Adele Holly Bilton. Starting from the very top. When we met, we just sat there and talked, and talked, and talked. About life, and our problems. We got it all out in the open, like we had no care for anyone else, or anything else in the world. I fell in love with you the moment I saw your kindness, and hear your voice. And saw that pretty face. I knew it was meant to be. Why else would we drift into each others messages like that and feel we can say absolutely anything in the world to each other, just in one day? - I knew that when I spoke to you, I was able to be myself, and I was able to give you what you wanted, because further from then, I realised that it's what I wanted so badly. That I had to ask you how you felt about me. And god, did my dreams come true. You felt the same, and you thought you was stupid. But we wasn't stupid Adele. You wasn't stupid. I wasn't stupid. It was and it is true love.

I remember the night following the day we agreed to date and eventually go out. We was talking about each other, and then the silence came. You burst out crying because of the silence and was scared to loose me. We stayed up all night, just talking to each other, and never gave a care for what time it was, and we just had the most memorable time. I was able to open myself up to someone so meaningful in my life. I didn't care about my, past, it was like you took a pair of scissors and you cut all the baggage away from me and you just ran in and hugged me and just made my life turn from the death it was, to such warmth and loving nest of cuteness. If I was to explain how it felt, I'd be here for a year, or more just explaining one part in such depth so that someone can understand. - I saw how innocent and sweet you was, you was just so scared of loosing me, and you kept begging me throughout the night to never leave you, from start to finish, even when we had to end the call, we made a promise to each other. And I remember word for word, what you made me promise. "Brad." "Promise me you'll never leave me okay?". And since then I promised I'd never leave you. I swore on my life. I swore on my dead best friend. I swore on my dead dad. I swore on everything I lived for.

For once, a girl, not just any old girl. But the girl that meant and means a lot in my life, and literally defines my life; showed me so much passion, love, affection and care, than anyone has ever done. You put smiles on my face when no one ever could. You put heart beats in places where no one ever could. You put thoughts in my mind, that no one could ever do. For once I knew and felt that I had a future with someone. I was able to feel that I could be married to the most beautiful girl, that I decided to be with, and the girl that decided to be with me. For once I knew and felt that I had a chance to bring children into the world. Not just children. But our children. And no one else's, and I want you to be the woman to give me that gift. And I want to be the man that gives you that gift too. Because if I told you I'm perfect, I'd be lying, if I told you I'm a good person, I'd be lying. But if I told you, I don't give up, even though I sound like I might. Then I'd be telling you the truth. Because to me you're not just some name on paper, some thought in mind, or some human on Earth. You're the woman that rescued me when everyone else failed. You're the woman that revived me back to life when I had given up and exhausted all other options. You're the woman that pumped life back into me, so that I could live a life, with you.

I remember when the first time I gave you a morning message. God was it cringey, but I loved it. I opened my heart out, and I meant every word. If I told you I didn't mean a word, I'd be the biggest liar on this Earth. It was just amazing to see you smile, and see the bubbliness come from your attitude, it was so... heart warming. It's like I've never felt so appreciated in my life, that a woman out there was actually enjoying what we had made together, and what we had ahead of us. It's a long road, and we both knew there would be big bumps, and little bumps along the way, but we promised, swore, and vowed that we'd never leave each others side through it. But along those bumpy roads, there will be packets of gold sitting there, with a lot offer. But instead, these aren't actually packets of gold. They're priceless. These events that we will come across, yes, we will come across them, will make our lives the ones definitely worth living to the end.

When I fell in love with you. It wasn't because of your body. It wasn't because you had breasts, vagina or anything nowaday men may look for. In fact it was because of your personality and your actions, you made me feel so special from day one, your body just came as a surprise to it. It was attractive to me since day one but I didn't choose you because of it. When you gave me that warmth it made me realise there was hope in this life that I have found someone who cares and actually was willing to hear me out, and take the baggage off from my shoulders and help me dump it away. When you gave me the love, I didn't get reminded of anything because everything before then was just fake, it wasn't the meaning of love or care. But what you gave and give me is. You accepted me for who I am, despite my past, despite my problems, despite my issues. You took me on and you batted everything that came your way and you never ran away. And that makes me very proud. And very thankful that I had and have a woman like you that cares.

