Im nervous to be so shitty

Covet: Felix was upstairs laying on the mat doing some sit up because that was kind of a lazy exercise He laid flat out on his back and just drummed his fingers on the mat beneath himself. Then he looked over trying to reach his waterbottle but it was just out of his range.
Alexithymiaa: -Steph was running on the treadmill with her headphones in, just sort of lost in her own thoughts and running mindlessly. She couldn't stop thinking about their show on Thursday and the little drama stunt they'd arranged per the labels request and was overall just nervous about the whole thing. Trying to regulate her breathing, she kept a good pace, but she wasnt nearly as good at long term running as she used to be.-
Covet: Felix wiggled a little bit over to the water bottle and then finally grabbed it to take a drink out of it. Polishing it off he tossed it towards Steph, aiming for her back with the empty bottle.
Alexithymiaa: -She jumped when she felt the sudden bottle hit her back, losing her footing and stumbling a bit. She reached out for the handles of the treadmill to keep herself from falling, eventuaally getting her feet on the outer sides of the frame and yanking her earbuds out of her ears to whirl around and look at him. "What the hell, Arizona?"-
Covet: "Sorry, I didn't mean to fuck you up, but it's time to take a break. Come sit down and stretch it out." He told her and patted the spot on the mat in front of him, as he sat up and sat with his legs criscrossed.
Alexithymiaa: "I only have a little further to go." She said, dismissing his request to abandon cardio and dropping back down onto the speeding belt, going back into running. "There's half a mile left on my counter."-
Covet: "And you sound like you only have about an eighth of a mile left in you. You don't need the extra half mile." Felix said flatly "Not to mention you're supposed to listen to me when doing this, remember your brother left me in charge in order for you to even be working out right now, Missy." He said throwing that weight around.
Alexithymiaa: -Knowing he was going to throw that one in there eventually, she sighed and pushed the off button on the treadmill, walking on it until it stopped so she could step off. "You know, you don't have to follow everything he says to a T. I'm doing just fine." She walked over to the mat, taking a seat down in front of him and crossing her legs so she could lean forward and stretch.-
Covet: "Just because you like to test your brother's limits, doesn't mean I'm going to. I test it enough in other ways, besides, I'm kind of in agreeance with him, with valid reasoning. So deal with it." Felix said with a shrug. "You ready for the show on Thursday?"
Alexithymiaa: -She knew she didnt have to like it, but nothing was going to change so she just dropped the topic altogether. "No." She spoke shortly, shifting up onto her knees and then to her feet so she could lean forward with her hands on the floor in a downward dog stretch. "I don't even know if we should play. I already have a tickle in my throat and I think I'm getting sick and what if I lose my voice right before we go on and it's too late to cancel?"-
Covet: "I'm thinking that little tickle might just be that you need some water. Make sure to hydrate over the next couple of days though, and get some vitamin C in you." Felix told her as he watched her. " What's got you so nervous?" He asked her.
Alexithymiaa: "But what if it's not?" She asked, lowering herself back down to the floor. "I always get nervous before shows, but this is different. I've always been able to curb that by preparing every second of our performance and making sure to stick to my routine, but this show we're doing something kind of assholey per the label's request and it opens the show up to a lot of improv and I hate that."-
Covet: "What are you supposed to be doing?" Felix asked raising an eyebrow. "Assholery is like your second hobby, how is this going to be such an issue, it should come natrually."
Alexithymiaa: "We're previewing one of the new songs on the album that Kristen and I wrote about Josh. And we're sort of calling him out on his shit in the process, but I don't know what he's going to do or how he's going to react. Don't get me wrong, I'm all about calling people out on their shit, but in front of a huge audience? It's shitty on top of the fact that we can't properly prepare for what's going to happen." She paused, straddle her legs aand leaaning forward to grab the arches of her feet. "What if the audience like... attacks him?"-
Covet: "Why would Josh be there?" Felix asked confused if Kristen was done with him. "If they attack him.. well that's kind of on him for being a douche monkey. I think it's pretty shitty on your labels part to force you guys to do this thing, when your music should be able to speak for it's self without the drama. Look how many bands out there don't have drama and are still successful.
