==CLOTHES==
forgotten tomb shirt or another metal shirt
ideally black jeans (see jack rourke), otherwise either blue jeans or gray/camo cargo pants
black converse (for sure, especially due to its alt relevance)
black carhartt jacket
C:\Users\Halagini\Pictures\phone\creepin\amanda\outfit\amanda outfit.png

of note is that she clearly sees the value of all black considering the fact i saw her with a gothic aesthetic 10 hours ago as of typing

==REMEMBER==
red creep showed no signs of interest until i did
amanda probably won't ever make it as obvious unless she follows my lead with eye contact
http://archive.is/hC2hG
"A shy girl won't just flirt with anyone, so you can be sure she is interested in you if you see that she tries to flirt back. She may flirt back by making more frequent eye contact"

==THE FOUNDATION HAS BEEN LAID==
by going for red creep that day, you set the foundation for doing it
see retrospectives of real shit
get it into your head that this can happen and you will be doing it, because i've seemed to forget that this will actually be happening
she's special and a rarity now, that's the only way to describe her
amanda is ~18 and i will be doing everything i can to enter a relationship with her
this is reality
refer to 12-6-19 entry
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all of this will become a reality if you work to get it, if you do it then it's reality and you have full control up until she says yes/no
footjobs are real life, they are sex life, what i felt before is real, they are real and you have the power to make it real
but only if you work towards it
how easy or how hard it is depends on you
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===================PLAN DRAFT===================
i should be bold to contrast with her shy submissiveness
(this applies to any female)

-part minus 1-  (DONE, I'VE ENCOUNTERED HER ENOUGH TIMES POSITIVELY)
make friendly eye contact in a prior encounter before doing anything related to getting her number
make eye contact for 1-2 seconds
attempt smile (genuine happiness can lead to this)

-part 0-
remember that it's easy as fuck, when i went for red creep it wasn't really that hard, it was mostly external factors
shave day before
ensure cash is in wallet
shave non-lazily on correct day, possibly twice
remember henry with blonde girl - dominant with submissive
remember that red creep happened because i saw an opportunity and i took it

-part 1-
enter store and notice if she's at front register, if she is say hi briefly while smiling
if she's moving clothing racks but near the front entrance, still say hi while walking past
notice how crowded the store is while remaining logical - she will probably be extremely embarrassed if i ask for her number in front of people, so it would by far be best to do it when neither employees or other customers are within hearing range

-part 2-
get some shit worth ~$5 - not too much though or it'll take longer to ring me up
be very loose, casual, and smiley - i was feeling like this when i saw her on 9-13-19 and 12-6-19
go find some shit and once nobody's at the front i can go up, if nobody's there she may be doing other shit which might be a good opportunity to move it since it'll definitely be empty
^ also make sure that no other employees are around to ring me up, they aren't usually anyway
make eye contact immediately once i'm getting ringed up (with a friendly aura, if i do not seem friendly i must smile - perhaps use vocal inflections to my advantage)

-part 3-
say "hey, how's your day going today" as an icebreaker because immediately cutting to below would be awkward as fuck if she doesn't hear me

<>i can think of jack shit right now<>

while she's getting the receipt, ask for number very clearly while making eye contact
ez














===================PLAN 2 DRAFT===================
halfway through when she says something that's inevitably quiet as fuck, me say "what's that you said about your boyfriend"
depending on how she responds me say "oh, no boyfriend amanda? o really?" in a confused tone then laugh while making eye contact
if she responds and says no, me say "why don't you give me your number then"
<alt dialogue> otherwise, if she doesn't comment on it me say "but do u have a bf for real"
<alt dialogue> then, if she says no me say "can i get your number then"
<alt dialogue> gg ez me afk















===NOTES===
-i have absolutely nothing to lose
-i have no social obligations of any kind
-there is a chance she could say yes
-do something INTERESTING
-if rejected, her skin tone might not be up to snuff and the opportunities for other ethnically superior arrive
also a reminder i could get her number at almost any time i desire, i already almost did with red creep which was a significant stepping alone
new girl new goal

LISTEN TO FAR AWAY FOR MOTIVATION - YOU KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT MOTHERFUCKER
retrospective of 7-12-19.txt
remember all of my dreams involving females




