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- My right knee would never survive Japan. I realized that if I wanted to feed my family, I needed to
- heal and fast: I’d have to take steroids. This was one of the most difficult decisions I ever made. I
- called Tom, and within minutes he showed up at my house armed with two loaded needles, one for
- each butt cheek. Later on that night I lay shivering in a fever, running to the bathroom with diarrhea
- and vomiting. It turned out the steroids were from a veterinarian and were meant for horses. Tom
- got sick too.
- The sponsors of the five-show tour were wealthy Arabs. One afternoon they took me, Owen and
- Davey out on a fishing boat, and Davey hooked a three-foot yellow shark. An epic tug-of-war went
- on for about an hour, like something out of Hemingway, with Davey holding on, drenched in sweat,
- the veins popping in his arms. When he finally reeled it in, it still had a lot of fight left as it flipped all
- over the deck. Davey was so impressed with its inexhaustible will to live he insisted it be set free.
- s I walked past the marble and bronze statues of Le Jardin des Fontaines Pétrifiantes, I was
- remembering our first night, in London. The televised special went well enough. After all, England
- had its wrestling fans, and it was a rarity for them to see the likes of Hulk and André: We were just
- beginning to get over big in the U.K. I couldn’t help but see a glimpse of the future and the past
- when Rollerball Rocco and a bunch of the English boys dropped their bags in the dressing room. Pat
- had hired them to work the opening dark match. Rollerball’s Black Tiger gimmick had long since died
- in Japan, and now he and the other lads toiled endlessly for a few quid, crisscrossing the U.K. riding
- four to a car. In the WWF dressing room they wore envious expressions that reminded me of pack
- horses who suddenly found themselves corralled with groomed Clydesdales.The Brits were
- awestruck as André lumbered past. To them he might as well have been a brontosaurus.
- As I walked past the marble and bronze statues of Le Jardin des Fontaines Pétrifiantes, I was
- remembering our first night, in London. The televised special went well enough. After all, England
- had its wrestling fans, and it was a rarity for them to see the likes of Hulk and André: We were just
- beginning to get over big in the U.K. I couldn’t help but see a glimpse of the future and the past
- when Rollerball Rocco and a bunch of the English boys dropped their bags in the dressing room. Pat
- had hired them to work the opening dark match. Rollerball’s Black Tiger gimmick had long since died
- in Japan, and now he and the other lads toiled endlessly for a few quid, crisscrossing the U.K. riding
- four to a car. In the WWF dressing room they wore envious expressions that reminded me of pack
- horses who suddenly found themselves corralled with groomed Clydesdales.The Brits were
- awestruck as André lumbered past. To them he might as well have been a brontosaurus.
- A lot of pro wrestling’s old horses were falling away or dying off. Britain’s Big Daddy Crabtree had
- died in 1997, Loch Ness was failing and then the legendary wrestler BoBo Brazil died at seventy-
- three. But the Grim Reaper of wrestling wanted more young bones too. On February 15, 1998, a
- drunken Louie Spicolli downed twenty-six Somas and died at the age of twenty-seven, drowning in
- his own vomit. The sad thing was that more guys were worried about drug testing being introduced
- as a result than about dying like Louie did, or like Brian Pillman had. Eric Bischoff was pissed off after
- the news hit the dressing room about Louie, and said to me: “Man, these guys are just getting
- dressed and nobody gives a shit.”
- Davey, Jim, Tom and I—all of us were now signed on for the whole ride down the rough roads of pro
- wrestling, a pack of wild stallions, each taking chances and praying we wouldn’t get lost along the
- way. At that time I had no way of knowing that we’d end up together again, in a completely different
- place. And in this stampede of wild horses, it felt to me like I was the darkest one.
- My right knee would never survive Japan. I realized that if I wanted to feed my family, I needed to
- heal and fast: I’d have to take steroids. This was one of the most difficult decisions I ever made. I
- called Tom, and within minutes he showed up at my house armed with two loaded needles, one for
- each butt cheek. Later on that night I lay shivering in a fever, running to the bathroom with diarrhea
- and vomiting. It turned out the steroids were from a veterinarian and were meant for horses. Tom
- got sick too.
- Behind our house was a carriage house that my dad rented out to an artist, Katie Ohe. She had a
- studio and barebones living quarters in there, but she traveled a lot for her art and so was often not
- home. She had a white Volkswagen Beetle that seemed like it was intimidated, being parked among
- the black-eyed, bloodied Cadillacs all around the yard. One morning it was so cold that my dad
- loaded everyone up in one car after another and each one sputtered and died as he turned the
- ignition key. With an exasperated “Christ Almighty,” Stu slammed his fist into windshield after
- windshield, teeth bared and eyes ablaze, leaving spiderweb cracks in the glass. Finally, he stuffed us
- into Katie’s Beetle, like so much cord wood, and we all fought to suppress giggles as he ground the
- gears all the way to school.