Alexithymiaa: "Well... he's still a sound tech and works backstage. That's how she met him in the first place." Releasing her feet, she eased back, staring at him. "They're not forcing us to do this specific thing, we came up with this when we were making out setlist. Or Kristen did and we all kind of just went along with it. The label just wanted us to do something to drum up attention for ourselves before the album is released. Last time that meant doing something to go viral."-
Covet: "Oh, got you." Felix said with a nod, "Well then hopefully he's back stage and they have no idea who he is." He shrugged then raised an eyebrow, "You guys... couldn't do something like.. totally surprising and benefitial to the fans? Like...donating some money, or something?"
Alexithymiaa: -She frowned, knowing what they had intended to do and how that would prevent him from staying backstage away from the crowd, but chose not to tell Felix because she just felt shitty about it. "We don't really have the money to donate on that sort of scale to make an impact that will draw attention."-
Covet: Well, I guess I hope this works out for you. I knew you guys were doing the song, I just didn't realize you were going to make some big paparazzi story with it. But I guess if the label wants Viral... this would be the way to go about it. People eat this shit up."
Alexithymiaa: "Yeah...." She trailed off, blowing out a deep breath and twisting her torso to one side, stretching out her back. "I just don't know if I'll be able to stay in character with so much going on in my head. Which will make it even worse. I kind of want to throw up just thinking about it."-
Covet: "Do you have to be a part of it? Especially if it's goign to stress you out like this?" Felix asked her. "Cause I mean, I think if someone in the band isn't comfortable with doing things like this it should be a band vote kind of thing.
Alexithymiaa: "I kind of do. I essentially run the shows being the front woman. It's unavoidable." She pushed her bangs out of her face, reaching out for his hands so he could pull her and help her stretch. "We didnt vote, but she asked if anyone had any issues doing it and I felt bad because I know she needs this closure so I didn't say no.."-
Covet: "I just think it's a little shitty. She should get her closure on her own time, not at the expense of everyone else." Felix said. "But... at the same time I'm kind of curious to see how Josh handles it. That part at the very least should be amusing."
Alexithymiaa: "I don't think I would use the word curious, but yeah. Hopefully he just sees he was an asshole and accepts his fate." She paused, easing up on her stretching. "Maybe we should have security on standby just in case though."-
Covet: "For his protection at the very least." Felix said. "Well I can't just full out say that I'm excited, because that sounds like a dick thing to say. Curious makes it less dickish."
Alexithymiaa: -She started to laugh, shifting on her knees to lean forward and push him backwards onto his back on the floor. "Yes, saying you're excited definitely is a dick thing to say, but you just blew your cover, Arizona."-
Covet: "Okay but he was kind of a dick to her, so I like seeing when guys get what's coming to them for being dicks to the best things in their lives." Felix said scoffing as he fell back.
Alexithymiaa: -She rested her hands on his chest to hold him pinned to the floor, raising her brows. "And what about women who are dicks to the best things in their lives?"-
Covet: "Well I think by this point they've kind of earned that right. I mean.. how long have men been dicks... and continue to be dicks?" Felix said with a casual rationalization
Alexithymiaa: "I dont know if you can rightfully earn the right to be a dick to someone who is good to you. Regardless of gender. That just means you don't deserve to have that person in your life." Easing off of him, she pushed up to her feet, offering him her hands. "Come on, it's late and obviously I need to go prove my point."-
Covet: Felix gave out a reluctant sigh, "Okay, fine, if you must" He said with a smirk as he got up mostly on his own because she was light af.
Alexithymiaa: "Hey... if you act apprehensive, then I can just as easily cuddle Alfred instead. I'm sure he'd be happy to accept my love if you won't. He steps on you in your sleep as it is because you're in his spot." She glanced over her shoulder at him as she started down the stairs.-
Covet: "I didn't say that!" Felix said protesting. "That furry fucker's not stealing my cuddles dammit."
Alexithymiaa: "Technically you're stealing his. He was here way before you were. Way before everyone was, actually. That's why he's such a jealous little asshole of all the other cats." She smiled as she thought about how things used to be when it was just Alfred, continuing on down to bed to look for him.-
Covet: "Yeah, yeah well the regime has changed. so he can deal with it." Felix said as he grabbed Steph at the bottom of the stairs and hauled her off to the bedroom.