I died

Alexithymiaa: -Steph was lying in the hospital bed, a feeding tube taped into her nose and back behind her ear along with an oxygen tube running with it. She'd been extremely tired lately which Dr. Greene had said was normal after a heart attack and therefore had been in and out of naps all weekend.-
Covet: Felix had basically been living off of coffee and vending machine food, occasionally hitting up the cafeteria at the hospital. He had a book in his lap and would occasionally look up to check on Steph to see if she happened to be awake. He'd been stressed and not sleeping well, but given everything going on, that wasn't exactly unexpected.
Alexithymiaa: -Pulling her eyes open, she turned her head to look over at Felix on the couch, lifting her head to watch him for a moment. "What are you reading?'-
Covet: Felix looked up at her and gave her a smile, marking his spot with a napkin, because whatever works. "It's called The Paragon Hotel." [ https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/37970853-the-paragon-hotel] I'm enjoying it so far. "How are you feeling, Red?"
Alexithymiaa: (I used to use tissues up until recently when Mariana got me a cute bookmark)
Alexithymiaa: "What's it about?" She asked, trying to spy the book cover for any sort of hints. "I'm tired. I feel like all I've done is sleep, but I'm still tired. And like I can't catch my breath."-
Covet: It takes place in Portland in nineteen twenty one. It involves this white woman and this all black hotel, the kkk shows up.. It's intense, but pretty good.
Covet: [Dammit!]
Covet: "It takes place in Portland in nineteen twenty one. It involves this white woman and this all black hotel, the kkk shows up.. It's intense, but pretty good." He got up and made his way over to the bed where Steph was and went to grab her hand. "Sleep is good though, It's giving your body a chance to heal. Do you want me to turn the oxygyn up for you, Would that help?"
Alexithymiaa: "Can I read it when you're done?" She asked, lacing her fingers with his. "No, don't turn it up. I already hate the way it feels. It's so cold and it almost kind of stings my nose because it's so cold." She moved her free hand up to her face, rubbing at her nose before setting her hand down because it was uncomfortable to move so much with the IV in her arm.-
Covet: "Hey careful with your rubbing." He told her. "Your chest is probably sore, It will get easier to breathe as you get feeling better." Felix added, "Yeah you can read it when I'm done."
Alexithymiaa: -She let her eyes slip closed as she sucked in a deep breath, waiting a moment before opening her eyes again to look at him. "I'm sorry. I know this isn't exactly how you intended to spend your weekend..."-
Covet: "Shhh, stop. There's nothing you need to apologize for." He told her rubbing a hand on her head. "I'm just glad you're doing better, and are alive."
Alexithymiaa: "Yes I do. This is my fault. There is nothing and no one to blame, but myself. I did this." She sighed, turning her head toward him. "I didn't think things were so out of hand..."-
Covet: "Stop. There's plenty of other people to blame before you go about blaming yourself. Do you hear me?" Felix told her. "The only thing I'm putting on you is your getting better. Which means We're following everything the doctor says to a T. Do you got me?" He added.
Alexithymiaa: "And who exactly are we going to blame for this one?" She asked with a smile because she was actually amused by that. "I know. This is something I need to work through. I need to get back to feeling like myself."-
Covet: "You're mom, Ash, Those two are a good start that's for damn sure." He said, "I have faith in you, but it's going to take action, not just words."
Alexithymiaa: "Both of which I have nothing to do with anymore." She added, giving him a look because at the very least she was taking responsibility for her own actions. "I know. I think I need to get back to writing."-
Covet: "I know but your actions to get you here today wouldn't have happened without their interfearance. But... I'm proud that you know you need to work on things." He told her. "Writing is a good place to start."
Alexithymiaa: "I'd have to be pretty far in denial to say I don't need to work on things after all of this." She put her hands on her sides, shifting herself to sit upright with a bit of a groan. "I have so many things in my head, I just feel like writing is the best way for me to get it out. That, and I know I'm going to start being hounded for demos pretty soon so I might as well kill two birds with one stone."-
Covet: "Do you want me to bring you a notebook and pens and pencils in the morning?" He asked her with a smile.
Alexithymiaa: "I think that sounds like a good idea." She returned the smile, reaching for his hand to give it a small squeeze/ "I'd prefer to go home though."-
Covet: "I know, but the doctor will let you know when it's okay for you to come home. Until then, we're here, and I'm here with you." He said leaning down to give her a kiss on her head.