- Davey, Jim, Tom and I—all of us were now signed on for the whole ride down the rough roads of pro
- wrestling, a pack of wild stallions, each taking chances and praying we wouldn’t get lost along the
- way. At that time I had no way of knowing that we’d end up together again, in a completely different
- place. And in this stampede of wild horses, it felt to me like I was the darkest one.
- I told him I was sorry, but I couldn’t even ride a horse and, where I come from, if you called yourself
- a cowboy, you’d better be one. I was surprised to hear myself suggest to him that since Jimmy Hart,
- The Mouth of the South, was already managing Neidhart, they could turn me heel, put us all
- together and call us The Hart Foundation.
- Davey and me: There was Tom looking mean, Davey with a big naive grin and me looking envious
- and desperate. I had finally passed Tom and Davey, the dark horse of the three of us.
- we high-fived fans on our way to the ring. I pulled open my jacket to expose the shiny gold belt that
- had meant so much to me once upon a time. But now I was galloping beyond that. Beware the dark
- horse!
- An hour or so later we hiked up to the saltwater pool in Diamond Head, Christian and Tate lugging a
- cooler of beer and a bucket of KFC. I took three strides and jumped into the pool. I kept calling Owen
- to come in, but he was so cautious that he wouldn’t. I finally coaxed him out and we straddled the
- pool wall like a horse, while big, warm, salty waves washed over us. Hanging by our arms we looked
- out at the blue Pacific as little crabs scurried over the rocks. A pensive Owen said, “There are some
- at home who don’t understand how hard you’ve worked to get this far. They think Vince just hands
- you everything on a silver platter. They’re so envious of you and me!” I knew full well that the
- business had saved us and that if we were back home with the rest of them, we’d likely be sinking
- fast. I told Owen I’d do what I could to get Jim and Davey hired back. Davey quit WCW after he had
- been extradited back to Canada to deal with the assault charge stemming from his bar fight. And Jim
- had already blown the $380,000 from U.S. Air.
- The following day, Julie and I went for a stroll along the beach, but we were taken aback by the
- numbers of beggars and drug addicts, many of whom sniffed glue from plastic Baggies while they
- pleaded with us for spare change. A murky-green tide washed slime and garbage up at our feet, and
- one desperate Filipina woman tried to sell me what appeared to be her ten-year-old daughter for
- some quick sex. To escape the beggars and drug addicts, I paid $80 for a horse-and-buggy ride so we
- could see the sights, but the road was lined with street people and prostitutes. The driver whipped a
- small, emaciated black pony until I finally insisted he let us off. I figured the poor horse was about to
- drop dead as it panted and wheezed, with white froth and snot hanging from its nose.
- On the walk back to the hotel we stepped over discarded syringes and maneuvered our way past
- street people who were shooting up, or sitting naked, or fornicating, as sad-eyed kids sniffed glue to
- make it all go away. A warm sprinkle of polluted rain pissed down on the whole wretched mess, but
- even a downpour of biblical proportions couldn’t have begun to wash this place clean. Back at the
- hotel I looked out the window and saw rising up from this cesspool an inordinately large number of
- Catholic church spires that, despite the grime that was everywhere, were immaculately kept.
- ~
- We found Tom’s flat in a miserable, graffiti-stained ghetto on the outskirts of the city. The windows
- were boarded up and the charred remains of a car were smoldering out front. He answered the door
- in a T-shirt and blue jeans looking James Dean normal, with a V-shaped physique. It was the first
- time I’d seen him steroid-free since I’d known him.
- “Fookin’ niggers did it,” he said, pointing at the car as he invited us in.
- Tom took a seat on a shredded old couch, moving slowly as he eased his way into it, smoking a
- cigarette. He rudely referred to his girlfriend, Joanne, as a daft stupid cunt enough times that it
- embarrassed everyone except him, and she looked shell-shocked by his behavior. Chief’s face gave
- away his disappointment and disgust. When Knobbs innocently blurted out that I was the champ,
- Tom nodded and replied, “Intercontinental, right?”
- “No, Dyno, he’s the World Champion now. He’s got the big belt.”
- When I won the World Championship, I recall thinking, I’d love to see the look on Dynamite’s face
- when he finds out. I got to see it now. His first expression was one of disbelief and shock. Then, for
- only a moment, he seemed happy, like it confirmed his own greatness in some way. No sooner had I
- begun to see that he was maybe even proud of me, then his face turned sour: his look said, This is
- what things could have been like for me if I hadn’t become so broke and broken. Then, briefly,
- optimism seemed to wash over him: maybe somehow I could help him? But as the thought formed,
- he lifted his chin, indignant, his pride hurt—he didn’t want anything from me or anyone else.
- While we were there, people drove by and threw things at his house, which, he explained, is why the
- windows were all boarded up. Tom was finding out that there was a heavy price for his bigotry. He
- still had a real sore spot about Davey, and for that I couldn’t totally blame him. Davey had
- trademarked The British Bulldog name before Tom or even Vince, and now he refused to let Tom—
- the original British Bulldog—use his own ring name to make a living.
