Honk Emp

ﾎﾝｸＨＯＮＫ♾ ＨＯＮＫ ☯ ＣＨＥＮ ＩＰ10/23/2019
Alright. This time.

Since it feels like I failed on my last try.

I know I don't need to try to be anything I don't need to be.

But this time I really want to try since I mean it.
Since back then what I meant with becoming a more likeable person.

Was mainly for you.


EmpoleMew10/23/2019


ﾎﾝｸＨＯＮＫ♾ ＨＯＮＫ ☯ ＣＨＥＮ ＩＰ10/23/2019
W-warui

ﾎﾝｸＨＯＮＫ♾ ＨＯＮＫ ☯ ＣＨＥＮ ＩＰ10/23/2019
Gomen emp

EmpoleMew10/23/2019
I don't even know what you're apologizing for

ﾎﾝｸＨＯＮＫ♾ ＨＯＮＫ ☯ ＣＨＥＮ ＩＰ10/23/2019
For saying dumb things
I should think more of others before I write on a whim


ﾎﾝｸＨＯＮＫ♾ ＨＯＮＫ ☯ ＣＨＥＮ ＩＰ10/23/2019
I can assure you that I'm not even sure myself on what I'm doing lately
I'm just a mess feeling guilty over the smallest of things
I'm probably trying too hard but I wish I could be someone to rely on

I just had some funny thoughts lately but also came to the realization that maybe I'm too late and only being a bother by now


EmpoleMew10/23/2019


ﾎﾝｸＨＯＮＫ♾ ＨＯＮＫ ☯ ＣＨＥＮ ＩＰ10/23/2019
I wish I was being more honest and kind when it mattered since I only regret it by now since it's too late
I feel lost and knowingly go into this despite my worth

I said all these rude things and told myself to not go back on them or how I felt
Yet I'm still here since I'm too dumb to not be kind to myself or let go

I don't know what I want at this point since I ask for too much after what I did

I'm sorry


EmpoleMew10/23/2019
Just live life

ﾎﾝｸＨＯＮＫ♾ ＨＯＮＫ ☯ ＣＨＥＮ ＩＰ10/23/2019
I know what every person really thinks of me
The same goes for emp
Which is why I regret being such an opposite and still going into this
Life is fine but the one time I felt like trying to do everything for someone was also the same case that I ruined for myself

I wish I didn't fall in love with someone after I said how much I hated them

Gomen

EmpoleMew10/23/2019
Falling in love online is a one way trip to despair
I can tell you from experience

ﾎﾝｸＨＯＮＫ♾ ＨＯＮＫ ☯ ＣＨＥＮ ＩＰ10/23/2019
I'm fine with it I guess
I don't have anything but online interactions
I'm kinda shallow...

But I don't wanna go into this knowing I'm not worth it

I wanna improve on myself
Until I can become someone
You can care about
One day

EmpoleMew10/23/2019
You need to improve yourself for yourself
Chasing after me is an easy way to get hurt

ﾎﾝｸＨＯＮＫ♾ ＨＯＮＫ ☯ ＣＨＥＮ ＩＰ10/23/2019
I have my reasons for choosing you
I'll be fine to start after I'm done with myself
I just want to make it known that I'll try for you


EmpoleMew10/23/2019
That's a path that leads to despair and frustration

ﾎﾝｸＨＯＮＫ♾ ＨＯＮＫ ☯ ＣＨＥＮ ＩＰ10/23/2019
I'm too optimistic as usual but it'll be fine


EmpoleMew10/23/2019
Do you really want to turn out like iron core

ﾎﾝｸＨＯＮＫ♾ ＨＯＮＫ ☯ ＣＨＥＮ ＩＰ10/23/2019
Because there's no one else like you

I won't end like him
I know his mistakes
And his failures

EmpoleMew10/23/2019
I can't stop you from treading this path
All I can do is tell you not to

ﾎﾝｸＨＯＮＫ♾ ＨＯＮＫ ☯ ＣＨＥＮ ＩＰ10/23/2019
I'll still try
It might take a while but one day
I won't give up the chance to find someone who could finally understand me with such similar interests

I'm an idiot but I still love you emp


EmpoleMew10/23/2019
I can only hope that that feeling fades