Alexithymiaa: "I know. And I appreciate the fact that I haven't once opened my eyes to find myself alone. I know exactly how uncomfortable it is to sleep on that couch."-
Covet: "It's not too bad, I've slept on worse." He told her with a smile. "It's worth it to make sure you're okay and aren't alone."
Alexithymiaa: "What about the animals? I know Alfred doesn't like sleeping alone... have you been home to pay attention to Penny and Nugget?" Forever more concerned about the animals than herself.-
Covet: "I've got Cadence keeping an eye on them. It gave her an excuse to not go home yet." He told her."I've got everything covered."
Alexithymiaa: "I know, I just worry about them..." She said with a frown. "They don't understand what's going on." She paused, considering. "Can you ask Cadence to give you nail polish to bring?"-
Covet: "They're doing fine. I promise. They're getting spoiled." He told her. "Yeah What color are you wanting?" He asked her pulling out his phone to make a reminder for himself.
Alexithymiaa: -She looked down at her chipped black fingernails. "Black. It's the only color that matches everything." She turned back to him, reaching for his hand. "Did you talk to mom?"-
Covet: "I did. I've been keeping her updated." Felix told her. " She says she's got a candle burning for you. I don't exactly know what that means." He said with a laugh. "But she's thinking of you, and is wishing you a speedy recovery."
Alexithymiaa: "I was thinking of her today." She paused, letting her eyes close. "We had a long conversation about this and I kind of brushed her off."-
Covet: "Yeah? Well, I'm sure she doesn't take it personally. She's not that kind of person. Though you could always contact her and talk to her about it." Felix told her.
Alexithymiaa: "I know. I thought I had more of a handle on things than I do, apparently. She might know me better than I do. Or maybe she just knows what you tell her, which happens to be everything." She slowly opened her eyes, raising a brow at him.-
Covet: "You can be mad at me for that all you want. I'm not even the least bit sorry. She gives me some good insight, and you can't put a price on that." He told her with a smile.
Alexithymiaa: "I'm not mad at you for it, I just wish I had known that before I opened my big mouth. You know, you can get some good insight if you talk to me, too."-
Covet: "I know. But there's somethings that are difficult to talk to you about. Especially when you're being a stubborn brat about it." he told her crossing his arms, then relaxed. "But I'm am glad to see you recognizing a bunch of that."
Alexithymiaa: "Like what?' She stammered, mock offended. "I'm not a brat, you're a brat. I've recognized that I have to work on myself, but my stubbornness isn't going anywhere."-
Covet: "Yeah I don't expect it to. But it would be nice if you could at least fight those of us trying to help you a little less. We're just looking out for you, because we love you." Felix said.
Alexithymiaa: "The only thing I intend to fight you on is bringing home more animals. I was going to say wedding stuff, but it kind of seems like we're on the same page there." She smiled at him, reaching her hand out to pet his hair.-
Covet: "Yes we are, and that's definitely still on. I'd like to set a date for that too." He told her taking her hand. "I was thinking within the next six months or so?"
Alexithymiaa: "Six months?' She stammered, her eyes going a little wide. "But there's so much to do. Do you really think we can get everything done in six months? Before six months."-
Covet: "Well it's not going to be a big ceremony or anything. So I don't see why we can't get it all done by then." Felix told her, " I just don't want to miss out on anything with you, I know what I want." He said with a girn.
Alexithymiaa: -She stared at him for a long moment, her brain taking just a little longer to process than usual. "You don't want to miss out on anything with me? Do you... think I'm going to die?"-
Covet: "No, I don't think that. I hope that nothing like that ever happens. Especially considering that.. I mean.. you kind of already did. So it's not like my statments entirely out of line." Felix told her.
Alexithymiaa: "I don't really want to think about that." She spoke gently. "So then let's do this. We'll find a place so we can book a date and we'll get everything rolling."-
Covet: "I don't either, I'd rather think about everything else we have looking forward to and all the positive things that are ahead of us." Felix said then leaned down to give her a kiss on the head again. "You should rest some more."
Alexithymiaa: "All the positive things." She said with a smile, closing her eyes again. "I know. I'm so tired. You should read more so you can finish and give it to me."-
Covet: "I will. Goodnight Red. Sweet Dreams." He told her giving her hand a squeeze as he moved back to the couch to do some reading and napping.