- In the car on the way back to the hotel, Chief said he regretted that we’d gone to see him. Dynamite
- was one of his favorites, and now his memories would be forever ruined.
- Tom showed up at the hotel that night. He’d thought things over a bit and was now blown away by
- my position and desperate for any kind of a lifeline from me. I’d already been talking to Chief and
- Vince about trying to do something for him. But when I told Tom, he shook his head. “Nah, I’ll never
- go back.” I left him in the bar with Knobbs and Sags, where he was soon crying in his beer. All our
- hearts went out to him. Dynamite was hard to love, but we did, and it was heartbreaking to see the
- best worker I ever knew finally reveal his inner agony at the mistakes he’d made and how things had
- ended up for him.
- When I won the World Championship, I recall thinking, I’d love to see the look on Dynamite’s face
- when he finds out. I got to see it now. His first expression was one of disbelief and shock. Then, for
- only a moment, he seemed happy, like it confirmed his own greatness in some way. No sooner had I
- begun to see that he was maybe even proud of me, then his face turned sour: his look said, This is
- what things could have been like for me if I hadn’t become so broke and broken. Then, briefly,
- optimism seemed to wash over him: maybe somehow I could help him? But as the thought formed,
- he lifted his chin, indignant, his pride hurt—he didn’t want anything from me or anyone else.
- While we were there, people drove by and threw things at his house, which, he explained, is why the
- windows were all boarded up. Tom was finding out that there was a heavy price for his bigotry. He
- still had a real sore spot about Davey, and for that I couldn’t totally blame him. Davey had
- I walked out wearing my friend Tie Domi’s Maple Leafs jersey underneath my Hitmen jersey. I knew
- if Eric had seen it, he’d have made me take it off because he was already terrified that I was going to
- go over so strong with the Canadian crowd that it would turn Goldberg heel, which was going to
- happen anyway, no matter what we did. I received a thundering ovation from the crowd, and then
- on the mic, I accused Goldberg of hiding in his dressing room, biting his fingernails and trembling
- with fear. While I peeled off my Hitmen jersey to expose the Maple Leafs jersey, declaring Canada
- “hockey country,” Eric was frantically running around backstage screaming at Goldberg to get out
- there before I killed him off. When Goldberg finally got in the ring, snorting like a Brahma bull, I
- taunted him, begging him to come and get me. When he spear-tackled me, the fans had no idea
- what was going to happen next. We both lay there without moving for what seemed like an eternity.
- Then I rolled him off me, counted him out, stood up, peeled my jersey off and threw it down on his
- unconscious body revealing the “steel” plate: the whole building came unglued. As Eric requested, I
- got on the mic and declared, “Hey, WCW, I quit!”
- ~~
- The Governor General’s office called on Valentine’s Day with the much-needed good news that Stu
- would be invested as a Member of the Order of Canada on May 31. My mom wanted me to
- accompany them to Ottawa for the ceremony, but when Stu’s pneumonia landed him back in the
- hospital for much of April, we wondered if he’d be able to make it. I did my best to avoid any more
- confrontations with opposing family members. I’d spent the winter coming back from my
- concussion, watching Blade play hockey; I also started working on this book. Ever since I’d gone to
- work for the WWF I’d carried a tape recorder with me all over the world, recording a diary of my life.
- I just kept thinking, This will make a hell of a book some-day, and it seemed to me that the time had
- come.
- One night I had a dream that I had WWF’s current World Champion, Kurt Angle, in a tight headlock.
- In the dream, I asked myself if it was really happening, and to figure out if it was real or not, I stared
- at the sweat dripping off his head and then focused on the blue fabric of the ring canvas. In my
- dream I concluded it was not a dream, and when I woke up, for the first and only time I really missed
- working.
- Carlo invited me to the WWF show in Calgary on May 28. I told him I’d like to meet Kurt Angle and
- Brock Lesner, but I wasn’t comfortable going to Raw so close to the second anniversary of Owen’s
- death. Why the WWF insisted on running shows in Calgary each May I’ll never know. It infuriated
- Martha and lit a fuse to the powder keg at Hart house.
- Carlo knew I was still extremely sensitive about what Vince had done to me, but he passed on the
- message that Vince wanted me to know that he didn’t hate me: If I wanted to come down to the
- show he’d be more than happy to shake my hand. But the problem wasn’t him hating me anymore—
- it was me hating him. Aside from sticking it in my eye every chance he got, he’d destroyed the
- harmony of the Hart family, for which I was being blamed.
- Carlo then asked me about Stu’s health, saying that Ellie, Diana and Bruce desperately wanted Stu to
- be on TV to show the world that the Hart family had made peace with the WWF. He said that they
- had requested five hundred free tickets to the show—they didn’t get them, of course—and didn’t
- seem to see the absurdity of the situation. As soon as I hung up the phone, I drove down to Stu’s. I
- was relieved when he told me through gritted teeth that he didn’t want to go to Raw, but that he
- was being made to go.
