I'm not doing anything revolutionary. I don't run anything popular. I'm not going for WR. I'm not known to be an expert in one series. I run a large variety of games not just from one series. I'm not known for running one particular game. I run the less popular games in more popular series most of the time, or the more popular games in a not so popular series. I'm bad at engaging people, making jokes, telling stories. I just react to chat and when chat makes conversation with themselves sometimes I just ignore it and play the game and then everything is silent for a while. I'm bad at trying to give commentary when I'm tired or not feeling well because all my mind wants to do is just focus on the game. I don't have 3DS capture and most of the games I ran on DS and 3DS got more viewers than what I run before I had the viewers I have now. I have a million people tell me I deserve partner when a lot of those people won't even bother to watch my stream most of the time or do anything to help me get there. I'm not someone that people will tell others about because I'm boring, uninteresting, and I don't do anything interesting. This is why my stream has stagnated in growth for the last 2 years, pretty much since my 3DS capture card broke at SGDQ 2015. This is why I freak out about my stream all the time on my alt. This is why I won't get partner...

...But I'm applying for partner today and hoping for the best because I'm not streaming for the first time in the last 7 days. I've streamed 19 out of the last 30 days and I'm going to try not to have too many breaks and keep pushing myself to stream more often. Because at least I can push myself to improve even if my stream growth won't. I'm also fully prepared for when I inevitably get rejected, just like I'm fully prepared for on the very minuscule chance I get accepted.

If anyone has any tips for growing your stream I'm all ears. I've been trying to for so long, but nothing works for me, and I've tried a lot of options. Streaming is something I care really deeply, maybe way too much, about. I love streaming. It probably saved my life at the point when I started. It's lead to so many great friendships and relationships that I never would have otherwise had with anyone else in my entire life probably. I'm beyond grateful for anyone who even comes by and watches for even a second because I never thought I'd get to this point where people gave a shit about me and what I do. I just want something to show for all of that. Something to prove to the world that this wasn't all just a waste of time. All I ever fucking talk about these days is streaming it seems, so I'm sorry if I keep annoying anyone with my constant bitching and chatter about it.