One day I found some posts on the internet about teenagers having sex, and I was once again
reminded of the life I had been denied. I felt that no girl would ever want to have sex with me… And I
developed extreme feelings of envy, hatred, and anger towards anyone who has a sex life. I saw them as
the enemy. I felt condemned to live a life of lonely celibacy while other boys were allowed to experience
the pleasures of sex, all because girls didn’t want me. I felt inferior and undesirable. This time, however,
I couldn’t just stand by and accept such an injustice anymore. I refused to continue hiding away from the
world and forgetting about all the insults it dealt to me.

I began to have fantasies of becoming very powerful and stopping everyone from having sex. I
wanted to take their sex away from them, just like they took it away from me. I saw sex as an evil and
barbaric act, all because I was unable to have it. This was the major turning point. My anger made me
stronger inside. This was when I formed my ideas that sex should be outlawed. It is the only way to
make the world a fair and just place. If I can’t have it, I will destroy it. That’s the conclusion I came to,
right then and there