- “You don’t have to do anything you don’t want to do, and I’ll be here to make sure of it!” I said. But
- Ellie, Diana and Bruce were more than determined to see that Stu should go. Meanwhile, in another
- chapter of our public soap opera, Martha told the media that she would be deeply offended if any of
- the family went to the WWF show, which only put added pressure on my parents to fix something
- that couldn’t be fixed.
- May 28, 2001. If the show is to start in the evening, the talent usually arrives at the building in the
- afternoon. When I got to Stu’s house at ten that morning, I thought I was in more than enough time
- to spare him from going to the Calgary Raw. But I was too late: Ellie and Bruce had dragged him off
- at eight o’clock in the morning. I’d hear later that Diana and Bruce wheeled him into Vince’s office
- like a battering ram, then commenced a heated argument over who could make their pitch to Vince
- first. But Vince was so busy with TV, he soon had them cleared out of his office.
- As upset as I was, I told my mom that it would do Stu good to see the boys in the dressing room. But
- I thought it would break my heart if they paraded him out on Raw—the public would think that Stu
- had forgiven Vince for everything.
- I didn’t go down to the Saddledome. Tears came to my eyes as I watched the opening of the live
- show at home on TV: there was a clearly tired, deflated and demoralized Stu sitting in the front row
- with Ellie, Diana, Georgia, Bruce and Smith, who grinned as he held up a big sign that read, HA HA
- BRET.
- At the end of the show, Vince stuck his big, fat, salty thumb in my eye as far as he could by
- reenacting the Survivor Series screwjob finish, in Calgary, right in front of my father, as he played the
- corrupt promoter who rang the bell as Benoit had Stone Cold in my sharp-shooter. I drove down to
- Stu’s and burst into my mom’s bedroom. Rage filled me as I denounced every single one of them for
- doing this to me—I was through with them all. I didn’t know how to forgive any of them. I stomped
- down the stairs and took both Owen’s and my childhood photos off the wall, leaving two white
- dusty blanks. I slammed the kitchen door as I left and burned rubber out of the yard, feeling every
- bit as betrayed as I did the day Vince ordered poor Mark Yeaton to ring the bell.
- The next morning, Bruce drove an eighty-six-year-old Stu three hours north to the Smackdown
- taping in Edmonton and put him through the whole thing again. Both Benoit and Jericho called me,
- concerned about Stu’s health and state of exhaustion.
- Even though I’d looked forward to going to Ottawa to see Stu receive the Order of Canada, I was so
- offended by everything that had happened I chose not to go. As a result, I missed something that I
- had my heart set on. By June, I realized how it was wrong to punish my parents for being used by my
- brothers and sisters. Stu and Helen were both broken-hearted by my absence so, after a couple of
- weeks, I showed up and put the pictures back up on the wall. Then I went upstairs and wrapped my
- arms around my mom and, as I felt her shake with emotion, I silently loathed my brothers and sisters
- for doing this to her. I felt so sorry for all of us. I couldn’t help but feel as though I was free-falling
- into a bottomless pit of despair. If I’d had to write a will, it would have been a few lines, but if I’d had
- to write a suicide note, it would have been a thousand pages long.
- Throughout that summer, whenever I pulled into Stu’s yard, Ellie and Diana would race out of the
- house and flee in their cars. But in a lot of little ways, I told myself, things hadn’t changed too much.
- There was always a ring full of grandkids wrestling out in the yard, dogs and cats everywhere, a fresh
- pot of tea and five or ten young wannabe wrestlers taking bumps in the dungeon.
- On a hot July afternoon, I opened my car door, my sidekick Coombs jumped out and together we
- went in search of my mom. I followed his snorts all the way into her office and gave her a big hug.
- She was never that crazy about dogs, but her mother, Gah-Gah, absolutely adored pugs. I soon had
- her laughing, and telling me stories. One of her favorites was about the time I lost my hug. One of
- her childhood friends from New York, who went by the name Little Helen (because she was even
- tinier than my mom, which wasn’t that easy to be), came to visit when I was about three. She was
- getting hugs from everybody, but when it came to my turn, I was too shy to hug a stranger. She
- jokingly asked, “Where’s my hug?” My eyes got big and I told her, “I lost it.” For the whole week she
- was there, I pretended I was still looking for it. Luckily for her I found it on her last day!
- Despite these attempts to cheer her up, I could tell my mom was really upset. Finally she told me
- that she’d read a draft of a tell-all book that Diana had coming out soon. Diana had got Stu to write
- the foreword without him reading the manuscript. My mom was so upset because, unbeknownst to
- Stu, he had endorsed a book that trashed his own family. She was trying desperately to cheer herself
- up, thinking of the reunion she was about to have with her sisters in California. I was thinking, Diana,
- what have you done?
