AmanugaiToday at 12:39 AM
- Self-hypnosis: Had a discussion with Save about how I felt about the whole Nicki’s server thing.  It’s only partially that I pity Nicki and the people of her server.  I’ve long heard how it was a shithole in a lot of ways.  It’s more that I’m worried because it makes me question the character of those who did it, because they're capable of doing that kind of thing to a discord server, regardless of their feelings.  I hope I can get a proper explanation.  I don’t want them to be seen as callous or wantonly destructive or selectively un-empathic for no reason.  And if they are, I hope they recognize their faults and change or have some more consideration.  I know them to an extent, I know they are capable of dark humor, I know they are capable of being neglectful at the worst of times.  I don’t want them to be worse, I want things to be better.  Asides from that I wrote to myself “I will pay back my caloric debt” as a promise to myself and that was the last thing I handled with Save before heading up
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I know I'm pretty much an outsider to all this, so I can only judge and feel based off a very limited understanding and what I've seen.  Sorry if I made any rash judgements, I don't mean to and am not trying to

TytoToday at 12:45 AM
Could you elaborate a bit?

AmanugaiToday at 12:47 AM
It's my empathy firing off.  I wouldn't want what you guys did to Nicki's server happening to my server, kind of thing.  Unless there were actual attacks or some real messed up shit (which I don't know about) I'm not sure I would ever really do what you guys did to that server.  I'm in a sense complicit because I did nothing, but I guess I never expected for it to go that far.  I felt my stomach tightening up and really just avoided mentioning it to Luna when she messaged me out of the blue (she didn't mention it either).  I hold no real love for her and couldn't really give no shits but I don't think I'd go out of my way to mess with her asides from the times she reaches out to me for whatever.
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I have a lack of information since I was not involved in that server, asides from snippets from TB and Luci and you over time.  Maybe there were some deep-seated grudges or reasons I'm not seeing here.  In a sense I'm hoping for a proper explanation
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I don't want to think of you, T.B. and Luci as people who would do that just for amusement
Even in a sleep-deprived state

TytoToday at 12:53 AM
Well it's hard to give my side without coming off as biased, so I do apologize. But it's mostly for me because they actively exposed nsfw content to minors (connor was even going after 16 year olds in america which is literal pedophelia) which is why I said to go after the NSFW channels and delete them to minimize that amount of damage. They do the usual sob story thing without actually feeling sorry for themselves, and they've antagonized me in the past for trying to push nicki away from that crowd as I wanted what's best for her. When now I just don't really see nicki as a good person anymore. I was happy with just nicki's room, and the NSFW channels being deleted, and sorta stopped after that as you saw from my leaving the server. Why Luci and TB persisted is I guess your question to ask them, but yeah
And the whole disconnecting from vc was for fun, but there wasn't any lasting damage there :man_shrugging:

AmanugaiToday at 1:02 AM
Thank you for your response and I do appreciate you giving your best un-biased as possible response about this.  I did note your departure and the reasoning is sound.  I had my concerns but they are pretty much allayed with your explanation.   I will still be asking TB and Luci about it and letting them know my feelings about it.  I'm not exactly overflowing with pity for the whole thing; my concerns are mostly based around my own server and you three after all, just wanted to make sure I understood.