Cezzie and I 2/1/18 12:30am

RayneLokiDarkDreamer: Hey bbg
CerezaWinter: hey....
RayneLokiDarkDreamer: you ok?
CerezaWinter: /me shrugs
CerezaWinter: im alive so thats all that really matters
RayneLokiDarkDreamer: wanna talk about it???
CerezaWinter: well as you already knew i am sure with the whole lexi shit yeah you did piss me the fuck off
CerezaWinter: i am aware she is gone
CerezaWinter: i read everything even though i did not speak a word
RayneLokiDarkDreamer: Well you should of came and talk to me and not give me the cold shoulder because that hurts more than being an adult and talk things out, no matter how pissed off you are at someone
CerezaWinter: well when i get pissed off i leave because if i do not i go off
RayneLokiDarkDreamer: well between you being pissed off at me and Rosa giving the 5th degree over every lil thing right now I was soo close to leaving IMVU again last night until I could breath again, the last 3-4 days have been so shitty all I've done is cry
CerezaWinter: and i have been considering leaving imvu for good myself because of all the drama as of late
CerezaWinter: i can not deal with it anymore
RayneLokiDarkDreamer: you've barely been on as it is.....
CerezaWinter: yeah because there is always drama as of late anymore
RayneLokiDarkDreamer: Well you realize we just got rid of Thor and a bunch of people, yeah there's going to be drama but some of it is over petty shit, you just have to roll with the punches sometimes.....If I ran away every time drama happened I might as well never come back on because it's unavoidable
CerezaWinter: yeah i realize that i was there
RayneLokiDarkDreamer: it's something we have to deal with and trust me I'm getting it all around....my anxiety and nerves havent stopped shaking since Friday
CerezaWinter: -sighs-  i am sorry for giving you the cold shoulder when i get pissed off i leave so i do not go off and i just do it to cool off so i do not say shit i regret later
RayneLokiDarkDreamer: I forgive you but when you cool off you should come and talk....not do the childish thing and ignore me
RayneLokiDarkDreamer: that annoys me more than anything
RayneLokiDarkDreamer: other than that hru?
CerezaWinter: idk how i am honestly
RayneLokiDarkDreamer: ?
CerezaWinter: just wondering what to do
RayneLokiDarkDreamer: that's the deicsion only you can make bbg
CerezaWinter: yeah
RayneLokiDarkDreamer: the drama has seem to died down for now......all but the dickless wonder tying to stick his nose back in our business but grma, Ty and I have that handled
CerezaWinter: yeah..
RayneLokiDarkDreamer: mhmmm he's just throwing our names into the ground again.....I'm about to bitch slap them out of his mouth
CerezaWinter: mhm
RayneLokiDarkDreamer: just another thing to piss me off about
CerezaWinter: well he is not going to go away any time soon
RayneLokiDarkDreamer: He will when I get done with them because tech. by law what he is doing is called "slander" and we can sue him for it because we have physical evidence even if it's on here it still counts
CerezaWinter: yeah
RayneLokiDarkDreamer: *adjusts my glasses* I studied up on this shit lol
CerezaWinter: im sure
RayneLokiDarkDreamer: I did...it nice to have an aunt that went to college to be a lawyer
CerezaWinter: yeah
RayneLokiDarkDreamer: omgg I couldn't take a shower earlier without Dakota wanting me, I had the door shut so it would be warm in there when I got out and she threw a fit till I opened the door to let her in lol
CerezaWinter: funny
RayneLokiDarkDreamer: ikr
CerezaWinter: i wonder if i am chalking all this shit i feel up to the fact i think i may have depression irl
CerezaWinter: and everything just feels like hell to me
RayneLokiDarkDreamer: I know how it feels to have depression everything just feels MEH to me
CerezaWinter: that is how i feel
RayneLokiDarkDreamer: it's like I dont have the energy to do anything
CerezaWinter: i feel like i have a black cloud over my head
CerezaWinter: and that life is not worth living somedays
CerezaWinter: i do not go out irl aside from my job and i do not socalize with people
CerezaWinter: and i mean real life not here
RayneLokiDarkDreamer: go see a doctor about it...
CerezaWinter: yeah
RayneLokiDarkDreamer: I know I have depression and anxiety but they cant give me meds for them because of the Diamox I take
CerezaWinter: yeah anyways i think i am going to take a short hiatus from here for a few days to think and maybe get back to feeling better
CerezaWinter: before all this i was pretty happy to be with you guys before all the shit went down
RayneLokiDarkDreamer: *nods* take all the time you need....
CerezaWinter: again i am sorry for what i did.