- In September, I went to Australia to promote a tour for a fellow named Andrew McManus who had a
- new wrestling outfit called WWA. He asked me to help put them on the map by playing a non-
- wrestling role as their figurehead Commissioner. I enjoyed helping out the smaller promotions
- whenever I could, as a way of giving back to the business that’d given me so much. It did give me the
- opportunity to visit Australia, though; I’d never been there before, and I was having a great time.
- My concussion was finally beginning to clear, though I still wasn’t allowed to lift weights or do any
- other form of exercise. On September 12, 2001, in Australia I’d just done a live night-time talk show
- with a host named Rove and was thrilled with how it had gone. I headed back to my hotel room and
- met some of the wrestlers from the tour in the elevator. They told me somebody had flown an
- airplane into one of the towers of the World Trade Center. When I got to my room I watched in
- horror, with the rest of the world, as the second plane hit. I stared at the TV all night with a deep
- sadness that heaped itself on the pain and hurt I already carried around.
- I loved New York. She’d been good to me. I always thought of the New York skyline as a beautiful girl
- smiling at me. Now she had broken teeth; they’d really done a job on her. It was still hard for me to
- imagine a horror and sorrow beyond Owen, and I wondered what he’d have thought. I thought of
- home and how devastated my mom would be watching this on TV. She and Stu still remembered the
- impact of Pearl Harbor, and how out of that catastrophe and the war that followed, they met and
- fell in love on a beach on Long Island, New York.
- Being in Australia made it all so surreal, as if it wasn’t surreal enough already. I was stranded in
- Melbourne until there were flights to take me back to North America. I remember walking over to
- the Melbourne Aquarium, where I watched sharks and stingrays float over my head in giant glass
- tanks.
- I couldn’t help thinking that if anything ever happened to me, I’d still want it known that I wouldn’t
- change anything about my life. A voice in my head kept telling me to live and live and live.
- When I finally got back to Calgary, a week late, I learned that my poor mom had been delayed at LAX
- for an entire day because of the heightened security, and that her diabetes medicine had been in her
- checked luggage. The way I see it, Osama bin Laden also caused my mother’s death. After getting
- home exhausted, she collapsed into a coma that she never really came out of. Poor Stu was
- distraught over not calling an ambulance for my mother as soon as she got sick. I don’t think he ever
- got over that. He had been too weak and disabled to pick her frail body up from the floor.
- Diana’s book came out at the same time. The opening paragraph described Davey drugging and
- sodomizing her, and it went downhill from there. Diana told ridiculous stories about there being a
- wrestling alligator in the basement, about her friendship with André The Giant and her stardom in
- the WWF. She even ripped into close family friends such as Ed Whalen, saying he was no good at his
- job and stole Stu’s thunder. When Diana hit the talk shows promoting her book, even the affable
- Mike Bullard, who referred to me as a Canadian hero, treated her with sarcasm. When I realized how
- truly clueless Diana was about the way people were reacting, I actually felt sorry for her. I’d later
- hear that Diana was misled by the woman who actually wrote the book, and embroidered Diana’s
- stories. Was I to assume that Diana was not even capable of reading her own book to approve its
- release?
- Meanwhile in the ICU, my mom’s baby sister, my aunt Diana, told my sister she didn’t appreciate
- some of the remarks in the book. My sister snapped back at her, “My mother never even liked you!”
- Meanwhile, thirty feet away, my poor mom lingered on.
- For days, the doctors pulled every trick in the book to bring her back to life. She suffered
- immeasurably with IV tubes in her arms and a respirator tube down her throat. She finally came out
- of it just enough to breathe on her own, barely. Too weak to talk, she could only squeeze my hand.
- One time she came around enough to faintly whisper, “How’s Coombs?”
- I knew she had to be hating all this, and was surely cursing the doctors for keeping her alive. At
- three-thirty in the morning of November 4, 2001, with Stu holding her hand, she slipped away and
- found the peace she so long deserved. At that very moment I was lying awake in bed. I said out loud,
- “I’m so sorry, Mom, that the light grew so dim at the end.” I felt a soft breeze sweep over me and I
- just knew it was my mom saying good-bye.
- Only weeks after Ed Whalen gave a heartfelt eulogy at my mom’s funeral, he also passed away.
- In January 2002, Tie Domi came to town for a game and we headed up to Hart house to visit my dad.
- Tie was a compact man with a head that looked like it was chiseled out of granite; he was generally
- regarded as the toughest guy in hockey. I called Stu to let him know we were coming, and when we
- got there, he was waiting for us all alone in his spot at the head of the dining-room table. Tie was
- dressed in a nice, neat suit. As we approached, Stu turned, stared at him and said, “You got an
- interesting head on ya.” We all burst out laughing. If anybody had seen a lot of strange heads, it was
- Stu.
- A few minutes later, Stu had Tie bent back over the table, trying to show him how he could pull
- another player in close and stick his chin into the guy’s eye socket and trip him backwards on the ice.
