom he not done playing
10:31 PM - Hazahar: "i didnt get tv because of yall"
10:31 PM - Hazahar: she broke our old tv
10:31 PM - Hazahar: she threw the remote at the tv
10:31 PM - Hazahar: she broke a 42"1080p tv
10:32 PM - Hazahar: when i came home limping
10:33 PM - Hazahar: :)))))
10:33 PM - Hazahar: cuz I WENT PLAYING ON A SCHOOL DAY
10:33 PM - Hazahar: :))))))))))))0
10:33 PM - Hazahar: september end, on a tuesday
10:33 PM - Hazahar: wasnt a holiday
10:33 PM - Hazahar: "why you skipped school for that"
10:35 PM - Hazahar: im tryna change topic from the cheese
10:35 PM - Hazahar: i ate it the wrong way??
10:35 PM - Hazahar: its not supposed to be bitten
10:35 PM - Hazahar: the circle
10:35 PM - Hazahar: or the stick
10:35 PM - Hazahar: red?
10:36 PM - Hazahar: hated cuz it made my breath stink
10:36 PM - Hazahar: STANK*
10:38 PM - NIXON: I used to get yelled at because I took my trash home
10:38 PM - NIXON: From school to home
10:38 PM - NIXON: I didn't like to litter
10:39 PM - Hazahar: you know why i put trash where trash supposed to be
10:39 PM - Hazahar: and why my room spotless
10:39 PM - Hazahar: not my room obv
10:47 PM - Hazahar: he didnt leave
10:47 PM - Hazahar: he was
10:47 PM - Hazahar: THROWN
10:47 PM - Hazahar: BOI
10:47 PM - Hazahar: from the arm
10:48 PM - Hazahar: thats financial mater
10:49 PM - Hazahar: matter*
10:49 PM - Hazahar: she has 3 hairdryers btw
10:49 PM - Hazahar: right now
10:49 PM - Hazahar: last wek she got another one
10:50 PM - NIXON: I feel free
10:51 PM - NIXON: I got nothing to hide
10:51 PM - NIXON: My identity is out
10:51 PM - NIXON: in the air
10:51 PM - Hazahar: can you imagine me telling mom i am still like ? bout religion
10:52 PM - Hazahar: im like in between science and religion
10:52 PM - Hazahar: there are things in science, relgion has already known
10:52 PM - Hazahar: like in quran its been mentioned so many times
10:52 PM - Hazahar: and science recently discovers that matter
10:53 PM - Hazahar: and then there are facts where religion cant answer
10:53 PM - Hazahar: after death
10:53 PM - Hazahar: spirits
10:53 PM - Hazahar: blessings
10:53 PM - Hazahar: miracles
10:53 PM - Hazahar: evil eye
10:53 PM - Hazahar: voodoo
10:54 PM - Hazahar: science cant answer devilish shit
10:55 PM - Hazahar: explaining extinction of almost 100s of species of dinosaurs
10:55 PM - Hazahar: when the "meteor"mightve only hit one place
11:00 PM - NIXON: I wasn't given the chance to tell my dad that I would adhere to a religion if it gives me suitable answers to all my questions. I was not presented that opportunity to say that because I kept getting interupted because he refused to accept his progeny being defiant. He has set in his mind now that I will forever remain a non-believer, which is wrong
11:01 PM - NIXON: If I find something that satisfies my queries, the natural and logical thing to do is to believe in that religion or ideology
11:03 PM - Hazahar is now Online.
11:04 PM - Hazahar: still here