When I say I love you, I mean it because I know the words that come out of my mouth aren't fake and they aren't mistaken or wrongly thought of. I know it's what I want to say and I know it's what I would love to keep saying till my very last days, because I could never find myself in a day where I do not love you, or I do not mean what I say. Because in the roughest or the most easiest times, I know I will and do, mean every word I give when I say I love you, I need you, I want you. When you say it back it's like the infinity loop is created, it just keeps going and going and every time I hear it from you it makes me smile, it makes me blush it makes me feel warm inside because I've never been able to have a woman that says something and means it, and I know you mean it because I know what you've been through and I know what we've been through as a couple, as best friends too. - And I know that no matter what happens in life, that I will never give up on you or mean to hurt you in any way, but I cannot promise I wont say things I don't mean, because I'm not perfect. But what I can promise, is that I will always be here, and I always have been, and I will always resent the actions I have done or said during, and due to come in our relationship, because the factor I'm not perfect can make you upset and hurt. The factor that I can say stupid things without thinking can hurt you, but I don't mean it. I don't mean any bad things I say, I'm just human. I make mistakes, I make errors, I beg for forgiveness, and I try my best to recuperate with the unbreakable bond we have together.

When I wake up on a morning and I'm able to even see you, yet alone see that you've messaged me it's like I've achieved one good thing in my life, and that's to get someone who equally wants me like I want them. It makes me smile when I see you messaging me, it makes me feel bright inside when I have your love and affection, and care and happiness. It makes me happy that the days we can go to sleep with large smiles, grins, and smirks on our face because we've said and done things with and for each other that has made us happy as best friends, boyfriend and girlfriend, one and only's, ride or dies, future husband and future wife, future mother and future father of each other's children. - I may slip up on the way, small or big, but I know that my vision on all of these things will never change. Because I know that it's unbreakable from my heart whether I have you or don't. I will always value what I wanted and can have with you, providing I make the right steps towards them, and I think that we will get there and we will thrive greater than we think we can.

I've got the determination and care to go through everything we've gone through a million times over. Not because I think I can, but because I know I can, because I know the end result of having everything with you means more than hiccups, falls, and bruises of this relationship. All of which can heal if we let it heal and help it to heal. I'm so determined because I know that I want to be a husband. Being able to call myself a Mr of a Mrs, so warmly that I'm recognised and well presented around you. It'd not just make my day, but it'd make my smile a life time and I'm sure that at the end of my life time, I will be able to say I have done all of these things with the woman I know I chose to love, I willingly loved, and I never gave up on. Because more than anything right now do I want to remind you how much I am here for you because I remember what it's like when no one was there for me, especially when I needed it the most and when I had no one in my deepest times. But on top of that it was you that relieved those times when I met you, and ever since then. You wasn't asked you, you wasn't required to, you just did it without being asked or assuming to do so and it really makes me smile the size of a billion galaxies.

I know that we've had a rough time here and there but that doesn't determine who we are or what we want, it determines what we need to do to improve, and become stronger. Relationships that survive the biggest downs are the ones that will have the longest and biggest ups later on in life. And I can vouch that we will be to experiencing that, because I know what we will achieve and I'm certain we will achieve it. But- Enough of me rambling on about this. Let me speak more about us. You. Me. This relationship and what it means to me.

What do I love about you? You're so well composed and you have such a brilliant mind, to much that some people don't k now, and or, take advantage of. Because you're such a delicate, well proposed woman. And I'd never let anyone since our first day knowing each other, take advantage or hurt my baby, because that's what you are to me, MY BABY. And as much as people fail to understand, I love you because of who you are, not what you are or what you have. You're the most amazing and funny girl I've ever met, like literally, you've turned my life from absolute shambles to a life I would die for. Being able to love someone again is all caused and made by you. And it's why it's one of the main reasons I cannot, I will not, and refuse to leave you, because I'm determined to repay that debt with a lifetime of happiness, and our children to have a great start to their lifetime. I trust you with my whole life that you will allow me to see that through, and I trust you with my entire life that you will not do the same because you have done anything but that. You've always stuck beside me on my toughest days to my weakest days and you've never put down that stick. I'm so thankful of that. - It's your caring and loving nature that inspires me the most on top of all of this, because no matter what goes on life you always seem to push through, even though on the surface there is scars, as well as there is on the inside, you let them heal and you ignore them over time, which is what I love about you. You get rid of negatives and you replace them with something worth listening and watching to and it's what makes me so happy that you can listen to me, and others, and watch out how it's all going between you and me, you and your family, you and others as well. I know that people out there are so proud to have you as their friend, and as their sister, and even as their cousin or daughter. - And most importantly on my behalf, to have you as my girlfriend, and with hope, to have you as my wife and the mother of my children. Because I know you will do a fantastic job with your motherly attitudes. How you treat your little brothers and sisters as well as your cousins, it's just amazing; you treat them like your own children, I can't believe that someone of your age is able to even do all of that, it's mind blowing.