- Stu had Tie half twisted up with cat hair all over his nice slacks. After about an hour, I finally got Tie
- out of there. He told me later that the move Stu showed him would probably work in a hockey fight,
- if he dared take a chance on it.
- On February 27, Carlo called me wanting me to do a trade-off: If I’d referee at Wrestlemania XVIII,
- Vince would give me some pictures to use for this book. This was only the latest in a constant stream
- of attempts to get me back on Vince’s TV shows. It was damage control; in the end, even guys who’d
- left on the worst possible terms always went back to Vince. I did want a truce with Vince, but I also
- wanted a public apology, one that Carlo told me I’d never get. I thought of my nephews, Harry and
- Ted, and even T.J. Wilson, who all dreamed about someday wrestling in the big time. I didn’t want
- my animosity toward Vince to jeopardize everything they dreamed of, but I had no intention of
- showing up at Wrestlemania as a referee. I told Carlo all I really wanted was a meeting with Vince to
- clear the air between us.
- The following day Carlo and Bruce Allen got me on a conference call and did their best to bully me
- into believing that it would be in my best interest to referee at Wrestlemania. They set up a meeting
- in New York City a few days later, but when I was packing to leave, Carlo called to say that if I wasn’t
- going to agree to do Wrestlemania I shouldn’t bother to show up—I’d only be wasting his and
- Vince’s time. I asked him to tell me if he truly thought that refereeing at Wrestlemania was the right
- thing for me to do. He thought he had the hook in my lip as he went on about how this would be
- fantastic for me. Now I knew he was nothing but a company man. I refused.
- On May 18 that year, the Grim Reaper of wrestling took Davey. He was vacationing in Invermere,
- British Columbia, with Andrea and died in his sleep of a heart attack at the age of thirty-nine. Andrea
- was Davey’s girl at the end, even though she and Bruce were still married.
- There were two funerals for Davey. Diana called to ask me to give a eulogy at the one she organized
- and I agreed, but first I attended the service Andrea put together. Poor Andrea was crying hard, and
- I was glad I made it there for her. I saw some of the old Stampede crew, including Ben Bassarab, who
- was one of Davey’s closest mates, and his new wife, who was also very nice. But Bad News, Gerry
- Morrow and Gamma Singh snubbed me. They were all down and out, working security jobs
- together: None of them even talked to me. What did I ever do to them? I asked myself, and then I
- knew—I didn’t go broke.
- Diana timed her memorial service for Davey for May 29, the same day the WWF was in town. Vince,
- Hogan and others came. Ellie, who spoke just before me, ripped into poor Andrea with a vengeance.
- Wrong place, wrong time, awkward silence. Eventually one of the funeral home staff eased her away
- from the podium. I rose to clean up her mess and to give Davey a fitting send-off, which left both
- Harry and his baby sister Georgia smiling with tears in their eyes. I loved Davey like a brother. His
- biggest mistake was letting bad people influence his innocent heart. I spoke of how I remembered
- him best as that shy, handsome kid with the big dimples.
- I’m sorry, Bax, I thought, I should have been there for ya.
- When I arrived at Hart house after the service, I was simmering with a lot of pent-up emotion. It was
- extremely hot in the kitchen. When I asked my dad how he felt, he told me he was tired and he
- didn’t feel up to going to the WWF show. But then Ellie came in, and I could tell by the way he
- pursed his lips that she was dragging him down to the show.
- I told Ellie, “He’s tired. Clearly, he doesn’t want to go. Look at him.”
- She snapped that Vince had invited him, like that was more important than his health.
- In a flash, we had broken into a vicious yelling match, where I ripped into her for embarrassing the
- whole family at Davey’s funeral. “We were supposed to pay our respects, not take shots,” I said.
- Soon my sister Georgia and Ellie’s eldest daughter, Jenny, took up for Ellie and while I was arguing
- with them, Ellie dragged Stu down the steps and zoomed off.
- I felt terrible about the fight, realizing that the stress of everything was getting to me. Harry, now a
- strapping six-foot-five with Davey’s dimples, came up to me then, thanked me for my words at the
- funeral.
- I was carrying around anger, torment, regret and grief like a big bag of heavy rocks.
- I’d been asked to dress like Mordecai Richler’s character The Hooded Fang and deliver a monologue
- from his children’s book, Jacob Two-Two and the Hooded Fang, on a CBC special celebrating Richler’s
- life. On Thursday, June 20, I brought Julie to Montreal with me for the show. I was happy to be part
- of a cast including Richard Dreyfuss, Montreal Canadiens legend Jean Beliveau and several
- prominent stage and literary notables, but I’d let myself get really worried about how I’d do. I still
- had a thick, fuzzy head and concentration problems, and this show was live to tape. I studied the
- script for weeks.
