Hey, kupo/whoever I share this with. You might be wondering just right now why I still haven't dropped the issue with me vs. TBT, but I'll just say that this isn't really a hostile post, and I guess I've begun to gain clear ground with TBT, but I'm still dreading the past that was wasted because of some vile decisions made on both sides. Anyway, I'll just start just that; this is just a post to jog your memory of what has obviously been trashed.

Let's dwell back in the past, a time way before The Battle Tower, a time before all the activity, all the success, all the members and even all the hate/flaming etc. You know; before the meat of the community you have today.

~May of 2011

kupo started a server, because he was testing, if I recall. He invited me to it to help him out, as well as Kody [Simply Complex]. After playing around with it, I decided to flourish on and get a couple more people come /hang out/ with us there, because that's what we were doing, really. After some time, we actually had an average of about 8 members coming each day, and kupo kept the server up through the day and took it down during the night. This seemed extremely like a breakthrough to myself, so I found this free-forum software called 'InvisionFree.' I started up the forum, and that's where it all began.

The Three Leaders; kupo, the host of the server, Cloud, the host of the forums and Kody, the scripter for the server.

Then we entered a period where we had trouble with auth, as all new servers should have at some point or another. We cleared that out, and we dropped the IF forums, and entered the period of zetaboards, which is when rhino took over. We didn't like what he was doing and how vindictive he was, so I came up with the idea to move servers, and then I suggested we change our names so rhino would not be suspicious or find us, etc. That's when we entered the period of TBT

~June of 2011

Zetaboards Mach 2; the time period in which I hosted the new forums, the forums we use today, but I'll get that later. The three Owners, Kody kupo and I, were keeping things together very well; I kept together the auth with kupo, kupo hosted, I ran the forums and kody would script when we needed something. The activity rose to about 20 members a day, and the forums were becoming swell.

Then me.

In about mid August, I started feeling a lack of respect, and that's exactly what I was getting. This is where the climax of my story is, and where I started feeling the most dejection. Nobody on the server respect me when I talked or gave my part of a discussion, the other auth didn't like the choices I made that kupo actually agreed with and were the choices that would better the server in the future. I never really made a mistake, except in the banner, and I would get yelled at for it, yet I would still fix it. And then Kody started to overshadow me because of his extreme promise and skill with HTML; he was the new banner maker.

So, while I was still Owner, I was still getting hate for whatever reason.

Then it happened; I was broke. I made a post and I shut down the forums for like, an hour, just trying to get my word out about my fury at being disrespected, even for everything I had done in the past, and allow me to list;

-Created our first forum; we started to get popular after I did this
-Had the idea to move servers; we had total control after this
-Had the idea to change our names after moving servers; rhino never found us and our regular members knew who we are, so we still had activity
-Created the new forums; we finally started the league and everything else that started our blooming popularity

Yet...I was still demoted from the server because I was too hot-headed. Ok, I had made some mistakes in the past, but so had people like Kody, and I'm not targeting him, but he never got any reprimand, and he was never even questioned for any demotion or anything because kupo and he are best friends. I guess I'm all right with that since he's the scripter, but there was no second guess for me. It was *snap* demotion.

Then the falling action in my demotion from MY forums. I made one simple, very silly mistake of demoting everyone we had agreed on demoting so fast, and I SERIOUSLY apologise for this, because I recognize that it was a fatal mistake, but you didn't all have to gang up on me because of it; I make one mistake and I get bandwagon'd for it.

You guys don't understand how much of my feelings and emotions you shot with everything you did, because I put so much of my time and hard work in developing the forums and things for the server, and I guess rhino does a better job, but he even came to me recently and asked me to take over because he doesn't like you guys and guess what?

He
has
the
same
mutual
feeling
I
did

He doesn't like that people are targetting him for what he's supposed to do! Do you get this? I'll just make it perfectly clear; WE DO/I DID WHAT WE ARE/WERE SUPPOSED TO DO, AND THE MEMBERBASE IS/WAS BLAMED/BLAMING US FOR IT.

That's the key point I wanted to make known. Just...you guys really shot most of the emotions and feelings I had for TBT, because of all the time and effort I put it in.

I am in no way asking for anything...just know that you killed a part of me, because I love you guys, I put my work in because I wanted the community to blossom, and the community is blossoming BECAUSE I did the work.

It's because of me, and I'm not being self-centered when I say that, because if it wasn't,I wouldn't say it. It's because of the forums, it's because of whatever I suggested in terms of server staff to get it fixed when it was congested, it was because I was able to get kupo to finally realize it's his server and what he says goes.

The community shunned what brought it to life.

I'm not targeting anyone.
I'm not asking for anything.
Just know that you killed me.

~Cloud, one of the original three, the one that still loves you guys, but is also the one that is dead inside