But me, to myself, I'm a guy with a lot of scars on the inside and the outside, but I've pushed through those scars and I've made place for you to enter my life and change it for the better, and that's all you seem to be doing. Improving my life, and keeping me upright on that steel pillar with you. If I told anyone you was worthless and doing nothing, I'd deserve to be shot and killed, because it'd be absolute bonkers, and a fat lie. Periodically, you've embraced who I am as a person, what quirks I may and do have, you've accepted and motivated the factor that I feel I'm not beautiful, but in the back of my mind, you make me feel beautiful. It's not the most manliest word to use out of them all, but hey ho, this guy (points to himself) is a lunatic, idiot and a massive shard of wank. Excuse my French. - I guess what I'm trying to say is. I was once a huge mess, but I've been made a lesser mess because someone, being the most important woman in my life, helped me tidy that mess, and refused to let me sleep without completing my requirement of the day. And you did that all single handed. You really do make my proud and you really do define the word man to my name when I deserve it and deserve to be recognised as one. I will admit we've got a long way to go in life, but there is no other woman I would like to go through it with other than you. Because it's been a blast doing everything with you, and it's been the most dedicated change I've seen and witnessed in my life time. And I want to have the honour of doing the same and helping you in return as we look out for each other. You're the glue that makes things stick in my life, you're the concrete that keeps me from falling over, you're the steel pillar that holds me high and straight. There will be a few knocks on the way, but we will get through them no matter what, and no matter the cost. - I am determined to live with you till the end. I want to lay there and hold your hand on our final hours of life, and thank you, and still care for you till I draw my last breath on this Earth.

I will not let even a galaxy keep us apart, because you mean absolutely everything to me. I wont let any person, any authority prevent my heart from loving you, prevent my mind from thinking of you, prevent my body from being near or with you. Because I know that what I want to do, is solely to be done with the woman I love, the woman I continue to love and wake up looking forwards to seeing. No matter the incidents the day before, the minute before or even the second before. Or whenever. I will always be determined to put a smile on your face, to put a good thought in your mind, to put a good dream in your mind. To make your heart race again like it was running a marathon. - All of these things I know I want to do solely because I'm deeply in love with a girl called Adele Holly Bilton, and I'd not trade her for the world. Even if it meant loosing my freedom, my life, my living, my goods, anything. You cannot put a price on her, she is beautiful, sweet, innocent, cute, adorable, amazing, sexy, loving, caring, but most of all, mind blowing. And MINE.

I want to finish this up with telling you how much I love you Adele Holly Bilton, and I think I've been rushed in the past to tell you, but since I have a life time with you, I want to make this message worth while of writing and for you to read it. Because I know your little (giant) head has been worrying about a lot since I've met you, and since we've been together. So here we go...

I have loved you since the day I met you, I was trying so hard to make it not look so obvious, because like you I thought I was being a little idiot, forgetting what got me into the mess. But what I realised was, I wasn't living with true love at all. I was living with false hope and lies. But when you fuelled the real love into me, I had and have more energy than anyone in the world. I have the ability to do certain things I wouldn't imagine myself doing in the past, it's amazing, it's a true life-change that even I thought I'd never see in my life time at all. I love everything about you, your crystal gleaming eyes, your soft delicate hair, your smooth small lips, your soft rosy cheeks. It makes me feel empowered and invincible. Your body, wow, it's definitely a eye opener, and something to look at, it's full of perfection and eye-candy. I wish I could be there to explore it and to be able to touch your soft, brittle and delicate skin. Your soft, caring, loving, and warm attitude keeps me feeling so welcome to your life, I feel so lucky to have such an amazing person, especially after all this time you've put up with me, helped me, and showed me the ropes when I was lost. And I wish I could do the same for you, but I know I can do the same for you. I have the motivation, the heart, the mind, and the attitude to make it work, and make us become even stronger. I will not rest from this Earth till I have done so. You have my word so please... Adele Holly Bilton. Do remember that I love you with all my heart, from the bottom and throughout. Because I'd never change you or us for anyone, anything. - You are my Adele Holly Bilton and I am your Bradley Josh Ward, and soon enough you will be my Adele Holly Ward. - Forever and Always. NEVER FORGET THAT. BECAUSE I WONT. AND I HAVEN'T. I-LOVE-YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3