- I slipped a black wrestling mask over my head. When I looked in the mirror, it seemed like I was
- living my dream of working a crowd as my childhood cartoon wrestling character The Cool Cool
- Killer—or close enough anyway. Despite a last-second glitch with my mic as I walked on stage, I
- carried the role off. Halfway through my monologue I pulled off my mask and got a pleasant pop of
- recognition from the crowd. I bowed, and my smile was a dead giveaway of how proud I was of
- myself. Maybe my concussion was finally behind me.
- Afterwards, I got slaps on the back from Dreyfuss and Beliveau. To top off the evening, I had a
- terrific time wining and dining Julie in old Montreal.
- I had heard that he was supposed to do the stunt with the same Mexican midget they paraded out
- as me after Montreal scissored between his legs, and was shocked when the cops confirmed it. The
- midget had only been nixed that afternoon. The officers calmly explained that Owen had been alive
- after he hit the ring and that he lay there for eight minutes with a severed aorta, his lungs filling with
- blood until he drowned. He had tried to sit up, to reassure the fans, but he couldn’t. The impact
- when he hit the ring smashed almost all the heavy wooden ring planks and loosened all the ropes
- like they were rubber bands.
- We were also told that criminal charges weren’t likely to be laid but hadn’t been ruled out.
- Afterwards, the Robbs took us to Kemper Arena. As we headed up to the catwalk, Ed Pipella noticed
- a creepy insurance adjuster tagging along with us. When Ed quizzed him about who he was and what
- he was doing there, it turned into an ugly scuffle until security dragged the adjuster off.
- It was a long climb to the top of the building. I wanted to get to the exact spot where Owen had
- fallen and started up a steep ladder to the catwalk. My stomach was queasy as I thought of a line
- from The English Patient, “If I gave you my life would you drop it?” Then it was a long, nerve-
- wracking walk along the catwalk to the score clock—and this was with the lights on. I could just
- imagine Owen having to race all the way up here as fast as he could in the dark, dressed in bulky
- coveralls, with a baseball cap pulled down to hide his face from the fans. Climbing over the railing of
- the catwalk must have been a terrifying moment. Standing next to the score clock, I looked out to
- where he would have hung. I pictured him fidgeting with his cape, breathing hard from the sprint up
- and then—ping—the sailboat clip holding his full weight released prematurely: the deep breaths he
- was taking would have provided more than the eight pounds of pressure the clip was designed to
- take. The riggers happened to be looking away at that moment, and when they turned back they
- were aghast to see that he was already falling, clawing at the air with his hands. I looked down and a
- chill went up my back wondering how in hell he let himself get talked into this. If Montreal never
- happened, I thought, and I had still been in the WWF, I would’ve stopped this from ever happening
- to Owen!
- By the time I got home, I was even more distraught and wildly confused. Owen had been so straight
- and so good, whereas I had always broken the rules, always been a bad boy, drinking, doing drugs
- and cheating on my wife. Why would God take the best one? Owen once said, “You can be a good
- person and do everything right and it doesn’t guarantee you anything.” Since his death, the Harts
- were forming into backstabbing cliques of their own, with Ellie and Diana fiercely demanding that
- Martha and my parents settle with Vince immediately, extolling the head of the WWF as some kind
- of saint who loved all the Harts.
- Not surprisingly, a desperate Bruce, with his wrestling school and the broken-down vestiges of the
- Stampede Wrestling promotion, was looking for Vince to fund him in some way. Smith was talking
- about suing Vince because, he claimed, he and Owen were going to open a wrestling school
- together. Owen wouldn’t have opened up a lemonade stand with Smith! Every time I encountered
- them at Hart house, Ellie and Diana demanded that I fill them in on the details of the lawsuit, yet
- every time I tried to make Martha’s case, it turned into a shouting match, which only upset my
- parents and the grandkids. If Martha could’ve been a little kinder to them, instead of propping me
- up to take the heat, she might have avoided a lot of heartache, for herself and everyone else. But
- really, this whole thing should have had nothing to do with the other Hart siblings, or me.
- In one of her many curt phone messages, Ellie implored me: “I’ve got the right to feed my family,
- and my dealings with Vince McMahon don’t have anything to do with you, and nothing to do with
- Owen’s death. Not everyone wants you to be their spokesperson.” Ellie and Diana soon had Vince
- convinced that I was the driving force behind Martha’s lawsuit. After Owen died, we had reached a
- delicate détente about my archive of matches for the WWF, which Vince totally controlled, and he
- had been on the verge of agreeing that I could have access to them. Now the WWF’s in-house law-
- yer told my lawyer, Gord Kirke, that Vince simply had no recollection of any conversation with me on
- the subject. Vince now saw me as the enemy and seemed determined to make me suffer, as if I
- hadn’t suffered enough.
- Eric asked me to fly down and meet him in Chicago on June 25 to talk about where I was at. It was
- still nearly impossible for me even to think about getting back into the ring, but as the days passed, I
- realized that it wasn’t right for me or my fans to let Owen’s tragic death be the end of my career.
