[10:48pm] zoofman: you seem to get really nervous about something going terribly wrong or depressed and then bam
[10:48pm] zoofman: you're totally prepared and pumped for it
[10:48pm] zoofman: or something
[10:48pm] Mons: Well, yes and no
[10:49pm] Mons: More that with some effort I can work myself up to being optimistic about things, but that state is REALLY REALLY flimsy, and I can't be given any room to second-guess or doubt anything instead of just chugging along
[10:50pm] Mons: Which is at cross purposes with the fact that I constantly seem to want to be contrary about everything, even with myself, completely without provocation or seemingly any reason for thinking what I do
[10:51pm] zoofman: I tend to think I have a really great idea, get really excited to implement it
[10:51pm] zoofman: and then all my players fall asleep midsession
[10:51pm] zoofman: cause I suck
[10:51pm] Kain: I'm curious how players perceive my gming
[10:52pm] zoofman: you two have a very eerily similar mindset for it
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[10:54pm] Kain: you think? Most of the time I'm not as stressed as I seem to be
[10:54pm] Kain: I'm just a very
[10:54pm] Kain: input centric gm
[10:54pm] Kain: I tend to ask what ____ thought of ____
[10:55pm] zoofman: I meant more in
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[10:55pm] zoofman: extremely vocal about the game, almost expecting constant chatter, very open about the administration of it
[10:55pm] Mons: Well no, I see where zoof is coming from, I just tend to set a course for things and fumble when that course has a hiccup midsession
[10:55pm] Mons: and when I plan things discretely... well, they keep messing each other up
[10:55pm] Kain: for the fifth time zoof
[10:56pm] Kain: I was -joking- about the chatter
[10:56pm] zoofman: I'm
[10:56pm] zoofman: not being negative
[10:56pm] zoofman: it's just very different from how I got into this stuff w/ Paradox
[10:56pm] Kain: I didn't say you were?
[10:56pm] zoofman: he is -very- quiet and recluse about these matters
[10:56pm] Kain: Not today anyway
[10:57pm] Mons: well yeah because dox isn't as constant of a presence for one, and much more confident in himself
[10:57pm] zoofman: I'm not entirely sure of that
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[10:57pm] zoofman: it's evident he feels he made mistakes but doesn't really bring it up
[10:57pm] Melanie: And also it seems like his plots have very little information being given out ot characters.
[10:57pm] zoofman: I'm not sure if I prefer that
[10:57pm] Melanie: >feels he made mistakes
[10:57pm] zoofman: he's mentioned
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[10:57pm] zoofman: several times he has a lot of gripes about how asteri has gone
[10:57pm] Melanie: heehee I'm going to trade my soul to the ghost girl
[10:58pm] zoofman: his general premise, how the plot's been handled
[10:58pm] Melanie: He mentioned a few times how caught off guard he was by that.
[10:58pm] Mons: Yeah but then he just recently bounced back and has no problem juggling it
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[10:59pm] zoofman: my point is he isn't very
[10:59pm] Mons: Though also note that by his own admission, the very core of how he approaches things is way different from how I do
[10:59pm] zoofman: vocal or open about stuff
[10:59pm] Mons: He feels very free changing really big stuff even on the fly
[10:59pm] zoofman: and he sometimes regrets it too
[11:00pm] zoofman: I recall he was disapointed w/ himself for chucking out half his plans for EO cause he felt he botched a lot of things by just winging it
[11:00pm] Mons: yeah but he rolls with it instead of just completely crashing when things simply don't work