-she listens to alt rock
remember when i wanted a girl who listened to alt rock to the point that i thought of ~30 year old women who did and accepted that this would likely never happen
guess what happened
-her voice is higher pitched than most girls
comparing it to many women on csgo, i've tried to add the audio files into her reminisicent to compare voices and they never match up; hers is always higher than all of the girls i've gone through so far
attractive women are correlated with their voices and strongly prefer masculine men, which equals submissive personalities (as if it wasn't obvious considering the fact that she is the least formidable human on the planet)
i tried to match amandas pitch with csgo girl 3 and went up to 16% and it was STILL lower
it's obvious that she is extremely submissive
-she has an hourglass figure which is entirely visible
high estrogen and high testosterone are designed to be combined, you know this
-she fulfills a 2006 neo-gothic emo new england aesthetic
-imagine her and myself in bull maroon
-she's a rare og canadian breed
-her name means 'worthy of love' and/or "deserving to be loved" in latin - a sign from god (hence why He pushed red creep away from me)
she was magically present after red creep left which was the only thing to cheer me up in a very long time
non-disgusting alt girls practically no longer exist since 2008, and yet i never got one when i was younger - and here she is, in the present
-she might be able to pull off red hair, look at pink pigmentation - compare it to christy
there's no way to verify, she could also pull off highlights
-imagine how her quiet demeanor will contrast against someones hostility
-imagine her massaging my hand like shannon
-i can imagine her petite fingers gently touching me - that is to say, i feel it and her presence
-she will touch my head
-she will walk around the house in pants barefoot
she will totally do this but you can't even comprehend it, think joann
-she will provide footjobs
-she will take off her socks upon entering home if i ask: https://invidio.us/watch?v=dNSi5P817c8     (3:45)
-piercings, converse without socks, bracelets, anklets, chokers, raven colored hair, form fitting parkas, cat ears, etc.
she can do almost anything shown in female specimens
-burnout 3 becomes reality
canadian burnout 3
-i would have loved her during age 3 to age 14
if i showed myself a pic back then saying "this is your first gf" i would chimp out
-imagine her on snowy roads
-imagine her near pc with gothic foliage - it's reality, not only does the time not matter but now IS the perfect time - she is the perfect passage to experiencing what i never did
-imagine being in manhattan and holding her hand while i wear my forgotten tomb shirt, and the guy in the red metal shirt gets takes notice and stares
-imagine driving into manhattan from the bronx in the morning with her while listening to ride (nfsu)
-imagine driving home from the bronx at sunrise with windows down while listening to ruling me
-imagine me taking a piss in bathroom while she lays on my bed, then i come back to my room and climb into bed and snuggle
-imagine her inside zs_stormier or a l4d beta setting












-imagine her listening to hand of blood
-imagine her listening to tears don't fall
-imagine her listening to one
-imagine her listening to sleep
-imagine her listening to ride (nfsu)
-imagine her listening to rightside of the bed
-imagine her listening to memory
-imagine her listening to dead living
-imagine her listening to collapse
-imagine her listening to mxpx
-imagine her listening to my curse
-imagine her listening to adrift
-imagine her listening to world so cold
-imagine her listening to raver's fantasy
-imagine her listening to digging a hole
-imagine her listening to https://invidio.us/watch?v=kFRC6r-BBag
-imagine her listening to dirty little secret

it's easy to imagine nostalgia in this way

consider how many guys are too scared to get straight to the point with a girl, masquerading as their friend because they're too scared of girls both judging them and rejecting them for coming on too strong
realize the advantages you have over other men

consider my significant mood boost document - when discussing hs, consider that she is perfect and fulfills the idealistic shit i never had (that my father did) - i can still have it

consider the fact that she's shy and effeminate - confident and masculine actions are foreign to her, she doesn't do them and so it provides great contrast between you and her
she's just a girl, that's probably her best trait - she's just female and normal by all biological standards, no fucking around

remember how much i desired touches from female teachers - imagine a girl simply walking up to where you're sitting then freely touching you
i can imagine her petite fingers gently touching me - that is to say, i feel it and her presence
it's reality

looking at lix vivens feet/hands i can imagine amandas feet/hands when considering her hand texture and nail shape
i imagine them as being really good, i am content with what i imagined for once
https://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=2104971372








-EXTERNAL IDEA-
thought of this in shower but i could have my father call me to play deathbox on my phone
explain to him in detail that i'm going to get a girls number while wearing my forgotten tomb shirt that clearly indicates my music tastes, while her style of dress also indicates her music tastes (which are similar)
by having him call me so my ringtone plays, it shows her my taste in music and thus something we have in common

"so listen, i'm going to get this girls number right now, i'm at the place and i have a quick plan"
"her name is amanda and she's working at the register right now and will be there all day"
"see, by the way she dresses it's extremely obvious she listens to a certain style of music - as much black clothing as her uniform allows, piercings on her face, her hair, black nail polish, and other shit"
"the way she dresses is called alternative and is indicative of her taste in music and other media, so i'm wearing my forgotten tomb shirt which is black and has words in a distinctive visual style that's only used in metal which tells anyone familiar with it this is what i listen to"
"i got the idea to do this some time ago when a completely unrelated girl at walmart who also dressed alternative was staring at my forgotten tomb shirt clearly intrigued, doing the same with this girl is indicative that we have something in common already"
"i also want her to hear my ringtone so she is more intrigued by my taste in music"
"so what i want is for you to call me in about 2 minutes from now while i'm in the store, i'll confirm whether or not i'm with amanda yet and have you call me again when i am"
"when i'm at the desk, if you call me then we will have a very brief conversation not on speaker where you fixed my mothers rear bumper while i confirm i'm at the desk by saying 'yeah i got it'"

SECOND PHONE CALL:
Hal: "hey"
Dad: "yeah listen i fixed her bumper"
Hal: "alright good, i'm a little busy now though"
Dad: "are you with her?"
Hal: "yeah alright, i'll see you in a bit"
Dad: "ok bye"
Hal: "bye"








-SECOND IDEA: MULTIPLE CONVERSATIONS-
i may need to have multiple conversations with her, for others girls i wouldn't give a shit obviously but she is quiet as fuck and may need to open up to me
this is easy if someone pops up behind me which means that it's off the table anyway


-FIRST DATE-
after i get her number i obviously need to come up with something - ideally it's something private

what that thing will be is going for coffee at dunkin donuts (due to a lack of starbucks)
i buy everything obviously

it's easy, neutral, and provides a quick getaway unlike dinner which is more restraining if things go south