- Eric had been incredibly kind after Owen’s death, telling me to take all the time I needed, and I
- didn’t want to leave him in the lurch either.
- At our meeting, Hulk was friendly and told me that he was anxious to finally work with me in the fall
- that year. Eric talked about putting the World title on me, but he understood that I wasn’t ready to
- commit to anything yet and that I still needed time to heal physically and emotionally. Both of them
- listened empathetically as I told them about the problems in the Hart family since Owen’s death and
- that Vince had offered jobs to both Jim and Davey, in effect bribing Ellie and Diana to be on his side
- against Owen’s widow. Eric kindly said if it would help the situation, he’d hire Jim back and told me
- to have Jim give him a call. I left, shaking both their hands, content to show up at the Georgia Dome
- on July 5 for an in-ring interview on Nitro. Eric told me I could say anything I wanted wrestling fans
- around the world to hear. For the next ten days I thought about it almost all the time. I really didn’t
- know what I’d say. Maybe it would be good-bye.
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- “WATCH THE KICK!”
- WHEN I WALKED INTO THE DRESSING ROOM at the Georgia Dome, the boys rose from their chairs,
- one after another, to offer heartfelt condolences. In that moment, as in too many others, I felt more
- support and unity from my wrestling brothers than from my blood siblings. It meant so much to me
- when Randy Savage gave me a hug, with tears in his eyes. “Brother, I’m so sorry.” Jim Duggan put his
- hand on my shoulder. “Sorry man!” (Hacksaw had beaten the cancer and was now back at work,
- minus his right kidney.)
- Before I knew it, I was caught up trading Owen stories with Randy, Hacksaw, Crush and Brian
- Knobbs. I felt safe being back with the men who truly understood this life. These were my brothers
- from other mothers.
- Suddenly, I was called out to do my interview. My terrible WCW entrance music rumbled and the
- crowd cheered as I made my way up the aisle, still having no idea what I was going to say! This was
- going to be a shot from the heart. Without even thinking about it, that day I left The Hitman behind
- and for the first time came out to the ring as Bret Hart, as real as real can be. No Hitman shades,
- leather jacket, ring gear, hair gel—not even the strut and the attitude. I did all I could not to break
- down as twenty-five thousand fans grew still for me, and for Owen.
- And so, I learned at the same time as the fans did what was in my heart and on my mind. I told them
- what Owen meant to me and that I was at a crossroads in my life and I just didn’t know if I’d ever be
- back. “I’m gonna take some time, put things in perspective, but if I never get the chance to ever say
- it again, I just want to thank all my fans everywhere that I ever had and still have. You’ve been with
- me from the very start and if this is the last chance I ever get to talk to all my fans all over the world,
- thank you very, very much. I wanna thank all the wrestlers in dressing rooms all over the world, it
- was a pleasure to work with each and every one of you. I hope I wasn’t too stiff!”
- I returned home to find another phone message from Ellie: “I want to know what’s going on with the
- lawsuit. I want to find out what options Mom and Dad have. If you want to go through with this five
- or six years down the road, even two years, it’s taking its toll on Dad and we need to discuss this. It’s
- not the only way to go. Enlighten me a bit. Di and me haven’t done anything yet. We’ve got a bad
- rap. No more stress on Dad.”
- What was I to make of that?
- When I called my mom, she said, “I just wake up every day and try to live with it all day long all over
- again.” Stu was never the same after Owen died. My mom wept, a few weeks later, when I confided
- to her that I’d been talking to Senator Harry Hayes’s office in Ottawa and that they were in the
- process of nominating Stu for the Order of Canada, the highest civilian medal of honor in the
- country, in recognition of the lifetime of charity work my dad had done.
- My mom said that I needed to remember that she and Stu were with me 100 percent, and that they
- were suing the WWF along with Martha. In an attempt to ease the family tension, Martha’s lawyers
- were trying to work out an agreement that would allocate a portion of my parents’ settlement to
- each of the remaining siblings if Stu and Helen died before the suit was settled. But Ellie, Diana and
- Bruce refused to sign any such agreement. Before long, Ellie was calling Martha’s lawyers names
- again. The idea was scrubbed and the potential truce was quickly forgotten.
- On July 27, Vince coolly stated on Off The Record: “Out of respect for Owen, I met with Bret. Bret
- carried the entire conversation. I really thought he wanted to talk about Owen. . . . It was looking
- into the eyes of a skeleton, in some respects. It seemed like he wasn’t human. It was a very weird
- experience.” Vince went on to pretty much blame me for everything related to Martha’s lawsuit. I
- was already mad that he’d reneged on his promise to give me access to my footage, but when he
- referred to me as a skeleton and to my not being human, my anger flared into real hatred. But as far
- as criminal responsibility for Owen’s death went, four days later he was in the clear. After two
- months, on July 31, then and only then did the Kansas City Police determine that there wasn’t
- enough evidence for criminal charges against Vince.
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